Thank you!
Mental/emotional health has been a bit on the funky side of late. I want to say I'm increasingly distressed balancing a razor's edge over an abyss of indiscriminate - yet sufficient - reason for panic. I think I called it something like "seems like no matter what I'm doing, I should be doing something else" elsewhere in Midnight Pub.
So, like... should I have been typing the above? An anonymous voice within tells me I should have been working instead. But I can guarantee you a similar voice would have insisted I be doing this were I working instead....
And of *course* the only solution coming to mind is absence of mind.... ;-)
seems like no matter what I'm doing, I should be doing something else
That's hitting the nail on the head. With a pneumatic hammer, too. The push-pull between ambition and self-judgement, and knowing in the middle that I'm driving both those buses headlong into each other, and no one but me truly cares that I'm doing it, or if I decide not to.
Absence of mind, maybe needs some absinthe of mind. Dammit now I'm getting the other pair of voices, the ones called "It's 5 oclock somewhere" and "Judgement? What Judgement?"