~bartender, Some tea please, anything you got... Thank you.
Around 2am right now, so... good "morning" ehehe...
Anyways, It's raining a bit ...actually, a lot. It's raining a lot.
My siblings' schools have cancelled classes or moved to online classes, but so far I'll still have to attend physically, and honestly I don't mind that as much, it's pretty relaxing to get out early for lectures, even if traffic during weather conditions like these is usually not the best...
Half-way through Ramadan, fasting is as always: tough on the first week or so until your body gets adjusted to it, and I don't eat much to begin with so not a lot of drastic changes to my nutrition. I did have a terrible headache for a couple days though so that kinda bummed me down and most likely why I messed up my calculus midterm, but I got over it after a while, since it seems on par with my level last semester, and I was content with how well that went, probably paranoid for no reason.
Okay here's something a little less optimistic.
I'm going to be entirely honest, I don't feel like I exist as much.
I have tried to prove my thoughts otherwise but to no avail, I don't quite feel anything. The will to do isn't here, nor is the will to not do it. My own mind doesn't believe itself, so I try to seek the proof from someone else. No one responds. Is feeling the bare minimum of life that difficult?
Still, love for others what you'd love for yourself. I still haven't forgotten how to be a decent individual and I will try keep that in mind.
On a more positive note (I am good at transitions, thank you so much), the sky also looked quite nice this evening, didn't expect nice some scenery after winter was gone, but it rained today and left some pretty sights.
I'm no photographer, this is just taken with a mid-range android, and I'm no camera expert.
My attempts don't gather attention from anyone or even "friends", but despite everything I am proud with how things turned out. They give me some kind of feeling, not sure what it is but I feel less empty which is a good thing.
You certainly seem to exist to me, and you're making and sharing a life. The gap I often find is between what I thought life was supposed to be, and what it actually is.
Hang in there ✌️
Cool photo! It's got the vibes of something you might see if you hold your eyes open as long as you can until they start going dry.
Good morning!
That picture is actually quite nice. And I keep saying that we miss many or most of such "magic moments".
~bartender? Just coffee for me, cream and sugar, please. It's quite early in the morning still.
