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why people still try to be as monkeys as possible? they aren't reasonable: they just fucking say "i'm right" without hearing the other side, maybe they have cool points about things too. i think i hear people, since my thing was always been seeking the truth. i never think about "oh my thing is cooler" in an argument, i either try to teach something or learn something. the point is: i can't teach if people act like some random mammals trying to only get people to agree with them, either right or wrong. i say this for logical things of course: mathematics, economy, politics and so on. but even on emotional discussions: just try to get the other person's point. why is it so hard?
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i've discovered something. people just like rhythm. they dont care about melodies or harmony, they just want a stacatto rhythm or nothing. see billie eilish, she's famous because she's the girl that she is, and people still listen to them because they can just dance a bit staccato dance because it seems cool when you have these spasms while dancing. this reminds me that i hate pop music & pop music listeners. i mean, if you like michael jackson it's ok, but idk, if you listen to todays shit like cardi b, drake (just listen eminem), john mayer and justin bieber (just don't), you literally have 0 respect with me. i'm not one of that cringy guys that listen to pop music and play the guitar strumming 2 or 3 chords because i want to get the girls, i'm more the guy that does hard work to get what they want from the guitar. actually, if you just strum those natural triads (like G, C, and then D), try adding some more tasteful harmony to that, just 7th it. do some variations, try different rhythms and add some things to clarify what do you mean. just please, don't play 3 chords like they are the only that exist. ok stopping that mini rant i had, fuck i think people care only about rhythm on todays music. nobody can sing idk, some simple twinkle twinkle little star with auto tune (which is another bad on todays music) or completely out of tune (sorry if you are out of tune, i can't sing either (but at least you can sing twinkle twinkle little star in tune, right?)) but they are famous. just listen to sumina idk
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fuck i hate my neighbours, they are just fucking idiots that 1. like irritating the fucking dog, it didn't do anything to them; 2. breaking the front gate. i live in a condomiunium, and they are just annoying, not to mention the weekends when they put loud music. i mean, maybe it is ok, i don't care much. the problem is that they got annoyed on me when i play the guitar, or when my dog barks, things that i can't give up because they are special to me, definetively more than put loud music just to wash the dishes. and when i say loud, i mean LOUD. they put them in some huge sound boxes, and it is just very loud. my guitar on the other hand, cost me literally 300 reais (around 50$ not to mention the brazil taxes and things) and it is broken, the back of it is a bit open, which makes the sound less projectable, which is a thing i can't even do, i just have nails and that's it for my projection. fuck them just fuck them i hate them. i just wanted to go back to my old home, before i leave here. it was small, it had more people but at least they didn't blast things on me. oh, and i forgot to mention, when it rains here (it is/will rain here around these weeks) it's very very very annoying because i can't open the window (brazil is kinda hot tbh (not where i live but ok)) because it rains inside my bedroom, and i don't want that (this is why i have a house!). second, the street just became a lot of mud and things, and sometimes the manhole (wtf of name is that, we call it bueiro if you want to search for better translation) clogs (i don't think this is a good translation eithher) and it just smells like pure shit. well, i want my money back. please mom, take us to france soon (i need to explain this. so, my mom is dating a guy that has family on france, and he wants to get there to stabilize his life, and they're dating so we would probably go there with him too. i don't even know him, but he seems like a nice guy. he has a son, 11yo, maybe i could evangelize free software into the guy's mind. i want to go to germany maybe, or nyc (guess why? yes you guessed it.) but at least i can have a better life than here in france. i don't like french, i don't think portuguese sounds like french, but i can speak english, and it is probably what i'll end up doing there).
quick mention, i'm really hating youtube, if at least sumina was in lbry i would never join youtube again. my recommended recommends me politics things, i don't like politics, i liked it but it just began being a place to shittalk in someone you don't like. fuck it really fuck it.
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i got a nap, not really a nap because i didn't sleep, but i was thinking on the bed. hey, i forgot to mention, sumina posted a stories, about 1. she's sick (sadly); 2. she had turkish food 3. their neighbours are annoying too, they just fucking shoot fireworks at ~1am. sometimes i think about how i feel about her. i don't really know. my dad called me ~17h, he said that he'll leave my stepmother (which is a really fucking narcisist) and will go live with my cousin (not the ex-drug dealer, the one that sings). i've a somewhat friend? that lives around that area, i might go meet her personally. it has been a very very very long time that i don't talk to people that aren't my family personally. i mean, there was my cousin's (the ex-drug dealer one) friend i talked just today, but i don't even know his name, i just know that they call them "boquinha de ouro" (golden mouth). well, as i am writing this i'm eating the spaghetti from yesterday. i think that is it for now, maybe i'll go take a real nap after i finish this. i don't feel that i need to do something rn, i'm full boredom. i don't want to learn rust, i don't want to do anything really, won't game too, and oh, about yesterday, i couldn't fix the broken ps2 so i took mine to play some games. i finished just right now (yes around now, even though it was not even 30 seconds to read i think i'm here it has 30m or so) to eat, so i think i'll check sumina and then just take a quick nap.
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I've taken a real nap now. Don't regret it - now i can think about Sumina more clearly :D.
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