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The fact I was highly skilled at mathematics (above anyone else in my whole middle school) and during High School they made me hate it and feel like I was becoming retarded and completely undeserving to live is just horrible.
As an autistic person I have the ability to attract and -to some extent- to elicit anti-social, narcissistic and generally speaking Dark Triad traits. So I am a catalyst for those people.
I remember the degree of constant belittling and gaslighting I had to endure and it's just insane, back then I was unable to understand what was going on: those were ADULT PEOPLE exercising violence over a child, it's unbelievable when I think about it again. (they knew my parents would never defend me and so they took advantage of that and had me become some sort of scapegoat; when a caring and decent teacher came into the picture and tried to undo the damage it was too late, I was in severe autistic burnout with strong depressive and anxiety symptoms, an immense level of test-anxiety and I transiently lost most of my abilities and was experiencing some levels of derealization and panic attacks too).
There's nothing here!