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View submission: I think my boyfriend laced me
Something very similar to this happened to me with a boyfriend many years ago. At the time I was 19, my boyfriend was 36. I didn't understand until many years later how much of a problem and red flag that age gap is, really any age gap over 4 years when the younger is under 30. He INSISTED he had taken my clothes off to shower me because I had blacked out and thrown up on myself and that I started getting angry and aggressive with him in my blackout state when he was trying to get me back dressed and put me to bed and that's why I had bruises and was naked and why he left. I think I just wanted to believe him because I desperately wanted any reason not to believe the alternative. And so I accepted it, took him back, moved on, even apologized for my behavior, and didn't smoke weed again for years- to this day it brings flashbacks when I do sometimes and gives me crazy anxiety. But I always knew deep down it wasn't the truth, and, once I finally went through what I had to go through to get the strength to leave that situation, I have always, always regretted not going to the police right away for a rape kit and blood test and getting that man at least a little bit of justice for what he did to me and, I'm sure, many other young women- or, at the very least, having that information then to give me the clarity to leave that relationship before it got any worse. Because, it did- much, much worse, and the deeper in you are, the harder it is to get away, and the more scars you have to live with from it after.
I would suggest doing what I wish I had done then, and going to get tested and finding out for sure, and filing charges if you're up for it if that is proven to be the case. But whatever you do, please be safe, be careful, be kind to yourself, and leave that situation as soon as you can. Even if you don't think that's what this is, a guy having a "heated argument" about refusing to wear condoms is a HUGE problem. Take it from someone who's been in your position. Don't make the same mistakes I did, get out now before he hurts you any more.
There's nothing here!