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Yesterday my boss who I love recommended that I take today & tomorrow off to recover. At our check/in I saw that 2wks ago I felt all-caps EXHAUSTED & I knew it would only get worse as we come up on the holiday concerts next week which I also need to make cookies for. Anyway I managed to see my therapist this morning, thanks to whoever cancelled last minute, & I told her about last Friday. I cried at her reaction of “so who takes care of James?” like yeah everything is so focused on the 3 members of the family who are screaming at each other that like, my feelings of terror go unnoticed. So we talked about ways I could take care of myself today, then I took a nap & did my shot & cleaned up my space. Had enough energy (from not going to work) to cook dinner like with meat on the stove, which I’ve been too exhausted to do most nights lately. Then I invited greyce over to eat together, & I found a stream of Wicked for us to watch. Bc I’ve been dying to see it & haven’t had/made time to see it in the last 2wks, & I certainly won’t have time in the next 2wks, so here we are. The audio on the stream was wack & occasionally in French or Spanish for no reason, & all the text on letters & posters were in Spanish too. So that made it funny when these big emotional moments would suddenly switch to French for one line randomly. Ok I’m headed to bed now goodnight