i found that while i absolutely love learning i absolutely lothe studying, and that they are two very different things.
congrats on your autism! welcome to the club c: it can be scary at first but also kind of relieving, knowing that you are not broken, just different.
I was a gifted child for a long time but as i hit 16 or so my grades started to drastically drop, i don't think it was bad parenting or anything, but the school system being horrible for neurodivergent children.
Sometimes, pictures of the dark are just as beautiful.