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by Wetdryvac
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Part Child
August 8, 2005
the part you don ��t understand about childhood is that anything goes
you ��re meat to your family, you ��re meat to the world, and mete it is that you learn to eat
flesh beneath your skin something you ��d like to keep inside in, and hunger ��
that ��s just a flaying away of the everyday, childhood ��s end an end to meat
either in release or in retreat, face down or hunkered running from the battleground
protected or violated at someone else ��s whim, and the inside you ��d be keeping in
that ��s what you ��re taught is innocence, how everyone ��s face turns down
one kid cut ass to neck, another just outside the shack, buggered and again buggered
then like the first cut ass to neck, but from the front, to see it coming
the part you don ��t understand about childhood is that innocence kills
that you learn or die, get trained or pushed aside, or meat get eaten
and you learn too, that so many look and see innocence, want to leave it untainted
want to preserve that so-weak state and call it holy, like suicide were admirable
so you either teach yourself, force the hands of mentors, or later it ��s you
waves of flies across you body, something for others to see and look aside
say ��God, �� and say, ��The monsters, �� but bottom line, you died
recriminations use better replaced with epithet and thin steel line
the part you don ��t understand about childhood is that the heart is steady
and at five I already knew places where they butchered priests and children together
already knew that when trust came, my job was in taking measure, being sure
not on the scale of van and stranger but on the trigger, learning where little strength
would work advantage, where a 4 pound pull could be filed down to 1.2
where the clean unsighted shot would come not from the eye but of the heart
and the cut, when necessary, just happened
and I tell you childhood is a creation of parents, teaching children not to learn
of brutal world without concern, of rape and war, fear and hunger
that by the time I understood alive, I ��d given myself to preparation
sold hesitation ��s worth for concentration, to trust by fraction and on reaction
never worry about the cost, just think in terms of consequence, friend and enemy action
so now, when I see the flies, when I see that I am not beneath them ��I turn not aside
just hammer a few more bitter words on the walls of my heart
and swear to teach my children
the part about childhood that you don ��t understand is that childhood is stolen
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