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I don't have any friends. None. 51yrs old 2 teenagers still at home and work nights at a supermarket. I'm undecided if I thoroughly enjoy my own company or I've just got used to it over time. The love of my life and I broke up 30years ago. I had 2 relationships since him but they were not him, ive been single for 17years this year.
I would like to meet someone but it's been so long I can't imagine how that would look. My kids have never seen me with a man. The youngest are 17 this year (twins). I'm not a sad person but I'm definitely not a naturally happy (excited) personality. Ironically the people I work with always comment on how I'm always bubbly and full of smiles I am. I carry alot of hurt from my X and 3 or 4 friends that I've lost over time. It's not a hurt that surfaces every day, week or month. I just resigned to the fact that I'm alone. I moved to Melbourne in 2013. My previous life was full. Drug addict, my home was the place to be. I maintained a normal life whilst partying every night. It was fun and loved it. But I wanted more for my children so I literally moved overnight and stopped the drugs and boozing (I still like an occasional drink) I went into healthcare and raised my children. 2 have moved out. I'm close to 1 but I think of all I have given up so they had a healthy home.... only to be left alone once they moved out. My twins will eventually move out and I'll be me and my 2 dogs. Maybe it's an age thing but starting to question life alot lately.
There's nothing here!