29.1.2024

Today is my second consecutive day of experiencing diarrhoea after drinking (specialty) coffee, kopi, and similar drinks.

Wretched creature that I am, who will save me from my own self-destructive addictions and lusts?

But thanks be to God, who daily forbears with us, and pours out his love upon my wretched, miserable existence! How great God is!

26.1.2024

today I went to a beach.

there are entire worlds of which I know nothing.

23.01.2024

I had fun today without consuming any alcohol. went to a social event, titled "Freegan Book Club". there was delicious *kueh*, gratis.

18th of January, 2024 Anno Domini

It's been 5.5 years since I started spending heavily on coffee and various kinds of

alcoholic drinks, like whisky. How much have I spent, in total? O, goodness gracious me.

the bartenders and baristas smile at me, but I know few of them, if any, will support

me if I suffer from a soul-crushing illness of the mind or body.

maybe there was a time when coffee, whisky, bartenders and baristas were useful to me, for my goals at that point in life.

have my goals changed, and are the afore-mentioned still useful to me in striving towards my goals?

these people are dangerous, and so are these beverages. they have great capability to harm me. can I afford to be careless?