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This week I realized that I was so used to saying and thinking "cishet men are trash" (I'm trans) and agreeing with my non-cishet friends when they said it, and justifying anyone who said it that I internalized it. I was feeling hopeless because due to bad experiences I believed that all cishet men that I encountered would see me as a woman and therefore, a prey. Which made me hold onto a friend who was exactly like that, because I believed that if I wanted to ever keep any non-queer male friendship I'd have to get used to that.
And this made me frustrated, and that frustration grew to the point I was started to feel disgusted about men in general. But luckily I realized this and thought "oh, but I'm a guy myself. I don't wanna have beef with myself like that" so I allowed myself to vent about the times I've been hurt by other men and validate those feelings and still recognize that there is, in fact, hope and that being a man isn't a bad thing. And that should be obvious but apparently it wasn't that obvious for me anymore, and now I feel better with myself and I cut off the friend that I mentioned.
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