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2018-04-21T00:12:54+10:00

I think the bullying I experienced from the beginning of primary school

right up until the end of high school was largely effective. it has

affected me in such a profound way that I am just becoming aware of how

it shaped me as a person.

I am so worried about being alienated and being excluded. I constantly

feel as if people's negative social behaviour towards me is always about

me. It almost never is. I can't take criticism at all. Any little

negative comment towards me sends me into a spiral of anxiety.

I absolutely love politics. I want to be a true revolutionary, and be a

hero and sacrifice myself for the revolution. I want to dedicate my life

to the struggle. But it is a miracle I have gotten as far as I have in

the world of real world communism.

I can't tolerate negative social interactions. I take political

criticisms as personal affronts. I am just learning the difference

between the two. I am riddled with anxiety and I feel as if I have to do

everything perfectly. It takes me half a week to recover from this.

Bullying has so perfectly neutered my self esteem and integrated me into

the prevailing forms of ideological thought. My inability to fit in has

been perfectly answered with social exclusion and emoional manipulation.

The problem with socialism is that it *does* take too many evenings, and

we brutalise each other by the way capitalism promotes competition

within the working class.

My response to this is to actually carry out what we were taught

hypocritically in catechism. I guess my only response to remedying the

trauma we exact on each other at the individual level is just to

practice agape.

We truly are dependent on each other, as Alasdair Macintyre says. I

don't care how conservative this sounds, I'm sick of what neoliberalism

has done to the social integration of the people in my country. I feel

so ashamed to talk about the things I am interested in.

My best friend, an Italian citizen, has to stop my habitual apologising

after I feel as if I have talked too much. He has noted many times how

australians are rude, uncaring, distant, uninterested in each other, in

short, atomised and pathetically indifferent to other people.

Life is too beautiful for things to go on this way. Human friendship and

kinship is too important to allow us to have it swept away.

Say NO to bullying. LOVE the people around you.