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If you feel a connection to the gods or practices of an initiatic religious or spiritual tradition (i.e. a "closed system" along initiation-based lines), then the only reasonable option you have is to explore what that connection might be properly under a teacher or initiator of good repute and good training. Talk with them, do divination with them, see what there might be for you, if anything at all, but don't try to just overlook them and surpass them. Trying to jailbreak a system makes a mockery of it, insults the people who did the work under it, and puts you yourself at risk in all sorts of ways, not least because the system might not actually be something you should be involved in. You might just need to be a layperson and enjoy things from a non-initiated point, perhaps just for the time being, perhaps forever; you might just have a past life connection instead of one in this life, and that's where that connection ends (and ended), being born to do something else this time around. And those are fine! But you are owed nothing from any given tradition or its tradents, elders, and initiators until you have earned it from them, and if that requires you to initiate into such a tradition, then all that you can do is to go through the proper channels with the proper respect to do so. Anything less is appropriation and theft, if not outright blasphemy and transgression of spiritual protocols.
Sure, there are plenty of systems where this sort of setup isn't the case, but that doesn't mean that there aren't those where it is or that any such system can be transformed into one that isn't. If the rules of that system say you can't do X until you do Y, then that's what the system is, and you aren't anyone to argue with the tradition itself; the tradition has been getting along fine for a good long while without you and, frankly, isn't interested in the opinions of someone who isn't in it, hasn't done the work to join it, hasn't gone through the training to learn about it properly, and hasn't even understood it in its own words.
"Living traditions" means living teachers; those are our sources of authority in such a context, not books from Lady Whiteblossom Moonboom's Corner Occult Shoppe with a lineage or authenticity you cannot verify or validate. Dead and non-living traditions can sometimes be more amenable to DIY approaches—but even then, only sometimes. When it comes to living traditions, especially those that have their own initiates with their own protocols and pacts with spirits, it's those initiates that get priority and focus in such a tradition, especially from those spirits. Like, consider: given the choice between someone who's not involved in a tradition and has no formal connection to it and someone who does, who do you think a spirit operating in such a context would choose first to do something? 99 times out of 100, it's not gonna be the non-involved person, and you're still almost certainly not going to be that exceptional case.
Even in "closed traditions", rarely is it outright forbidden for people to pray to, venerate, worship, commemorate, etc. some god or entity in at least simple or small ways, but there are often things that aren't allowed to a noninitiated person like sacrifices, intense workings, callings-down, etc. Personal devotions are often just that—personal—but anything that involves other people, much less anything that involves the passing on of special license or the engaging with particular forces in an intimate way is more than just that. For example, in a Catholic church, anyone nowadays can show up for Mass, but only the baptized can partake in the Eucharist, and only the trained/initiated priest can consecrate it. There are levels of closedness or initiation that must be respected in a good many traditions.
And sure, there is sometimes a political issue among we meatsuits "down here", as well as notions of representing yourself as part of a tradition (lit. "something handed down from one person to another") that you don't belong to by claiming something you aren't or don't actually have. More crucially, however, "you can't give what you don't have"; you can't lay hands on someone in a Christian apostolic sense if you haven't had hands laid on you, you can't give an orisha you have not received. You can't initiate someone into something you aren't in.