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From: adietrech@aol.com (A Dietrech)
Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories
Subject: Story: R&R 1/2 (TG, femdom)
Date: 3 Dec 1994 09:45:05 -0500
R & R
A fantasy, written by: Miss KarenAnne Brown
R & R...means rest and relaxation, right?
Well, not in my home, it does not. It means the utter and complete
reversal
of roles, that is what it means. So, how did this happen? I thought that
you
might ask.
Well, I will tell all, afterall, that is why you started to read this
sotry, right?
Anne and I have been married for eight years, now, with no children. I
am
glad of that, now. The last thing in the world I want, is to be a mother,
believe me. It is no picnic, just to be a housewife. I know.
I had married Anne, because, she was the epitomy of what I thought was
the
perfect female. She is pretty, with nearly white flawless skin, and long
thick dark brown hair. It is long because I insisted that women should
have
long hair, so, Anne grew it. Her eyes are dark brown, with a lovely
mysterious quality about them. I loved her dearly, and, I realize now,
that
part of that attraction was her womanliness, her femininity.
She was very docile and submissive. It never seemed to matter what I
wanted, or where I wanted to go. she just let me, and she seemed happy to
enjoy it. For example, she used to love wearing slacks. I told her that
women
should not wear slacks, so, she stopped wearing them whenever I was
around.
She gave me complete access to her body. I could touch her wherever and
whenever I wanted to. She would have orgasms, but, she would just lie in
bed,
as a completely docile female, and she seemed to enjoy it the most, when I
was the total aggressor.
All in all, we had become very happy together. She stayed at home and
made
a home for me. I earned the daily bread, and I was proud to treat her
well.
Though I was only 24 years old, I was a project manager at a local
factory,
and, we were living a pretty good life style. We even had our own cars.
Mine
was a minitruck and hers was a pink Volkswagon bug, but, she liked it.
One thing that saved me a pile of money, was that Anne made most of her
own
clothes, including some very sexy lingerie. If she went shopping for
clothes,
it was to see what styles were new, then, she would make them herself. She
had two closets full of her clothes. In fact, one of the three bedrooms in
our house is, in fact, a dressmaker's shop, for lack of a better descrip
tion.
After our second year of marriage, she asked if it would be alright for
her
to take some college classes, as she had a lot of extra time on her hands,
once the housework was done for the day. I agreed, and she studied, of all
things, design engineering, and, she got her degree. I was so proud of
her.
One of the things that had always floored me was this. It did not
matter
what kind of weather it was, or how busy she had been, when I walked in
the
door at 5:30, supper was on the table and Anne looked like something that
had
just walked out of a cataloque. She always looked so fresh and so pretty,
that she never ran the risk of getting me interested in some other woman.
Afterall, you do not go to the corner store for margerine, when there is
butter in your refrigerator, right?
As for me, I do not know how she put up with me. I was a machoman, or,
I
thought I was anyway. I knew the truth about myself, but, I often would
embarass Anne by touching her in the wrong places in public, just to show
off
how true my woman was to me. But, she took whatever I dished out, and she
just kept loving me. I often said things that would berate her, but, she
somehow seemed to understand that I had the great need to somehow try and
prove my masculinity, even if it was at her expense.
You see, I had some masculinity to prove, to. For one thing, I am only
a
half inch taller than my wife, and about 8 pounds heavier. I have also
been
blessed with a cute face. I also only shave twice a week. It is nearly
impossible for me to grow a beard. I know. I tried it.
To top it all off, I have struggled with something from deep within,
that
had started when I was very very young, and, though I have fought it every
day of my adult life, it has not left me. That, in fact, is the reason for
this story. It surfaced and got me into a lot of trouble, the trouble that
I
am in, now. Anne had never know about it as I had kept it a closely
guarded
secret. No one else knew.
Well, about eight months ago, my little Camelot came crashing down
around
my ears. Technology hand made my position at the factory, redundant. I was
laid off, allbeit with an excellent recommendation, but, still, I was let
go.
Three months and 200 resumes later, I was still unemployed, angry and
extremely frustrated. Our money ran out, and, so. out of desparation, I
had
agreed to let Anne look for work, to help supplement our unemployment
insurance benefits.
Wouldn't you know it? Anne got a job on her first interview. It was
hopeless to keep sending out the resumes, as we did not want to leave the
city we were in. Within two months, Anne got a promotion, to executive
status. I was happy for her, but, I was dissillusioned and angry to. I
began
to do the housework, take a lot of long walks, but, this old curse of my
life
surfaced again, and I had nothing to fill my time with. It became such a
strong obsesseion that, four months ago, I gave in to it once more.
It was a Tuesday. As was usual, Tuesday was the normal wash day in our
house. After Anne had left for the day, I started to do the breakfast
dishes.
It overpowered me once again. I gave in this time. Anne would not be home
till around 5:30, so, I had enough time to do it, then to get back to
normal,
and there would be no reason for Anne to find out.
With my mind filled with the hundreds of delightful memories of my
youth, I
went into our bedroom, threw off my clothes and went to the bathroom. I
shaved and then, took a scented bubble bath. It had been years since I'd
felt
my nearly hairless legs with silky water on them. I got hard, but, I
resisted
the urges.
I dried and returned to the bedroom. Anne had drawers full of ultra
feminine lingerie. She loved to tease me with it. She knew that it turned
me
on. What she did not know was that every single chance that I had gotten,
when I was still living at home, even if it was only for half an hour at a
time, I got turned on by wearing my sister's clothes. Not even my sister
knew
that I wore her things. I loved going to school on days when we were not
having gym, and looking at all the pretty girls and knowing that I too had
on
a lacey bra and a pair of panties under my school clothes. I envied them
for
being able, and expected to wear their hems at their knees, while I was
forced to wear mine at my ankles.
I selected a red satin corsolette, that laced up the front. Anne is a
small
girl, but, this was still a boned garment. I stepped into it, raised it up
to
my waist, and laced it so tightly, that I had trouble breathing, I'd seen
her
wear this often and had envied her. I stuffed panties into the half cups
and
pulled painfully at the chest flesh, and, in minutes, I looked like I had
mounds growing out, like breasts. My nearly hairless chest, looked like a
girl's.
It was painful to sit at the vanity, raise my legs in order to pull my
nylons up to snap onto the lacey garter straps of the garment. I then
fitted
a pair of three inch heeled open toed sandals onto my feet, then stood up,
relishing that lovely sensation that can only be felt when you are wearing
taut nylons.
I slid my shod feet, carefully, into the lacey leg holes of a
delightful
teddy that I wanted to wear that day. It had at least five inches of lace
trimming the leg holes and bodice. I stood back, after carefully sliding
the
shouldler straps up and over my new bust, and examined my reflection. The
lace frothed out at my hips and shoulders. It was a delightfully feminne
garment, and I loved it. I adjusted between my legs, hoping that the silky
crothch would hold me in place. Then, I tied the little blue ribbon into a
bow at my waist. The red of the corsolette looked so sexy through the
sheer
white silk garment. The lacey bodice was also trimmed with a blue ribbon
that
ended in a tiny boy at the bottom of the Vnecked bodice.
That old familiar feeling welled up from deep inside, and it
overwhelmed
me. I accepted it, and, I loved it. I looked at the reflection for a long
time, and, felt that it was somehow wrong, that someone who felt the way I
did about wearing such lovely clothing should be denied the right to, just
because I had a penis. That was the only reason. I looked like a girl. I
wanted to dresss like a girl. I felt like a girl. I longed to be a female,
but, I also liked that little six inches of maleness, that was the only
thing
left of my masculine feelings. All the rest was a woman. I was looking at
her, and she was smiling prettilly back at me, waiting for her slip and
her
dress.
Daintilly, as was natural for me, when I let "her" out of her secret
closet, I sat at the vanity again. First I spritzed some perfume on my
neck
and the backs of my legs, then, with a mischevious grin, a spritze at my
crotch. I carefully applied eyelashes and eye makeup. I had spent many
hours
practising before my sister's mirror, and I watched Anne whenever I got
the
chance to, so I was very confident in the area of making up my face.
Anne had a dress that had long chiffon sleeves, a ruffled bodice, a
wide
belt, and a full flaring skirt. I had envied her right to wear it many
many
times. Now that I had the chance, I went looking for this little dream of
feminine fancy.
It was in the other room, but, I soon had the pink dress spread out on
the
bed, waiting for it to envelope my body in its utter prettiness. Again, at
the vanity, I donned earrings, a watch, a bracelet and a pretty pearl drop
necklace. I was a "she" again, and I almost wished that I was not married
so
that I could be "her" all the time. Then, with a smile, I remembered that
I
was alone all day, and that there was no reason why I could not be a girl
all
day. It would, I knew improve my sex life. I always had a constant
erection,
even from the age of eight, from wearing panties. It had cause me some
crisis
moments, on those day that I had worn Sharon's silky drawers to school.
Carefully, I paiinted my nails a dark pink, to match my lip gloss.
I had always had a thing about silk or satin slips. So, when I did wear
dresses, I loved to wear two slips. Now was no exception. I took two white
silk slips from the middle drawer, and, seconds later, the slithery
material
was rustling to my every movement. I loved the sound. It was
so...so...feminine. That was the only word that I could think of. I was
feminine, in that sound that was being generated from my body. Both slips
had
delisciously full and effeminating skirts to swish about my nyloned
thighs.
I then raised my dream dress, up, over my head, and, holding it up, I
looked up at the insides, the view that only a girl gets, of her dresses.
Slowly, I let that pink delight descend, enveloping me in it femininity.
In a
moment, I had the near perfect fitting dress on, wrists buttoned up,
zipper
all the way up my back, and the wide belt buckled. My sister Sharon is a
very
pretty girl, but, she never had anything so pretty or delightful as this
dress that I was wearing now. I felt like I was on a pink cloud.
I spent nearly an hour watching myself practice sitting in a delicate
fashion, stooping to pick up something off the floor, and, of course,
hundreds of graceful curtseys.
At last, I tore myself away from the lovely vision in the looking
glass,
and went to the kitchen, where I donned a ruffled apron. The last thing in
the world that I wanted to do was to ruin or stain "MY" dress. I did the
breakfast dishes, then went around the house, with a loud rustling, and,
of
course, just absolutely thrilled with my completely overwhelming sense of
being a feminine person, even delighting in that constant ache in my
pantified crotch. Even that constant pain seemed, somehow, to be worth the
price of wearing such a lovely dress.
Of course, the tune "I'm the happiest girl, in the whole USA", ran
through
my head, as a constant refrain, continually reminding me that I had
totally
effeminated myself, that I had not even the excuse of being, somehow,
forced
to wear my pretty dress. I was a feminine male, and, I loved the feminine
more than the masculine.
I was a "SISSY". I admitted to myself for the first time in my life,
that I
was really, a SISSY boy, who would rather be a girl. Somehow, admitting
it,
made it seem more sensuous.
Remembering my tasks, I gathered the laundry and took it all to the
basement and proceeded to wash, dry and fold the clothes. I felt so
complete.
I hate what my girl self does to me, totally effeminating me, but, she
makes
me complete, somehow. I had such a joy, as I did womanly work, in womanly
dress.
With an armload of freshly ironed clothing, ready for Anne's closets, I
cheerfully climbed the stairs, and entered the bedroom, just as Anne was
entering it from the bathroom.
"Oh...my God...what...what the hell are you doing...God... I'm married
to a
goddamned faggot..."
"No...no...Anne, it isn't like...that at all...You don't understand...
Anne?"
"Just you shut your mouth...PANSY"
Crestfallen, I volunteered to change out of the dress. "I'll...uh...get
changed..."
"Don't bother. It's too late now to try and be a man. I can see what
you
are. I don't know how you could have kept me fooled for so long."
"You...want me...to stay dressed like this?"
"Yes, now get the hell out of here. I'm sicker now than I was when I
came
home. Get out of my sight you "FAIRY"."
I lay the pile of dresses on the bed, and retreated, fearfully. She
really did look pale, but, she obviously did not want her pantied husband
around at this moment. As soon as I closed the door behind me, I heard a
click. She had locked me out of the bedroom.
I was forced to wear my dream turned nightmare.
Not knowing what else to do, I went back to the basement, finished the
laundry, and then prepared our supper. Anne would not respond when I told
her
supper was ready. At bedtime, I quietly tried the doorknob, but, it was
still
locked. I had no access to my own clothes, so, I slept on the couch, in my
woman's clothes. Corsolettes are very sexy, but, they are terrible for
sleeping in. I was so scared of upsetting her, that I slept in what I was
wearing. I did not want her to know that I had put on other of her
clothes.
It was a horrible night.
The sound of the coffee grinder woke me in the morning. Anne came into
the
livingroom, and took a long look at her effeminated husband. I was laying
on
the couch. I blushed as I realized that my dress's skirt had worked it way
up, and, she could see the lacey hem of my teddy. Blushingly, I tugged at
my
skirts to get them to a place of modesty. She did not even say one word.
She
just stared, then left the house, without eve drinking her coffee. I could
tell that she had been crying.
Fearfully, I was certain that my happy home was going to be no more,
because, I could not control a biological urge.
I nervously disrobed. For the first time in my life, I did not have an
erection, while wearing female clothing. I was too scared of what I might
have brought onto myself. I cried nearly all morning.
When Anne came home that night, she did not even talk to me. She again,
went straight into the bedroom and locked herself in. I had never seen her
act like this. I would do anything to get her back, but, she repeatedly
refused to talk to me when I knocked at the door.
Thursday night, when she came home, it was obvious to me that she had
made
some decisions. She looked at me, beckoned for me to follow her to the
bedroom, where she took off the two peice suit that she had worn for the
day
at her office. I wondered if she wanted sex. I hoped so. I hoped that I
would
be able to get it up for her. I was curious. She then told me to undress,
which I did, as quickly as I could.
I stood nakedly, feeling very vulnerable, and foolish, and, I watched
her,
as she removed her bra and panties. She then sat, removed her nylons and
her
garterbelt. She stood, and pointed at the little pile of her discarde
clothing on the floor. She seemed, somehow, bigger than me.
"Well, you wanted them. There they are. They are yours now. Put them
on."
I was too dumbfounded to do anything, but, I was too scared of losing
Anne,
to disobey her. I did what she told me to do. I sat and began to put on
the
still warm clothing that she had just taken off.
As I dressed, Anne unpacked a large bag that she had brought home with
her.
I saw that she had pantsuits, that could have passed for men's suits, in
it.
I did not say anything, though. I just proceeded to put on her things. I
could not help but get erect. I felt humiliated and forced to effeminate
myself, and it turned me on. I hated myself for being so weak. She smiled
when she looked over at me and noted the bulge in the front of my panties.
She sat and watched me as I lowered the slip over my head, and adjusted
the
thin shoulder straps. I felt so vulnerable and exposed under her gaze. I
picked up the longsleeved silk blouse and slid it up my arms. I buttoned
the
cuffs, and reached behind me, to button up the blouse, up to my neck. I
opened up the skirt, stepped into it, and pushed my blouse and slip down
inside it, as I raised it to my hips. I closed it and buttoned it at my
left
hip, then slid up the zipper. I sat on the bed, under her watchful eye,
and
stepped into the shoes she had worn all day. I stood, and slid the jacket
up
my arms. I then placed on the jewelry that she had piled on the bed.
She stood and threw a large box at me.
"Put that on."
Nervously, I opened the box and found that it held a long page boy
style of
wig, in a dark brown, almost the identical color of my own longish hair.
I'd
never worn a wig before, so it took me a few moments to figure out what
was
what. I pulled it on and adjusted it. The hair fell to my shoulders, and
the
bangs fell to my eyebrows. It felt like real hair.
"Do your makeup, FAIRY."
I looked over at her. She was sitting in a corner wicker chair, wearing
the
jeans and the sweatshirt that I had taken off. This was the first time in
years that I had seen her in anything but knee length hems. I was shocked.
I
sensed, that, our roles were now reversed. I wasn't sure whether I liked
my
wife being manly, or, if I really wanted to live a womanly life. She was
also
wearing men's sneakers.
"Admit it, Pansy. I can see from the bulge in the front of your skirt
that
you are turned on by being a woman. You love your new clothes, don't you,
boy"chick"?"
I was so ashamed, I said nothing.
"Admit it Pansy. I want to hear you say it."
"Yes...I do, Anne."
"Well, for the first time in our marriage, you are being completely
honest."
She stared hard at me, then slowly raised herself to her feet and
walked
over to stand in front of me.
"Well, I must say this for you, you are a mnre believable looking woman
than you ever were a convincing man. You look like the kind of woman that
any
man would be happy to be married to."
She reached out and gently grasped at the bulge in my skirt. Her hand
moved
slightly, exploring the skirted shaft. I was nearly dying with passion for
this woman cum man.
"God, as a woman, you turn me on like nothing else. I find it sexy to
find
you wearing your new clothes. Now, Baby, I bought two magazines, and I
want
you to read them. I am going out to buy some cigarrettes, maybe go and
have a
beer or two. I'll be back, when I get here. You read the magazines."
She handed them to me, and left. I was amazed. That was the first
sexually
aggressive thing that she had ever done, and though she was no longer
there,
I could still feel the burning hot hand through my skirt, as it had
squeezed
and explored the shaft in my panties.
Reading the magazines, I had to stop three times, to raise my skirt and
masturbate myself. They were about pretty men, men who were forced to live
as
women, by women, and, in two of the case studies, it was a man who forced
them to live as women. They was about enforced peticoating, or
transvestism,
or, as it was also called, cross dressing.
Anne returned home, and she smelled of cigarettes and beer.
"Did you read them both, Sweetcakes?"
I just stared at her. She had gotten her beautiful long hair trimmed to
a
short bob. It was almost mannish.
"Yes, Anne..." I sputtered.
"Well, and what do you think?"
"Anne, I...uh...I just enjoy sometimes wearing girl's clothes. I don't
want
to be a woman. I don't want to be like those ...men...dominated like
that."
"Oh, quit your whining. Do you want to stay married to me, yes or no?"
"Yes...of course...you should not even need to ask that. I love you
mnre
than anyone in the world."
"Good. I intend to prove it. For once, I am going to be the chauvinist
that
you tried so desparately to be. You want to wear dresses?...No
problem...My
clothes turn you on so much?....No problem...But, since I bring home th
bacon, I call the shots. You got that, Lady?"
"What are you saying, Anne?"
"What I am saying is, I am in the husband's role, and you are in the
wife's
role. Consequently, if you want to remain married to me, then you have got
to
be the wife that I was, while I take the role of the husband that you
were.
You will look like a pretty doll when I get home from the office. You'll
have
my supper on the table. You'll wear what I tell you to wear. If I ever
catch
you wearing pants without permission, I'll beat the shit out of you, and,
if
I can't, I'll hire someone to do it for me. You got that?"
"You want me to live your life, Anne?"
"No...I want you to live the life that you made me live. If you cannot
live
as my wife, get out now."
"I...I...I will do what you say, Anne."
She came over and stood in front of me, with a maliscious smile on her
lips. Very quickly, she drew back her right hand, formed a fist and drove
it
into my solar plexus. I bent over in pain, and fell on the floor,
conscious
that my dress was up to expose my panties. I was so weak.
"You are to be submissive and docile, and pretty at all times. If you
do
not like what I say or do, that's just too bad for you. You will be a good
housewife. You will learn to make your own clothes and save me a bundle,
like
I did for you. Understood?"
"Yes, Anne..." I sobbed out painfully.
"If I am the husband, you can't very well call me Anne, now, can you?
Call
me Andy. I will call you...ummm...KarenAnne. That will suit you. A bit of
something new, and a bit of something borrowed, like my clothes, my life
and
my name, only you can't be me, so you you will be something close to it, a
KarenAnne, not an Anne. How does that sound, KA?"
"It's pretty, Andy."
S/he took my hand and helped me up. He led me to the bedroom, where I
was
directed to lay on my back. He lay on top of me, and began kissing my neck
and face, touching me all over. I could not help it. He was turning me on
sooo much. I reached for the breasts.
He slapped me hard, across the face. "A lady does not do that. She
waits
for her lover to do everything. Now, you just enjoy being made love to,
and
let me do the making of the love, alright? If you can't keep your hands to
yourself, I'll tie them to the bedposts, to make sure you act as a docile
girl. A docile wife waits for her husband to make love to her, not the
other
way around."
"Yes...Dear."
She smiled at my response and kissed the reddening cheeks.
Andy kissed me, feeling me all over,and aking me if I wanted him to
fuck
me, and make a baby inside of me. I lay, quietly with my hands over my
head.
When I heard the words, I began to cry. She laughed at me for crying like
a
SISSY, as she pushed my skirt up, and slowly worked my panties down to my
knees. I realized that she was serious. If I stayed married, I would not
be
allowed to be a man at all. I cried mnre. Though I was so turned on that I
wanted to rape her, I manged somehow to restrain myself. She slowly
lowered
herself onto me, commenting that she wished that she'd known about me long
before this. She loved having a pretty, docile wife. I lay under her,
acutely
aware that I was the woman and that I was being made love to.
"Oh...God...this is so much better than just laying there, waiting for
him
to give you something and hoping that what he gives you is enough,
but...ahhhh...you, my Pretty wife, you would rather just lay there, and be
the loved one. Don't lie to me, I know how turned on you are."
"Yes....I love it...I hate being this way, but, I love it..."
"Sure you do, you are so damned effeminate. You are one of those people
that they make jokes about, you know that?"
"Yes...ahhh...I know I am."
"Are you going to get mad and hit me with your purse if I get you
pregnant,
KarenAnne?"
I could no longer control myself. The friction caused by her movements
made
me lose it. Anne/dy had the most glorious orgasm that s/he had ever
experienced. It was obvvious that she relished the role of the man. She
loved
it, as much as I loved being her wife. The orgasm that ripped through my
body
was the most dynamic that I had ever experienced. It took me nearly twenty
minutes to get my strength back. I felt that being made love to was
obviously
superior than making love.
"Okay, Karen, you got your jollies. Now, pull up your panties, and get
me
my supper."
I rolled over, kissed her lips, then did as she told me to.
Andy went and took a shower as I made us a light lunch of tossed salad
and
tuna fish sandwiches.After eating, he watched me as I washed the dishes,
then, he told me that I was going to stink like a cunt if I did not go and
take a shower.
On emerging from the bathroom, I saw that Anne had had laid our our
night
clothes, on the bed. My cotton ones were on my side of the bed. Anne's
pink
pegnour was laid out on her side of the bed. I went over and picked up the
bottoms of my pajamas, and was just about to step into them, when I felt a
sharp and very painful sting on my bum cheeks, the first of seven. I was
near
crying when she stopped hitting me. I turned to look at her. She was
standing
there, with a yardstick in her hand.
"God, you are a stupid bitch. Can't you tell the difference between
men's
clothes and women's clothes yet? I would have thought that you'd have no
trouble doing that, at least. Now, go and put your own clothes on. DON'T
YOU
EVER WEAR MY CLOTHES AGAIN, DO YOU HEAR ME? That is, unless you like
getting
your pretty cheeks reddened."
She roared when she saw the crestfallen look on my face, as I walked
over
to my new side of the bed, and picked up the sheer lace panties.
"Gad, Karen, you are so pretty. I don't know why I never noticed it
before."
"Anne, how long is this little game of yours going to go on?" I asked
as I
tied the little ribbon at my neck.
"My little game? My game? Whose idea was it to run around the house in
the
clothes of a housewife? It was your idea, Honey. This little game will
continue for as long as you want to stay married. You will not wear pants
again, untill I tell you you can. And, I expect you to be a little mnre
grateful for the chance to be my wife. You, Dear, are now, the lady of the
house. You might just as well give yourself over to enjoying it, till I am
tired of being a chauvinist pig. But, don't hold your breath. I know that
you
love it. I saw your reaction when I made love to you. You are a hot bitch.
The shoe, or, should I say, the high heel, is now on the other foot, your
foot.
Don't tell me you do not want to be dominated. Yesterday, I took the
day
off work, and went to the university. I spent the day with the professor
of
psychology. Dr. Workman spent the day explaining everything he knew about
your kind of makebelieveman. You transvestites crave having a woman love
you enough to turn you into her wife. Well, your dreams have come true,
Karen.
I love you and that is why I married you. But I was getting pretty sick
and
tired of putting up with your machoman crap. Now I know that you acted
that
way because you did not know how to be a man. Now, you can put up with it,
the way you expected your wife to put up with it. From what I understand,
a
person like you will be happier than you ever dreamed you could be,
because,
the only choice that you have in this matter is to stay married or not to
stay married. You want to stay married, then you will do so as my wife.
You
have no other alternatives. Do I make myself perfectly clear, KarenAnne?"
"Yes Anne...uh...dy."
"Good girl. Now, go and get me a beer."
An hour later, I got another rude awakening. Wearing such dainty
materials,
gave me a nearly constant painful erection. Andy took some pity on me,
after
teasing me about my obvious excitement about wearing such lovely clothing,
by
enforced transvestim. She took my hand and led me to the bedroom. When I
lay
on my back, I reached for her crotch.
She slapped me very hard, disgusted that I had not yet learned my
lessons
in docility. She then took a pair of pantyhose, and tied my hands to the
headboard. He then went to the dresser and took out a double ended dildoe,
that I had never seen before. I watched, fearfully fascinated as she
slowly
inserted one end inside of herself, then, hooked the leather harness to
her
pelvis. She grinned malisciously, as she crawled onto the bed, her legs
wide
apart, with on knee on each side of my bound shoulders, and told me that
she
wanted for me to suck her cock. I tried to turn my head, but, she
scronfully
insisted that all girls loved sucking cock, and I was no exception. She
grabbed my head, and forced it into my mouth, nearly gagging me, she
shoved
it so far down my throat.
"I can feel every move of your pretty sucking lips and your tongue, so,
Baby, make me cum with your pretty cocksucking mouth."
Her right hand went behind her, and I could feel her fingers gently
caressing the crotch of my silk panties. I ached, I was so sore. Every
fibre
of my being was acutely aware, that I was in the feminine role, and, I was
nearly blissful. I submitted to the role enforced on me, and began to suck
her cock, and moaning as she manipulated the front of my panties. I knew I
would give anything if she made me stay this way for all of my life. I
loved
the feelings of my clothes. That psychologist surely must have a good
understanding of transvestites, I thought. My most secret and yet
unrealized
fantasies were being forced on me with the rudeness of reality. I moved my
head back and forth, and, she orgasmed, nearly asphyxiating me, as she
drove
her cock down my throat.
"Oooohhh, I love fucking your pretty mouth...Aaaahhhhh..."
Her words inflamed my sense of femaleness. As she orgasmed, she
grasped,
painfully, at my penis, nearly ripping it from me, as she twisted it
around,
grinding the girl material of my panties into it. I exploded, and actually
passed out with the intensity of her lovemaking.
When I recuperated, I had another surprise. She had tied my ankles
together, pulled my legs up, so the my knees were nearly touching my chin.
They were held in place by a belt securing them to the headboard. I was
absolutely helpless.
"What are you doing, Anne?"
"Andy. And, for that matter, it doesn't matter to you. You are the lady
of
the house, so, you just accept whatever I decide to do with you or even to
you. Not only that, you should be thankful."
I felt her fingers pulling at the pantywaist at my back, and she
lowered
them. She put her head down between my legs, and licked the cum of my
cock,
and, sucked me till I was hard again. Then, she lay on top of me, and
kissed
me, forcing her tongue into my mouth. I tasted the cum being forced into
my
mouth.
"Swallow it, Baby, you'll love it."
She wanted me to admit that I liked the taste of a man's cum. When I
did,
she went back down to my rear end. She began kissing my anus, and poked at
me
with her tongue, driving me nearly insane with the intensity of the
sensations. I had never dreamed that that was such an erogenous spot
before.
"I love eating your pussy, KarenAnne. It is so sweet. Make sure you
keep
it entirely free of hair for me, okay. Your pussy is just so sweet, that,
I
think I am going to fill it up for you."
She lay directly onto the back of my legs, forcing my knees into my
chest.
The pain was horrible, but, did not compare to the searing agony that
penetrated my anus, as she shoved her cock into me. I could not cry out,
as,
she drove her tongue into my mouth at the same time.
Something very strange began to happen after the initial shock of her
penetration. I felt her moviing, rocking slowly, back and forth, moving it
inside of me. I was being fucked, as I had fucked her so often. The pain
slowly became a lovely sensation that fullfilled me in a way I had not
ever
immagined was posssible. He noticed that I was no longer resisting being
fucked like a woman. She worked herself to a kneeling position. In and
out,
in and out...sodmizing me...womanizing me. I loved it. My head rolled
sideways and I somehow became aware that as she was entering my body, she
was
also entering my very psyche.
I began to push up to meet her thrusts. He was orgasming as he fucked
me.
He screamed as he hit the peak. He did not even touch me, but, I spurted
again, in a wild sensation. I came all over my my face. The pain I felt
seemed strangely to be some kind of just payment for being allowed to be a
woman. I was complete for the first time in my life.
"You are one very foxy fuck, Lady."
"Why, thankyou, kind Sir. I am glad that I pleased you."
The next two months were sheer agony. Every day, he left me long lists
of
things to have accomplished by the time that he got home at night. After
supper dishes were washed, I'd endure the pain of the electrolysis kit he
bought to use on my face, chest and legs, for nearly two hours a night.
I took to using her ID, her car, and, in fact, when the new driver's
license came out, I had my picture on it. It was in the name of Anne, but,
at
home, I was Karen. Anne was my middle name.
After about five months, I had accepted my total effemination. I was
happier than I had ever dreamed was possible for me. I was a happily
married
woman. I thought in womanly terms of references, due mainly to rather
harsh
punishments for not doing so.
She then had me meet with Dr. Workman for psychological assessment. I
felt
so vulnerable, sitting there, in front of his desk, dressed as a girl. I
wondered if it was my lacey hem that his eye kept going to my knee to see.
He
spent nearly three hours asking in depth questions about our new life
styles.
I realized that we were having nearly three times the sex we had had
before.
Dr. Workman told Andy that he was pretty well convinced that I really
was
happier as a woman, but, there was one final test that he would like to
try,
if he had my husband's permission. He wanted to take me on a date, alone
with him, to see how I reacted in public circumstances. I did not even
have
anything to say about this. I was treated as a chatel. Andy said yes, and,
since Dr. Workman was such a good friend, that he should feel free to take
his liberties with me. Andy said that I would do anything I was told to. I
blushed as Dr. Workman glanced over at me, and I wondered if he were
thinking
about getting a blow job.
He looked straight at me. "KarenAnne, I think that this transition that
you have made is a truly remarkable and fascinating case study. I would
like
to report on you in medical journals. Of course, your identity would be
kept
secret. I really would like to do a paper on your marriage."
I noticed that his beard moved in an attractive fashion as he talked.
The date started with a very long drive, where I answered his questions
about my feelings of docility and acceptance of my feminine nature by
Andy,
into his tape recorder.
I admitted that I found a strange satisfaction in having someone else
make
all of my decisions for me. He explained that somehow, early in my
childhood,
I must have experienced great rejection of myself as a boy, and that that
was
why I wanted to have someone make love to me , the way a girl is sought
out
and made love to, as opposed to being the aggressor and possibly being
rejected. I had been taught that girls are more sought after than boys,
like
the old fairy tales and rhymes about sugar and spice and all that stuff,
he
explained, and, I wanted to be like that, rather than to repeatedly
experience the rejection that had happened to me, that was still buried
somewhere deep in my subconscious mind.
He asked if I were a homosexual.
I said no.
He then wanted to know why, if I was not a homosexual, that I submitted
to
being fucked and to sucking Andy's cock.
I had no answer.
He parked his car, put his arm around me, and pulled me to him. I did
not
resist. I wanted to feel his beard on my cheeks.
He was so strong. I realized at that moment that I had been still
looking
at him as one male to another, but, now, that I was in his arms, as a
girl, I
was amazed at how small I really was, and,l I loved the feeling. This is
what
girls experienced every day of their lives. I was now, no exeception to
the
rule.
His tongue probed my lips, and I received him, willingly. I was a girl.
He
kissed me for a long long time, then, slowly, he moved his hand down to
the
front of my dress, over my hip and to my knee. His fingers on my nylons
were
strong, hard and calloused. I opened my legs and welcomed his intrusion
into
to my privacy. This is one of the most feminine things that I think a girl
can expereince, to have a man's hand under her dress, feeling her panties.
I
was vulnerable and exposed, and, therein was the excitement. I was living
in
a totally effeminated circumstance. There was nothing I could do, but to
respond naturally, as would a girl, in the same circumstances. I shuddered
as his tongue probed my mouth, and his hard fingers fondled the front of
my
dleicate silk panties. I nearly died form the sheer bliss that flooded my
soul. He was so masterful. I could not resist cumming in his hand, as he
fondled me through my panties.
"Well, my little lovely, do you need any other evidence that you are
about
as feminine as a male can get?"
"No, I guess not. What now, Dr.?"
"Well, for a start, would you like to suck a real cock, one that can
cum
for you?"
I stared at him. He was still holding me tightly. I blushed as I
nodded my
desire to do so.
"That, my dear, is not good enough. You must hear yourself saying so."
My face burned with the shame of my inner desires. "I cannot explain
it,
Dr., but, I do."
"Do what, Dear?"
"I want to...to...suck your cock."
He touched a button on his seat, and it lowered backwards. so that he
was
nearly lying flat. "Put your hand on it, KarenAnne."
I did. I felt the heat and the throbbing right through his suit pants.
I
gent felt out the shape, watching my girlish hand as I did so.
"You can't see my cock, if you don't open my pants."
I reached for the belt and undid it. I was thankful that he was a thin
man,
and not a fat one. Then, I opened the hook and slowly, tugged at his
zipper.
"Are you flattered that you can make me so hard, Karen?"
"Yes...I am. I am ashamed to admit it, but, I am proud of the fact that
I
got you so hard."
"The feminine personna reacts that way. Don't be ashamed. You are
acting
quite normally...for a girl."
I touched the now exposed cock, running my hands gently over it's head,
and
up and down the shaft. It felt so very different from the dildoe. It
reacted
to my touching it.
I lowered my head, slowly taking the thing to my lips. I kissed the
head,
honoring something that I would never have, a man's cock.
"Suck my cock, you pretty little faggot. Make me cum for you, into your
pretty cunt mouth, just like my wife does for me. Remember, I do not want
to
get wanked, I want someone to suck my cum right out of me, because, she
sooo
enjoys making a man cum for her."
When he came, I could not swallow it all. I watched as it spurted from
the
corners of my lips, all over his belly, and my hands. I sucked, coaxing it
to
give me all the cum that was in it. I was satisfied. I had, at last, done
what feminine fairies do. I was a cocksucker now, a pansy cocksucker. I
was
pleased.
He cleaned himself up, drove me home, and, to my surprise, accompanied
me
to the front door. Andy was waiting for us, and poured him a glass of
white
wine.
"Well, Doc, what about her?"
"Andy, I believe that she has a feminine personna. I do not believe
that
she would be able to live in a masculine role. I think that you are doing
her
a favor by making her wear dresses all the time. Regardless of what she
says,
do not let her out of her feminine role. Deep inside, she does not want to
be
let out of this role. If you did let her be a male again, she would fail
miserably, and just make herself worse."
"Yes, that is what I thought. what about the other?"
"Well, you were right there also. All I had to do was kiss her, and she
wanted, really wanted, to suck me off."
I nearly crawled through the floor, I was so embarassed.
"So, if I again assume my own feminine identity, there would be no
problem
having a man live with us? I mean, she would be just as pleased to have
sex
with him as I would be?"
"You got it. She is more woman than man, and will probably only get
more
so."
As he stood to leave, he turned to me.
"KarenAnne, I almost envy you. You are living in a kind of heaven. Most
people will never experience the joy of completely living out their
deepest
and most secret, sometimes hidden fantasies. I wish you well."
With that, he took my hand, turned it over, and raised it to his lips,
as
though I were a great lady, or a "queen".
"I really hope that you appreciate what a great love that Andy here has
for
you, to enforce this life style on you.
I did not know what else to do, so, I curtsied. It was the right thing
to
do.
Well, friends in skirts, this is a fanciful story of how I came to
understand what R & R really is. Andy has since engineered other
circumstances designed to do only two things. One she wants me to be
humiliated because, I am only a pretend woman who does not qualify as a
man.
Her constant enforcement of humiliation also reinforces my feminine
nature,
which, I believe, she likes even more than the man she married. I know
that I
do. Perhaps, you may see some more of these fanciful experiences recorded,
for the sole purpose of keeping bulges in your panties?