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A Poetry tDrop
by Wetdryvac
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Unicycle
July 10, 1992
I almost can ��t write any more
my hand does not want to lift the distance
stretch from me to the board
bit by bit
I don ��t know what my purpose is in writing
what I write cannot mean to you what it was when mine
in any case, you changes, render to reader
I almost ask if I layer any more
that the writing is me more than voice
yet in reading
if this is me, I am terrified
closed, reticent, acting out alone
I cannot pass about writing, nor pass
exposure unmakeable
people get to know you too closely
see who you are, make meals of you
take only the best, leave only the shell
at other times I wonder
would it be worth the thousand first chance
that someone would notice
I can see only the two goods alone
feeling better about myself
and showing others knowledge of themselves
I certainly know myself
I know by indecision
I know my face in the morning
fragmented by the mirror
this too is true ��
I know I am in a depression, but not yet disease
this truth sends me shivering into sleep
disease comes, always comes
I can cope, fear withdrawing
never tell ��
never tell
what they don ��t know can ��t hurt you
I don ��t speculate on the who they are any more
they are just people, yet they, they
this must be truth
I know I laugh at my fears
taunt them
chase them screaming from me
hurl them down and kick them into submission
winning sometimes
I know that no matter winning, there they are again
some day, I fear, I will not win
and fear will become me
I may return illogical
this truth I fear more than life itself
loss of the mind
it seems each day I grow weaker, I grow stronger ��
at the same time
this �� ill of logic
my hardwired mind makes me strong
drags me down in my strength
this seems to be the truth
after this �� I can ��t write anymore
because I don ��t know when fear began writing
this is my truth
I am afraid
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