Strange. I have been miserable for months. Badly at the start of 2023. Still 1/3 of that.
Oddly, I get a perception that my neighbors are equally as miserable.
No reason for them to NOT be. They're loners/no one's, like me, and I am scurrying down to Farmington Missouri in June, bless, so I won't have this disposition. Rehab (alcohol) ma happen in that time, too. Overdue.
But man, I always feel "brought up" (encouraged, cheered up) around others I see, and then the neighbors to either side, they seem MORE miserable than me.
Can't describe it
Either way. Sobriety has to happen. I've been sick as a dog for four+ months, and I seriously have no qualms/hesitation on going, I just have to do so in Farmington.
Anyway, hope all are well. Until later..
tffb
Hey, man. Maybe you could chat with our friend pr1ba over at that table. He was celebrating 50 days sober last week. Maybe you can support each other. I don't know what that feels or entails, so I'm not sure I'd be great help.
I'm rooting for you, though. For your needs and accomplishments!
For kicks and experimental giggles try meeting every thought to imbibe with the thought that it isn't something you do.
Again.
And again.
And again....