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This is my 3rd month on SSRIs and I feel good. I feel like I can finally take control of my life. It sucks that it took so long for me to admit that I had a problem and even longer to seek help for it. I can handle my problems better and express my ideas better.
I was scared cause I wanted to handle it on my own and because of that I missed and lost so many opportunities and chances and sometimes, I want to chew my own leg off cause of it. If I'm being honest, a lot of people do not fuck with me because of the way I was before but I try to keep a brave face and move forward in spite of it. It kind of sucks that I really have screwed myself in like 20 different ways socially and some people who I really admire dont want anything to do with me. But I accept what I've done and what I will do and how there is no point feeling guilty because it wont make things better. I think I'll get a cool tattoo to commemorate that but I'm not really sure were I should get it. I want to say maybe on my bicep or the side of my ribs. I dont want it to be anywhere too visible but I'd just like the ability to look at it as a reminder.
Part of me is scared to get a tattoo because I have some weird hang ups around purity and I dont want to "taint" my body. It isn't spiritual or anything but I dont know. Thats kind of why I am kind of scared to get piercings either. But something tells me that if I did do it, after a while I wouldnt really care and it would become like nothing to me. I don't know.
Thank you for listening to my TED TALK.
Comment by EFIW1560 at 17/01/2025 at 14:01 UTC
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Your body is yours. Who are you keeping it untainted for? Why does claiming your right to your own body feel like tainting it? Does your body not belong to you? If not, then who?
I'm not asking to get an answer for me, those answers are for you.