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24-12-09:
Told my startup that I'm quitting again. He said okay and that he's not going to try to talk me out of it. I said the reasons were more or less burnout. We settled on me taking a vacation where I'm not also coding (a proper vacation) and see a therapist. So I'm not quitting yet. I'm just so incredibly burnt out I can barely function.
24-12-05:
Proud of my advent of code solutions. I need to do work tho.
24-12-04:
Been doing advent of code but in flink sql. I've been bailing on work in a not-healthy way.
https://github.com/henneberger/advent-2024
24-11-23:
The hardest criticism I received for the bluesky tweetdeck project was that it would look good on a resume (bad) and I should post it to hackernews (also bad). It was a good distraction though and I really let it consume me, but I feel better about work now. There is something frustrating about building a piece of software that helps other people build things but never having time to build anything fun yourself.
Also, I talked to a guy at horse bar the other day and he wouldn't stop talking about ai shit. He was worried that we're running out of data to feed it. I told him I was thinking about ending my startup he immediately encouraged me to stick with it, without hearing any of my concerns. First time running into an awful tech guy in awhile.
24-11-21:
Still skipping work. For vacation I wrote an AT protocol parser for the bluesky federation protocol. I enjoyed having agency with coding again. I jammed some latent vector embedding to do semantic filtering over images and text posts. But overall conclusion: there is nothing good on bluesky and normal people don’t switch social media apps.
24-11-18:
Told my cofounder I that I want to resign. We talked about things, like how we've been unable to connect to give each other emotional support. How I tend to shut him out and over the past year hes noticing signs of depressing in me. He tried to brainstorm how we can make things better for me at the company. I do think I'm at a serious low point and I need a break before I make the full commitment in quitting so I'm taking a few days off.
Obviously I can't reveal any past suicidal intent to him, but it has been interesting in a different way. Now that I've been through it before, I can recognize this weird feeling where I know I'll have suicidal intent later and I have to proactively work against it. I've had depression and suicidal ideation most of my life but I think I've only recently deeply understood what it means to be "fighting to stay alive".
24-11-17:
We're interviewing this guy based out of France and I was on the fence and needed a day to think about it since he didn't meet all the qualifications we need. My cofounder emails the guy on a Sunday saying that he's waiting on me for a decision. This feels incredibly unprofessional. It frames me as the holdout. Honestly I might quit tomorrow.