One way of describing one possible key is finding perspective from which the alleged individual self said to be one's own - and its seeming experience - including (especially?) its conviction of being an independent, free-willed agent - is clearly as much a dream figure as all the seeming rest.
I've seen you write intricate poetry, as well as held long coherent conversations with you, where you described coding as one of your skills.
So I have to ask: this is just auto generated GPT-3 text that you're testing on us, right?