I'm a little curious as to how one goes from being an anarchist to serving as one of the state's enforcers, but only a little. It's your story; you can tell it in your own time.
well, my mode of thinking matured I guess as time went by and I let go of that ideology all together. Just like you, I realized that anarchism is improbable and disastrous for the masses in the long run. You are devoid of personal responsibility, of the many things that make people unique is devoid in an anarchistic "nation". I out grew this notion because I realized also whether we like it or not government HAD its purpose, now government is the public tyrant but regardless, we need government to a limiting reach.
I then went to college and all that but all I wanted to do was become a cop and I did and I loved it. I am 52 now, a few years ago I went to school and learned to code and became a web developer. Throughout the years politics have left me disillusioned and disgusted so now I just live day to day, building sites for any client who wants me for their designer and the rest of life goes on, I am happy now more so than I was back when.