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My condition has worsened again and today I experienced a colic that was bad as the one I experienced three weeks ago. My kidney feels quite heavy and nausea largely prevents me from eating.
Right now I'm somewhere between depression and frustration. Depression because I seem to be making no progress whatsoever, frustration because I had to do my own research on kidney stones and the largely-ineffective treatment recommendations. I was told to take Tamsulosion, an alpha-blocker, and Metamizol, a painkiller banned in most Western countries. Additionally I am supposed to move – and do jumps – and drink a lot, which is virtually impossible when on alpha-blockers. Metamizol and Ibuprofen ended up irritating my stomach to the point I couldn't eat properly for nearly a week, losing 3 kg in the process.
My second hospital stay largely was the result of my painkillers irritating my stomach, yet no one listened and I was put on Metamizol and something to mitigate nausea. Naturally my nausea didn't go away back then and the only way to get rid of that was by getting off my meds. Now I'm back where I started and my appointment still is two days away.
This sadly means that my birthday trip is in jeopardy. I already cancelled the BBQ I was looking forward to because I was assuming that things are improving due to me eating normally again. It turns out that the lack of professional care, which I have been seeking since the end of June, won't be granted to me until after my birthday – and even then I should consider myself lucky, as the woman on the phone stated that other specialists aren't offering any appointments before Christmas!
Even if I wanted to take my pills, the sight alone makes me anxious and I can't swallow them. While I'm free of pain right now, heartburn and nausea still are mildly present and I feel weak. I can't focus on anything properly, not even on this entry.