Mh, I think I have a reasonable idea of what you're trying to explain, although I consider somebody's "core personality", roughly, the mathematical mean of everything they experience, not only their parents (otherwise people wouldn't argue with them, potentially leaving their families altogether :P)

That said, I would personally define my "core personality" more like the direct result of my beliefs, philosophy and whatnot (how I got there is probably the aforementioned mathematical mean).

Yes, the above is indeed "constructed" (and potentially interchangeable), but as I said I need something to put my feet onto, to attach myself with reality.

The "first mask", my "internal identity" is needed to have a "social interaction" with myself you could say, hence why I can't get rid of it without losing that "relationship", which in turn is also a point of reference for me.

You could also say that I got too emotionally attached to my "main personality" which, in a way, brings me back to the argument I'm having with ~detritus (and which I'll answer soon too) :D

That's subjective though; I'm sure that freeing oneself of every point of reference and challenging the core concepts of society (and in a way reality itself) is fun indeed, but I don't find the need for something like this, at least right now.

I like to have fun (and certainly I like overstimulating myself with weird music and crazy games) but a lot of stuff does not play nice with my brain, like alcohol or stimulants stronger than a good espresso :)

(I have no idea how some people drink like 3 energy drinks a day)

Talking about espressos, ~bartender, could I please have one? The usual way. Thanks!

So, in short, I think I might be too weak/simple/plain/emotional/whatever to be able to enjoy or even just withstand such a huge tear in my perception like you're describing, which BTW sounds like a very, very interesting point of view.

I really appreciate discussing this and being mindful about such a concept will do it for "me", thanks :)

*sips coffee*

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~inquiry wrote:

> Mh,

Oh, wow... I'd completely forgotten how much I once loved "mhmail"!

> You could also say that I got too emotionally attached
> to my "main personality" which, in a way, brings me back
> to the argument I'm having with ~detritus (and which I'll
> answer soon too) :D

I've really enjoyed interacting with detritus!

> I really appreciate discussing this and being mindful
> about such a concept will do it for "me", thanks :)

It's been fun. Toodles!