I Can Smoke Weed Again!

I was an off-and-on cannabis user from my mid teens through my early 30s. But then something changed. I couldn't smoke without becoming paranoid, jumpy, and emotionally distraught. It's possibly noteworthy that I was also well into a decade+ of severe untreated depression by then. So I quit. My body and psychology are obviously saying "don't do this", so I wasn't gonna do it. I tried a few times between 2013 and 2023, but I always had the same terrible experience.

I've noticed some changes in my psychology since my brush with death and attendant heart surgery. Sometime in the last month I started wondering. "Hey, I've noticed changes in myself. I wonder if I can smoke weed again?" I tried, and I didn't turn into a basketcase. It had all the positive effects that I used to get from smoking. Plus, I was able to go to sleep and sleep like a baby afterward. I've always had sleep issues, and cannabis used to help. Now it does again! I'm very careful about how much I use. I take one or two hits, and I'm good to go.

I'm really not sure what my problem was, but I'm glad that it apparently went away.