In my log last week I mused that I was possibly too maniac
last weekend and therefore I might pay the price. Well,
that was correct.
I can't even imagine how I thought that amount of "feeling
alive" would justify how tired I would feel during the
week. (Although, in fairness, I can't really access the
feeling of how tired I was earlier in the week --
subjective experience is an odd, ephemeral thing, indeed).
Ah. . . it is coming back to me: I got a little ill during
the week. I really no functional energy until at least
Wednesday, and by then I was just playing catch-up.
In the name of basic self control, I am going going to try
to limit my creativity time and try to get a little ahead
on the work week. Who knows, maybe doing it this way will
let me work in little bits of creativity during the week.
Since I have drawn what is otherwise the short straw of
having my plan period at the last class period of the day,
I have started a routine of going early to where people are
going to meet after work, getting the table and then
sitting down to do some writing while I wait for others to
show.
I did some writing for my next issue of the paper Zine --
nothing ready for sharing, but still good, fun progress[1].
Also, I have finished my stool and am in the process of
painting it. Before I put on my first coat of paint, I used
the stool to do some scales and other practice routines on
the keyboard. It felt like a good height for playing, and
the stool is nice and sturdy. Music might be the next
thing I work on. I am at such a rudimentary level, that I
can't call it a creative outlet, but maybe one day it can
be. Much greater souls and minds have given their lives to
it, after all. . . It's a good frontier to have left.
Well, that's probably all I can contribute to the gemini
space this week. If I can carve out more free time, it is
going to go to coats of paint for the stool, maybe more
experiments with turning regular letter paper into bendable
sticks for sculptures, but most of all catching up with my
correspondence with my pen pal from New Zealand. . . Which
also reminds me that I have a friend in Portland to check
in on.
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[1] I create much more for the feeling of creating than the
product -- on balance, at least; I can get mad at a lack of
quality, especially if I put a lot of effort, especially
uncomfortable effort, into something.
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I love to hear from people. My email is the handle minus
"net" (so, a work by Voltaire that starts with "c"), at
sdf.org.
While we're adding boiler plate: this work is hereby in the
public domain. Do what you want with it.