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Mistakes and Motivation

😠 I broke the IPS panel I was going to use for my cyberdeck

I am really annoyed at myself. I applied slightly too much pressure when removing the panel from the case it came in and then crack. To be honest, I'm demoralized about the whole project, even before the screen, which is a pretty quick "about turn" for me -- I was so excited about it just two weeks ago, wtf.

😔 Motivation

I am exhausted and I don't want to do anything. Not just work, or hobbies, but even reading. Youtube. Getting up from the sofa. I know it's a temporary thing but it's really disturbing. Like I could just sit in my armchair and watch an hour go by.

I think that it's physical and that's affecting me mentally, but I guess it could be the other way around. It's been a busy and terrible news week. It was the first week back at work for me. Some minor frustrations and reasonable actions at work irked me more than they should have done. Everything I could make or do seems pointless in the face of bigger events.

I've left Twitter again. I had a four year gap there and felt it was safe to go back as I had weeded my following list and blocked a lot of stuff and turned of retweets but some events cannot be ignored, it seems. And then when it _does_ work it seems abnormal to have people talking about tech when There Are Big Things Happening.

I am not making any big life decisions because I know that I am in a funk but I really am at the bottom of a "what am I doing with my life" hole rn. Fingers crossed that time fixes it.