I need to stop reading news related to covid-19. It looks like my state, Louisiana, while it's not the worst of the worst, it's not great either. And people just don't wear masks -- I see them out and about and they're just having their regular time. I'm jealous of them, I guess, and they make me immensely sad and a little angry. I'm worried about my parents. I'm worried about my wife's. Two of my coworkers are self-isolating pending tests. I am waiting for someone I know and love to get sick and die.
And still I'm at work. I just don't want to put myself at risk. No one should be out right now. I don't know if we're going to go back to phase 1 again, I doubt it. I don't know where to put what I'm feeling. I just have to sit with it I suppose.