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Last week you couldn't stop me, I dug and I planted, I built and I cut weeds. This week, you couldn't get me to move, opting instead for reading yijing commentaries and pondering over what's worth learning. Well, the week is young, so hopefully I may get some momentum going soon.
I want to think I am following the dao of my own bodily function. However, the chickens still need their house finished, the half-dug hole for the toilet compost sits there waiting to be finished so I can continue with my work. The canals I started digging also want to be finished soon, and the weeds keep growing with each passing rain.
That is just the beginning, as new ideas come which require some amount of work, too. There are also old ideas that are still waiting for me to complete them. These outbursts of energy accompanied with good ideas need, at some point, for me to input a steady stream of further energy to complete, lest they remain half-done. Hopefully, I won't be taking any more new projects and instead focus on finishing the ones underway. Meanwhile, the weeds keep growing....
What is worth learning, incidentally? I try to focus on what is relevant to my work here, either directly or indirectly, practical, theoretical, or simply "ideological" (I hate the word idea of ideology, but I'll go with that term for now), but the literature keeps stacking up on me and my usual intellectual ambition soon takes over and includes a vast curriculum of things that go well beyond the scope of what is practical to know.
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Is there a point to all this? I'll keep digging canals, setting up the chicken house, hopefully a new chicken report can be written soon enough, I first need to finish this. My back is sore from all the digging, maybe that is why I have been a rest the last few days. Still, my restlessness, along with the amount of boredom I get here on the internet (the internet has turned into a great motivator to get things done outside!), and the pressuse from every half-dug canal and half-done chicken house begs me to get up, and get things done. To what I say...
~bartender, one more cup of coffee!
Cultivating an attitude of being lived (as opposed to living by exercise of a "will") might be an en-lighten-ing addition inasmuch as our primary burden is always the idea(s) of our"selves".
In fact, should said miraculous repentance (in the "having a new mind" sense) ensue, it'll not matter what you do thereafter - for there no longer being a "you" left to care, to endure ennui, etc.
Even "time" and "space" are merely notions in support of a struggle to persist in a belief/conviction of individuality....
same here. I sometimes think "why can't I write online, be "ok" with that"? The I remember how innately lazy I was a decade ago, and also how I am reminded (continually) about how awful/miserable I become when I am bored.
I am happy to do volunteer work. Makes me happy.
and ~bartender, a coffee here too please :)