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I checked my TC email this morning for the first time in at least a week (being very busy working on my forever-project recently), and sat staring stupidly for a moment at an email advertising something to do with casinos. Luckily, this wasn't sent to me personally - it was to a TC mailing list - but it still felt like a bit of a shock, Gemini still feeling like something apart from the rest of the internet, something free from all the people who would happily make your online experience worse for the 0.00001% chance you'll follow up on whatever they're hawking.
Maybe I shouldn't have been surprised, but I was, and I'm hopeful this is only a one-off event. That nobody from the garbage side of webland has yet to think about turning a crawler loose on this Gemini thing and harvesting emails. I guess we'll see.
Got some yardwork planned for the weekend, but the weather isn't cooperating. It's been raining all week, the grass feels like it's a foot high, and I need to cut it for the first time this year. The ground's still pretty wet, though, so maybe tomorrow. And then once it's cut, I need to dethatch and reseed in a few places. Again, tomorrow. Today's for taking the dogs on a long walk through a few different neighbourhoods, hitting up the garden centre, the bookstore, and some place for supper. Then the Jays/Pirates game, probably on delay. Stayed up late watching last night's game. 14 innings! Leads gained and blown several times. A walkoff home run! Baseball's amazing, dull until it isn't.
Spent a couple hours this morning sitting with a tall glass of iced coffee, doing some writing, doing some blocking. A reminder to myself that neocities has a particularly seedy underbelly, seen when someone followd me, and I checked out their site, and it's just endless hentai. I checked their activity, and that of a few followers. n-word this, n-word that. Links to image boards I've never heard of, other followers linking gab profiles. N-word this, n-word that, casual antisemitism in what seems like every other post. I can't imagine wasting my life like that.
I'm under no illusion that the internet wasn't a perfect, happy, fun place when I was growing up, but it seemed like the dark corners were further away. I'm now at the point where I'm considering moving off neocities altogether. I've written here before that I get way more people reaching out via my TC email and response posts I find via antenna than I ever get on the small web. Something to consider. Maybe I get a domain, maybe I just migrate my presence to sdf or elsewhere, put up a robots.txt, make myself a little harder to find (again).
My older self understands what it is to be a teenager and pressing outward against societal mores, but there's a way to do it without, you know, being a bad fucking person. Maybe I need to leave neocities. I just want to write my sad entries in peace.