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Somewhere along the line to "me", what you refer to as "a core 'personality'" seemed as much a mask/act as any other, except for being the first.
"I" can't say "I" remember it taking place, but having watched parents and their young ones, it seems "I" is first a notion as a sort of mathematical mean between the parents' notions of who the newborn "is" (there might be others nearby who contribute, e.g. "family"). That first - and, thus, "core" - notion and slowly added auxiliary/support notions are repeated until they seemingly manifest, i.e. miraculously self-referentially takes itself seriously (i.e. as though "real"), as sort of Phoenix arriving from ashes.
The process might be called "a first assisted, but eventually self-sustaining notional practice making perfect, aka seemingly real instead of merely notional.
Paths to a so-called "enlightenment" seem to be literally a *en- *lighten* -ing" of that notion hive/collective, it becoming "lighter" in terms of seeming to be something more than merely a complicated tree (programming sense) of notions kept seemingly alive by re-petition of said notions - both by itself, and by seeming others (e.g. "Hi there, inquiry!").
In other words, what we call our "self" has been the playing of a role unlike any other that might be played but for "fate"/accident having stoked its inception/conception first. Otherwise, it's no less fake than any other possible personality: 'tis all in the practicing/re-cognizing/re-iterating/re-membering that the "core" personality seems more real.
Ack. So hard to describe....