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I woke up feeling extremely stuffy and tired, I still have not kicked the sickness that's been plaguing me the past week, and I'm beginning to think it might be COVID but I can't get an at-home test and my GP is fully booked until April. Either way, I barely slept and that plus sickness exhaustion makes me feel dull and flat.
I had a big argument with my mother that left me feeling hopeless about the way my life is. I've been struggling to keep up with classes, but it feels like I can't struggle without getting dismissed as a quitter and a liar. I am working on having my actions not be dependent upon her judgement, but it's hard and slow. she wants me to sleep at our house the nights before class to make sure I attend, even though I'm quite sick.
Had some thoughts about the uselessness of the term NSFW.

in your social media feed. what do you mean by safety? will you get fired? are unions sfw? are dicks nsfw in
the erotica industry? who are we protecting? who are we hiding? is concealment the same as safety? anyway i
think that if we mean "there's genitals in here" maybe we should say that because it's more helpful to both
people who can't in fact risk publicly looking at genitals in their workplace but also because there are so
many things and so many jobs and so many things that we can be hiding that maybe we just hide because it's
what is expected but also those expectations are bad and rooted in protestant capitalistic ethopolitics. the
separation of the sexoerotic from the public sphere is a way to sanitize the human experience for
consumption.```


	I came across a Holocaust memorial account on the Fedi, it was harrowing to see the amount of memorialized people, but I was also happy to see that most of the pictures used were of them in life and the toots talked about their hobbies and jobs. It's always good to understand just how rich are the lives that we dismiss as a society so that it doesn't happen again.
	I did an oracle reading with my Skills deck because I was feeling extremely lost and disconnected, I pulled  Conceptualization, which felt like a call to the stories I tell myself and others, a request to glean the truth in them and separate it from the flair. It helped me orient myself.