Vent Space

April 2022

18th

• I like Mastodon 90% of the time but constant posting about Ukraine/Russia triggers my anxiety. I end up spiraling. I still feel a bit heavy in my heart. This was supposed to be fun. But its not.
• I feel super disconnected. I've always struggling connecting with people But its getting to me now. For some reason I have a fear of dying and no one knowing, but in the grand scheme it doesn't matter. I wish I could get over it. I think deep down I wish I mattered more but I'm not particularly charismatic or likeable. I try to remind myself 'keep going for all of the fans you don't know about' but sometimes its hard.

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