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                                 A Poetry tDrop

                                  by Wetdryvac
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Survivor
February 23, 1992

I am a survivor
I say this without pride
I means not that I am invulnerable
but that I am weak  �� and know my weakness

I know this
it is my strength
that I can deal with anything
good or bad
though it is my soul in flames

my mask is my armor
my body a weapon if need be
but though I am strong it is my weakness
I can never let my guard down

to love  ��
it is a heresy
an extravagance I must do without
to show myself too closely
to another
is that which I cannot face

I survive
this is all
it is a cold way to live a life
not the one,
should I have my choices,
I would choose again

to survive?
it is the only thing to which I aspire
not only to survive
but to live
knowing myself and others fully
able to lower my defenses
without a dagger in my mind

today  ��
I am alone
no comfort, no contact
no touch
as a stone, I survive  �� that is all 


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