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Just being there feels... wrong, I guess.
I want to have a purpose, I want to mean something. Anything.
And I've been searching for that for quite some time.
While I have no doubts about my own gender, I'm not in a position to answer the "purpose" question. What is my purpose on this planet at this time? I have no idea. So it might be that these are two different concepts or questions to be answered --- or not.
As an example: The yearly review at $dayjob with the oh so useful question "where do you want to be in five years from now?" Heck. I don't know. I'll be somewhere, I guess. There is this bit about the "Zen method of navigation" in one of the books by Douglas Adams. "I follow a car which looks like it knows where its going!". Yeah. You'll end up somewhere. And it might even be a pleasure. Purpose? I have no idea.
One thing coming to mind is the word 'purpose' seems somewhat at odds with a handle like 'impulse'.
In that context, perhaps one area to explore is why you chose 'impulse', yet yearn for 'purpose'?
Just a thought.