To me the whole identity thing seems rather "a rose by any other name"-ish, as though trying to qualify who/what you are matters relative to just plain being here and now.
I mean, that doesn't mean others don't think a rose necessarily smells differently if called - i.e. given a specific conceptual symbol - differently. But that's their problem/issue.
Just be, and help others do the same by educating them on how little - if at all - any conceptual modeling matters to the core/underlying reality.
Just being there feels... wrong, I guess.
I want to have a purpose, I want to mean something. Anything.
And I've been searching for that for quite some time.