Having been on the smolnet for a while now, and going through yet another rough patch in life, I decided to make this gemlog.blue capsule my own little sad corner of geminispace. I publish some of my other content even in my company (subtly) to make people more aware of the little thing called gemini, and somehow this doesn't fit there. Being all honest and that.
About me, yeah what about me. I'm in my 30s, growing older, naturally. I consider myself a little genderfluid, but mostly leaning just a nudge towards being female. That places me somewhere in the bubble of lgbtq<anything>, and I go by Maria. Unless I go by a male name, obviously. Having gone through therapy for depression more and more things have piled up on me. Second kid. 40-hour job (was primary parent for 3 years). A house. And a very sad person unhappy with life. Sometimes at least. Then it gets really bad.
I started another therapy. Time-frame? 1-3 years of weekly meetings. Who knows if that helps. We'll see. Maybe I'll hand you a mail address some day, for anyone who actually reads this to reach me. Doubt that'll happen. Most internet contacts die early, a few try, ultimately I've only managed to keep 2 or 3 alive across a long time. Not for not trying. Just didn't fit, circumstances change. It's just like things are. They could be better. Most times they also could be worse.
Thanks for reading this. But I keep doing this more for me than for you (I hope).