Hi zampano!
Sorry if I came off as unfriendly the other night. I had been out walking the (internet) streets and only chanced upon the Midnight Pub. Not in the best mood because of the general pandemonium I have been finding for all these years, I didn't realize that I had actually found what I had been missing.
Yes, the Buddhist approach can seem rather desolate for some. However, I find that I can take solace in it -- especially after visiting so many frivolous hangouts that serve overly complex drinks that, in the end, have no content worth consuming.
But your insights are very interesting. The vast plain ahead of you and its simple flatness without variation. I think that you can actually use this to your advantage (as you seem to be doing already). Continue your writing and what you reap will eventually not only help to give that plain contours but also be the origin of some kind of contact with the outside world. Don't worry about the "how" -- that's actually inconsequential. Think rather in terms of Newton's third law of motion, where for every action in nature there is an equal and opposite reaction.
No worries at all, and I appreciate your following up. I know how difficult things can be just in general, especially these days.
And I do resonate with some Buddhist thought, it just tends to be Zen rather than Mahayana =)
I like the Newton's law metaphor. One thing I was thinking as I was reading your message is that a vast pla(i)n(e) can potentially be fertile ground to be turned into something else. Now I just need to figure out how not to be dependent on either (prescription) stimulants or caffeine in order to see the world that way.