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06152024. good morning flounder
reading "notes of a crocodile" by qiu miaojin
06132024. good morning flounder
i had a dream about JH. i texted him for the first time in years, asking to see him, and he told me to meet him at "mandarin house" in chicago. actually what he said was "pull up." then i stalked his instagram also for the first time in years and found pictures of a girlfriend. the dream didn't get to the part where i saw him. i don't know why he appeared last night! maybe because my birthday is soon, and every year since i've met him i think wow, another year older, and i'm still not the age he was when he met 18-year-old me
06122024. good morning flounder
i have no idea why things suddenly feel like this. maybe i just need more sleep. A's new schedule has him waking up at 4. this is also when the cat launches her first round of attacks on my leg
going on a trip next week
06112024. hey flounder
feeling strange
finished reading "the price of salt" now reading "in zanesville"
to work i brought:
i have been taking walks around the neighborhood nearby around 8. it is soothing. there's a nice hill where the sky kind of opens up
06102024. good morning flounder
exhausting weekend
i figured out how to limit the mess wiki makes with her food and water while i'm sleeping. so i had the food and water bowls in a tub together to catch stuff. but that got gross because i would wake up to her spilled food soaking in water. she loves to make soup! so last night i put the water bowl inside of a bigger heavier bowl, still inside of the tub. and guess what. no soup!!!!
06052024. good morning flounder
hungry
wearing a shirt over a dress over a skirt
school started
visiting my parents on saturday
and C on sunday!
06042025. hello flounder
last night was so stupid
i am realizing
06032024. good morning flounder
grateful to have a friend with whom i can get breakfast at 7am before work
06022024. hello flounder
happy sunday. i went to the new age church and made a sandwich and got a coffee and now i've just written an email. everything starts again tomorrow and i'm trying to feel focused about it but i feel more like a snowglobe shaken up
buy
06012024. good morning flounder
welcome back alioop <3
i admire you for organizing your files, i keep meaning to do this
i am taking only one class this summer, "the history of books" i'll let you know if anything cool happens. probably i will just have to read more about papyrus and the printing press
thursday night was legendary to me. i think it was normal to the people i was with but every moment was blowing my mind. here's how it ended: me breathing deeply sitting on the sidewalk outside the bar. near me a man is laid out across the bed of his truck. it takes me a moment to realize there is music playing and that it is not coming from the bar but from the truck and the music is christian pop
the person i hoped would text me afterwards has not texted me but that may honestly be a wise decision on their part because i probably shouldn't have been there at all and i would probably be an unnatural addition to their life
i can't stop listening to "donut seam" by adrianne lenker and nick hakim
reading "queer silence" by j. logan smilges. i love when people theorize about silence
i feel like i've been hungover for 2 days
sadder than expected about lack of first contact from [] i wonder if the rejection is awakening some other void. i think it extra hurts because they are famous to me and also because everything felt possible that night. grow up bluet