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Curmudgeon
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I'm a genuine, bona fide curmudgeon. I even love the word. On my
machine, "dict curmudgeon" gives the following output:
From WordNet (r) 3.0 (2006) [wn]:
curmudgeon
n 1: a crusty irascible cantankerous old person full of stubborn
ideas
That's me to a tee. Funny thing is, I've been something of a
curmudgeon for longer than I've been old. I've recently begun to
realise that it's my my curmudgeonly personality is the fire that
powers many of my most intense creative efforts. I am highly
opinionated and extremely stubborn. I'm also very
non-confrontational. An interesting mix that leads to some serious
passive aggression. Some of my most productive and weirdly enjoyable
programming sessions are prolonged instances of my Angry Programming
flow state: listening to metal and reprogramming the whole fucking
system if that's what it takes to get my way. I've lost days. It's
also strongly related to the oddly-tuned fight-or-flight reflex that
caused me to whole-heartedly dive into emacs rather than submit to the
evils of my macos work environment and to frequently entertain
fantasies of fucking off to a shack in the wilderness (which in
reality would no-doubt end with me starving to death because I'm a
serial plant killer) because modern society annoys the piss out of me
on almost every level.
Like I said, me to a tee.