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But what if it feeling like an omen is due to seeing it as and/or assuming it is an omen, and you might have seen/assumed differently, and then that would have seemed the reality.. and so maybe the way out is to take not a single thought seriously, including this one...?
It's hard to say, because saying things implies thinking about them, which seemingly strengthens/prolongs them, which makes them seem more "a thing" than merely a thought whose seeming grip is actually one's own clinging.
My condolences on your several major difficult cards dealt.
That said, it seems that in this world, if it's not one thing, it's another, and our own things always seem bigger than others', even when we try to empathize. Like I have this ongoing mania, and I don't know that there's a more accurate term, or psycho medical diagnosis, or whatever. And it could all be "just" (my least favorite four letter English word..) imagination run wild, words fanning word flames.
The only solution I've found is to vehemently attempt to find from whence said thoughts arise. That search invariably finds *nothing*, which is oddly comforting, because I believe that suggests that what's being emitted therefrom (thoughts) must be nothing too - including the thought that seemingly makes something of them....
Does that make sense?
Maybe a good analogy to thoughts is poison ivy itch, where scratching makes it worse instead of better....?
Anyway, I've been on a bit of a crusade in the direction of less thinking - which, of course, is at odds with this here word/thought-centric activity, which makes me a little sad, because I've spent decades hoping/wishing something other than frustration would come of it. But for the most part I mostly sigh, feeling somewhere between avoided and misunderstood. This activity has, in fact, been very much a poison ivy itch for me. I guess I just need to make the big leap into being done with it altogether, using the damned computer just for practical things like banking/purchasing, and writing the occasional Lua script.
i think yeah, an omen is definintely an interpritation of the chances of reality. the logical order of events is that i somehow dropped the dice the night before and happened to find it right then, but also that's part of how the universe works to me. an omen is just random chance that coencides with life that helps you reflect on it.
i also can't really ignore this. even without the omen its plain to see how bad this is going to be for disabled folk in my country, myself very much included. its more a reflection of that and something to encorage me to look at it from different perspectives.