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My Life At Queen Mary's

by Little Sissy Tippytoes

"Queen Mary, she's my friend;

Yes, I believe I'll go see her again."

Bob Dylan

"Just Like A Woman"

AUTHOR'S PREFACE

My first encounter with a full-fledged drag queen occurred enough

years ago that I do not care to reveal exactly how many. It was a

disturbing encounter, in more ways than one. I was a young soldier

in the Army, recently graduated from basic training and now serving

as a supply clerk at Fort Myer, Virginia, a few miles south of

Washington, DC.

As is true of young soldiers everywhere, I hung out with a bunch of

guys from my platoon, since those were the people I spent most of my time

with, and felt closest to, aside from my folks back home. It seemed

that the goal in life of all the guys in my barracks - again, like

most soldiers everywhere - was to earn weekend passes, so we could

go off-base and let what little hair we possessed down. In our case,

we liked to go into DC, to drink in all the bars where young secretaries

or college girls congregated. Of course, we never wore our uniforms;

but, even in those short-hair days, I'm sure our haircuts identified

us as GI's. It didn't matter. We were for the most part too shy and

too awkward to hit on most of the girls we met, anyway; but, we liked

being around them, so we continued to go to the clubs where they hung out.

One night, however, one of the guys said he had an interesting

place he wanted to show us. So, about five of us piled into his car

(some of us lowly GI's actually did own cars!) and, with a couple

of six-packs, picked up at an off-base package store, safely stowed on

the floor in the back seat, we set off for this mysterious place our

barrack-mate had planned for us to visit.

It turned out to be a club, located at 14th and Irving Sts. in

Northwest DC, called "Bob-In." I remember thinking at the time that

it should have been called "Bob's Inn," or something like that. But,

I don't recall seeing any burned out tubes on the neon lights over

the front door of the place; and, I definitely recall the name "Bob-In."

Perhaps it was more years ago than my memory can accurately handle.

Anyway, after we parked the car, the five of us sauntered

into the club, and found a table near the bar. Once our eyes had

adjusted to the dim lighting, we began to notice something odd. There

seemed to be only guys in the place. Somewhat puzzled, we asked our

buddy, the one who'd brought us there, what the hell was going on.

"Can't you figure it out?" he asked. Slowly, depending on the extent of

our own individual naivete, the lightbulbs began to click on in our

brains. This was what, in those days before "gay" meant something other

than "jolly" or "merry," was known as a "queer" bar.

Well, we were all pretty steamed. "Hey, what's the deal?" we all

protested. "We ain't interested in this shit! Let's go over to

"Maggie's" at Tenley Circle and check out the chicks!"

But, our host merely put his index finger across his lips and

said, "Sshh. You ain't seen the good part, yet."

Sure enough, about a half-hour later, as we were just getting

started on our second pitcher of draft, the door opened and in walked

these two "ladies." Even rubes off the farm like us, even rubes

off the farm who were working on a Friday night drunk, could tell

that these two "ladies" were not female. No way. Our eyes were

bulging so far out of their sockets, they looked like saucers. The two

drag queens swished by us without a word, without even a glance, as

I recall, and our disbelieving eyes followed their sashay until the

guy who'd brought us said, in a stage-whisper, "Quit staring, you

guys! Somebody might take offense!"

A little chagrined, we returned to our pitcher. But, for the next

hour or so, until we'd finished the beer, we stole sidelong glances

at these two alien - to us, anyway - creatures, unable to believe such

people existed.

It was such an unnerving experience, we all decided to visit the

"Bob-In" the following Friday night, to confirm that what we had seen

the previous Friday actually had occurred. Sure enough, these same

two drag queens appeared in the entrance, and slowly paraded the

length of the bar, swishing and sashaying, and looking over the

clientele as though they were queens inspecting their royal guard,

or, more likely, the local peasantry. And again, we were rendered

speechless, completely amazed by their self-confident, assertive

brashness.

This night, we had finished two pitchers before the two queens

put in their appearance. Shortly after they had arrived and performed

their promenade from the entrance to the back of the room, and we had

all stared in wonder and disbelief, just as we had the week before,

I realized I had to relieve myself. So, I got up and headed for the

restroom. When I opened the door, I was shocked to discover one of

the drag queens was in there, bent over the sink, fixing - his? her? -

her makeup. She was a short, thin Negro with beautifully clear chocolate

skin, and heavily processed hair, either that, or a carefully styled,

high-quality wig. I'm not certain breast augmentation surgery was being

performed routinely yet for men who desired to become women. Sex

reassignment surgery was not even a topic in the news at that time. But,

I remember this person had what appeared to be breasts, and they were

perfectly proportioned to her body. Except for the baritone voice

and the exaggerated mannerisms, she might have been able to pass as

a woman in any environment. As I stood there, doorknob in hand, staring

at her, my mouth wide open, my jaw dropped down to my chest, I

realized that, by any measure of the word, she was gorgeous. She

simply looked at me in the mirror; then, smiling this spectacular smile,

turned her head and said, in a husky voice, "Just give me a couple

of minutes, Sugar. I got me a date, and I gotta look good, baby."

With that, she went back to work on her face. My mouth sort

of flapped up and down, but no sound came out. I just backed out the

door, and waited outside, hands trembling, face bathed in a cold sweat.

Finally, she emerged from the toilet, gave me a wink and a smile,

and swished off to join her "date." The encounter probably lasted

no longer than 30 seconds. I proceeded to do my business and return

to my table, where I begged the guys to pack up and leave.

We never returned to "Bob-In," or at least I never did, anyway.

I was thoroughly shaken by the brief scene which had occurred in

the men's room with what, in retrospect, I realize now was a lovely,

well-turned-out drag queen. I'm not sure if she was a prostitute

and the "date" was actually a customer, or if she actually had

a male lover. Whichever it was, this person was excited and hopeful,

like anyone getting ready for a date would be.

For a long time I buried my memory of that experience until, at a point

several years later, I found myself in a relationship that was rapidly,

disastrously, dissolving. I had learned she was carrying on an affair

behind my back, and this knowledge made it nearly impossible for me

to become sexually aroused by her. I was just too angry to maintain

any interest in her. I contented myself, as many sexually frustrated,

celibate-against-their-wishes-men do; I masturbated. But I noticed

that my masturbation fantasies were beginning to take a strange turn.

I would envision myself dressed as a woman, being undressed by a handsome,

well-endowed man (me) and, stripped to just my garterbelt and stockings,

being ravished until I would at last erupt in a truly mind-blowing

orgasm. One afternoon, as I was experiencing this fantasy for the

umpteenth time, I was shocked to discover the female me no longer looked

like me, but had suddenly become the drag queen I had encountered so

long ago at "Bob-In." Needless to say, I was quite upset by this whole

weird scene.

But the fantasy persisted. I began picturing myself in stockings and

garterbelt until, no longer able to resist the pull of the forbidden,

I visited a Frederick's Of Hollywood at a nearby mall, and purchased

these items, along with a battery-operated, penis-shaped vibrator.

I took my purchases home, went into my bedroom, and stripped naked.

I put on the garterbelt; the feel of the garter straps against my

naked thighs produced an instant erection. I was sweating, nervous and

apprehensive about what I was doing. But, I persisted. With shaking

hands, I pulled the stockings up my legs, discovering the unbelievably

sensual feel of the shimmery nylon against them. I was nearly crying,

I was so aroused. I lay on the bed and took the vibrator in my hand.

I smeared some Vaseline jelly over it, and then, raising my nylon-clad

legs off the bed, and spreading and bending them, I proceeded to

introduce the vibrator to my ass.

Never, ever had I done anything like this before in my life. I was

so nervous I was shivering. My body was covered with goosebumps. Slowly,

with lip-quivering anxiety, I pushed the vibrator into my rectum. It

hurt like hell, and I immediately lost my erection. But, I persisted,

and finally it was seated all the way. I flipped the switch at its

base, and instantly, it began to hum and vibrate inside me, tickling

my prostate. My erection began to return, and I aided it along with

excited manipulations. Finally, openly sobbing by now in the realization

that I was a "queer," and my soul was lost forever, I came. Huge spurts

of hot, milk-white sperm splattered over my chest. I thought it would

go on forever. But, it finally ended, and I turned off the vibrator,

and pulled it ever so slowly out of my ass. I lay there on the bed

totally spent, scooping my cum onto my finger and then licking it off.

It tasted salty. I wanted to vomit. Instead, I began to weep and I lay

there sobbing until at long last I cried myself to sleep.

Was I "queer?" If I was, I didn't want to know it. I avoided any and

all sexual stimuli for the next several weeks. But there was no avoiding

the power of my unconscious. Night after night the image of that

drag queen in the bathroom at "Bob-In" haunted my dreams, until, once

again unable to resist its lure, I succumbed to temptation and had

another "session" in my bedroom.

After that, I decided to explore the possibility that I myself might

have transvestite tendencies. I began wearing panties and pantyhose

under my trousers. I even wore them to work. Finally, I got up the

nerve to try dressing up all the way. I went to a local store where I

purchased a dress, a "gift for the wife," as I told the clerk. I hoped

the size was right. I would be too embarrassed to return it if it

weren't. I also purchased a pair of high-heels, and a slip. Then,

stopping at a drugstore on the way home from the mall, I bought some

lipstick and rouge.

I got all my purchases home, and, trembling all over in nervous

anticipation, went into the bathroom to shower and prepare myself for

my "coming out." I even shaved my legs, for the first time ever.

I then went into my bedroom and put on my panties, garterbelt and

stockings. These were familiar friends by now, and I felt comforted

by their touch against my naked skin. The stockings especially felt

wonderful against my shaved legs - what a difference removing my

leg hair made!

Then, I carefully put on the slip and the dress (it fit!), and stepped

into the shoes (they fit, too! Good guess!). I went back into the bathroom

where I carefully applied a little rouge and lipstick. Then, I walked

into the living room, trying to sway my hips the way women do. I walked

around awhile, then tried sitting down and crossing my legs, the feel

of the skirt against my nylon-encased legs definitely interesting.

Then, I walked down the hall and into my bedroom where I stopped before

the full-length mirror attached to my closet door. I took one look at

myself in the mirror, and burst out laughing. Boy, did I look ridiculous!

I felt stupid and silly. Quickly, I tore off the dress and slip and

shoes, tossed them in a garbage bag, and, after removing my makeup and

putting on my regular clothes, took the bag out to the dumpster where I

threw it away without a second thought.

I eventually got rid of the garterbelt, stockings and panties, too.

But I never got rid of the haunting image of that captivating

drag queen I had encountered so long ago. Once in a while, just for

fun, I'll conjure up her image and treat myself to a great

self-administered orgasm.

But, I don't wear ladies' undies anymore. Perhaps I've just grown

too old and tired for that kind of forbidden excitement. I know I would

be greatly embarrassed if my wife ever caught me playing such games.

I'll never forget those incredible orgasms I would have in my bedroom,

my vibrator humming gaily away in my asshole. And I'll always remember

that little queen with the great big smile I met so many years ago.

Long may her flag wave.

LST

* * * * *

I'm sitting here talking to the attorney they've assigned to me,

trying to make him understand all that has happened to me in the past

six months. But it's hard, because I'm not even sure I understand it

very well, myself.

I know how it started, though. God, what a nightmare that was. I

had met Sandy at a downtown bar called Vinnie's. A bunch of us guys

had signed out to go off-base after dinner. One of my barracks mates,

Chuck Simmons, owned a beat up old '61 Fairlane, and he had said

he was going into DC because, "Tonight's the night I'm gonna dip the

wick! Payday's gonna bring the payoff! Yessirree!"

So four of us piled into Chuck's car and headed off down Arlington

Boulevard into the city, making a little detour at a 7-11 to pick up

a couple of six-packs to make the ride a little more enjoyable.

Before long we were crossing Key Bridge and heading into Georgetown.

But that wasn't our destination. That was where all the rich college

kids hung out, and we were just a bunch of young GIs, too poor and

too low-class to try mixing with them. No, we were headed downtown

to 14th St., where all the working class kids went to dance the

twist at Benny's Rebel Room, or drink endless pitchers of beer while

enjoying a pizza at Vinnie's.

That's what we did that night, went to Vinnie's. The line was too

long trying to get into Benny's, and we wanted to find some girls

fast. DC had a midnight curfew on alcohol and we didn't want to waste

one single minute standing in a line outside a bar that was actually

more expensive to drink at than the Georgetown hangouts we had passed

by.

So there we were in Vinnie's, sucking down the pizza, waving our

schooners and singing "Volare" at the top of our voices, when in walked

Sandy with three other girls. You know that scene in "West Side Story"

where Tony and Maria meet for the first time at the dance at the

settlement house? And everything but them is sort of blurred into a

hazy shadow? Well, that's what it was like for me when I first laid

eyes on Sandy. It was like the whole world disappeared and there was

nothing else and no one else but her.

One of the guys stood up and, bold from the beer, invited the girls

over to join us. For one heartstopping moment, I thought they were

going to put their noses in the air, turn around, and walk right back

out the door. But, miracle of miracles! They came right over and stood

waiting while we scurried about locating empty chairs to set around the

table for them. And then, oh, sing my heart! Sandy took the chair next

to me! I was so nervous I nearly dropped my pizza and spilled my beer.

But I managed to pretend an outward calm, and introduced myself, even

remembering to wipe my pizza-sauce smeared hand clean before taking

hers in one of those nerve-wracking handshakes where you don't want

to squeeze too hard for fear of making her think you're a brute, but

you don't want it to be too soggy, either, or she'll think you're a wimp.

So, you just sort of shake her hand up and down, and hope for the best.

Evidently, my best was pretty good, because before you could snap

your finger, we were having a great conversation, with lots of laughter,

and I found out she wasn't dating (how could such a beauty not be

taken?), and she was a secretary in a Government agency, and she had

been recruited while she was in high school in Johnstown, PA. The whole

time we sat there, I pretended to be just as cool as could be, but I can

remember my feet wouldn't stay still, and sort of danced up and down the

entire evening. Sandy discovered that I didn't have wheels, which was a

big handicap for me, since that meant either I would have to arrange a

double date, or we would have to take a bus (what a damper that idea

was!) if we were going to see one another. But, then I found out one

of her roommates had a car, and didn't mind loaning it to Sandy once

in a while. Terrific!

So we were able to begin a relationship. She didn't mind at all that

I was a broke and lonesome GI soldier-boy from Kansas. That surprised

me, actually, because I figured girls who came to DC to work were

looking for husbands who had the potential of being bigshot government

officials somewhere down the line. Her response, after she got over

laughing, was, "Hey! I'm only eighteen years old! I want to have some

good times before I start planning the rest of my life!" She was truly

the answer to my dreams.

And we did have some great times. We would visit museums, which were

free. We would go to the movies, which were inexpensive. We would buy

dinner at a hotdog stand. Ours was a very affordable romance. But,

there was a dark cloud in the middle of it all, and it loomed ever

larger the deeper our relationship became. The cloud, of course, was

sex. I wanted it. She would tolerate a semblance of it. I wanted to

go all the way. She wasn't even willing to take the first step.

We would sit in movie theaters, my arm draped over the back of her

seat until it began to get tingly and numb. At a strategic moment in

the movie, usually when she was engrossed with the action on the screen,

my hand would snake down over her shoulder and come to rest on her

breast. Ever so gently, she would place her hand over mine, then

nudge it away from her breast. I would sit there, saying nothing, tears

of frustration forming in my eyes. When we would sit in her roommate's

car, parked at the curb outside her apartment building, I would try

unbuttoning a couple buttons of her blouse. If I couldn't feel her

breasts, hopefully I might at least get a glimpse of her cleavage.

No soap. She would squirm, mutter "No," and push me away while she

buttoned herself back up.

My campaign of attack at the other end was just as fruitless. Once,

I actually was able to slide my hand all the way up her skirt to the

top of her stockings. We were kissing, and my tongue was in her mouth.

She bit down so hard on it, I thought she was going to draw blood.

I was gasping and moaning, but she wouldn't let go. Finally, I got the

point, and pulled my hand out from under her skirt. As soon as my

hand hit the cool air, she let go of my tongue. I could barely speak,

and couldn't taste anything the rest of the weekend.

Needless to say, I was totally frustrated. And blue. I was getting

nowhere, and my horniness was beginning to affect me. I even started

whacking off in the shower, a dangerous thing to do, as the other

guys would laugh at me if they caught me. I almost didn't care, to

tell the truth.

Finally, I guess I'd had enough. I began inventing excuses for not

going into town on weekend pass. And I found ways to avoid returning

Sandy's calls. I didn't have the courage to confront her with my

frustrations; I reasoned she probably already knew, and didn't care.

Eventually, I started hanging out at the on-base beer hall, a sort

of dive for the social misfits who had nothing better to do. I would

drink myself into a near-stupor, then stagger back to the barracks,

where I would collapse into my bunk and sleep until reveille formation

the next morning. I would stand in the formation, barely aware of what

was going on, hoping someone would simply guide me to the latrine

so I could stick my head under the faucet and wash the cobwebs out of

my brain in time to make it to breakfast.

* * * * *

One evening, just after the day's training had finished and Retreat

had been sounded, bringing to a close the business of the day, Chuck

and another friend, Alvin (Big Al), stopped me on the way back to

the barracks. They fell in, one guy on either side of me, and Chuck

threw his arm around my neck. "Hey, podner," he exclaimed, "Long time,

no see. Where you been keepin' yourself?"

"Oh, around," I mumbled.

"You and Sandy quits?" he asked.

"Yeh, I guess so," I said. "I just get too frustrated when I'm with

her. Y'know?"

"Man, I know just how you feel. I had the same experience with her

roommate, Betty."

"The one with the huge bazooms?"

Big Al laughed.

Chuck said, in a low, confidential tone, "Lemme ask ya something,

Stevie. What the hell is the point of having big tits if you ain't ever

gonna let anybody touch 'em, or even look at 'em?"

Big Al continued laughing.

My face took on a pained expression. Chuck looked at me sympathetically.

"I see you know what I mean, little fella," he said. "You've been put

through the same wringer, huh?"

I looked at the ground. "It got so bad I just couldn't go back there

anymore. I was afraid I was going to end up doing something stupid,

like raping her or something."

He patted my shoulder, and we walked some more in silence. Then, all

of a sudden, he poked me in the ribs with his other hand. "Hey!" he

shouted. "You ever had your cock sucked before?"

I stopped dead in my tracks. I looked at him as though I were looking

at a Martian. "Whaaat?"

Big Al laughed again. Chuck leaned over until his mouth was almost

wrapped around my ear. Very softly, he said, "You heard me, short buddy.

Have you ever had your cock sucked?"

"No, I can't say I have. So what?" I retorted.

"Me and Big Al here know a place where you can get it done. And I mean

by a real pro."

I was curious, but I didn't want to betray myself, so I acted sort of

detached and cool. "Oh, yeh? Like I said, so what?"

He stared right into my eyes. "Whaddya mean, so what? C'mon. Ain't

you even a little bit curious to find out more?"

"Listen," I said, "I can't even get Sandy to let me play with her tits,

let alone have her do something like that. So, the answer to your question

is, 'No, I've never had my cock sucked.' OK? And I'm not too curious to

find out more, either."

Liar.

Chuck took a step back. He nudged Al, and said, "Listen to this, Big

Al. There's a guy here among us who ain't interested in bein' an

All-American one-hunnerd-percent male. You ever hear of any guy who didn't

want a blowjob?"

Al laughed again. "Even queers want blowjobs, man," he said.

I had to laugh at this comment, stupid as it was. "Ok, ok," I said.

"So where are these babes, and how much do they charge?"

Chuck threw his arms out wide. "That's the beauty of it, little guy.

The chicks I'm talkin' about practically give it away. I'm tellin' ya.

You gotta see it to believe it."

Al said, "Yeh, we're gonna go meet 'em after dinner. Wanna come along?"

My big prospect for the evening was a movie and another sloshing drunk

at the beer hall. "Ok, what the hell," I said. "I'll go with you."

Both men slapped me on the back, and we continued on to the mess hall,

where we ate dinner with a hundred and fifty of our most intimate friends,

then went back to the barracks to shower and change into civvies for our

big night on the town.

Once again, there we were in Chuck's car, tooling down Arlington

Boulevard, two sixpacks on the rear seat under my tender loving care,

heading for the bright lights of downtown Washington. We took the

Whitehurst Freeway past Georgetown, then headed down K Street for 14th

Street. Only, when we got to 14th Street, instead of parking at the

downtown clubs, Chuck turned left and headed uptown. We drove several

blocks until we had left the downtown part of 14th Street behind us. Now,

we were entering that part of 14th Street that divided black and white

DC. On one side were neighborhoods that were primarily Negro, filled with

rowhouses converted into apartments, and small businesses, and liquor

stores and nightclubs. On the other side were primarily white-owned

apartment buildings whose occupants pointed their interests in the

direction of upscale 16th Street, lined by single-family houses and

churches and embassies. For a young white boy from semi-rural Kansas, it

was an eerie experience to see real segregation in person.

The club we were headed for was located on the black side of 14th

Street, on U Street, in the middle of the block between 13th and

14th Streets. It was called Queen Mary's, and it had very little to

recommend itself to outsiders. It looked as though it had been built

into a storefront which once might have housed a small business,

perhaps a drycleaner or a repair shop of some sort. It was narrow, not

at all like a nightclub would look. But it was also very deep, extending

from the street perhaps a good two hundred feet. Just inside the

entrance, on the right side, was a bar that accommodated about a dozen

stools. Behind the bar was a short, thin Negro man wearing a white

apron who I assumed was the bartender. In those days in DC, there was

some sort of ordinance that required anyone drinking an alcoholic

beverage to be seated. You couldn't even carry your drink around, but

had to have a waiter or waitress do that for you. So all bars had to

have stools. Stupid, huh?

On the left side of the entrance was an area in which there were a

few tables, each of which could accommodate four people. Beyond the

tables, against the wall, were booths for four, extending all the way

along the wall to an open area in the rear of the club which was where

people could dance. Against the back wall was a jukebox, which, as Chuck,

Al and I entered, was blaring away. I think it was either Otis Redding

or James Brown singing. The volume on the jukebox was turned up so loud

we couldn't hear any conversation, even though we noticed, as our eyes

grew accustomed to the dim, smoky interior, that the place was pretty

full.

At the entrance, we were met by an enormous black man, who must have

been at least six-feet three, and built like an NFL football lineman.

His skin was of that deep black color, almost shiny black, that hinted

of a shade of dark purple. He evidently was the maitre d', or the bouncer,

or something like that.

Chuck and Al greeted him warmly. "Hey, Teddy, how's it hangin'?" They

shook his hand and patted his shoulder and joked with him for a minute

or two. Then, they both turned to face me, and Chuck said, "Hey, Teddy,

we want you to meet our little buddy, Stevie. He's the guy we been

telling you about."

Teddy, who towered over my five-foot, eight-inch slender frame, had a

surprisingly gentle voice for such a large person. He took my hand in

his, and it was warm and almost soft, and said to Chuck, "I'm pleased

you finally brought him along, my friend." Then, turning to look directly

in my eyes, he said to me, "Welcome to Queen Mary's. I hope you enjoy

yourself tonight. Perhaps we shall become good friends."

His English was not at all like that spoken by the Negro GIs in my

outfit, guys who had been drafted off the farm or out of the tough

inner cities of the southeastern US, places like Birmingham, or Atlanta.

Teddy spoke in an almost formal tone, with very precise diction like an

English person, and softly, gently, as I had mentioned.

After the introductions, he invited us to find a seat in the fairly

crowded room. We located an empty booth about two-thirds of the way

into the long, narrow room, and took a seat. A waitress who had been

standing at the bar picked up her tray and headed toward us. She was a

white girl, with that pale white skin that is so white it seems like

marble, with a hint of blue in it. About the time she reached our booth,

I was at last able to make out shapes in the semi-dark interior.

Suddenly, I realized there was something odd about the waitress. She

stepped up to our booth, pulled her pad and pencil out and asked, in

a distinctly masculine voice, "What can I get you fellows?"

My eyes bugged out of my head and my jaw felt like it was going to

drop all the way to the tabletop. Chuck, just as cool as a cucumber,

said, "How about a pitcher of draft, and a bowl of popcorn, Robin,

baby?"

The waitress made a sound like, "Hhmmmhh. Baby, hmmm?" Then she

said, "Be right back. Just relax."

I turned to Chuck and whispered, sort of loud, "Chuck! Did you

notice that waitress? I think that's a guy dressed like a girl!"

Both he and Big Al began to laugh. Then, Chuck leaned back to me

and said, softly, "You're right, little fella. It is a guy. Pretty

neat, huh?"

I could hardly breathe. "What kind of place is this, anyway?"

But just then, the waitress, Robin, came back with a pitcher and

three mugs, and placed them on the table. "Be right back with the

popcorn," she said, in a husky baritone. She turned towards the bar,

and I was struck by how female she looked from the rear. Her long,

pale-blonde hair was done up in a French twist. Her pinched-in waist

flared quite nicely to form perfect hips, and her bottom was rounded

into two soft globes that tapered into long, slender legs. From

behind, you would never suspect she was anything but a woman.

My eyes were popping out of their sockets, and my mouth was working,

although no words were coming out. "What the fuck's going on here?"

I finally managed to spout.

Chuck said, "Didn't I promise I would take you to a place where you

could get the premier blowjob of a lifetime?"

Somewhat hesitantly I responded, "Yehhh," so it ended almost like

a question: "Yehhh?"

Big Al leaned over. "Just wait and you won't be disappointed."

We sat drinking our beer and munching on the popcorn, talking small

talk the way guys will do in a bar. Since it was my first visit to

this particular place, and since I'd already been shocked by the fact

that the waitress was a guy, I continued to look around, trying to

size the place up. Well, it was definitely a weird place. Most of the

clientele were guys, and I swear I saw a couple of 'em kissing at a

table across the room. But, as I mentioned, it was pretty dark in there,

and hard to see. A couple of girls had come into the bar, and they

were really goodlookin' chicks. But something seemed not quite right

about them, too. Maybe I was just spooked by the fact that the waitress

was a drag queen. Anyway, one thing about this whole strange scene

began to worry me a great deal. I discovered that whenever the waitress

walked by our table, or whenever I gave one of the "girls" the once over,

my penis would get rock-hard.

* * * * *

Finally, the waitress, Robin, came over to pick up our empty pitcher

to get it refilled, and Al grabbed her arm. "Hey, Robin," he said, his

voice a little slurred from all the beer we'd consumed, "You remember

last week, the guy we told you about? And about the blowjob?"

Robin, who had eventually remembered Chuck and Al, brushed Al's hand

off her somewhat muscular-looking arm, and said, "Yeh, I remember. And,

guess what? A ten buck tip is still required."

Chuck, without hesitating, pulled three ten-dollar bills out of

his wallet and set them on the table. "Great, baby. Here's a tip from

each one of us."

Robin looked over in the direction of the door, where Teddy stood,

silently watching our table. She held up her index finger, then held

up three fingers. I noticed Teddy hesitate briefly before nodding his

head, almost invisibly. Robin bent over the table, retrieved the bills,

and started walking over to Teddy.

When she bent over, I couldn't help sneaking a peek at her cleavage

(Cleavage? On a guy?) which was evident from the low cut of her

waitress's uniform, a tight-fitting dress with short sleeves and a

skirt which reached only about halfway from her waist to her knees

and was flared out because of all the stiff crinolines under it.

I wondered how the hell a guy could have tits. It certainly appeared

she had breasts, anyway, and my penis was by now painfully stiff,

imprisoned in the confines of my jeans. I though I was going to blow

my wad right there. What was happening to me?

Robin handed the three ten-dollar bills to Teddy. He nodded slightly

in our direction, while Robin turned around and started across the dance

floor. She disappeared through a door in the far wall, next to the

blaring jukebox. Chuck arrived at the same door a few seconds after her,

and he, too, disappeared inside the little room. They were gone for

about ten minutes. Then, the door opened and Chuck stepped out, a big

shiteating grin on his face. Robin was fooling with some loose strands

of hair and adjusting her skirt. She stopped about midway across the

dance floor and crooked her finger toward Al. He immediately jumped to

his feet and nearly ran across the floor, making himself look like a

big idiot. Robin was real cool, though. She just turned on her heels

and disappeared through the door, leaving Al to pursue her, foolishly

dashing through the door into the darkened room on the other side of it.

Another ten minutes passed, and the door opened again. My erection

was really hurting by now, and my forehead was sweating. There

was perspiration running down my sides from my underarms, too. My lips

were quivering slightly, and I nervously chewed them. Robin stepped

into the opening and crooked her finger at me. Rubbing my thighs, I

stood up, knees shaking, and began to cross the floor to where she stood

beckoning me. Suddenly, I realized Chuck and Al were walking with me,

about a step-and-a-half behind me. I turned my head to see what was up,

but Chuck just sort of motioned for me to keep walking. Finally, nervous

as hell, knees knocking, I reached the door. Robin beckoned me through.

The door, as it turned out, opened into a small room that had a

metal-frame cot, much like the one I slept on in my barracks. There was

also a sink over in the corner, with a mirror hanging above it on the

wall. Al was leaning against the sink, a small smile on his face. He

winked at me. Robin, who, now that I was standing next to her I realized

was an inch or two taller than me, pointed to the bed. Hands sweating,

forehead wet with perspiration, I managed to cross the room to the bed

and sit down facing her. By now, Chuck had crossed the room and was

next to Al, leaning against the wall. Both men were watching Robin and

me intently.

Robin immediately knelt down in front of me and reached for the zipper

of my jeans. Involuntarily, I shifted my legs. She looked up at me, a

grin on her face. "First time?" she asked.

Nervously, I gulped and tried to respond. No sound came out. All I could

do was swallow hard and shake my head in the affirmative.

Robin kept grinning. "That's all right, Sugar. I'm not gonna hurt you.

Just relax and enjoy yourself." I tried to smile back. I was nearly ready

to start crying. Gently, she pulled my zipper down and reached her soft

hand (soft hand? On a guy?) into the fly of my GI-issue boxer shorts.

The instant her fingers touched my prick, it wilted. It just shriveled

up into nothing. Robin looked puzzled. She looked over her shoulder at

Chuck and Al. "What's the deal, you guys? I thought you said your little

friend here wanted a blowjob."

Chuck said, "That's right, baby. We promised Stevie a premier blowjob.

Ain't that right, Big Al?"

Al shook his head up and down, a big, foolish grin on his face.

My face was so red and hot I thought I was on fire with a fever.

Robin seemed lost in thought. "Hmmm. Well, you guys paid for a blowjob.

Maybe something can be arranged." She stood up, then sat down next to

me. She took my hand in hers. Then, suddenly, she placed my hand between

her legs and shoved it up her skirt. My eyes popped open like balloons

inflating. My God! She was a guy! She had a huge penis and it was hard

as hell! And nearly as hot as my burning face.

I tried to jerk my hand away, but Robin was stronger than I was.

She wrapped my fingers around her pole. Then, she leaned over to whisper

in my ear, as soft and gentle as an ocean breeze, "Get on your knees in

front of me, Shorty, and don't let go of my pecker."

Chuck leaned forward and said, "Need any help, Stevie? Robin?"

Robin smiled up at him. "No, it's ok. Everything's cool." She looked

into my wet eyes. "Right, Sugar?" Her hand gripped mine like a vise.

Slowly, I slid off the bed. Now, I was on my knees. Robin spread her

legs to accommodate me, so I could kneel between them. With her free

hand, she lifted her skirt. Her penis was long and slender. She laid

back on the bed, pulling me forward so I was now positioned over her

groin. Gently, she placed her free hand on the back of my head, and

nudged me towards her cock. The tension in the room had become unbearable.

I don't think any of us were breathing at this point.

Slowly, my head descended until I was less than an inch away from

the crown of her cock. I could see the opening of her dick. It looked

as big as the entrance to a small cave. My lips were trembling. I held

them as tightly closed as I could. Robin continued to increase the

pressure on the back of my head. Suddenly, my lips touched the tip of

her dick. I didn't dare open my mouth. I tried to push my head away,

but Robin's strength and grip were too great for me. So, I pursed my

lips and complained, "Mmmpphhh!! Nnggngg!"

Robin, in a soft, seductive voice, simply said, "C'mon, soldier boy,

open wide for Robin."

"Mmmpphhh! Nnggnngg!"

Robin continued to press against the back of my head. Her penis was

burning my tightly-sealed lips. Manfully, I struggled to pull my head

away. Finally, after about a minute of this combat, Robin relaxed her

grip. She looked up at Chuck and Al. "I guess he's not quite ready,

fellows," she said. "Sorry."

Chuck and Al just shuffled their feet, each one a little chagrined

by what they had done. Robin stood up and gently helped me to my feet.

Angered by what had happened, I started to walk over to the door.

Robin grabbed my arm to hold me back.

"Wait a second, pal," she said in her normal, masculine voice, "I

don't want there to be any hard feelings between us. Ok? I mean, I

certainly meant no harm."

I thought about her words for a few seconds, then said, "Well, all

right, I guess. Sure. What the hell. No hard feelings." I stuck my

right hand out to shake hers.

Gently, she took my hand. Then, suddenly, she brightened, and

a big smile covered her face. "I know what!" she exclaimed. "I'm gonna

give you a little present. Something for you to remember me by."

And before I could say, "No, thanks," she had undone her garterbelt

and was quickly removing it, her stockings still attached. She pulled

off her shoes and finished taking her nylons off. Then, she bunched

the whole package up in her hand, and placed it in mine.

"Whenever you take these out, think of me," she said. "Ok?"

Chuck and Al were grinning. I grinned too. "Oh, ok. Yeh. Sure."

She stepped forward, and before I could turn away, placed a kiss on

my cheek. Her lips were soft and warm and a little moist. She opened

the door, and the three of us stepped through it. Quickly, we crossed

the dance floor, past the rows of tables filled with people, and

headed to the exit. Teddy still stood at the entrance, towering over

everyone. "Leaving so soon?" he asked us.

Chuck said, "Yeh, Teddy, well, we gotta get back to the base."

Teddy replied, "Sorry to hear that." Then, he looked straight at

me. "Come back again," he said. "Perhaps we can become better acquainted.

Maybe even become good friends."

Chuck and Al both said something like, "Sure thing, Teddy." But I

knew his remarks had been directed at me, not at them. I gave him

a puzzled look as I walked through the doorway. He simply smiled and

offered a half-bow.

* * * * *

I was so unnerved by my experience at Queen Mary's, I could barely

comprehend what had occurred. All the way back to the base, I sat in

the back seat, idly fingering the garterbelt and silky hose Robin had

left attached to it, trying to make sense of my actions. I had come

within a fraction of an inch of placing Robin's penis in my mouth.

I had never before in my life even considered doing such a thing. Yet,

I had been that (!) close to permitting her to slide her cock between

my lips.

Chuck and Al were in the front seat, each drinking a can of beer,

both engaged in quiet conversation as the brightly-lit clubs lining

14th Street passed by in a blur. Neither one mentioned what had taken

place in the back room of Queen Mary's, and I was grateful for that.

Every so often, one of them would direct a comment to me. But it soon

became apparent to them that I wasn't interested in conversation, so

gradually, they stopped trying to include me.

I just wanted to think. I needed to understand something about what

had happened. I was still too shocked, I guess, to make sense of it,

because no rational thought entered my mind. I sighed, deciding I'd

have to try to figure it out later. For the rest of the ride home,

I sat quietly in the back seat, Robin's gift soft between my fingers.

When we got back to the barracks, I put it in my footlocker, hiding it

between some uniform shirts. Then, I simply crawled into my bunk,

exhausted from the night's activities, and immediately fell asleep.

The next day, trying to feel normal again, I guess, I called Sandy to

invite her to a movie. Although not as enthusiastic-sounding as in the

past, she nevertheless accepted my invitation, and we made plans to

meet at the theater near her apartment building. At the appointed time,

I arrived, and was surprised to find Sandy already waiting. I took her

in my arms, and gave her a kiss, then held both her hands between us.

We chatted amiably for a few minutes, then joined the short line waiting

to buy tickets. We entered the theater, stopping at the concession

stand to get some popcorn and candy, then stepped into the darkened

viewing room. We let our eyes get adjusted to the darkness, then

slowly made our way down the aisle to find two empty seats. We had no

trouble locating two seats in a middle row, the theater being half-

empty at such an early hour. We continued to chat as we waited for

the movie to begin. Before long, I could feel my old sense of longing

for Sandy returning. I looked at her sitting beside me, her slender

frame, her pert little breasts perfectly proportioned to her

diminutive size, her dancer's long, shapely legs. Quietly, casually,

I let my arm drape over the back of her seat, without making contact.

I didn't want to alarm her, or make her nervous in any way.

The movie began, and we stopped talking as we concentrated on the

story unfolding before us in the darkened room. After awhile, I could

tell my arm was beginning to fall asleep; it was starting to tingle,

and my thumb and fingers felt numb. So I let it begin to slide over

her shoulder and descend, ever so slowly, toward her breast. It seemed

to take forever, and I had by then lost track of the story; but,

eventually, my fingers arrived at her protuberance. Slowly I began to

apply pressure, to allow my fingers to sink into the soft flesh just

above the cup of her bra. She didn't react. Emboldened by what I took

to be her silent approval, I slowly slid my fingers over her cup and

pressed - gently! - against her whole breast. For a second, she allowed

my hand to remain in place.

Then, suddenly, she stood straight up and turned to face me. Without

any warning at all, she slapped me soundly on my cheek. Then, she stepped

into the aisle and began to walk up to the rear exit. Stunned, I sat

there for a moment. But, then, I gathered my wits about me, and raced

up the aisle behind her. "Sandy," I half-whispered. "I don't understand.

What's going on?"

She pushed through the exit, then walked purposefully toward the lobby.

Over her shoulder she said, in an angry tone, "I told you before, I'm

not interested in that sort of thing. Can't you just leave it alone?

Can't we just be friends?"

I followed her out to the street, pleading with her to stop and talk.

Once out on the sidewalk, she finally did stop, long enough to turn

to me and say, "Stevie, it's obvious you and I don't agree about what

our relationship means. I think we'd better call it off right now."

She turned on her heel, and began to walk toward her apartment building.

I followed a few steps behind her. "But, Sandy," I cried. "It's

only natural that when a guy likes a girl the way I do you, he's going

to want to touch her and get intimate. It's the normal thing between

boys and girls."

She stopped and turned to face me. "I don't care if it's normal or

not, you jerk. I don't like it. And I don't have to take it, especially

from a little twerp like you. Now, get lost!" And she turned and fled.

I was so shocked by the vehemence of her words, I didn't give pursuit.

I just stood there, hands in my pockets, tears in my eyes, and bade her

a silent farewell. The bottom had just dropped out of my world. I was in

free-fall.

I caught the bus back to Arlington, getting off at the entrance gate.

I nearly missed my stop, I was so preoccupied with my misery. Sandy had

really put me down hard. I couldn't get over her final insult - "You

little twerp." Was that all I was? A twerp? Had she only strung me

along all these months, even though deep down inside she regarded me as

some sort of nobody? Was this how the guys in my barracks felt, too?

I knew they liked to call me "little fella," and "little guy." But I

had always thought they said this in an affectionate way. Maybe like

Sandy what they really meant was that I was just a little nothing, a

jerk deserving of nothing but their secret contempt.

Feeling pretty low, I entered the barracks. The place was empty. It

was Saturday night, after all. Probably everyone was out having a good

time. Except me, of course. I was so down, I thought I'd never climb out

of the hole I was in. I decided to drown my sorrows in a couple of

pitchers at the beer hall.

When I got there, the place was jammed and full of smoke and the odor

of beer. I didn't see anyone I knew, so I just went up to the counter,

got a pitcher and a mug, and found an empty seat in a corner of the room.

As I sat there drinking, I kept thinking of my misery and pain. I was

convinced that the whole world saw me only as a sawed-off, worthless

jerk, a little nobody, a nothing. The more I drank, the more convinced

I became of the truth of that opinion. I deserved what I got, I felt.

I was filled with self-loathing. I drank a second pitcher, and most of

a third. Then I got up to take a piss, and nearly passed out. I decided

I'd had enough, and staggered out of the beer hall.

I could barely negotiate my way back to the barracks, I was so drunk.

I kept tripping over bumps in the sidewalks and falling down. My pants

were torn, my knees and elbows were scraped up, I could hardly see where

I was going - I was a mess. I got back to my barracks, and found my way

to my bunk, where I collapsed in a drunken heap. I lay there on the bed,

watching the ceiling spin around like a top above me. Finally, I had to

throw up, so I managed to stand and stagger into the latrine at the other

end of the room. I was in such a pitiful state, I threw up all over

myself before I got to a toilet. I managed at last to crawl over to a

bowl and stick my head inside, where I let it hang until I could no

longer feel my stomach heave. Then, I stripped off my smelly clothes

and washed myself at the sink. I would have taken a shower, but I was

afraid I might slip and fall in my current state of drunkenness. I

stuck my pants and shirt in a toilet and flushed several times until I

was satisfied all the vomit had been washed off. I did the same with

my t-shirt and shorts. Then, dressed only in my brown Army-issue socks,

I staggered back to my bunk, collapsing again in a heap. I lay there

for a long while, thinking of Sandy and my thoroughly fucked up life.

Then, slowly, thoughts of Robin began to enter my mind. Robin had been

nothing at all like Sandy. She had been friendly and had seemed

genuinely interested in being intimate with me.

I slid over to the end of my bunk and opened my foot locker. I fished

around inside it until I found the garterbelt and stockings Robin had

given me. I held them up to my nose, trying to recapture her scent.

Then, I gently rubbed them, pretending that her legs were still encased

inside the soft, silky hose. I wanted to feel her flesh inside them.

But, of course, she wasn't here for me to do that. In my drunken state,

I reasoned that, if my legs were in them, I could rub them and it would

feel just like Robin, which would be just about as good as actually

having her there beside me. Convinced of the solid logic of my thinking,

I put my foot into one of the stockings. My God, that felt wonderful!

No wonder women like to dress up and put this stuff on! This was fantastic!

Quickly, or as quickly as I could under the circumstances of my

drunken state, I finished pulling that stocking on, then slid the other

one on my other leg. I could feel my two legs rubbing together, and

the feeling of nylon against nylon was electric. I had an erection that

seemed to stretch all the way to the ceiling. I managed to sit up, the

room beginning to spin again and threatening to cause me to fall over.

I circled my waist with the garterbelt and clumsily managed to close

the clasps. Then, I stood, weaving all over the place, and secured the

garter straps to the stocking-tops. Then, I came. In huge, gushing

spurts, I came, all over my bunk. I felt like I had died and gone to

heaven. I was so overwhelmed by my climax, I simply fell onto my bed,

not caring that I was lying in a puddle of cum. I lay there for a while,

luxuriating in the sensuous silkiness of the stockings. After several

minutes, while I rubbed my hand up and down my leg, gently scratching

myself through the nylon, I was amazed to discover my penis was starting

to stiffen again. Through my barely-focused eyes I watched, utterly

fascinated, as my cock slowly rose off my groin and began to twitch

and straighten out. But the beer and the post-climax cooldown overtook

me at last, and I passed out on the bunk, my semi-erect penis gently

swaying back and forth.

* * * * *

A flash of light, a hand smacking my bare bottom, a voice thundering

in my ear. "Hey! Stevie! What the fuck are you doin', little guy?

C'mon, wake up!" Laughter. Another flash of light. Where's the thunder?

Is it raining? What - ? My eyes finally opened, slowly coming into focus.

I looked above me. Chuck and Big Al's faces were staring down at me. Their

grins were spread across their faces, and they were both laughing. Chuck

tapped my chin with his hand. "Stevie! Stevie!" he said, "Get up, little

fella. You want the rest of the guys to see you?"

"Huh?" I grunted. "See what?" I struggled to sit up, the room was

spinning, my head felt like it had been split wide open by an axe. I

looked down the length of my naked body. Oh, shit. Big Al was standing at

the foot of my bunk, aiming a camera at my nylon-clad legs. He was leering

at me with an evil grin on his face. The camera clicked, synchronized to

the flash of light that momentarily blinded me. Then I heard Chuck's voice,

"C'mon, Stevie, get that stuff off and get dressed before other people start

coming in and find you."

I wanted to cry, I felt so embarrassed. And I was still too drunk to act

rationally. But, my two buddies managed to get me unhooked from the

garterbelt, and pulled the stockings off my legs. I opened my footlocker,

stuffed the incriminating evidence down in the bottom, and pulled out

a clean t-shirt and pair of shorts. After I put them on, I sat back

down on the bunk, letting my head fall into my upraised hands. I groaned,

feeling miserable, embarrassed, done for.

Chuck seemed sympathetic. He sat down beside me and said, "Boy, I'm

glad we decided to come back early. I can only imagine what might have

happened if some of the other guys had gotten here ahead of us."

"Yeh," chimed in Big Al, "some of those guys woulda beat the shit

outta you. I know that for a fact. They hate queers, man."

I lifted my head to look at his leering face. "Queer? What?"

Big Al responded, "Hey, it's ok, man. You got nothing to worry about,

as far as I'm concerned. I mean, we ain't gonna say nothing to anybody,

are we, Chuck?"

I looked at Chuck, who now seemed to be thinking very hard about

something. "Yeh, yeh, right," he said. He was rubbing his chin with his

hand and staring hard at the floor. He turned to me, and said, "Uh,

excuse me a minute, Stevie. I wanta talk to Al for a minute. We'll be

right back. C'mon, Al."

Chuck stood up, and the two men walked to the other end of the room,

disappearing into the latrine. I continued to sit on the bunk, nearly

doubled over in shame over what had just occurred. My head really

hurt. I was paralyzed, unable to think clearly. Several minutes later,

my two buddies emerged from the latrine and walked back to where I sat

dejectedly holding my head in my hands. Chuck stopped, but Al kept

going, opening the door at my end of the barracks, and stepping out

into the cool night.

"Where's Al going?" I asked Chuck.

"Oh, nowhere. He's just going to make a phone call."

We sat in silence for several minutes, neither one able to look at

the other. I suspected that Chuck was as embarrassed for me as I was

for myself. He didn't know what to say, but he was too good a friend

to walk out on me, leaving me alone with my torment. After awhile,

Big Al returned, closing the door softly behind him, turning to face

us with a big grin on his face. He walked over to my bunk, and sat

down beside me. I was now sandwiched in between my two closest

friends. Chuck leaned forward and said to Al, "Well, what did he say?"

Al made a fist and thrust it out in front of him, sticking his thumb

straight up as he did so. "He dug it!"

I looked first at Chuck, then at Al. "Who dug what? What're you two

talking about?"

Al said, "C'mon, Stevie, we're gonna go for a little ride. We got

some business to discuss with you."

I looked at Chuck. "What's going on, Chuck?" I asked.

He shrugged his shoulders, waving his hands in front of him. "Nothin'

for you to worry about, little fella. Let's get in the car, and we'll

talk about it there."

I was still out of it, and, besides, they were much bigger than I.

So, not knowing what else to do, I fell in between them, and we walked

together out to Chuck's car. I got in the back seat while Chuck and Al

took over the front. The car roared to life, and Chuck pulled slowly

out of the parking lot, driving carefully through the alleyway and

then through the gate. Once again, we were headed down Arlington Boulevard

toward the bright lights of DC, visible off on the distant horizon.

As usual, Chuck stopped at a 7-11, and Al went inside to buy a couple of

sixpacks. He got back in the car, rifled through the glovebox looking

for a "churchkey" can opener, and cracked open a beer. He reached over

the seat and handed it to me. "Here ya go, little buddy," he said.

"A little hair of the dog."

I took a large swallow of the cold beer, then said, "Ok, what're

you two up to? Where are we going?"

My two friends exchanged glances. Finally, Al turned and leaned over

the seat. "Well, Stevie," he began, "it's like this. We figured that

your visit to Queen Mary's must have jarred something loose from your

unconscious mind."

Chuck interrupted, "Yeh, Stevie, you know, like some sort of buried

memory, or something psychological like that."

Big Al continued, "We figured that seeing that waitress triggered

something in your brain that made you want to put them stockings and

that garterbelt on."

Chuck interrupted again. "Or maybe it was when Robin put her dick

against your mouth. Maybe that's what started it."

My fuzzy brain was beginning to clear. Maybe it was true. Maybe "a

little hair of the dog" did bring you back to sobriety. I stared at

the two guys in the front seat. I couldn't believe my ears. I took

another large swallow of beer. Maybe if I got drunk again, this

nightmare would disappear.

"What're you two talking about?" I asked.

"Well, you know, putting on those stockings and garterbelt, and

then creaming all over yourself like that," said Chuck. "Why else would

you do something like that, if you didn't have some sort of curiosity,

or maybe even a predisposition to experiment like that?"

"I was drunk," I retorted. "I was feeling sorry for myself. Sandy

broke up with me tonight. The deal with the stockings was just my

drunkenness." I was trembling. What if they were right? Oh, shit.

Perish the thought.

We drove for awhile in silence, until we got to 14th Street and

headed uptown. I had a sense of grim foreboding about this trip.

"Where are we going?" I asked. "Are we going back to Queen Mary's?"

Al said, "Yeh."

"Well, I'm not interested in going to Queen Mary's," I said.

"That place has nothing at all for me. It's just a bunch of perverts,

doing their pervert stuff. Why don't you pull over to the curb and

let me out? I'll catch a bus back to the base."

Chuck, in a tone of voice that sounded sincerely sympathetic, said,

"No can do, little buddy. Al called Teddy and told him what we'd

found. He told Al to come over right away. He's expecting all three

of us."

I took another large swallow, finishing the can. Al opened another

one and handed it to me over the back seat. Suddenly, the car had

grown hot and stuffy. I was sweating, and finding it difficult to

breathe. I took a huge swallow of the beer.

"Why'd you call Teddy?" I asked. "What's he got to do with this?"

Al said, "Well, we figured it this way. Suppose it was true. Suppose

you did have tendencies toward Robin's way of living. Until tonight,

nobody knew, not even you. But then, there you were, sprawled out

on your bunk, wearing only those stockings and garterbelt, rolling

around in your own cum. What're we to think? We're not experts in

this sort of thing. So that's what we figure. Let's get an expert's

opinion. That's why we called Teddy."

My eyes filled with tears. "Aw, fellas. You can't do this to me.

C'mon. It was just because I was drunk. I'm not like that. You know

that. C'mon. Let's go home."

Chuck said, again seeming to be sincerely sympathetic, "No can do.

I'd never forgive myself if I didn't give you this opportunity to

learn about your deepest desires."

"What the hell are you talking about?" I wailed. "What deepest

desires? My deepest desires right now are to go home, go to bed,

sober up in the morning, and get on with my life. Now, let's quit

fooling around and go home."

Instead of turning around, Chuck actually speeded up. Before long,

we were turning right at U Street, and I could see Queen Mary's up

ahead on the right. I began to tremble. What was happening to me?

Chuck pulled over to the curb and cut the engine off. He and Al

opened their doors and started to get out. Chuck looked in the back

seat, where I sat frozen, determined not to move.

"Aw, Stevie," he said, "you don't want to be difficult about this.

You know Al has pictures of you. And you know he'll just get a huge

laugh out of showing them around to the other guys. You don't want

that sort of humiliation, do you?"

"What choice do I have?" I responded. "Either that, or go inside

Queen Mary's and be forced to do whatever their pervert imaginations

dream up for me? What kind of friend are you, Chuck?"

"Hey, Stevie, it's like I said. For all you know, I might be doing

you the biggest favor anyone's ever done you."

"Yeh, sure. Some favor."

Al leaned in the window. "Here comes Teddy. I guess your choices

just dropped to none." He grinned at me, an evil, taunting grin.

I continued to sit in stone-faced silence, trying not to look at

either Chuck or Al. But, then, the rear door opened, and Teddy was

suddenly climbing into the car to sit beside me. He said, in that

precise English, his voice soft and gentle, "I did not expect to

have the pleasure of your company again so soon, my friend. Come.

Let us go inside and become better acquainted."

He loomed over me like some sort of huge monolith. Al was right.

My choices were no longer available. I sighed in defeat, then followed

Teddy out the rear door. The four of us crossed the sidewalk and

entered the club. It was empty. I looked at my watch. It was 12:30.

I couldn't believe this nightmare had taken place so quickly. It had

only been six hours ago that Sandy had slapped me and stormed out of

my life, hurling insults as she went.

Teddy turned to Chuck and Al. "What time is your friend's leave

finished?"

Chuck said, "Oh, weekend passes are good until ten o'clock Sunday

night."

Teddy placed his hand on Chuck's shoulder, turning him toward the

door. "Fine, fine," he said. "Then if you do not hear from me before

eight o'clock tomorrow evening, you can assume everything went well

and our friend will return to the base on the bus. If I do call you,

however, I shall expect you to pick him up right away. Will that plan

present any difficulties for you?"

Chuck, stepping through the doorway, said, "No, not at all. We'll

be available to come any time, if you need us." He took a slip of

paper from his wallet, wrote down the number of the barracks payphone,

and handed it to Teddy.

"Excellent," said Teddy, as he held the door for Chuck and Al. Just

before it closed behind them, they both turned to me, waving and

smiling. Chuck said, "See ya tomorrow, little guy." Then they were gone.

* * * * *

Teddy reached out and took my arm, turning me until I was facing

the rear of the club. In the dim light cast by the red "EXIT" light,

I could see a figure standing by the bar. As I focused my eyes, I

assumed it must be Robin, since whoever it might have been was wearing

a dress. After closing and locking the door, Teddy took my elbow again

and guided me over to the person standing in the shadowy light. Indeed,

it was Robin. Teddy stepped over to her and said, "Go see to the

preparations." She nodded and turned away, heading toward the door of

the small room next to the jukebox.

Teddy turned to me and said, "Let us wait here until Robin tells

us she is ready." He looked deep into my eyes, and a small smile played

on his mouth. I was really nervous, and my forehead felt sweaty and

clammy. The beer I had drunk in Chuck's car was churning in my

stomach. I was scared to death I might throw up.

Finally, the door opened and Robin, framed by the light in the

tiny room, signaled us to come over. We entered the room. Robin had

changed into a nightgown, one of those baby doll types which ended at

her hips, just above her penis, which stood straight out from her

groin in a huge erection. The nightgown was sheer, a soft shade of

yellow, which covered her nipples and was held up by two thin spaghetti-

straps. From the waist up, she looked very feminine.

Teddy said to her, "I want him well-prepared for me."

Robin smiled and nodded. Then Teddy turned to me and said, "Why

don't you take off your clothes and get comfortable?" Although it

sounded like he was asking a question, it was obvious I had no choice

in the matter. Slowly, nervously, scared to death by the sheer size

of him, I complied. When I was finished, Robin picked my clothes up

from the floor, and disappeared through the door with them. I was

nearly in tears, I was so frightened.

A couple of minutes later, Robin returned with a small shopping

bag. Teddy said to Robin, "I shall come back later." He turned to

me and smiled. Very quietly he left the room, softly closing the

door behind him.

Robin stood looking at me, appraising me. She was trying to appear

as friendly as she could, to alleviate my nervousness, perhaps, or

maybe because she really was just trying to make friends with me.

She handed me the bag. Then, she said, sweetly, in her soft baritone,

"Put these on and let's see how you look."

Nervously, I took the bag and opened it. Inside was a nightgown

just like hers, only it was white. There was also a lacy white garterbelt,

and a pair of extremely sheer white stockings. Finally, there was a pair

of white mules, with perhaps two-inch heels. As I removed these items

from the bag, my lips began to tremble uncontrollably. My eyes filled

with tears, and I nearly began to bawl. But, even though my fingers

were also trembling, and I could hardly hold on to anything, I managed

to pull the stockings on and cinch them to the garters, and I slipped

the nightgown over my head, letting it drop softly over my shoulders.

If I hadn't been so upset, I might actually have enjoyed the silky

feel of the lingerie. But, my stomach was churning again, and I felt

like I had to pee. I finished dressing by stepping into the mules.

Interestingly, they fit.

Robin said, "You know, with the proper application of makeup and

the right kind of hairstyle, you'll be very pretty. Guys will break

down the door to get at you." She smiled broadly. She reached out with

her hand and took mine. She stepped over to the cot and sat down on

the edge, pulling me down beside her. For someone so decidedly feminine,

she was surprisingly strong. I could feel my resistance beginning to

fade away.

"Teddy wants to see if you'll fit in with us," she said, "so that's

why we're doing this - oh, what's a good way to put it? - this

evaluation. Your friends thought you might be a perfect match. And I

must say, as I look at you, I'm inclined to agree with them."

Suddenly, she was very seriously looking me over. "I think we can

be great friends, once we get over our initial shyness with each other.

Do you think so?"

I gulped. I couldn't think of anything to say. I mumbled something

like, "Oh, umm, I guess, I, oh, hmmm..."

She smiled at me, then put her hand on my forehead, brushing my

sweaty hair back. "Well, why not give it a try? We've got nothing to

lose, certainly, and a friendship to gain."

She took both my hands in hers. I felt like my entire body was

trembling. She held my hands, obviously trying to calm me. "Now, I

don't want you to be nervous. It's not like you're being tested.

You don't need to worry that you might fail or something. Just relax.

Of course, I hope that you'll enjoy yourself. Think of this as

an adventure of discovery. Ok?"

My eyes were like round saucers. "Well," she said, "it was pretty

obvious from earlier this evening that you've never had a blowjob.

Right?"

In spite of my trembling, I managed to nod my head.

"And you've never given one, either. Correct?"

My saucer-eyes were bright with tears. I nodded my head again.

"So, we thought you might want to, um, give it a try with me.

To see how it'll go. Ok?"

The tears were falling out of the saucers and cascading down my

cheeks. "Oh, dear," said Robin. "This will never do. Here. Let me get

some tissues to wipe those tears away. Then, we'll get started."

She stood up and crossed the room to the sink. On a shelf above it

was a box of tissues. She took a few out of the box, then crossed the

room back to where I sat on the bed. She stopped in front of me, and

bent over to wipe my cheeks with the tissues. Then she straightened

up. Her penis was about six inches away from my face. It wasn't

standing straight out from her anymore; but, it was semi-rigid. And

long. And thick. She put her hand on top of my head and gently began

to apply pressure to it, moving me slowly but inevitably toward the

head of her cock, which was beginning to deepen its pinkish hue to

a bright red. With her other hand, she gently lifted her penis until

it was pointed straight at me. I could see the little hole in the tip

of it beginning to expand, like a camera's shutter opening. My throat

felt constricted, my mouth felt dry, and my stomach was beginning to

churn again. I wanted to die.

I could hear Robin above me half-whisper, "C'mon, Sugar, open up.

It won't hurt. Believe me." Once again, like several weeks ago, I

could feel the head of her cock pressing against my lips. Finally,

knowing resistance was no longer possible, I surrendered, and with a

groan of defeat, I opened my lips. Immediately, her penis entered my

mouth. It was incredibly warm and velvety-soft. Some fluid was dripping

out of the hole in the tip, and I could feel it sort of slide onto

my tongue. Robin said, "Lick it, Sweet Baby; love it."

Timidly, I pulled my tongue back and licked the head as it pushed

past my teeth. "Roll your tongue around the whole head, Sweetness,"

Robin said. I let my tongue slide around the head as she instructed.

"Now, slide your tongue all the way down to the end and keep licking

around. Like you're licking a popsicle." I got her drift and began

licking up and down her expanding member.

She began to draw it back out of my mouth, then, in a fucking motion,

shoved it back in, but slowly and gently. I continued to lick as the

rod slid back and forth. "Now, form a vacuum and suck on it," I could

hear Robin say. I pulled my cheeks in tight, until I could feel her

penis was held snugly in my mouth. Then, I sucked it in as far as I

could. Without breaking her rhythm, she sat down on the bed, pulling me

around until I was on my knees, bent over her groin, with her penis

standing straight up like a pole. I let my mouth slide down her

cock until my nose was being tickled by her pubic hair. Suddenly, I

realized two things: I was relaxing, and I was responding.

Robin must have sensed it, too, because she quit talking and just

continued fucking my face. I couldn't believe my reaction to what she

was doing to me. I could feel myself getting hotter and hotter, and

really becoming actively involved. At some point, I found my hands

had reached under Robin and were clutching her asscheeks, pulling her

cock up, deeper into my eager mouth. She continued to fuck away at me,

increasing the tempo as she became more excited. Both of her hands now

held my head, squeezing it between them, as she began to breathe in

ragged, noisy gasps. I could tell she was about to come, and I became

frightened again, wondering what it would be like to have a mouthful

of sperm. Then, just as she erupted in my mouth, and I was hit with

an explosion of cum, I felt a hand on my ass and something cold and

slimy enter my asshole. Before I could react to this invasion of my

anus, I felt this huge presence enter my rectum and push in, filling

me up completely, causing me almost to pee. Oh, fucking shit, I was

being screwed in the ass!

But I was so far gone there was nothing I could do to protect myself

from the penis now lodged deep within my bowels. I was concentrating

all my effort on swallowing the huge blobs of cum being spat into my

mouth by Robin's pecker. Another realization: I was enjoying this!

And her cum tasted great! What the fuck was happening here?

She continued to hold my head impaled on her dick, even as it slowly

began to soften. In response, I continued to lick it, trying to recover

every drop of her chowdery sperm. In the meantime, the prick in my ass

had begun to fuck me in earnest, and I became increasingly aware of the

sensations it was causing. It was clearly uncomfortable, but it didn't

hurt. The only thing I had ever experienced to compare it to was the

finger the medical technician had inserted in my butt during the

prostate exam of my pre-enlistment physical. All of us enlistees and

draftees had joked about being cornholed by the medics; but, I must

say that was nothing - nothing! - compared to what was happening to me

now. Suddenly, I heard Teddy's soft voice behind me: "Relax now, let

yourself enjoy this."

Since my mouth was still wrapped around Robin's penis, I was unable

to respond. I did, however, attempt to relax my sphincter muscles,

though in my nervous state, this was not an easy thing to do. Teddy

gently pushed his penis deeper into me, then just as gently pulled it

back, until I could feel only the head just inside the entrance of

my asshole. But then the relentless pressure of his push began again,

and again I was filled to overflowing with his massive prick. He began

to increase the pace, pulling and pushing with more energy on each

stroke. As my prostate continued to be battered by the relentless

momentum of his fucking, I felt my own penis begin to stiffen and

thicken. My hands were still clutching Robin's ass and my mouth was

still impaled on her cock. As my penis grew longer, straighter,

harder, I found myself beginning to respond to Teddy. I began to fuck

him back. Before long, we were a frenzy of two sweating, shoving

bodies. I could hear him groaning above me, and I could hear myself

groaning as well. My eyes were filling with tears again, as my brain

began singing, "So good, so good, so good," over and over in time

to the pounding of Teddy's cock. As he came, my own cock erupted and

I sent a shower of sperm out over the sheet beneath me, between

Robin's spread legs. Teddy gasped and poured his hot, abundant seed

into my guts.

By now, I was both laughing and crying, kissing and licking

Robin's cock, wiggling my ass in an effort to hold Teddy's dick

inside me. Never had I experienced anything like this! I thought I

was in heaven. I wondered why I'd waited so long for this glorious

moment.

Slowly, Teddy withdrew his penis from my ass, and I let myself

sink down onto the bed, lying between Robin's legs, her cock still

embedded in my mouth. I wanted to keep it there forever. But, slowly,

she lifted me off her, and slid out from under me. My face sank into

the mattress. I was crying, in joy, in shame, in amazement, in sorrow.

You name it. It didn't matter how many different emotions surged

through my brain. I was crying just because I was crying. Robin gently

lifted me so I was sitting up. She began to dab at my eyes and my

cheeks with a tissue. As my vision cleared, I realized that Teddy was

standing directly in front of me, his now-softened penis a few inches

away from my mouth, just as Robin's had been at the outset of this

episode. I was thoroughly amazed; soft, Teddy's cock was bigger than

mine erect. Gently, he touched my cheek with his hand, and said,

"It is the etiquette of this house, my small friend, that when I

am finished you must clean me off." Tearfully, I placed my mouth

on his organ. I could taste the residue of his fuck: cum, shit,

petroleum jelly. I didn't care anymore. If this was what he

desired, I was only too glad to do it for him. I began to lick him

clean. As I worked on his gigantic member, I heard him say to

Robin, "She's lovely, Robin, my dear. I know Her Majesty will be

greatly pleased. What shall we name her?"

Robin said, "I like Fanny. Fanny Gaye. Then we can be sisters.

Robin and Fanny Gaye."

(Later on I asked Robin how she had come up with a name like

Fanny for me.

"Easy," she said, "My boy name was Robert. When I came out, I

called myself Roberta, and Bobbie for short. Some of my friends

called me Robbie, instead, and from there it was just a short hop

to Robin."

"Ok," I said, "But how does that explain Fanny?"

"Simple. Your boy name is Steve. Your girl name would probably

be Stephanie. Steph-fanny. Get it?"

I loved my new name.)

I continued to clean Teddy's dick. Finally, he was done with me, and

he gently pushed my head away. I was still nervous and shy with them

both, so I sat on the edge of the bed, my head bowed, looking at my

lap, my hands resting uselessly at my sides.

Robin put her arm around my shoulder, pulling my head into her

chest. "Oh, yes, Fanny, we're going to be great friends. Sisters.

I've never had a sister."

Although I couldn't see Teddy's face, since my own was buried in

Robin's chest, I could tell from the tone of his voice he was smiling,

clearly quite pleased with the way things had gone. "I think that's

wonderful, Robin. A good friend for me, a sister for you, a subject

for Her Majesty, Queen Mary. It's been a most pleasant evening, I think."

He reached out and touched the top of my head, softly rubbing it.

Robin stood up and, taking my hands in hers, pulled me to my feet.

"C'mon, Fanny," she said. "Let's go get cleaned up and I'll show

you our room." She opened the door, and, still holding my hand, led

me through the door marked "EXIT." There was a short hallway leading

to a door to the outside rear of the building. About halfway down the

hall was another door. This door opened to a stairway leading to an

apartment above the club. I guessed that was where Robin's room was.

She led me up the stairs, then quietly down the hall past a few other

doors, until we stood before one at the furthest end of the hall. She

opened it and we entered.

The room was small but nicely furnished. Robin really did have feminine

longings. She had painted the walls a soft pink. The one window was

framed by a delicate, white lace curtain. She had a small vanity with a

mirror attached to it. The vanity was covered by a slipcover of the same

shade of pink as the wall, and fringed with white lace. The slipcover was

held in place by a rectangular glass top. Cosmetics and other items

were carefully arranged on the glass. There was a chair with a pink

seat cushion and a low back placed in front of the vanity, the only place

to sit except for the double bed. In one corner was a bureau covered by a

white lace doily. Her bed was covered by a pink comforter. And on the floor

was a white rug with a pile so deep it hid your toes. The room was so

feminine, it was almost a parody of femininity. She turned to me and

whispered - I don't know why she whispered - "This is our room. Like it?"

I was stupefied. After living in a barracks for the past sixteen weeks,

as I had, this room was unbelievably soft and plush. I was overwhelmed.

I didn't know what to say. Robin was obviously pleased with it. To keep

from hurting her feelings more than any other reason, I nodded and

whispered back, "It sure is pretty."

She smiled broadly, then said, "C'mon. Let's get these sweaty things

off and get cleaned up."

We undressed quickly. Robin took my hand again, and led me out into

the hall. Directly opposite from her room was a door which, as it turned

out, opened into a bathroom. We crossed the hall and entered it. The

bathroom was small, but we were both able to move about fairly easily

without feeling too cramped. Robin turned on the shower, and climbed in.

She signaled me to get in with her. We both stood under the misty spray,

quietly letting the water run over and cleanse us. Robin had a washcloth

in one hand and a bar of soap in the other. She lathered up the washcloth

and began soaping me with it. She rubbed the soap into me as though she

were giving me a massage. It was wonderful. I closed my eyes and let

myself luxuriate under her ministrations. Soon - too soon! - she was done.

She handed me the soap and washcloth, and now it was my turn to do her.

Having never bathed another person before, I was at first awkward. But,

soon, I was enjoying myself. I carefully scrubbed every part of her,

even the inside of the crack of her ass. Her arms gently rested on my

shoulders, and I felt soothed by her gentle embrace. When I was done,

she pulled me deeper into her hug, and kissed me on the lips. It wasn't

a kiss designed to arouse my passion. It was more a kiss of loving

friendship, a sisterly sort of kiss. I began to cry.

She broke the kiss and released me from her arms. Carefully, she

stepped out of the tub, but indicated I was to remain. She opened

the little cupboard beneath her sink, and pulled out a razor and some

shaving cream. "You'll love the feeling of your stockings much more

after you've shaved your legs," she said. Then, she soaped my legs

and began to remove all the hair. I was too stunned to protest. But,

in the back of my mind, I wondered how I was going to conceal this

from the guys back at the barracks. At the moment, I was so overwhelmed

by Robin, and by my recent experience, to think too clearly about my

situation. I just let her enjoy herself.

When she'd finished my legs, she shaved my underarms. After she

finished shaving me, I was allowed to get out of the tub, to stand

in the middle of the bathroom, where she gently toweled me dry with

a big, fluffy pink towel. After drying me off, she turned back to

the cupboard and pulled out a container of baby powder, which she

proceeded to rub all over my legs, my groin, my chest, my underarms.

She even rubbed some in the crack of my ass. It felt wonderful.

We tiptoed silently back across the hall to Robin's room. Once inside,

she took my hand and led me over to the bureau. She opened a drawer.

Inside it were several nightgowns of the type we had worn downstairs.

"You can wear one of these to bed," she said.

"What about the one I was wearing downstairs?" I asked.

"Silly," she giggled. A baritone giggle. "White's for virgins. You

aren't one of those anymore."

I smiled back at her. "I guess not," I said. "Well, I'll wear this

green one, then." She took it out and handed it to me. It was the same

design as the white babydoll I had worn before. Only this nighty was

a soft green, and so sheer the weave was nearly invisible. It was like

being surrounded by a green-colored cloud. Robin opened another drawer

and pulled out a green garterbelt and a pair of stockings as green and

as sheer as the nighty.

"Most girls don't wear stockings to bed," she said. "But, this is

how Teddy likes us to look. So, go ahead. Put them on."

I sat down on the bed, and began pulling the stockings up my legs.

The soft, luxurious feel of them as they slid up my denuded legs caused

my penis to twitch and begin to stiffen. What an incredible feeling!

The soft stockings, the silky nightgown. Never before had I ever

experienced anything quite like this. But, I felt at home wearing these

frilly clothes. I felt feminine, even though I was a long way from

being it. While I was putting on my stockings, Robin was putting on

her own nighty and stockings. She was wearing a light purple shade.

Since she had on fingernail and toenail polish, and a light application

of lipstick, she really did look feminine. She sat down at the vanity

table and began removing her bobby pins from her hair, letting it cascade

down her back, until it stopped midway to her bottom. She picked up a

brush and began pulling at her hair, stroking it until it gleamed.

She was actually beautiful. She looked at me in the mirror, and said,

"Climb into bed, Sugar, I'll be right there."

I laid down in the bed and watched Robin finish brushing her hair.

Satisfied at last, she put the brush down and crossed the floor to

join me. She lay down beside me, her face inches from mine, and

gently ran her hand over my body. She was quiet for a few moments, just

smiling and rubbing me. I felt so - how can I say this? - loved, and

protected. I was warm both inside and out. I smiled back at her. Her

eyes began to film over with tears. She whispered, "I've never had a

friend, a real friend, anyway. I've been pretty much alone most of my

life. It's the one part of being a boy-girl I find hardest to deal

with." She was quiet again. Then, she said, "But, now I have you.

Now I have a friend. You're the nicest thing that's ever happened to

me."

My eyes were misting over, too, and we lay like that for a long

time, our arms around each other, crying and smiling, until at last

we both drifted off to sleep.

Sometime later, I don't know how much later, except that it was

still dark out, I felt myself being shaken. I opened my eyes. Robin

was asleep, her arm draped over my back, her hand resting against

my tummy. I looked up and saw Teddy leaning over the bed. He gestured

with his finger, and whispered, "Come with me."

Carefully, I moved Robin's arm so as not to awaken her. Then, I slid

over to the side of the bed, silently standing up and moving toward

the door to follow Teddy. He held his hand out to stop me, and pointed

at my feet. At first, I didn't understand what he meant. Then, I

realized, of course, he wanted me to put on my mules. I reached under

the bed and retrieved them, quietly slipping them on, and tiptoed

out the door behind Teddy.

I followed him down the hall to the other end, where his room was

located. He opened his door and beckoned me inside. His room was dark,

except for a dim night light which was plugged into an outlet near

the door. But I could tell it was a considerably larger room than

the one Robin and I shared. He had a private bathroom, which he

entered through a door in his room. He indicated that I was to stand

over next to his bed. I moved to the foot of the bed, and watched

as he lay down on it. His massive cock was resting on his taut,

muscular belly. Even in repose, it was larger than mine erect. It

made me nervous to think that something that huge had been shoved

into my ass.

I stood there, looking down at him, for a long moment. Then, he

said, "I want you to prepare me to enter you."

Hesitantly, I climbed onto the bed, carefully separating his legs

so I could crawl in between them. Once I was in position, I reached

out with my hand to take hold of his penis. Then, slowly, carefully,

I bent over and began licking the crown, making a circular sweep of

the entire head. I opened my mouth and slowly took him into it,

continuing to lick around his rod as I did so. Once I had about three

or four inches of him inside my mouth, I closed my lips tight and

pulled up, sliding his dick slowly back out. Before I released the

head, however, I plunged my face forward, filling my mouth with even

more of his wonderful cock. He groaned. I continued pulling and pushing,

my tongue still swabbing him in a circular motion. I could feel the

temperature of his penis rising, and the skin stretching tighter and

tighter. I bobbed my head up and down the length of his dick, or at

least as much of it as I could fit in my mouth. Finally, he placed

his hands on either side of my head and gently lifted me off him.

"Now, straddle me," he said.

I sat astride his middle, his huge erection pushed against my

groin, rubbing against my own thickening penis. He took my hand and

put a container in it. I looked, and saw it was a jar of petroleum

jelly. After what had occurred earlier tonight, I knew exactly what

to do with it. I rubbed it all over my finger, and shoved it in my

ass, repeating that action several times, until I felt certain I

was well lubricated and ready to receive Teddy's cock.

"Put me inside you," he commanded.

I lifted myself up so that I was directly over his erection.

I took it in one hand and placed my other hand on his chest so I

wouldn't lose my balance. Then, slowly I lowered myself down onto

his cock. As it began to push into my asshole, I became afraid,

wondering if it would hurt like it had the first time. So, I was

very careful and slow in feeding his dick into me. Once again I had

a full-up feeling, but the pain was gone. Once my ass touched his

tummy, I knew he was in me to the hilt. I rested for a moment,

allowing myself to get used to the feeling of being plugged up

like this.

"Start fucking," growled Teddy. I began a rhythm of lifting

myself up, then sitting back down. I could feel my own penis growing

as I fucked up and down on Teddy's massive organ. What a strange

feeling! I wondered if I would ever become totally accustomed to

this feeling of fullness. Suddenly, Teddy reached up with his huge

hands and grabbed the back of my neck. He pulled me down so that

my face was in front of his. "Kiss me," he said. I placed my lips

against his, and immediately his tongue entered my mouth. My penis

twitched and jumped, and I thought I was going to shoot all over

him. But somehow Teddy sensed my crisis, and quickly grabbed my

cock with his hand, squeezing it until I thought he would rip

it off completely. With my mouth pressed to his, I was unable to

cry out; but, I did groan. He continued fucking my mouth with his

tongue, matching it to the rhythm of his prick sliding in and out

of my asshole. I concentrated on his effort, and soon realized my

erection had evaporated. It didn't matter. My pleasure was in

pleasuring Teddy. I knew this without being told.

Teddy pulled his tongue out of my mouth and his lips away from

mine. He looked up at me and said, "Now, I want you to relax,

but don't stop fucking. I'm going to roll you over on your back."

I wrapped my arms around him and squeezed my thighs against his.

Suddenly, we were tumbling over, his arms holding me against him,

his hands gripping my asscheeks. Now I was on my back beneath his

full weight. I was being fucked like a woman. And then the oddest

thing happened. I could feel his masculine strength as his body

pressed me into the mattress. I could feel the protective warmth of

his arms wrapped around me. I could feel the mastery of this giant of

a man as his dick pounded away in my rectum. And suddenly I knew

what it was to be a woman being made love to by a man. I could simply

surrender my will to him, I could let myself be taken in love, I

could empty myself of all resistance and be swept away by his superior

strength. I could feel his orgasm pouring its sweet liquid into my

interior. And I felt so loved, so protected, that I began to weep in

joyful abandon, kissing his neck, his chest, whatever part of him

my lips could find as he pressed himself against me and emptied

himself into me.

After he finished, we lay there in silence, except for my sniffling

as I tried to control my tears. Finally softened, his penis slid

slowly out of my ass. Then, he rolled off of me and lay on his side

looking deep into my eyes. Softly, he kissed me on the lips, and

said, "Remember the etiquette of the house, little friend. When you

are finished, you may return to your room."

I sat up and leaned over him, taking his wilted member into my

mouth. Once again, I could taste his sperm, my shit, the greasy

jelly. I didn't care. I loved every sensation I had experienced with

this wonderful man. Lovingly, I licked him clean, even blowing softly

on him to dry him off. I planted a tender kiss on the head of his dick,

then silently got off the bed, left the room, and tiptoed down the

hall to the room I now shared with Robin.

* * * * *

The sun was streaming through the white lace curtain, bathing the

room in a warm sunrise glow. Robin stretched and yawned, loud enough

to wake me up. As I opened my eyes, I saw her beside me, leaning on

her elbow, a grin covering her face. "Hi, sister!" she gushed in her

soft baritone. She leaned forward and kissed my lips. She looked out

the window. "What a glorious day it's going to be! I can't wait to

get started."

She reached her arm behind me, and smacked me on the bare bottom.

"C'mon, lazybones!" she laughed, "Let's rise and shine!"

I sat up reluctantly. The events of the night before had left me

completely exhausted. I would much rather have gone back to sleep.

But Robin, wide awake now, and full of enthusiasm, wouldn't let me.

She took my hands, pulling me off the bed. "Hurry up, Fanny," she

said, "we've got a busy day ahead of us. You're going to meet Her

Majesty, Queen Mary, herself. Oh, I'm so excited. I just know she's

going to love you. Then for sure we'll be sisters."

I had no idea what Robin was talking about. It didn't matter,

really. I figured I would find out soon enough what she meant.

I followed her across the hall into the bathroom. She showed me how

I was supposed to sit to pee - "How many girls do you know who stand

up when they use the toilet?" - and I followed her lead. We took

another shower, and it was fun sharing the stall with her. Her skin

was so soft I enjoyed brushing against her, touching her wherever I

could. She was very businesslike this time, though. We finished our

shower quickly, then carefully shaved our faces. She gave my legs

another once-over with the razor, just to be sure they were really

smooth.

We crossed the hall back to our room. At her insistence, I began

to think of her room as ours. "We're sisters," she reminded me.

"Sisters share everything."

She sat down in the chair at her vanity table and turned to me.

"Now, Fanny, I want you to watch very closely how I make myself up.

You may as well begin to learn how to do this for yourself right away.

Of course, I'll help you at first. But the sooner you can do this for

yourself, the sooner you'll begin to feel like a girl."

I sat on the edge of the bed and watched her as first she touched

up her toenail and fingernail polish, then began to work on her face.

She'd been doing this for a long time, and was well-practiced in the

art of making up her face to bring out all its hidden, feminine

beauty. When she was finally finished, she really was beautiful. Of

course, I was smitten, so my judgement was biased.

She sat me down in the chair and knelt on the floor beside me.

"First, let's do our nails. Now, obviously, if you want them to look

real feminine, you'll have to get a manicure and a pedicure. Maybe

next week we'll have time for that. But, today I just want you to

feel what it's like to have polish on your nails. Ok?"

I was completely under her spell. "Sure," I said. "Show me how to

do it."

She picked up my foot and rested it in her crotch. Unbelievably,

her penis did not begin to grow stiff. I know mine would have under

similar circumstances. But my foot was warm and comfortable, resting

against her groin like that. With a frown of intense concentration,

she began to paint my nails, instructing me in the ways of being

carefully meticulous in the application of polish. When she had finished

that foot, she placed the jar and brush on the vanity. "Your turn,"

she said, "Let's see what you've learned."

I was a little clumsy with the toes I had to do, but for the most

part, I did all right for a beginner. At least Robin was pleased.

"You did fine, Fanny. Now, do your fingernails the same way. It should

be easier since you don't have to get all scrunched up to do them."

I laughed delightedly at her joyful chatter, carefully applying the

polish to my fingernails. We continued to chat while she put makeup on

me, instructing me in the fine points of foundation, rouge, eyeliner,

lipstick and whatever else I might need to know about making myself

glamorous. When we were done, she looked into my eyes, suddenly serious,

and said, "Gee, Fanny, you really are a lovely girl. Come see yourself

in the mirror."

With my hair in a GI brush cut, it was hard for me to agree with

Robin; however, I could see that my face did indeed have a feminine

softness to it, curved rather than angular. I wondered what difference

a wig would make. Robin didn't keep me in suspense for long. She got

up and went over to the closet, taking down a box from the shelf above

the hanger rod. Inside the box was a wig, sitting on a wig form. It

was obviously an expensive wig; it looked positively real. Robin told

me she had worn this until her own hair had grown in. Now, I could

wear it. "Sisters share everything," was her explanation. Carefully,

she placed it on my head, showing me how it was held in place by

strategically located hairpins. This time when I looked in the mirror,

I saw a girl looking back. I was amazed, and a little frightened.

Robin, on the other hand, was delighted. She pulled me out of the

chair, saying, "C'mon, let's finish dressing. We've got a breakfast

to prepare." She went over to the bureau and opened the bottom drawer.

She turned to show me what she had retrieved. In each hand she held

what appeared to be a corset. She held them up for me to examine.

"I am so excited. Ever since I began dressing, I have wanted to wear

a corset like this. It's got boned stays so it'll really hold you

in. And it's got laces, so you can trim your waist to a mere wisp of

nothing. It's so feminine, I nearly climax just looking at it."

I said, "Well, why haven't you worn it before?"

"Silly," she replied. "I can't tie the laces by myself. But, now

that I have you, at long last my dream will come true. And, lucky,

lucky you. I have two corsets. So you get to wear one, too."

She handed me one of the garments. It was made of a sort-of elasticized

rubber, covered with a silky soft material and lacy edges, with stiff,

ridged vertical stays arranged at intervals around it. In the back was

a row of laces designed to hold the garment tightly to the wearer's

body. There were six garter straps, three for each leg. It appeared

that, once in place, it would cover the wearer's middle, from the hips

to just below the breasts. I wondered what it would feel like to wear

it.

While I was examining it, Robin was putting on a pair of black

fishnet stockings. "When we're working in the club," she explained,

"these are the stockings we always wear. When we're in our apartment,

we can wear whatever we please." She tossed me a pair she had gotten

out of the bureau drawer. "Anyway, you might want to put these on

and pull them up over your knees, at least. Once you're laced into

that corset, it's going to be almost impossible for you to bend."

I followed her advice, and pulled the stockings up my legs. The

fishnet stockings had a strange, erotic feel, probably because of

their design. I felt covered up and naked at the same time. I was

really enjoying all these new sensations. Robin stepped behind me

and wrapped the corset around my middle. "Now, until I get started on

your laces, I want you to hold the corset tight against your tummy."

She tightened the laces at the bottom of the garment, continuing up

to the top. Once she'd reached that point, I could feel I was

snugly encased inside it. But, she was only beginning. She now went

back to each row of lace-holes, and snugged the laces even more.

Then, she went back to the bottom and repeated the entire procedure.

I felt like my insides were being squeezed into a blob in the center

of my body. I felt so constricted I wouldn't be able to breathe.

The stays really were rigid. There was no way I could bend my back.

Finally, after a couple more trips up and down my back to snug the

laces, she tied them tightly at the top and tucked them out of

the way. I struggled to reach the tops of my stockings, barely

managing to grip them. Using the mirror, I finally was able to snap

them onto the garters. My face was beet-red from the exertion.

Robin smiled broadly. "You look wonderful," she gushed. "Now,

it's my turn." I repeated the same procedure she had performed

on me, tightening the laces until I thought I would cut her in two.

But, she was in heaven, her dream had come true. She urged me to

make it even tighter, apparently loving the severe constriction.

Now I knew where Robin's cleavage came from. With the foundation

squeezing as tightly as it did, there had to be someplace for the

excess skin to go. Robin had carefully pushed the skin of her chest

up, so it now hung over the top of the corset, forming two small

pseudo-breasts. She had done the same for me. As we stood together

looking at ourselves in the mirror, she giggled and said, "So, Fanny,

how do you like having tits?"

I was amazed at the effect she had produced. She sighed, "Ah, but

I wish they were real. Well, a girl can dream, can't she?" She went

over to the closet and pulled down two dresses of the style she wore

waitressing in the club. She handed one to me. "Let's see if it fits."

She held it over my head and let it fall over my shoulders, showing

me how to pull it down and fit it to my waist and hips. Then she

showed me how to operate the zipper in the back. The dress fit

perfectly over the corset. It rested on my hips, flaring out a little

and reaching a point about midway to my knees.

I was wearing no underpants. Robin explained, "Both Teddy and Her

Majesty prefer we not wear panties. It's a sign of our availability

to them and to the customers in the club." Maybe so, I thought; but,

I felt exposed and vulnerable without underwear. It was as though

I was defenseless. Anyone could rub my bare ass, or grab my balls.

It was an odd, somewhat scary feeling.

Robin stepped into her black, patent leather pumps with the three-

inch heels that she wore in the club. She told me there was another

pair in the closet that should fit me, since her mules had fit.

I pushed them out with my foot, then stepped into them. At first, I

nearly tripped. My feet felt like they were perpendicular to the

floor. The only way I could walk was to take short, mincing steps,

almost on tiptoe. Robin said, "You look adorable. You'll get the

hang of the shoes in no time, believe me." She stepped over and

gave me a little hug and a kiss on the cheek. "Come on, sister-friend.

Let's go get breakfast ready."

We quietly walked down the long hall until we came to a door about

halfway between our room and Teddy's. Robin opened the door and led

me inside to a spacious, expensively furnished room. I could see

a large kitchen beyond, an airy room with two large windows letting

the bright sunshine in. This apartment was obviously for the use of

everyone in the household. Robin said, "Isn't this room delightful?"

I nodded in agreement. She went on, "I wish we could use it. But it's

only for Teddy and Her Majesty to use. We get the run of the kitchen,

though. Come on, I'll take you back there. You'll just love it."

The kitchen was spacious, and even held a large table which could

easily seat up to six people, though there were only four chairs pushed

against it. In the center of the room was a bar-counter. At one end,

two bar stools stood at the empty counter. At the other end of the

counter was a range with four burners. A range hood made of some sort

of copper-colored metal was positioned above the burners, and evidently

vented up into the attic, or roof, or whatever lay above the ceiling.

There were pantries and cupboards all around the room, except where

the refrigerator, the dishwasher, and a small washer-drier unit

took up the wall space. Beneath the windows was a large sink and drain

counter. The cupboards were made of blond oak, and the walls which

were visible were painted white. It was a light, airy, relaxed

environment. Robin whispered, as though afraid to disturb the sunny

silence, "I just love this room. I could spend all my time in here."

She went over to a narrow closet and pulled down two aprons, starched

white cotton trimmed in a lace-edge. We put them on.

"But why are we not allowed to use the living room?" I asked her.

"Her Majesty uses that room," she replied. "We are permitted in

her presence only by invitation, and then generally only to serve her.

I don't mind. When I'm not working, I much prefer to be in our room,

anyway. I feel comfortable and free in there in a way I never could

in here."

Robin began puttering around, pulling pans out of cupboards,

and food out of the refrigerator. She started a pot of coffee going

in a drip-coffeemaker. "We're going to have pancakes and eggs this

morning," she said. "And while we work, I'll fill you in on what

Teddy called the 'etiquette' of the household. You just pull up a

stool and help me make the fruit cups."

She had gotten some fruit out of the refrigerator, apples, oranges,

and grapes, and had washed them under the faucet in the sink. My task

was now to prepare them in an attractive way in dessert cups. While

we worked, me doing the fruit cups, Robin doing the pancake mix, she

explained how Her Majesty's household worked.

"Teddy is the manager and bouncer of the club. He is also Her

Majesty's younger brother. He is free to do as he pleases. He is also

free to use you and me sexually whenever he desires. But, we never

sleep in his bed. When he's finished with us, we come back to our

own room. He has two standing policies which we must always obey.

First, we may never, ever have an erection in his presence. Our job

is to give him pleasure, not ourselves. So, no hardons around Teddy.

Second, when he is done with us, we must clean his penis with our

mouths. You have already been told about that. Down in the club,

our relationship with Teddy is this: if a customer wishes to purchase

our services, Teddy must first approve. We signal him that a

customer has given us a tip, one raised finger for a ten-dollar tip -

that's a blowjob - two raised fingers for a twenty-dollar tip, which

is a fuck. Teddy will nod or point to signify approval. It's not

hard to figure out if it's ok with him. If he signals ok, we take

the tip-money to him before we take care of the customer. We never

keep money on us. Never. If I go shopping, I am escorted by Teddy,

or, more likely, by Samuel the bartender, who, by the way, is not

officially part of the household. But he is a friend."

"What about Queen Mary?"

"Her Majesty owns the club. In a way, she also owns us. But I

mean that loosely. We choose to be part of her household. She provides

us with a home and with protection. We, in turn, provide her service,

both here in the apartment and downstairs in the club. We never see Her

Majesty except by her invitation. You're going to meet her this

afternoon. She wants to look you over to be sure you will fit in

with us. Don't worry. I know she'll like you. Anyway, in her presence

we are required to kneel at all times. We speak only in response to

her questions. We perform whatever tasks she requires. We address

her always, 'Your Majesty.' We refer to her always as 'Her Majesty.'

I know it sounds kind of silly; but, like I say, she provides us

with a home and with protection. People like us don't often have

either or both."

I looked at her. She was engrossed in her work. She was not smiling.

"In addition to our duties as waitresses and whores in the club,

and yes, we are whores, get used to that fact, we are also required

to keep the apartment clean. We clean all the rooms, we do all the

laundry, we do all the cooking. Both Teddy and Her Majesty have their

meals delivered to them. We are at their beck and call twenty-four

hours a day. But it's a pleasure. They're easy to work for, as long

as we do our job."

By now I had arranged four fruit cups, and Robin had cooked up a

pile of pancakes. She walked over to an intercom attached to the

wall next to the door, and pressed a button. A soft buzz sounded in

the speaker. "That's Teddy's button," she said. A minute later,

a louder buzz sounded in the kitchen. "That means he's awake, and

we can take his breakfast to him."

She walked back over to the counter and reached into a cabinet

under it, pulling out a large silver tray and a matching lid.

She reached into a drawer and pulled out a large linen napkin.

"First," she told me, "you put this napkin on the tray. Then, you

set a plate on it." She put a plate from one of the cupboards on

the tray. "Then, you take some silverware and roll it up in a

napkin." She demonstrated this procedure. "Now, you pour a carafe

of coffee from the coffeemaker, and pour a little juice in a juice

glass." She did all this. She stacked pancakes on the plate,

placed a sugar bowl, creamer and syrup server on the tray, then

finished with a cup and saucer. She covered the tray with the matching

cover.

"Take this tray down to Teddy's room. Tap on his door. He'll

tell you when to enter. You'll have to balance the tray on one hand

while you open the door. Think you can do that?"

I said I thought I could.

"You take the tray in to his room and, over against the wall,

you'll see a tray butler. You carry that over to his bedside,

open it up, and place the tray on it. Then, remove the cover.

He may dismiss you. If he doesn't, you stand nearby, being quiet

and unobtrusive, and wait for his instructions. Got that?"

I said yes, and picked up the tray. It was heavy, but I was able

to balance it without too much difficulty, in spite of the unfamiliar

feel of the high heels on my feet. Carefully, I left the kitchen,

crossed the living room, and stepped into the hall. I walked slowly

down the hall until I stood at Teddy's door. Balancing the tray with

one hand underneath it, I softly tapped on the wooden door. I heard

him say, "Yes, come in, please."

I turned the knob and opened the door. Teddy was sitting in his

bed, naked, his long black penis lying quietly between his legs.

In my mind, I was envisioning myself crawling across the room and

up to the foot of his bed, begging him to let me suck him off.

And to think that only yesterday I'd been a virgin! I found the butler's

caddy and set it up one-handedly next to the bed. Then I set the tray

down on it, and lifted off the cover. Teddy seemed delighted.

"Excellent, little Fanny. You're making great progress."

He ate with great relish, while I stood quietly off to one side,

waiting for his instructions. My mind couldn't erase the image of me

kneeling between Teddy's legs, his enormous erection embedded in my

mouth. My own penis was beginning to grow stiff. Frantically, I

tried to change my thoughts to something else, anything to make my

growing erection disappear. What if he ordered me to lift my skirt?

Robin hadn't told me what punishment I might get for having an erection.

Maybe it was too horrible to talk about. I started to get nervous and

twitchy. My face was burning red. Slowly, my hardon receded. I breathed

a sigh of relief and concentrated instead on examining the wall.

Finally, Teddy was finished. "Excellent!" he exclaimed. "Did you

prepare this splendid repast?"

"No, sir, Robin did," I replied, not knowing whether it was proper

to call him Teddy in my maid role. "I fixed the fruit cup."

He laughed. "And a delicious fruit cup it was." Then he motioned

me to come stand beside the bed where he could see me more clearly.

"This afternoon, before you return to your base, you will be taken

to meet Her Majesty, Queen Mary. If you meet with her approval, you

will be invited to become a member of our household. Would you like to

do that?"

I nodded. "Yes, sir, very much."

He studied my face. "I suppose Robin has told you that as a member

of our household, you will be required to work downstairs in the club."

"Yes, sir, she did."

"She also told you what your duties entailed down there."

"Yes, sir."

"And you still want to be accepted into our household."

"Yes, sir."

He clapped his hands in delight. "Good girl! Now, take these dishes

back to the kitchen. You will be called when it is time."

"Yes, sir." I was so overwhelmed, I even gave a sort of curtsy, even

though I had no idea how to go about doing it. Teddy smiled at me as I

gathered up the remains of his breakfast, and scurried out the door

and back to the kitchen.

When I got to the kitchen, I noticed Robin was gone. She must be

serving Queen Mary, I mean, Her Majesty. I was very curious about

this person. What would she be like? And why all the formal reverence

at even the mention of her name? Oh, well, soon enough I'll know the

answer to that question. I sat down on a stool and waited for Robin

to return.

* * * * *

Not long after, Robin did return, carrying a tray like the one I'd

used to serve Teddy. She, indeed, had brought breakfast to Her Majesty.

While we busied ourselves rinsing the dishes and placing them in the

dishwasher, and cleaning up the pots and pans, Robin continued to

explain how the household operated. It seemed that Her Majesty had

several real estate investments, which her brother, Teddy, managed.

These investments kept them busy most of the time. Robin had no

knowledge of the details; she only knew that Teddy and Her Majesty

were often gone from the apartment.

"What about the bartender, Samuel?" I asked. "Is he somehow related

to Teddy and Her Majesty?"

Robin replied, "I don't know if he is or not. I know he doesn't

live here. But, he comes to the club every day around noon to order

supplies and to supervise deliveries, that sort of stuff. I usually

go down there about one or two o'clock to sweep and clean and set

the place up. And, if he's not too busy, he'll often help me. He's

real sweet. Sometimes he'll come in the morning and pick me up and

take me for walks in the park, or shopping at the stores along U Street,

and we'll talk and talk. As far as I can tell, he's straight. He never

messes with me. I've never seen him mess with the customers, either."

By this time, we had finished cleaning up the kitchen, so we

went back to our room, where we relaxed and chatted, Robin introducing

me to the wonderful world of girltalk. She got out some women's

magazines and showed me pictures and articles about womens' dress and

makeup, and we talked for a long time about things I would need to

learn to become a lady. I was absolutely captivated. Robin's enthusiasm

was boundless. I forgot all about the Army. What did that have to do

with me anymore? I wanted to be a girl like Robin.

Sometime later, Robin's intercom began to make radio static noises,

and suddenly Teddy's voice filled the room. "Would you girls please

come at once to my room?" he asked in his formal, precise manner,

which was not haughty or overbearing, just precise.

We stood up, and Robin looked me over, making little adjustments

to my wig, and smoothing out my dress. Then, taking my hand, she led

me out of the room and down the hall to Teddy's door, which she softly

knocked on. Teddy, in a friendly, though still properly formal tone,

invited us to enter.

Once inside the room, he had us stand over by a wall while he

remained seated in an easy chair. "We are about to introduce Fanny

to Her Majesty," he said. "I wanted to be certain you understood the

proper way to behave while in her presence." He then went on to explain

that, upon entering her throne-room, as he called it, we were to position

ourselves directly before her, curtsy, and kneel down. Our eyes were at

all times to be looking downwards towards the floor. We were not to speak

except to respond to questions or commands. We were to carry out any

commands she might issue by first standing, then curtsying, then performing

the desired task. We were to address her at all times as, "Your Majesty."

I thought this was a bit bizarre; but, since Robin and Teddy both

seemed to be so serious about it, I decided to play along. If I didn't

like this part of life in this household, I could always simply leave

and never return. I hated to think of that possibility, though. I

was really smitten with Robin. And I think I was falling in some sort

of love with Teddy.

Teddy opened the door and preceded us into the hallway. We walked

a short distance to another door. Teddy knocked on it and waited a

few moments before opening it and entering the room. He closed the

door behind him, leaving me and Robin standing in the hall. Robin

appeared to be as nervous as I was. Perhaps she was just apprehensive

about the impression I would make on Her Majesty. Or about the

impression Her Majesty would make on me.

Suddenly, the door opened and Teddy said, "You may enter." Robin

went in first, with me right on her heels. The room was quite large.

Over to one side was a huge canopy bed, that must have been king-size;

it dominated that side of the room. Beside it was a night table

with a lamp and a telephone on it. Next to that was an easy chair.

I noticed no dresser or vanity table; later, I was to learn that

there was a separate room which served as Her Majesty's boudoir.

Across the room from the bed sat Her Majesty on her throne. The throne

looked like something from an old movie about African deity-rulers.

It was made of rattan, with a high back intricately filigreed. It sat

on a raised platform, which was covered by an expensive-looking Persian

rug. The rug draped over the platform and spread out several feet into

the center of the room. Robin - and I, of course - crossed the room

and knelt together on the edge of the rug, directly facing Her Majesty.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Robin press her hands together,

fingers extended, and place them against her breast, as though she

were a supplicant praying. I decided to mimic her posture.

Her Majesty was an enormously round Negro, lighter in skin tone

than her brother, Teddy, but still quite dark. She was dressed in a

richly-colored gown which fell only to her knees. Her breasts seemed

to be as big as my head, they were so large. Her arms were as thick

as my thighs. She was huge. Her hair was piled on her head in a

style similar to a beehive hairdo. Her neck, almost as thick as

her arms, was adorned with many gold necklaces, dazzling in their

brightness. Every finger of both hands was covered with gold rings,

crusted with precious stones of a variety of kinds. Her wrists were

covered with bright gold bracelets. She was a magnificent, overwhelming

creature. Robin and I knelt solemnly before her, prepared to do her

bidding.

Teddy broke the silence. "Your Majesty," he said, "I present for

your approval the newest member of our household, who has chosen the

name Fanny." I began to blush slightly, and to perspire.

Teddy continued, "Fanny was initiated yesterday. I found her to be

not only acceptable, but charming. Robin has expressed a fervent wish

that she be admitted to our household, to serve as her sister and

friend. I myself support Robin's request. I believe Fanny would be a

delightful addition to our family."

Her Majesty continued to regard me in silence. Finally, she raised

the index finger of her hand, almost imperceptibly, as some sort of

a signal to Teddy, who stepped forward to stand beside me. He leaned

down and whispered in my ear, "You are to stand, curtsy, and approach

the throne. When you are directly before Her Majesty, curtsy again

and kneel down." Awkwardly, in my new high-heels, I stood up, executed

a clumsy, novice curtsy, and stepped forward until I was nearly touching

Her Majesty's knees. I curtsied awkwardly again, and knelt down. Once

more, as I knelt uncomfortably before this massive presence, a heavy

silence descended on the room. Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed

a slight movement coming from where Her Majesty sat. Trying not to be

noticed, I glanced upward until my eye was level with her lap. Her

thumb and index finger were gripping the hem of her skirt and slowly

raising it up over her gigantic thighs.

She was exposing herself to me! My mouth fell open in shock. But

not a word was uttered. I watched in fascination as the skirt traveled

further and further up her legs. Now, she began using both hands to

pull it up. And it was then that the second, most profound, shock

occurred. She had a penis! It wasn't quite as long as Teddy's, though

it was long. But, it was much thicker than his, and even darker, if

that was possible. I stared in wonder at this massive pole, my lips

quivering. She didn't have to say anything. I knew what was expected

of me.

Slowly, I inched forward on my knees, hoping I didn't ruin my

lovely fishnet hose. When I was poised over Her Majesty's cock, I

stared straight down at it, wondering if my mouth could accommodate

such a large object. Gently, she placed a hand on my head, and pressed.

I closed my eyes, opened my mouth wide, and lowered my face. My lips

were dry, so I gave them a quick lick, then prepared to accept Her

Majesty's prick into my waiting mouth. As it moved past my lips, I

licked it around the head and stem, closing my lips over it as I did

so. Using what little skill I had developed in the previous twenty-

four hours, I began giving head to this magnificent organ. Before

long, my mind simply closed down and all thinking stopped. I was now

running on pure emotional response to all tactile sensations. My

head bobbed up and down on Her Majesty's prick. I licked; I sucked;

I savored the pressure of her member against the sides of my mouth and

the back of my throat. Faster and faster my head moved up and down

the fantastic lollipop. Finally, I realized she was about to come.

How I was able to sense that, I don't know. Perhaps I noticed a

change in temperature, as though her penis were a large thermometer.

Anyway, I began to worry about her cum. Would I be able to swallow

it all? I knew it would be a massive amount; it had to be, coming

from a cock that huge. I was afraid that if I spilled even a single

drop, somehow I would displease Her Majesty and be dismissed, never

to be allowed in her presence, or her household, or even her club,

ever again.

So, I concentrated on opening my throat as wide as I could to

receive her shower - her downpour! - of sperm. At the same time,

I pressed my lips even more firmly around her penis, hoping I could

keep any cream from leaking out. And then it happened. She exploded

into my mouth, then exploded again. And again. And again. Four

floods of cum poured into me, and I began swallowing as hard and as

fast as I could. I didn't taste; I didn't smell; all I did was swallow.

I was lucky. I managed somehow to get it all. I was gagging and having

difficulty breathing; but, I didn't care. I had done the impossible.

I had swallowed every drop. I began to cry, quietly, my tears slowly

rolling down my cheeks. I held Her Majesty's penis tenderly in my

mouth, gently licking it clean as it softened and shrank in size.

After awhile, I felt the pressure of her hand once again on the top

of my head. I knew I was done. Reluctantly, I raised my head, letting

her cock slide slowly out of my mouth.

When I was kneeling straight up again, eyes downcast, I heard

Teddy's voice speaking very softly, "Fanny, you may return to your

place."

Wobbling slightly on my still unfamiliar high-heels, I stood up

and backed across the rug until I was even with Robin again. Slowly,

I lowered myself onto my knees. The room became silent again. Her

Majesty, Queen Mary, gathered herself together and stood up. Heavily,

she stepped down from her throne and crossed the room to a door

I found out later entered into her boudoir. When she was finally gone

from the room, Teddy said, "All right, girls, you may get up."

Robin and I both stood together. We followed Teddy out of the throne

room and into the hall. He dismissed us, telling us we could return

to our room. Quietly, so as not to break the solemn mood in the

apartment, we crossed to the other end of the hall, and entered our

room.

As soon as the door was closed, Robin turned and, with a smile

that covered her entire face, threw her arms around me. "Oh, Fanny!

You're in! You're one of us! She liked you!" She began whirling me

about in a clumsy waltz motion, laughing and squeezing me. I started

laughing, too. And we twirled and whirled until we were breathless.

We spent the rest of the afternoon excitedly making plans. Of course,

because of my Army obligations, I couldn't come to the club except on

the weekends. I did have my thirty-day annual leave still available,

and I resolved to apply for it as soon as possible the next day. That

would give me more time to become accustomed to my new life. I was so

excited and full of happiness, I didn't even stop to consider all the

complications this weekend would cause for me in the near future.

All I cared about was that I had made an amazing self-discovery, and

had made a wonderful, loving friend, for what seemed like the first

time in my entire life.

I decided that, rather than call Chuck for a ride, I would take a

bus back to the base. Once I knew the route, I would be independent

of Chuck and his car, and could get myself to Queen Mary's as soon

as work ended each Friday. I could stay as late as possible on Sunday,

too, before returning to base. Every minute with Robin was a minute

in heaven, if having a soulmate could be considered being in heaven.

It felt that way to me, anyway.

* * * * *

When I got back to the base, I went directly to my barracks. All

the guys were there, of course, having also returned from their

weekend passes. Because Robin had shaved my legs earlier that day,

I didn't want to take my clothes off in front of everyone else. I

wasn't sure how I was going to manage taking a shower without being

noticed; I hoped maybe Chuck and Al could provide some assistance

with this problem.

They were waiting for me, eager to hear the whole story. Somehow,

I didn't trust Al to keep what I said confidential; but, I did trust

Chuck. I didn't know how to avoid discussing my weekend away from

Al, though. So, I decided to just take a chance, hoping he would

be discreet. Without going into all the details, I related what had

happened - how I had come to realize that Robin and I shared a good

deal in common; how sensitive Teddy was; how caring and generous

Queen Mary was. I didn't tell about all the blowjobs I'd given, or

all the cornholings I'd received. I had the feeling Chuck and Al

were a little disappointed by my narrative. Obviously, they wanted

to know specifically what I'd experienced. The most they were able

to get from me was that I had come to a startling awareness about

myself through the events that had occurred in the last twenty-four

hours.

Then came the crucial moment. Somehow, I had to tell them what I'd

done to my legs, and ask them to help me disguise this fact from the

rest of the guys in our barracks. I figured the best way was simply to

blurt it out, and see what happened. Al got this big grin on this face.

I had the feeling he wanted more than anything else to announce my

news to the rest of the barracks. But, Chuck listened very attentively

and seriously. He was an obvious brake on Al's impulsive crudeness.

After I'd made my confession, Chuck reached into his pocket and pulled

out several quarters. He gave them to Al, and asked him to go get some

sodas from the soft drink machine. Reluctantly, Al got up from his

bunk and left to get the drinks.

Once he was out of earshot, Chuck turned to me and said, "You know,

Steve, I've had a feeling about you ever since I met you. Nothing

definite, mind you, but just this feeling. You never did anything to

make me think you were a queer, or anything. But I had this sense

there was something about you that definitely was different."

I looked him in the eye. "Well, Chuck, if you did, you were way

ahead of me."

"I know," he said, "But, the first time I ever saw Robin at Queen

Mary's, she reminded me of you. Is that weird? But, I remember sitting

there, looking at her, and thinking, this could be Stevie. So, I made

up my mind to take you there. Just to see if my hunch was right."

My eyes misted over. "You mean that? You're not just pulling my

leg."

"No, no!" he exclaimed. "I'm serious! And I think it's wonderful

you've made this discovery about yourself. I've always liked you,

even though you are probably the unhappiest person I've ever known."

I smiled through my tears. "Well, not anymore, Chuck. And thanks

for what you've done. I mean that."

He reached out and shook my hand solemnly. "I know you're going

to have some difficult times ahead, but I'll stand up with you,

little buddy."

Just then, Al came back with our sodas, and we spent the next

several minutes discussing strategies for sneaking me into the shower

so my shaved legs wouldn't be discovered.

The next morning, as soon as I was able to get a break and get over

to the headquarters office, I applied for my thirty day leave. As luck

would have it, things were a bit slow and I could be spared. So the

lieutenant approved it, beginning late the following month. I could

hardly wait to give Robin the news.

After a hectic week of hiding my legs from my barracks mates, I was

finally able to breathe easier on Friday morning. I knew that as soon

as work was done, I was going to be on the bus heading into DC for

an exciting weekend in my new "home." The day seemed to take forever

to finish. But, finally, they sounded retreat, and I dashed to the

orderly room to pick up my pass. Chuck was there, and he asked me if

I'd like to go into town with him. I gave him a wink and said, "No,

thanks, pal. I've got a date." I dashed out the door, across the

parade ground, out the gate, across Arlington Boulevard, and a few

yards down the sidewalk to the bus stop. My heart was thumping like

a triphammer.

The bus arrived and I leaped aboard, nearly missing the coin chute

I was going so fast. I got a transfer from the driver, and found a

seat near the back of the bus. All the way into DC I couldn't keep

my hands still, but kept rubbing my thighs, or folding and unfolding

my hands. I was sweating just from the anticipation of getting back

to Queen Mary's. Finally, the bus got to 12th Street, and I jumped

through the back door the instant it opened. I dashed up the street

to where the stop for the 12th Street bus was located. A few minutes

later, and I was sitting in a seat near the rear of that bus, nervously

tapping my feet, and drumming my hands against my thighs. Finally,

after what seemed like hours - it was probably more like ten minutes -

the bus arrived at 12th and U Streets. Again, I leaped off, and

dashed across the intersection. I sprinted the block and a half the

rest of the way, finally arriving at the entrance to the club.

I took a deep breath to calm myself, then opened the door, my

heart singing with joy. Teddy was standing just inside the door.

He smiled, his teeth a sparkling white against his purple-black

face. "Good evening, Fanny," he said, "Robin has been waiting for

you. You're to go with her to your room to dress for work."

I nodded my head up and down as though it were attached to a

spring, a foolish grin spread across my face. Quickly, I walked into

the dimly-lit club, and found Robin. She threw her arms around me

in a big hug, and said, "Come on, Sis, we've got to get you dressed."

We dashed upstairs and sprinted to our room. "I want to shower

and shave," I told Robin. "I want to look perfect for my first night

on the job." She laughed delightedly, and helped me undress. Holding

a towel around myself, I dashed across the hall into our bathroom,

and turned on the shower. While I was soaping off, Robin came in and

shaved my legs. Omigod, it felt so good! I jumped out of the shower

and toweled off. Then, carefully, so as not to knick myself with

my shaking hands, I shaved my face and underarms.

I crossed the hall again, and Robin was waiting for me. She had

removed her dress and her girdle. She was holding the boned corset

in front of her. I knew instantly what to do. Carefully, lovingly,

I wrapped it around her and laced it up as tight as it would go.

Then I helped her into her dress. While she was zipping it up and

reapplying her makeup, I got my outfit out of the closet and my

underwear out of her dresser. I slipped the stockings up my legs,

and put on the high-heel shoes. Robin held my corset around my

waist until I had attached the garter straps to my stockings. Then,

while she laced me into the boned, rubberized prison, I pressed it

as tightly to me as I could. Finally, she was finished lacing me

up. I could barely breathe. In my excited state, I was afraid I

might begin to hyperventilate. But, I was at last able to calm myself

down, and proceeded to finish dressing myself. Robin sat me in front

of the mirror and put my makeup on, again reminding me to pay careful

attention as I was going to have to start doing this chore myself.

After applying my makeup, she had me polish my nails while she carefully

combed my wig, then put it on my head, pinning it into place.

Finally she was done, and I was transformed. I looked into the

mirror. I still looked too much like a male to suit me. But in the

dim light of the club, people might still see me as feminine,

especially if I was careful to behave as effeminately as possible.

I tried to remember all the advice Robin had given me during our

short time together the previous weekend. I was so excited about

starting my new life at Queen Mary's, I didn't even think about the

fact that my ass and my balls were exposed for any wayward hand to

assault. All I could think of was Robin's advice, especially her

advice to be myself, not to be ashamed of my male voice or my male

features. "Just be comfortable being you," she had told me. But, who

was I, really? Tonight I would find out.

We went back downstairs to the club. It was still pretty empty,

it being early in the evening, and Queen Mary's not a place where

people stopped for a meal. There were a couple of customers sitting

at the bar having an after-work cocktail. They looked me over with

mild curiosity, turning to Robin to ask, "Who's the new queen?"

Robin introduced me as her best friend ever, and the men shook my

hand, welcoming me to Queen Mary's. I did a little curtsy and thanked

them for their kindness. We chatted amiably for a few minutes, until

more customers began arriving. My job in the club was like Robin's,

to wait tables. Robin assigned me the booths against the back wall.

"You'll be further away from all the traffic, and you won't feel so

conspicuous," she explained. She didn't explain that I would have to

weave a path through all the tables to get to the bar with my orders,

and that this path was strewn with anonymous hands that just loved

groping up under my skirt, to pat my ass or pinch my dick. When I

complained to Robin about this later in the evening, she just smiled.

"You'll get used to it, Fanny," she said. "You'll even come to enjoy

it. One bit of advice, though. Don't ever complain about it. Teddy

believes that the customer is always, always, right. You'll get no

sympathy. You'll just make trouble for yourself."

As the evening progressed, the club began to fill up. It seemed

that every table and booth was full of customers, and they were

drinking an awful lot of booze. It was probably just a typical night,

actually; but, I had never waitressed before, so I had no frame of

reference. Except my feet. On those three-inch, nail-thin spiked heels,

my feet were getting sorer and sorer.

But I was about to forget my weary feet. As I was delivering a

round of drinks to a booth, I suddenly felt a hand up my skirt, and

the fingers spread across the cheek of my ass, rubbing softly up

and down. I looked down to see whose arm was reaching in that direction.

Suddenly a voice: "I got a ten dollar tip for you, baby. For all your

good service. Interested?"

I spun around, to face the voice, which had come from someone at

the table behind me. It was Chuck! I began to stammer, "Uh, oh, wha - "

He laughed at my obvious discomfort. "Come on, little buddy, it's

what you're paid for, you know." His laugh had become a leer. The

rule was that I could not refuse a "tip." Only Teddy could do that.

I was obliged to signal him about every offer, and he would respond

with his approval, or disapproval. Chuck knew it, too. So, all I could

do was stand there, with Chuck's hand exploring my asscheek, and raise

one finger in the direction of Teddy. He looked over in the dim light,

saw me, my finger, the customer, and nodded slightly. I turned to

Chuck and said, "Ok, thanks very much for your generosity." I picked

up the ten-dollar bill he had placed on the table and took it over to

Teddy, who silently pocketed it. Then, I turned and started across

the open dance floor, opening the door to the little back room. I

heard scattered applause and a few catcalls from some nearby customers.

Everyone in the place knew why I was going into that room, and there

were a few smart-alecks who enjoyed making a fuss about it.

I stood inside the room waiting for Chuck. A few seconds later, he

entered. He didn't say a word, but just pointed at the bed. I guessed

he wanted me to sit down on it. As soon as I was seated, holding my

knees tightly together to look as feminine as possible, and to squeeze

my cock so I wouldn't get an erection, he stepped in front of me and

unzipped his trousers. Of course I'd seen Chuck's manhood before, many

times. But never like this. Never this close. And I'd never seen it

erect. He pulled it out of his fly and pointed it at me. It was still

soft. "Go ahead, little buddy," he whispered. "I've been waiting for

this moment for a long time."

Suddenly I realized why Chuck had seen in me what I hadn't seen in

myself. He was a man-loving man. Apparently, however, he couldn't

admit that to himself. Being blown by a man in a dress at least preserved

the image of heterosexuality. I wanted to laugh, but I didn't want to

ruin the mood. He was, after all, a good friend. Hadn't he helped me

find myself? When I hadn't even known I was lost?

I leaned forward and circled my hand around the base of his cock.

It twitched. I was charmed. Slowly, lovingly, I leaned my face forward

and, after wetting my lips with my tongue, I kissed the head, placing

my lips over the pee-hole. I could feel Chuck's penis begin to stiffen

and grow. I opened my mouth and gently slid my lips over the crown,

pressing them together just behind it. I rolled my tongue around the

head, savoring the taste and texture of Chuck's rapidly warming dick.

The harder it got, the more silky-smooth it got. Slowly, I let my lips

slide down the length of it, until they touched my hand. I released my

hand, using it instead to cup his balls, gently rolling them around

in my fingers. He was starting to moan, a low animal sound. I pulled my

lips back up the length of his rod, stopping just behind his crown.

My tongue circled his cock, then lapped hungrily at the underside of

the stem. Now I set to work in earnest, and began bobbing my head up

and down the length of his penis as it grew stiffer and stiffer. His

groans increased in volume, and I could tell he was nearing a climax.

I wondered what his cum would taste like. I wondered what this was

going to do to our friendship. Would we ever be able to face one another

again? Would we ever be able to keep our hands off one another again?

I didn't have any answers, so I concentrated on milking his prick instead.

As I felt his penis begin to twitch, I increased the momentum of my

bobbing head. Actually, he was so excited, he had begun fucking my

face. We were in a frenzied heat by now. His balls kept banging against

my chin; I liked the strange feelings they aroused in me. But, then,

in a rush of hot semen, it was over. He poured his sperm into my mouth,

and I swallowed it all. I kept him inside me for awhile longer, letting

him drain as his prick softened and shrank. Finally, I opened my mouth

and released him, giving his cock a little kiss before I lovingly tucked

it away in his drawers.

There were tears in Chuck's eyes. "Thanks, little pal," he said,

almost whispering the words. Then, he turned and left the room. I

stayed there a few moments, letting my breathing return to normal,

combing my wig back into a state of neatness, and just generally

regathering my wits. Then I returned to the bar to pick up my tray and

resume my duties. I caught Robin's eye, and she flashed me a loving

smile. Teddy watched me silently, nodding slightly when I formed the

word "Ok" with my mouth. I looked around and noticed Chuck had gone.

So had the other guys he'd been sitting with. I was a little disappointed.

On the other hand, I could now relax. I knew I could handle strangers

comfortably now, having successfully handled a friend.

The night proceeded in a normal fashion, normal for Queen Mary's

being that I gave at least a dozen blowjobs, and got fucked in the ass

a couple of times. By the time the last customer had gone, I was a

true veteran. I was quite pleased with myself. Robin took my hand and

led me up the stairs to our room, where we wearily undressed, crossed

the hall to take a shower together, laughing and gossiping as we did

so, then returned to our room to don our nighties and stockings.

We piled into bed, where we lay in each other's arms, kissing each

other's red lips, and continuing our conversation from the shower.

With Robin's voice sounding gently, lovingly, in my ear, I fell into

a deep, peaceful slumber, perhaps the most peaceful slumber I had

ever known.

* * * * *

I became a permanent waitress at Queen Mary's club, working every

Friday and Saturday night. As I got used to the routine, and to the

customers, I formed many relationships and even began to develop a

clientele of regulars. Robin and I grew closer and closer; Sunday

afternoons were always bittersweet times, since we knew the hour

was nearing when I would have to return to the base, and we wouldn't

be able to see one another for at least five days. So we would spend

Sunday afternoons in our room, sitting side by side on the bed,

which, with the addition of a couple of bolsters and some soft throw

pillows, converted into a couch. We would hold hands and talk quietly,

forming plans for the future, or just talking fashions, or just plain

gossiping. I treasured those moments of peaceful rest, pouring my

heart and soul out to another human being who shared my feelings, who

loved me without reservations of any kind.

Back at the barracks, things weren't progressing quite so well.

My behavior was becoming "weirder" to the guys in my platoon. I

guess trying so hard to cultivate my feminine side at the club was

causing me to carry back some of that behavior to the barracks.

Certainly, my mannerisms were becoming more effeminate, I guess what

some people might call "limp-wristed," or "faggoty."

Finally, of course, the inevitable happened. My shaved legs and

underarms were discovered. A couple of the guys wandered into the

shower as I was soaping up, laughing and joking with Chuck and Al,

and I had just raised my arm to soap my armpit. These guys pretended

they hadn't seen anything, but it was obvious they'd noticed. They

took hurried showers and left the latrine area way ahead of us.

Within a day or two, I noticed a distinct coolness in the way some

guys were treating me. Guys who would sit with me in the mess hall,

or would kid with me at work, suddenly found other people to spend

their time with. Oddly, I realized I really didn't care. My only worry

was that they might become hostile, might even become physically

abusive. I was careful to behave in such a way that I did not draw

attention to myself, at least much more than was necessary.

As the time for my month-long leave approached, Chuck and I began

having conversations about my increasing involvement with Queen

Mary's, and my obvious turn to more feminine behavior. It was his

recommendation that I go to my superiors, inform them that I was a

homosexual, and request a discharge on those grounds. The only

problem was that, if I did so, I might receive a bad-conduct discharge,

and would not be eligible for any veterans' benefits. I had thought

I might want to go to college some day, so those benefits were

pretty important to me.

But, Chuck kept arguing that maybe the lieutenant might take a

sympathetic approach and find some way to get me a general discharge,

which wasn't as good as an honorable discharge, but we thought

wouldn't jeopardize my benefits, either. So, after hours of

conversation about the matter, I decided to give it a try. I really

had lost all interest in the Army, anyway, and wanted only to be

able to move into Queen Mary's permanently, to start the life I

knew now was destined for me.

So, I made an appointment with the lieutenant, and told him what I

had learned about myself, what I had been doing for the past several

weeks, the whole nine yards. I even hiked up my trousers and showed

him my shaved legs. I had considered wearing stockings under my

trousers, but at the last minute had chickened out and left them in

my footlocker. Needless to say, the lieutenant was speechless. He

was aghast, was more like it. His face turned a sort of sickly gray-white

and for a few minutes, I thought he was going to lose his lunch right

there. But he finally composed himself, and told me in a voice dripping

with venom that under no circumstances would he support my request for

a discharge. In fact, he said if I didn't withdraw my request and leave

his office that instant, he might have me placed under arrest and tried

for some violation of the Uniform Code of Military Justice and drummed

out of the Army with a dishonorable discharge. I got the hell out of

there.

Luckily for me, the lieutenant either forgot my upcoming leave, or

he had decided to forget our conversation. The day arrived and I went

to the orderly room to pick up my papers, which were waiting there

for me, all signed, sealed and delivered, as they say. I had thirty

days to decide what to do. I left the barracks with a smile on my

lips - I was going to Queen Mary's, after all - but my heart was

troubled. I knew a critical moment in my life was about to begin. I had

several important decisions to make, and I had to prepare for major

changes in my life I knew I could no longer avoid. The bus ride to 12th

and U Streets was a long, long journey.

But, the weekend went surprisingly well. I was able to relax and

enjoy myself, knowing that Sunday would be followed by Monday, as it

were, and I would still be with my "family." It was an exhilarating

weekend. Several times, Robin commented on how completely at home I

seemed to be. With tears of joy in my eyes, I smiled and said I was

home. At long last, I was finally home.

I guess it was the euphoria of that weekend that led me to make

the fateful (fatal?) decision that forced the final crisis. Sunday

evening, after having served Teddy and Her Majesty their dinner,

and having enjoyed a light supper ourselves, Robin and I were summoned

to Teddy's room. As usual, whenever we visited Teddy in his room

for business, he sat in his easy chair and we stood against the wall

opposite from him. Tonight was no exception.

Teddy seemed quiet, quieter than usual. He regarded us for several

moments, sitting with his elbow on the arm of the chair, his arm bent

upwards, his hand cupping his chin. Finally, he said, "Are you girls

aware that there is a surgical procedure by which breasts may be

increased to whatever size a woman may desire?"

Robin and I looked at each other. No, we both said. We didn't

know of such an operation.

"Yes," Teddy said, "it's done with a gelatin substance, or something

of the sort. This substance is inserted into the chest cavity and the

breasts are then formed to whatever shape and size the woman wishes."

We both said that sounded like a wonderful thing. It was obvious

neither of us was getting the point. Teddy studied us thoughtfully,

wondering if perhaps we were just tired. We couldn't possibly be this

dumb, could we?

But, finally, a light began to flicker. Robin glanced sidelong at

me, and I returned her look. We both turned to Teddy. Our eyes were

wide open, our mouths drawn in little circles.

Teddy, a faint smile showing in his eyes, went on, "Her Majesty

and I have had many conversations regarding this procedure. It

seems that it is both safe and affordable, so much so that Her

Majesty has expressed a desire that this topic be brought to your

attention so that we might gauge your opinion."

Robin smiled broadly. "You mean I might have breasts of my own?"

She was incredulous. Teddy nodded in the affirmative. Robin turned

to me, excitedly grabbing my hands. "Oh, Fanny," she cried. "Isn't

it wonderful? Our very own breasts. Oh, I'm so excited. Oh, you'll

be beautiful with breasts!"

I smiled back at her, happy for her. "But, Robin," I said, "I

don't think the Army will share your enthusiasm."

She pouted. "Oh, fuck the Army. I thought you were trying to get

them to let you out, anyway."

"Well, I am," I countered. "But, my commander is against it. He's

even threatened to throw me in jail, and then kick me out of the

Army with a dishonorable discharge."

Teddy interrupted us. "Her Majesty has instructed me to inform

you that she desires you both to take advantage of this opportunity.

She has also stated that either both of you shall have the operation,

or neither one of you shall. And she has further instructed me to

report a decision to her tonight."

Robin was glaring at me. Teddy stood up. "You may return to your

room to discuss this. I will summon you within the half hour, at

which time you will inform me of your decision."

Silently, we left Teddy's room and walked the length of the hall

to our own room. Robin was obviously distressed. I didn't know quite

what to think. We sat down together on our bed-couch, and for a few

minutes, nothing was said. Finally, Robin broke the silence.

"Ever since I was a little kid, I've always wanted breasts. Truth

to tell, what I've really wanted is to be able to produce milk, so

I could nurse a baby. But, to be able to do that, I have to have

breasts." She folded her arms across her chest and glared at the

floor. "Don't you see, Fanny? It's the dream of my life come true!

Please! Can't you do this for me?"

How could I say no to this wonderful friend? I felt awful. I felt

like the lowest vermin on earth. "But, Robin," I pleaded, "I don't

want to go to jail. I'm already in big trouble as it is. If I go to

jail, my life will be ruined. Forever."

She began crying, hard. And this was not just feminine wiles.

Her tears were genuine. I had broken her heart. I felt like shit.

We sat there for awhile, me staring at the wall, Robin lying

with her head on a throw-pillow, sobbing her heart out. I couldn't

stand it.

I tried again. "Suppose after my leave is up and I go back to my

outfit and try again, the lieutenant will give up and get me the

discharge. Then, we could go to Her Majesty and say we want the

operation."

Choking on her sobs, Robin blurted, "Oh, Fanny, you don't know

anything at all. When Teddy made the offer, it was obvious if we

didn't take it right away, it wasn't going to be made again. Didn't

you understand that?"

I was getting sadder and sadder. "No, I'm sorry. I didn't get that

part at all."

"Her Majesty doesn't like wishy-washy behavior. You either go along,

or you move along. This is it, Fanny. This is my only chance to have

real breasts. Please? Won't you do it? For me?" And she began sobbing

again.

I knew if I continued to say no, I would lose the only real friend

I had ever known. This opportunity was too important to Robin for me to

let it pass. Even our friendship didn't match the importance of this.

So, heaving a sigh, I turned to her and said, "Ok, you win. I'm

with you."

Instantly, her arms were around my neck, her lips kissing my face.

"Oh, Fanny," she cried, "Oh, you're the best friend anyone ever had.

You'll never regret this, believe me. Oh, Fanny. Oh, thank you,

thank you, thank you."

I returned her hug, and tried to smile. But, I was too deeply

troubled to be very enthusiastic about it. I knew my Army career was

definitely over. Maybe even my life. If I were sent to prison, how

long would I survive with tits?

A few minutes later, Teddy's voice sounded over the intercom,

instructing us to report immediately to his room. Robin nearly jumped

up from the couch. She turned to me with a huge smile, and pulled me

along with her. Grasping my hand in hers, she led me down the hall.

I felt like I was on my way to my execution. Robin knocked on Teddy's

door, and he invited us to enter. Once again, I found myself standing

against the wall, next to Robin, while Teddy sat across from us in

his easy chair.

"Have you girls made a decision?" he asked.

Robin was so excited, she was bouncing up and down. "Yes!" she

exclaimed. Teddy smiled warmly.

"And you, Fanny? Is your answer also 'Yes'?" he asked.

With some trepidation, I nodded. "Yes," I said, in a near-whisper.

"Excellent," he said. He stood up, turned to the door, and told us

to wait for his summons. Then he left. Robin was squeezing my hand

so tightly I thought she was going to cut off the circulation to my

fingers. Finally, Teddy returned, stuck his head in the door, and

told us to follow him.

He led us to Her Majesty's throne-room, as I knew he would. Holding

the door open, he indicated we should enter and approach the throne.

At the edge of Her Majesty's throne rug, we stopped, curtsied, and

knelt down. Robin was still holding my hand; but, as we knelt, she

released it and assumed the supplicant position, her hands pressed

together against her chest, fingers straight in a prayerful attitude.

I did the same.

Teddy spoke, "Your Majesty, I have raised the topic of breast

development surgery with these two subjects. They both have agreed to

undergo this procedure, and are eager to have it done immediately."

Her Majesty regarded us solemnly for awhile, then she said,

"Do you both desire this surgery?"

It was the first time I had ever heard her speak. Her voice was

surprisingly high-pitched and very soft, like a breeze whispering

through a willow.

Robin excitedly replied, "Oh, yes, Your Majesty."

It was now my turn. I did not know what effect my reply would

have on my life; but, I did know things were never, ever going to

be the same again. "Yes, Your Majesty," I said, softly.

She continued to gaze upon us, then gestured almost imperceptibly

with her finger. Teddy quickly said, "You two are dismissed. You

may return to my room. I will join you there momentarily."

Robin nearly ran out of the room, even forgetting to curtsy, until

she saw me do it. She made a hasty gesture, but being so eager to

leave the room, nearly tripped over her own feet. I was so nervous,

I almost burst out laughing. Somehow, we managed to get through the

door and down the hall to Teddy's room.

Sometime later, he returned, seeming more relaxed and good-humored

now that the decision had been made. He told us that we would be taken

in the morning to a private clinic, located near Baltimore, Maryland.

There, the procedure would be done, and we would spend ten days to two

weeks in the clinic recuperating. It was going to be that easy. Something

that was going to change my life forever was going to be handled in

a very mundane, ordinary fashion. My mind could hardly grasp the

enormity of what was about to occur.

* * * * *

The next morning, Teddy bundled us into a car for the drive to

Baltimore. We had dressed in the outfits we wore whenever we went

for walks with Samuel the bartender, taking care with our makeup

and our hair, trying not to look as nervous as we were. We had

no breakfast - I would only have thrown mine back up, anyway.

The drive was pleasant, and seemed to take only a short time,

although I would guess it actually lasted about an hour. The clinic

was not in the city, but was located in the countryside somewhere

in one of the communities that surrounded Baltimore. Since I knew

nothing about that part of the country, I paid little attention

to the actual location. I figured I would never be going back to

it, anyway, so why bother memorizing where it was?

We drove through a gate at the end of a long driveway, pulling

up outside an estate house that looked like Scarlett O'Hara's

home in the movie "Gone With The Wind." We took our little overnight

bags from the trunk of the car, and followed Teddy up the steps,

across the wide, pillared porch, and through the very high door

that served as the entrance. A woman in a nurse's uniform, all

starchy-white, greeted us as we entered the large foyer. Teddy

handed her several sheets of paper, and she glanced through them

briefly. She thanked Teddy for his thoroughness and told him he

could call in a couple of days to find out how our surgery had

gone, and when he could expect to come to take us home.

Teddy turned to us, said goodbye, and immediately left the

building. I looked around the foyer. It had a polished marble

floor which gleamed in the morning sunlight that streamed through

several floor-to-ceiling windows surrounding the huge lobby.

The nurse indicated we were to follow her, which we did. We

climbed a wide, arcing staircase to the second floor, then

walked down a long hallway until we were ushered into a large,

sunlit room. The room itself seemed quite comfortable. There were

two hospital beds, and several comfortable-looking chairs. Separating

the beds was a night-stand with a top big enough to place two trays

of food on. Across the room from the bed was a door which opened

into a small bathroom. Altogether, it was a typical hospital room,

but much larger and apparently more comfortable than one would find

in a general hospital. We both wondered what Her Majesty was paying

for our stay. It had to be expensive.

The nurse instructed us to undress and put on one of those awful

hospital gowns. Even a classy operation like this couldn't avoid

the tackiness of hospital fashions. When we were finally wrapped

into our thin, scratchy gowns, the nurse then told us we would be

undergoing a battery of tests to prepare for our surgery. Soon

enough, she returned and took us to the actual clinic area, where

we were given the usual blood, heart and other tests, and a history

was written up. Finally, we were told we would remain in the clinic

area, as the doctor would be performing the surgeries within the

hour. While we waited, she took us into a room which was used, I

guess, to show patients the different varieties of prosthetics the

clinic offered, for, it seemed, this clinic did much more than just

breast surgery. We were shown several different breast forms, and

were asked what cup-size we desired, as well as what shape we would

like. Hoping I might be able to avoid detection back at the barracks

after all, I indicated I wanted a triple-A cup, the absolute smallest

size they offered. Robin, all bubbles and excitement, requested a

D-cup. We were taken back to the waiting area, where we sat talking

about nothing in particular.

A short time later, the nurse returned and told me that I was to

go first. An attendant pushing a gurney appeared, and I was made to

climb onto it and sit still while the local anesthetic was administered.

Once the needles had been inserted into their proper locations, I was

instructed to lie down. Immediately, I was wheeled into an operating

room, which looked pretty much like any operating room of any hospital.

Evidently, one of the needles that was sticking out of me was feeding

me a tranquilizer of some sort, because my eyes were open and I could

see what was happening around me; only, I just didn't care. Finally,

the soft music playing from a loudspeaker caused me to doze off.

I didn't reawaken until several hours later.

Robin and I lay side by side in our beds in the comfortable room.

It had been a day or two since our surgery, and we were still pretty

doped-up. To entertain us, the nurse had brought a television into

the room, which she kept tuned to soap operas of one sort or another.

Since neither Robin nor I had any interest in such shows, we mostly

just laid there examining the ceiling, or gazing out the windows,

while the voices coming from the television droned on. We both were

continuing to be fed the tranquilizers through IVs which were attached

to our arms.

But, finally, the time came when our dressings had to be changed,

and the doctor wanted to take a look at the results of his work.

A tall, pleasant looking, gray-haired man entered the room carrying

a clipboard, and smiling at us both. "Well, well, well, ladies,"

he crooned. "Let's see how we're doing. Any discomfort to report?"

Neither of us answered. I suppose we were still pretty groggy.

He went first to Robin's bed, and pulled the sheet down from her

chest. Then, he undid her nightgown, gently pulling it down. Her

chest was completely covered, with several rows of gauze bandage

wrapped around her body. The nurse deftly cut the bandages, and

gingerly removed them. When Robin's new breasts were at last exposed,

both the doctor and the nurse smiled broadly, obviously pleased

with what they were seeing. Robin smiled up at them in a foggy sort

of way. "Would you like to see the results?" asked the doctor.

Robin nodded, and the nurse went to retrieve a large mirror,

which she held in front of Robin. Suddenly, Robin's face lit up.

"Oh, Doctor!" she cried. "They're fabulous! Oh, thank you. Oh, my

dreams have come true!" She began to weep, tears of joy pouring

out of her eyes.

Now, the doctor and nurse turned their attention to me. They

went through the same procedure, carefully removing the dressing

from my chest. When at last my new breasts were exposed, the doctor

and nurse reacted even more ecstatically than they had for Robin.

The nurse exlaimed, "These are perfect, Doctor! They're absolutely

perfect."

The doctor said, "Get the mirror. Let our little lady see for

herself."

Groggily, I raised my head to gaze into the mirror the nurse

held up at the foot of the bed. Suddenly, my eyes shot open, and

I was fully awake. Attached to my chest were two mammoth breasts,

at least a D-cup, if not an E. "Oh, no," I cried. "I asked for

the smallest cup size you had. These breasts are much too large."

The doctor gave me one of those smiles meant to reassure troublesome

patients. "I'm awfully sorry you're disappointed, my dear," he said

in a soothing tone, "but to tell the truth, your cup size had

already been ordered by the man who brought you here. I didn't

know you thought you had some choice in the matter."

I began crying myself, but I wasn't spilling tears of joy. I was

devastated. How could I report back to duty with these huge breasts

hanging from my chest? There was no possible way I could ever hide

the bulge, even if I wrapped myself up like a mummy. I heard the

doctor order the nurse to increase my sedative. Soon afterwards, I

was asleep, transported off to dreamland in a narcotic haze.

When at last I returned to wakefulness, the nurse was standing

in between our beds. She looked at us both, then said, "Now, since

your bandages have been removed, we don't want to waste all the

hard work the doctor has done. So, for the next several days, you

will be required to wear special bras. These bras have been

designed to hold your breasts to the final shape they will assume.

Without this step, the gelatin will just blob all over the place,

and you'll look like hell. Believe me." She produced two bras,

handing one to each of us. Then, she stepped over to Robin's bed,

and helped her lower her gown, then fit her breasts into the

specially-designed cups. She hooked the bra together, and finished

by adjusting the straps.

Now, it was my turn. I had never worn a bra before, obviously,

so this was going to be another new sensation to add to all the other

ones I had so recently experienced: the feel of nylon hose, the grip of

the corset stays, the taste of lipstick, the delight of a well-polished

nail, the taste of an erect penis, the feel of a cock in my ass.

The nurse had me sit up and lean over so my breasts, round and heavy,

hung straight down. Carefully, she fit each one into the cups of the

bra. They felt snug in the cups, squeezed into the pre-determined

shape the bra was designed to form. The shoulder straps were drawn up

over my shoulders, and then the bra was hooked behind me. Finally,

the nurse had me sit up so she could adjust the straps to hold the

cups at the desired angle. It was a strange, exciting feeling, even

though I still harbored my initial, deep disappointment regarding

the size of my breasts.

The nurse further instructed us not to remove our bras under any

circumstances. She would attend to that chore. She asked if there were

any questions, and, hearing none, she left the room, closing the door

quietly behind her.

When the nurse was gone, I turned to Robin. "Robin," I wailed.

"What am I going to do? I can't go back to the barracks looking like

this." I was whining like a little girl.

Robin smiled, an expression of deep contentment showing in her

face. "Why bother going back at all, Fanny?" she said. "The only

people who know where you've gone are Chuck and Al. They won't turn

you in, will they?"

It was true. On my leave application form, I had indicated I was

going to visit my parents in Kansas. Only Chuck knew the truth. I

suppose Al did, too, since Chuck usually told him everything that

was going on. So, if the Army went to find me in Kansas, I wouldn't

be there. My parents had no idea where I was. We had not communicated

since I had joined the Army. They had told me when I was a senior

in high school that, because of my poor grades, they were not going

to finance a college education for me. It really didn't matter to

me at the time, and I gladly went down to the recruiting station

and enlisted. But, their refusal to consider helping me get started

on the road to life made me angry. Once I was safely off at boot

camp, I simply erased them from my life.

Maybe I could hide from the Army. Right. And maybe the Russians

could conquer the world. I didn't know what to do. I was scared

to death.

But I was happy for Robin. She had gotten her heart's deepest

desire. Never before had I seen such happiness in a person's eyes.

And it had been my agreement to have the surgery that had made hers

possible. She knew the sacrifice I had made, and she loved me all

the more for it. I was her heroine. Nothing was too good for me.

About a week into our convalescence, I discovered something

even more disturbing than the size of my breasts. I think it was

actually Robin who found out first. We had been so focused on our

new appendages, we hadn't thought about much else. The nurses had

kept us confined to our beds, so that the breast "molds," which is

what we called our bras, could do their work. We didn't even get

up to go to the toilet. Instead, the nurses provided us with bedpans.

But, as I say, about a week into our convalescence, the nurse

informed us that we were now to begin getting out of bed and walking

about the clinic. She said we were going to be discharged in a few

days, and we had to be strong enough to leave under our own steam.

Robin was the first to get out of bed. She made a beeline for the

bathroom. "I want to pee like a regular person," she laughingly said.

She was gone for about five minutes. I heard the toilet flush, followed

by water running into the sink. The door opened, and there stood Robin,

her face ashen as she looked across the room at me.

"What is it, Robin? You look as though you've just seen a ghost,"

I said.

She stared across the room at me for a moment. Finally, she croaked,

"Our breasts are not the only surgical procedures they performed on

us. There's more."

"What? What are you talking about?" I asked.

"Have you touched yourself lately?" she asked.

"What do you mean?"

"Your genitals. Have you touched yourself down there?"

"No. I haven't had to, what with the bedpan they've got under me.

Why do you ask?"

"Maybe," she said. She hesitated, then went on, "maybe you better see

for yourself what I'm talking about."

Looking bewilderedly at her, I lifted my sheet, then pulled back my

gown. I placed my hand between my legs, and touched my penis. Suddenly,

my eyes shot wide open. Oh. My. God. My balls. Where were they? Oh, no.

What had these murderers done to us?

Robin looked at me, her face registering her own shock. "You, too?

They took yours too?"

My mouth fell open. I was speechless. All I could do was nod. Suddenly,

Robin threw her head back and laughed. She laughed and laughed until the

tears rolled down her cheeks. Finally, she said, "Well, that's a trade

I would gladly make. These beautiful breasts in exchange for my useless

balls? Any day, my sweet friend. Any day." And she continued laughing,

until, overcome by the absurdity of our dilemma and the force of her

merriment, I joined in. A few minutes later, the nurse entered the room

to find the two of us standing in the middle of it, our arms thrown

about each other's shoulders, laughing hysterically. She put her hands on

her hips, shrugged her shoulders, said, "Some people will laugh at

anything," turned on her heels, and marched back through the door,

closing it loudly behind her.

* * * * *

A week and a half later, Teddy came to pick us up to take us home.

By now, overcome by Robin's infectious joy, I had fallen in love with

my new breasts, and was no longer concerned about what the Army might

think of me. Nor was I upset about the loss of my testicles. Robin and

I were not permitted to have erections anyway, either around Teddy or Her

Majesty, or even the customers of the club. We were only permitted to

have erections in the privacy of our room, alone or together. But,

the love Robin and I felt for each other was strictly platonic, as

they say, so losing our balls meant nothing to us. It may have meant

something to the Army, but I didn't care about that anymore, anyway.

We learned during the ride home that, in our absence, Her Majesty

and Teddy had closed the club for renovations, primarily to add a

second room in the back, so we could both service customers at the

same time, if such a need ever arose. We also learned that Teddy

had planned a big homecoming for us, and that the regular customers

were very excited about seeing "the new us." We were just glad to be

back.

When we arrived at Queen Mary's, we went immediately to our room

upstairs. There we found several packages on the bed, wrapped in

colorful paper with ribbons attached. Eagerly, we opened them,

tearing the paper and scattering it all over the floor. What we

found out was that somebody, Teddy probably, or maybe even Her Majesty,

had purchased some new outfits for us. We now had lovely long-line

bras, heavily boned, to replace our corsets. They were black, with

red lace trimming the edges. They were designed to hold our breasts

up, but exposed above the nipple. As snug as the cups were, we knew

our breasts would bounce and jiggle noticeably. We could picture our

customer base increasing dramatically. We were also given new waitress

uniforms, to accommodate our new appendages. These looked like dance

hall girl costumes in the cowboy movies, with heavily starched crinolines

causing the short, short skirt to flare out almost horizontally. We

knew we would have to be extremely careful when bending over not to

expose our naked cocks and asscheeks. We were still pantieless. Some

things never change.

We spent the entire afternoon preparing ourselves for our "coming

out" party. Every detail of our dress and makeup was carefully attended

to. Finally, the big moment came. At four o'clock, as usual, the club

opened. This being a Friday, there was a fairly good-sized crowd waiting

outside for the doors to open. Queen Mary's had a Friday happy hour

from four 'til six, so there was always a gang of guys waiting for

the doors to open. These were the neighborhood drinkers, and only a

handful were gay. But, they knew the club, and they knew us, and

they had no problem with waitresses who were drag queens. The talk was

lively, and the beer flowed freely; a sort of momentum was gathering

as six o'clock neared.

That's when the serious Friday night crowd began arriving. These

were the guys who showed up early, and started drinking and looking for

partners for the night, or even for the weekend. They would gather

in groups, sitting in the booths or at the bar, talking in low murmurs

while eyeballing the guys sitting at other tables. Only occasionally

would Robin or I get any action out of these guys. They weren't horny

enough or frustrated enough yet to waste their sperm on a couple of

drag queens.

But, by eight o'clock, the joint was jumpin'. This was the time

when the hard party crowd would arrive, and by nine, after an hour of

some serious drinking and ogling, Robin and I would start getting

tips offered to us.

This night was no different than usual, except that maybe the crowd

was a little bit noisier, and a lot friendlier. I guess they had missed

us during our three week stay at the clinic. There was a hardly a

moment that a hand wasn't rubbing my bare ass. And it seemed like I was

making an awful lot of trips to the back room. It was strange having

my tits fondled while I sucked some guy off; and, I noticed I got a

lot more guys paying for a fuck, probably so they could play with my

basketball boobs while they plowed my ass. Anyway, it was really

exciting, and I must say I thoroughly enjoyed having my huge knockers

mauled. I guess I was just a shameless whore.

About ten o'clock, Chuck and Al arrived. I saw them take a booth

over in a corner. They were technically in Robin's territory, but I

asked her if I could wait on them. After all, I hadn't seen them in

several weeks. And I wanted to show off my new titties. (I am shameless!)

So, I picked up my tray from the bar and wiggled my way past all the

friendly hands, until I was standing before my two Army buddies,

both of whose eyes were bulging out of their sockets. Finally, Chuck

managed to open his mouth, "Holy shit, Stevie. What the fuck have you

gone and done?"

I gave him a wink and a grin. "Like 'em?" I set the tray down and

cupped them in my hands.

"Listen, I gotta talk to ya," said Chuck. "It's important. Real

important."

"Well," I said, "let's go in the back room. We can talk for a

little while in privacy there."

"Ok," he said, and slid a ten-dollar bill across the table. I held

up one finger for Teddy to see, and he nodded that it was ok. While

Chuck made his way to the back room, I carried the ten to Teddy. After

giving him the money, I hurried across the dance floor and entered

the back room, just as Chuck was closing the door.

I was feeling sexy, probably from all the attention I'd been getting,

so I sidled up to Chuck and ran my fingers through his crewcut. "Miss

me?" I purred, and kissed his ear.

He groaned as I licked his ear. I took the zipper of his fly in

my fingers and began to open it, thrusting my hand into his briefs

and rubbing his cock. He kept groaning. Finally, he grabbed my hand

and yanked it out of his pants. He pushed me away and began pacing

the floor.

"What's the matter, Chuck?" I asked. "What's wrong?"

"Listen, Steve, you're in big trouble. Big trouble." He was having

a hard time taking his eyes off my breasts.

"Well, I guess I will be when I go back to the base after my leave

is over," I replied. "But, I'm planning to try again to get discharged,

and, surely, once they see these -" (I pointed at my breasts) "- they'll

have to let me out of the Army."

Chuck looked at me with genuine concern. "Where've you been the last

three weeks, anyway?" he asked.

"Well, Robin and I went away to have this breast surgery," I said.

"Why?"

"You haven't heard, then?"

"Heard what?"

"Vietnam," he said.

"What about Vietnam?"

"The President and the Congress ordered a huge buildup over there.

Right after you left on your leave."

"So what?"

"We've been ordered to go over there."

"What?"

"Yeh, right after you took off to go on leave, the word came down.

All leaves were cancelled. We're shipping out tomorrow. Man, I been

looking for you for three weeks. You're AWOL, little buddy."

"What?"

"And, if you ain't on that plane tomorrow? Well, then, technically,

you're a deserter."

"What?"

I sat down on the cot and put my head in my hands. I was having

trouble comprehending the enormity of what Chuck was telling me.

Here I was, having decided to adopt this new lifestyle, to become a

drag queen, sometime waitress and whore, and to get out of the Army as

soon as I possibly could. My plan had seemed so simple. Surely, once

they saw how serious I was, saw the results of my surgery, they would

just let me go. But, now, I faced this whole new dilemma and it was

going to complicate things enormously. Deserter! How could that be?

Didn't they shoot deserters? What had I done to deserve that?

Vietnam? I didn't even know where it was.

I started to cry. My life was over. I couldn't go to Vietnam, not

looking the way I did. But, if I refused, I'd be shot for deserting.

Chuck sat down beside me, and began rubbing my back. He placed his

arm over my shoulder and pulled me into him. I continued sobbing in

despair as he held me close, purring in my ear.

Weird. Perverse. I noticed his fly was still open, and his prick

was still outside his briefs. Even though I had sunk to the pit of

despair, I was unable to resist reaching over with my hand and

covering his cock, fondling it gently as he rubbed the back of my

neck. I could feel his penis stiffening in my hand as I continued

crying and sniffling. Then, before I knew it, I had slipped onto

the floor on my knees, and was kissing the head of his cock. He

groaned as I slipped his prick into my mouth, luxuriating in the

silky feel and the growing warmth of his delightful member. I began

slowly running my lips up and down his rapidly-growing pole, savoring

the taste of the lubricant dripping from the expanding eye of his

pee-hole. I could tell he was getting excited, his prick twitching

in my mouth. I began humping my mouth up and down the length of his

dick, sensing he was about to come. And then, in a rush of pure

emotion, he exploded, and his cum splattered into my throat. Just

then, the door to the room opened, and I could hear stamping feet.

It sounded like a herd of buffalo had entered the room.

Chuck pushed my head off his pecker and tried to stand. But he

fell on the bed again, since I was blocking his way. I looked over

my shoulder, and saw three men in Army uniforms, with armbands on

their left arms. MPs. My life was over.

They stood me up and informed me I was under arrest for being

AWOL. In all the confusion, with all the yelling and shoving as

they wrestled me out the door and out of the club, I remember thinking

to myself, "At least they won't shoot me, 'cause I'm not a deserter."

They brought me back to base in handcuffs, and threw me into a

private cell. Later on, someone brought a uniform over from my

barracks, and I was told to put it on. Of course, my shirt no longer

fit, because of my breasts. But, I managed somehow to button it up,

in spite of that.

* * * * *

EPILOGUE

My attorney is having a hard time understanding any of this. How can

he? He has no frame of reference. I no longer fear being shot by the

Army. He has assured me that nothing like that will happen. But, he

is afraid they might send me to prison for awhile.

My concern is: which prison? If I'm sent to a men's prison, I won't

last a day. I'll be cut up for dogmeat. But what about a women's

prison? I still have a penis. I'm still more or less a male. Even

without my balls, they'll never let me in a women's jail.

Chuck is already in Vietnam, and has written me a letter. He's in

Saigon with a headquarters company, dispensing supplies all over the

place. He says he's already found people like Robin and me. He's

also discovered marijuana. Evidently, they sell a very good grade of

it over there. His advice to me is, "You and Robin should come on

over. You'd live like royalty. They love drag queens! And the booze

is great! And the joints we smoke look like Havana cigars! You two

would love this place. Believe it."

Vietnam. How could this obscure little country in this place so far

away from me have such a devastating effect on my life? I can't

begin to understand it. My life is ruined because the government

wants to fight a war in this godforsaken backwater. It makes no sense

at all.

Robin visits whenever she can. We have a good cry and she promises

me that my friends from Queen Mary's will be waiting to welcome me home

when my ordeal is done.

My attorney is hoping the Army will just say the hell with it and

give me a general discharge. They'd love to throw the book at me, but

they don't know which book applies.

I can only say this: I love the life I have found for myself. I

will endure whatever the Army gives me, and I will return to Queen

Mary's when my punishment is at an end.

I will always be grateful to Chuck for seeing in me what I had never

seen in myself. I hope he gets back from Vietnam in one piece (I hear

that a lot of people aren't). And I look forward to the day when

Robin and I will be able to enjoy our friendship again. And I can

be home at Queen Mary's, working for Teddy again.

The End