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glimpses of tomorrow
today fades away
depression is being
completely
under bed covers
all day long
with eyes open wide but
seeing nothing
without actually being in bed
all day long.
it's a goddamn shame
i'll never be happy enough
to get done what i should have
dreams fill the empty frames
i hang on my wall
a ball at the foot of my bed
a board hanging as a shelf
in order to be useful
dreams like cotton blown in the wind
dreams like plucked dandelions
dreams like a forgotten pet
loved wholeheartedly
then laid in the ground
who will hear your dreams
if you don't tell your brother
these secrets trench deep
in arrhythmic sleep.
when our ears wane
we will lose one another;
little fortunes lay dormant
which weren't meant to keep.
i've seen better days
but i don't remember them
i've walked a short distance
over a long period of time
in someone else's shoes
happy memories as an eyepatch
killing my depth perception
i was always sad
everything in front of me is
painting
a great desire
rises from deep to my surface
like a beached whale
sitting motionless without life
in glorious technicolor
the waves are
past dreams and
splash my whale occasionally
with little success
as i stare at a better version of me
in the back car window at night
floating in front of the
canopy of stars
a me unburdened my dreams
all he has to do is be observed
when looked at
something that is hard for me but
easy for him
welcome back
it hasn't been long
oh i thought you were better
than this
but you knew you weren't
and that stopped
you
will never stray from your cave
at the edge of your reality
hoping few strangers come peek
you'll die alone and
unknown unless you try
to survive aloud
an instrument can carry you a long
way unless you're too wasted
already in your ninth year
trying harder to be heard each year
& retreating further into the cave
& playing softer than before except when
you scream
finally
you learned how
mute bones.
that's all i am.
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