question: are you afraid of death?
9 hours ago 路 馃憤 userfxnet
In a way, yes. In a way, no. Whatever my fear may be of death, my fear of slowly withering away into something unrecognizable is equal if not greater. For all the good death would deprive me of, it would deprive me of equal if not greater pain. Regardless, however, death is a certainty. It will be my turn someday. I can only hope I possess the spiritual fortitude to face it with some semblance of dignity. 路 50 minutes ago
@goodboyjojo jep, that are my thoughts too, but i have plans for that...for sure i willl not die as an old man in his bed. I'll go off with a clap, listening to beethoven, slayer, a bunch of whiskey and for hell, all drugs i can get ;) on my sterbebett i won't be sober. 路 3 hours ago
@userfxnet in my dreams, they're always there, i call it the otherworld... i have met a jaguar during a ayahuasca ceremony and the medicine man told me that's impressive while it is the most powerful spirit... 路 3 hours ago
no, not really. its more of how im going to die that scares me 路 4 hours ago
@bavarianbarbarian you've never 'lost' them. they're around you, always. 路 6 hours ago
@breakfast_champion i feel you, in my younger ages, i had no understanding about that. my first funeral was in the age of 5 years, my grand died fron cancer, i didn't even geht that in that age... but growing older and older... jep, it's a part of living... and death is playing a bad game with me, i should have died so many times...but that goddamn bastard is afraid to take me with him.... my curse is to live forever and loosing all my beloved behind me ;( 路 8 hours ago
On an instinctive level, probably. You never really know until death is on your doorstep. We drift through life as in a dream, with death a fiction. The actual appearance death on the timeline is a big shock. People say they've never felt so awake after a diagnosis. But for me now? Honestly, as time goes on I feel more at peace with the idea of death. When I was younger I couldn't understand how people could become "tired of life". Now I understand. That being said, during a recent health scare I wasn't so philsophical. I was panicked. I expect I'll be white knuckling it into the abyss, like everybody else. I might as well start screaming now. 路 8 hours ago
i had a near dead experience, it was really peacefull, no fear, nothing. just a quite calm... everything was fine... looking forward to meet my ancestors. playing chess with my grandpa in the woods, surrounded with my beloved pets.... 路 9 hours ago
tl;dr whatever it is, I know I'll be with my loved ones, and at the bottom line I can at least remember that energy never dies. That's the most I can make of it at this time. Peace to you, bavbarb. 路 9 hours ago
this is the most transparent I'll be about something like this, with somewhere like here: That's not something I wanna think about. That said, I have my own philosophies about whether or not what we experience 'here' ceases to exist.
Who are 'we' exactly? Does that get stripped? If energy is ceaseless, and my consciousness is a matter of energy, then regardless of whether or not my awareness remains do 'I' remain aware of 'myself' whatever that means in that moment? I'm not sure if any of that makes sense right now. I'm not sure if any of that WILL make sense by then. I also recognize, that isn't for me to make sense of. 路 9 hours ago