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"I Made my Son a Girl"
by Judigirl3@AOL.com
Chapter 1 "It's a Boy"!
I could scarcely believe my eyes as I read the words, "Most of the boys
who were born in the United States in the final years of the nineteenth
century and the first years of the twentieth wore dresses until they
were old enough to walk. Only from that point onward did a clear
majority wear clothes specially designed for boys!" My heart leapt
within me as I read Kenneth S. Lynn's biography of Ernest Hemingway
which my sister had purchased to consol me after the recent birth of my
son. I know that some people will think that I'm terrible for simply
not being happy with a beautiful baby boy, but you see I am not able to
have any more children and I desperately wanted a little girl. Permit
me to tell you my story and I do hope you will understand. My name is
Susan. I am twenty three, and my twin sister Debbie and I have always
been very close. We are identical twins and we did everything
together. Mother dressed us alike as children and she and dad were
really the only ones that could tell us apart. In high school, we were
the stars of the volleyball team, princesses at the Senior Prom (I was
told another girl actually became the prom queen because they did not
want to give the title to one of us and not the other), and we decided
to go to the same midwestern college. We were so incredibly happy and
our lives were remarkably intertwined. But then something happened in
our senior year, something quite natural, but nevertheless devastating
to me. My sister fell in love, became pregnant, and was married within
six months. I couldn't believe it. I was losing my dear sister, best
friend, and almost constant companion, to a man. Maybe I would have
eventually gotten used to the fact that sisters do grow up and get
married except for the fact that Scott started to drink heavily and
began to mistreat her. As the day of her baby's birth approached, he
became even more abusive, and the day after she had a beautiful baby
girl, he walked out on her for good. Although I was still in school
Debbie asked me to move in with her to help with baby Stephanie. I saw
this as a chance to get my sister back again and I gladly accepted her
offer. I finished school, graduating with a business degree and
continued to live with Debbie and my little niece. But the routine of
school, work, and helping Debbie became overwhelming at times and I
started to go out quite a bit myself. I met John at a business
conference that I attended in conjunction with my work and we fell in
love. John was extraordinarily handsome it wasn't long before I found
out that I was pregnant. But Debbie saw the warning signs with John from
the very beginning and told me, "Sis, this is history repeating itself.
He is just like Scott, drinking too much and he isn't ready to settle
down". I didn't want to believe her but Sis was right and he broke off
our relationship when I was seven months pregnant. Debbie and I hugged
one another, cried on each other's shoulder and considered the life we
would have as two young single women trying to raise children on our
own. Fortunately an inheritance from our deceased dad who became
wealthy in the textiles business allowed us to be free of the financial
burdens that young women in our position would otherwise encounter. But
now the men were gone and we started to plan our course of action.
Stephanie was almost two now and my child's projected birth date would
coincidently fall on her birthday. Debbie was as excited as I was and
we looked forward to having a playmate for Stephanie. But then the
thought occurred to both of us. What if my baby turned out to be a boy!
I told Debbie, "That just can't happen. I know nothing about boys and
besides Stephanie needs a little sister to play with". We agreed that
the child had to be a girl and almost unrealistically planned
accordingly. With one month to go, we had decorated the new baby's room
in lovely shades of pink and white. Going shopping with Debbie and
Stephanie gave us ample opportunity to buy little dresses, slips,
sweaters, booties and blankets in pretty pastel colors. We could hardly
wait for the birth our our new princess, and little Stephie kept asking
us, "When is my new cousin coming"? Stephie would come over and put her
ear on my stomach and say cheerfully, "Oh, I hear her inside, Aunt
Susan", and we would both laugh. The last month of my pregnancy went
quickly and when the labor pains began, mom who had been helpful behind
the scenes for the whole time drove me to the hospital. And at 12:05
A.M. on April 24, Stephanie's birthday, I gave birth to a six pound five
ounce baby BOY!!!! I took drama courses in both high school and college
and I think it was only my acting ability that kept me from bursting
into tears when my doctor told me that I had a new son. Oh, it's not
that I wasn't thrilled with having a child. I was! But he should have
been a girl. That's all. I wanted a girl, Debbie and Stephanie wanted
a girl, and none of us were prepared for having a male become part of
our household. So three weeks later while Jamie was sleeping, I was
reading the Hemingway book. Debbie was an English literature major and
had read Hemingway's, "For Whom the Bells Toll", A Farewell to Arms",
"The Old Man and the Sea" and a couple of his biographies. Apparently
she recalled the biographical sections that talked about his mother
Grace, a very strong willed woman, dressing little Ernest in dresses
like his sister Marcelline and taking him out in public. Debbie of
course didn't suggest that I do this to Jamie. She just gave me the
book and I continued reading,
"In the early weeks of his life, Ernest's principle costume was a
baby dress that had been "His mama"s. At five months, he was often seen
in a white lacy dress with pink bows and light blue shoes that
Marcelline wore in her year old photograph". I continued to read how
Grace put Ernest and Marcelline in look-alike outfits consisting of
bonnets, ruffled skirts, pink gingham gowns, fluffy lace- tucked
dresses, black patent-leather Mary Janes, high stockings, and picture
hats with flowers on them. In an early picture of Ernest, Grace wrote
at the bottom, "Summer Girl" and it seemed that when Ernest was three
and one half and Marcelline was four and three quarters, they were
always dressed alike, like two little girls. Now I don't know exactly
what was happening to me as I read these things but I do know that my
mind was racing a mile a minute. Would it be possible that I could
fulfill my dreams of having a daughter afterall? I called my sister and
said, "Deb, do you know what Ernest Hemingway's mother did to him?
Debbie simply smiled at me and said, "Yes, hon, that's why I got you the
book". I was flabbergasted. I said, But, Debbie, she made her son into
a little girl!" Debbie replied, "Well, isn't that what you would really
like to do to Jamie?", and she left the room leaving me to my own
thoughts. That night at supper, Debbie and I had a serious "sister to
sister" conversation. I said, "But if I do this, what will everyone
say"? Debbie was calm and very straight forward about it and said, "Why
should you care about what other's say? He is your child. The important
thing is that you love him and show him the affection that too many
children simply aren't getting in this world today. And if you feel
that you will be able to love him more as a little girl, I am totally
behind you Sis." We hugged one another as we both knew that that was
exactly what I wanted to do and from that moment on Jamie's destiny took
a radical turn, from one that would be filled with toy soldiers,
baseball gloves, and fishing poles to the softer, more gentle world that
was to be his, a world of ruffles and lace, dolls and dresses, in short,
the sweeter world of women and girls that Debbie and I have so enjoyed,
and now desired for our children.
Chapter 2 "Jamie the Schoolgirl!"
When Jamie woke up from his nap, it was almost as if I was holding a new
child in my arms. I had settled in my mind that if Grace Hemingway
could change Ernest into a girl, I could give my child the same
opportunity to grow up in a more gentle setting. I slowly rocked him in
my arms whispering to him, "Oh darling, you are so fortunate. You are
going to be mommy's little girl now and we are going to have such fun as
mother and daughter". I saw his little face break out in a big smile
almost as if he knew that he was going to be spared the rough and tumble
world of little boys and instead be dressed prettily and be mommy's
little helper around the house. I know that I was probably imagining it
but I could almost sense a peace come over him as I whispered to him
about how I couldn't wait until he grows up to put him in frilly dresses
and tie pretty ribbons in his hair.
Well, Jamie was a very healthy baby and did grow very quickly. Before
we knew it, we were celebrating Stephanie's and Jamie's birthday.
Stephie was three and Jamie one, and we invited several of our female
friends and their daughters to the party. Debbie and I dressed Stephie
and Jamie in identical pink party dresses with the most darling
petticoats that made their little skirts flair out from their bodies.
Stephanie was such a big sister to Jamie and was very protective of him.
She fussed over him, shared her dolls with him and the two got along so
very well. Some of our closer friends knew that Jamie was a boy and far
from being critical, complimented us on our successful feminization
project. One mom whose four year old son was the only boy at the party
besides Jamie, confided in us that as soon as her divorce became final,
her child would no longer be seen in pants. Melissa brushed back the
bangs on her sons's hair and Deb and I smiled as we knew that little
Harold was going to become Mary within six months. Melissa thanked us
for giving her the inspiration to make Harold the child she always
wanted him to be.
Deb, who always had a mischievous spirit said, "Melissa, if Harold is
going to eventually be Mary, why not give the rest of us a chance to see
what he will look like when the change takes place"? The room suddenly
became silent, and all eyes turned to little Harold, who was unaware of
his mother's plans to change his gender within the year. Mary Ann, a
close friend of Melissa's said, "Great idea, Deb! Melissa, let's dress
Harold up so he doesn't feel out of place being the only boy here!"
Harold, already uncomfortable at seeing no other boys at the party,
began to back up and clutched the little racing car that he held in his
hand very tightly. But alas, there was no place to run. He was
surrounded by women and girls and sensing what was going to take place,
he began to cry.
But Mary Ann swept him up into her arms, held him close, and said,
"Honey, there is no reason to be afraid. No one is going to harm you.
We just want to see how cute you will be as a little girl!" His mother
came over and gently took the racing car out of his hand saying, "Dear,
we might as well get rid of this. I don't think you will be playing
with toys like this much longer", and she kissed him on the forehead.
Mary Ann wiped his eyes and then carried him into the bedroom where she
and two other women helped Harold out of his boyish pants, shirt and
underwear. Soon all the women and even a couple of the teen age girls
came in to see what was going to happen to the only boy at the party. I
scooped Jamie up in my arms, and while he was too young to appreciate
what was going on, I thought to myself, "I'm glad that I put you in
little dresses and skirts early, son. It will be so much easier for you
to be a girl as you have never been taken out of dresses like poor
little Harold.
Mary Ann, who seemed to be enjoying all this, stooped down and helped
Harold slip into a pair of Stephanie's light blue nylon panties that Deb
brought out. Harold squirmed a little as all the ladies and girls
smiled approvingly. Then she slipped a full, very dainty light blue
petticoat over his head and let it fall gently to his knees. Putting
her hands on Harold's silky waist, she then spun him around and the
skirt of his petticoat went flying and all the ladies giggled to see the
swirl of his skirt. At that moment Harold tried to run, but looked
silly running like a boy when he was so prettily attired. His mother
actually got angry and said sternly, "Get back here this instant Mary,
and let Mary Ann finish dressing you". Harold had never heard his
mother so cross and obediently returned, so that Mary Ann could slip the
light blue party dress over his head. As he felt Mary Ann buttoning up
the back of his dress, he thought, "Oh my goodness, Mother just called
me Mary. What are they doing to me." He looked around and saw everyone
in dresses and thought "They are making me a girl!". Mary Ann tied the
sash in the back of his dress and one by one all the women and girls
came up and gave him a little hug. The last was his mother who with
tears of joy in her eyes said, "Oh Mary, you don't know how long I have
waited for this. My precious little daughter". Harold, feeling very
confused and yet loving the attention he was receiving, managed to let a
little smile escape from his lips, not realizing yet, how his life would
be forever changed.
The party was very successful and Stephanie and Jamie were showered with
clothes and toys appropriate for girls their age. The months seemed to
pass quickly and Deb and I heard that little Harold was a full time girl
now and we were happy that his first outing in skirts, so to speak,
occurred at the birthday party of our children. While reading the
papers and seeing the increasing incidences of juvenile misbehavior, we
have become more and more convinced that if more boys were treated like
Harold and our precious Jamie, we would perhaps have a gentler society.
Jamie is such a sweet child and is such a big help around the house now.
It is hard to believe that he will be starting kindergarten in the Fall.
I am not ready to lose my little girl and I have enrolled him as a girl
in a very exclusive private school where the teachers know of his
special situation. Stephie is already in the second grade there and
welcomes her little "sister" going to the same school. And Harold who
made the adjustment of becoming Mary very successfully, is in the third
grade.
As the first day of classes approached, I was a nervous wreck. I wanted
him to look so perfect for school. Deb and I had gone shopping that
weekend and visited the most exclusive girl's shops in Chicago to
purchase school clothes for my "daughter". I dressed Jamie in a little
yellow sun dress and white sandals and he was so patient trying on dress
after dress in the shops. He is remarkably girlish as nature had been
very kind to him, providing him with very delicate facial features and a
small frame. This reinforced my feelings that what I had done was right
for he would make a terrible boy...He would have been called a sissy for
sure and it is much better his simply being a little girl. That way he
can be mommy's little sissy and no one will make fun of him because he
wears pretty dresses all the time. And I must admit, I love him in his
pretty clothes. He is such a wonderful daughter to me.
Well, the big day finally arrived and Jamie was ready to begin his first
day of school as a girl. I knocked on his door and called, "Wake up
Missy, it's time to get dressed". My little sweetheart jumped out of
bed and looked so precious in his little girl's nightie as he rubbed the
sleep out of his eyes. After a quick shower I handed him a fluffy pink
towel and he dried himself off. I brushed some scented dusting powder
over his body and then handed him his little panties that he slipped
into very quickly. I could hardly hold back my tears as I saw my son in
the pretty light pink undies that most boys never get to enjoy. I just
know that he loved wearing them. Then I pulled a lacy pink slip over
his head and let it fall gently to his knees. Jamie took a sideward
glance at him self in the mirror and then embarrassed, he quickly turned
away. I said, Oh honey, it's just fine to admire your self now. Girls
spend more time looking in the mirror than boys and you are mommy's girl
now "
Finally it was time for his dress. I can't tell you how I have looked
forward to this moment. I walked to his closet and ran my fingers
delicately across his many pretty dresses until I came to the most
darling outfit that we picked out at the store. Jamie was going to be
"pretty in pink" and I took his dress off the hanger and walked toward
him. "Look darling what you are going to be wearing today". Jamie
smiled just like a girl and he raised his hands in the air as I slipped
his dress over him. Oh it fell just right and the skirt came to about
four inches above his knees. "Turn around sweetheart and let mommy tie
your sash", I said. Jamie spun around and I just wanted to hug him to
death...he was so cute. I quickly put his white lace -trimmed socks on
and then his pretty mary janes with the little bows. Finally I tied a
pink silk ribbon in his hair, handed him a little clutch purse and my
darling son was ready to board the school bus.
Jamie made friends very easily with the little girls in his class and
was always in demand for the little girl birthday and slumber parties
that were so popular in our neighborhood. I adored dressing him up in
the prettiest frocks and brushing his long hair that now fell down
almost to his waist. On Saturday mornings when there was no school, we
would sit for what seemed like hours just brushing and fussing with each
other's hair. Jamie loves bubble baths, perfume and hair ribbons and
all the things that a girl his age adores. He likes going shopping with
me and we always end up bringing one or two new dresses home for his
well supplied closet. I must say that my "daughter is becoming a
clothes horse while still in grade school. What will I ever do when he
is a teenager? I take him to the beauty salon with me and my hairdresser
friend who knows Jamie is a boy, always reinforces his femininity by
giving him such a girlish cut and style. I am pleased to say that he
seems to like his long hair and I have seem him fully attired in a
frilly dress, standing before the mirror admiring how pretty he really
is.
I do need to tell you of one unpleasant incident that occurred lest you
think that our life is totally without problems. Jamie's father who
abandoned us when I was seven months pregnant somehow heard about
Jamie's becoming a girl and he was furious. I have full custody and he
hasn't been in contact with us for years, but when Jamie was eight and
in the fourth grade, I got a very nasty letter. John said that it was
outrageous that I changed his son into a "girl" and that he was going to
get a court order and seek custody. I was not going to take any grief
from this man who abandoned us and I wrote back to him saying, "John,
you might as well know this. Jamie is not your son anymore. He is not
your son first of all because you abandoned him and have made no contact
with him for seven years and secondly he is not your son because he is
now and always will be a girl! I have an excellent attorney and if you
try to interfer in any way, I will sue you for back child support and
you will have to pay dearly. So stay out of my life and out of my
daughter's."Apparently this scared him off so Jamie and I are safe from
any meddling in our lives, at least for the time
being.
I enrolled Jamie in ballet class when he was eight and he took to it
like a duck to water, if you'll excuse the expression. He loves dancing
and Deb, my sister, and Stephanie my niece, who is now ten, and I
attended his recital. He was wearing a pretty short white dress with a
full skirt and danced so prettily in the school's rendition of Swan
Lake. I was so very proud of my son. During the recital there was a
representative from Sears there looking for possible child catalogue
models. He contacted me through the school and after some negotiations,
Jamie became a child model, modelling girl's wear for Sears. If you
turn to the "Girl's Section" you will see him wearing a floral print
Easter dress and holding a little white purse. He loves his modeling
job, even though he is only eight and has made friends with all the
girls there. At home Jamie is the daughter that every mother dreams of.
He is polite, courteous, loves to help me cook and bake cookies, keeps
his room neat, and takes such special care of his pretty clothes. I
can't believe how neat he keeps his room.
This summer, Debbie and Stephanie, Jamie and I, are going to fly to
Great Britain to tour England and Scotland. It will be fun travelling
together as Debbie and I want our daughters to receive the very best
education possible. As I reflect on raising my son as a girl, I do not
have any regrets. First and foremost, he is a truly a beautiful child
and has a temperment that is so suited to that of a girl. I have seen
boys who are of a slight build and who are inclined to be girlish in
their mannerisms, so mercilessly teased by the bully boys whose size was
inherited by their lumberjack and football player fathers. They think
that because they are big, they can terrorize the smaller, more
delicate boys. And of course many smaller boys live their lives in fear
of the bullies. But my Jamie will never have to do that for girls are
not expected to be tough or fight. Instead of being called names and
feeling inadequate because of his size, Jamie can slip into a pretty
dress, brush out his long hair and be the lovely girl he was meant to be
without be harrassed by mean and nasty boys. And I as his mother, will
help him to be a lovely young lady. Jamie is going to grow up to be a
young woman and we as mother and daughter will always be the best of
friends.
Chapter 3 "Jamie goes to England!"
The summer came quickly and mid July found Debbie and I packing
frantically for our European trip. The girls were so excited about
their first airplane ride. Stephanie and Jamie each had their little
beige suitcases packed with dresses, shorts, tops, sweaters , rompers,
skirts, slips and panties. Mixed in with the clothes were books such as
Ann of Green Gables, Heidi and Pippi Longstocking as well as some of
Jamie's favorite barbies. Debbie and I dressed them in cute sundresses
for travelling and we took a taxi to the airport. The girls must have
looked precious because it seemed that everyone was smiling at them.
On the plane the flight attendants were very helpful and we were all
thrilled that the movie was "Little Women". My Jamie is definitely all
girl but I feel that extra reinforcement is always useful in helping him
think and feel like a girl. I want him to be so thoroughly girlish when
those nasty hormones kick in in a few years, so that he will in no way
entertain any foolish boyish thoughts.
We were met at Heathrow Airport in London by a close friend of my mom's
with whom she went to school years ago. Mrs. Jones lived in
Southhampton and we all piled into the car for the drive there. She was
exceptionally friendly but Deb and I both noticed that she seemed to
take an extraordinary interest in Jamie during the whole drive to her
home. She asked him about school, complimented him repeatedly on his
dress, asked him what he liked doing the best and on and on and on.
When we arrived at her very spacious home, we were met by a servant at
the door and ushered into the most beautiful home we had ever seen. We
had heard that mom's friend lived well but we were not aware that she
had married into nobility that made her one of the wealthiest women in
Southhampton. After tea, we were ushered to our rooms. Debbie and I
would each have our separate room, lavishly decorated, and Jamie and
Stephanie would share a room together, not that they had to, for there
were many rooms, but because Mrs. Jones thought the girls would feel
more at ease together.
The jet lag apparently took its toll and the four of us slept until
10:00 AM the next day. Mrs. Jones' servants had prepared a brunch for
us that consisted of breakfast foods, fruits, soups, sandwichs and
anything that you could possible have desired after a refreshing sleep.
Debbie, Stephanie, Jamie and I came to brunch casually dressed waiting
to hear what our itinerary would be for the day's touring which had been
so graciously arranged by mother's good friend. While we were eating
and chatting pleasantly, the morning calm was broken by the unmistakable
sound of breaking glass. Startled, we all jumped to see a soccer ball
come rolling right into the dining area from the living room where it
had crashed through the window from the outside. Mrs. Jones was beside
herself with anger. "He has done it again", she said, "and after I have
told him a thousand times to not play ball in the front yard". Soon
afterwards a cute little boy came in saying in the highest little voice
I have ever heard for a boy, I'm sorry Grandma Jones, it won't happen
again".
Such was our abrupt introduction to Andrew Jones, the ten year old
grandson of mom's friend who was staying with her for the summer while
his parents were visiting friends in Australia. Mrs. Jones stood there
with her hands on her hips, shaking her head and saying, Andrew, this is
positively the last straw and you know what I told you would happen if
you were a naughty boy again!" "No, no grandma", shouted Andrew, "I'll
be good! I'll be good"! "Oh yes you will dear. You will be very good
when I am through with you". Meanwhile my sister Debbie, Jamie,
Stephanie and I were sitting there watching this fascinating drama
develop, wondering "What is going to happen to little Andrew"? Later
that afternoon we dressed the girls in summer dresses and we all piled
into a limousine as Mrs. Jones directed her chauffeur to drive us to
London and Buckingham Palace where she had arranged a private tour for
us. It was there, walking through the corridors of the royal family
home, that Mrs. Jones explained to Debbie and me her remarkable plan for
her grandson.
Girls", she said, "I have been so worried about Andrew. He is so rowdy
and his parents can hardly control him anymore. You saw how he kicked
the ball through the window. His mother and father said, "We are going
to send him to a private military school unless you can do something
with him this summer. Well, I have thought more and more about a idea
that I have had for some time now. May I ask you a question"?
"Certainly", Mrs. Jones, I replied. "Your dear mother told me last
month that your daughter Jamie is not really a girl. Is that true dear?"
I felt my face reddening and heard Debbie cough nervously as Mrs. Jones
told us that she knew what we always though was a secret concealed from
all but family members and very close friends. But then, I guess Mrs.
Jones was a close friend of mom. She sensed our uneasiness and put her
arms around my shoulder and said, "Oh, please don't be upset dear, many
mothers make their sons into daughters over here. I think that it is
wonderful that you are allowing your son to experience the joys of being
a little girl. He is extremely pretty, as I'm sure you have been told
many times".
I immediately breathed easier and listened closely as Mrs. Jones
continued. She said, "I have been in touch with my good friend Dr. Emily
Williams who has been involved with changing little boys into girls.
Then she totally shocked us saying, "I called Andrew's parents last
night and they agreed that it would be alright to begin proceedings to
make Andrew a little girl like your Jamie. I have threatened him with
this before if he did not behave more appropriately and the breaking of
the window has convinced me that the time is right to put Andrew in
dresses". "Could this be happening again?", I wondered. We had seen
Harold sissified and sent to school as a girl. My own son of course,
has been in skirts since infancy and now we have travelled three
thousand miles and are running into a possible boy to girl
transformation again. I looked at Andrew skampering about with the
girls up ahead and mentally saw him in a dress like my son and niece.
Strangely enough it was not an unpleasant picture at all but one that
seemed quite right for this little boy with the very high voice. I
thought, "Andrew dear, I hope you are enjoying being with the girls.
You are soon going to be one!"
Mrs. Jones was pleased with our agreement with her plans for Andrew and
she asked for our help. "Oh Susan", she said, "The timing of your visit
is so fitting. You know exactly what needs to be done to properly
feminize a boy. Jamie is so wonderfully girlish". I thought, "Mrs.
Jones, you just don't realize that Jamie was in dresses right from the
beginning. Andrew is a ten year old boy who likes to play soccer, rough
house with the boys and may very well be a problem". I began to express
my thoughts on this but was dismissed with a friendly, "Nonsense dear,
he'll do exactly as I say". I thought, "Well, I hope you are right, or
this could be a very difficult time for all of us". We returned to
Southhampton from our lovely palace tour in the early evening and were
served tea by the servants. I kept trying to size Andrew up on the way
back wondering how he was going to take his planned feminization. Debbie
and I told Jamie and Stephanie what was going to happen and both laughed
mischievously and said they would help. Both girls liked Andrew and
said that he would make a nice new sister for them.
After tea, Andrew started out the door to meet with his boy friends when
Amanda, Mrs. Jones French maid stopped him in his tracks. He tried to
pull away but she held him firmly and brought him back to the center of
the room. She forced him to sit down in an elegant rose colored chair
and Mrs. Jones began to explain to him precisely what was going to
happen. Debbie, Stephie, Jamie and I sat fascinated as we watched the
early stages of Andrew's feminization. Mrs. Jones said sweetly,
"Andrew, you are ten years old now. Soon you will be going through
puberty when boys experience a change in their bodies including a change
in their voices. They start to grow more hair and they become all too
aggressive. Your parents and I think you are already too aggressive as
it is dear, and we have decided that from now on, you are going to be
Andrea!! "Andrea!", shouted Andrew!
My name is Andrew, not Andrea. Andrea is a sissy girl's name. My eight
year old Jamie, clutched the sides of his dress and moved closer to me, a
little startled by Andrew's outburst, and I put my arms around my son,
whispering, "It's ok, honey. Mrs. Jones knows what is best for him". Mrs.
Jones looked Andrew right in the eye and said to him, "Yes, it is a sissy
girl's name and as of right now, it is your new name dear, and you are
going to be my new grand daughter".
"Amanda dear, would you come and remove Andrew's clothes please". The
very pretty maid, attired in a traditional black maid's uniform with a
short skirt, white apron and high heels minced toward Andrew and begain
to forcefully remove his shirt and pants. As Andrew struggled, one of
the pretty maids in training, a teen age girl with long blonde hair
entered the room and also held the struggling boy. As he continued to
squirm, Amanda was forced to give him a little spanking, saying ,"Now be
a good girl Missy, or Amanda is going to get very angry with her little
girl". He cried out but soon saw that it was useless as the two women
completely overpowered him. Soon he was standing in front of us without
his clothes and gladly reached for the soft lavender towel that Mrs.
Jones handed to him. Debbie and I felt a strange stirring within us as
we watched what was happening, and later acknowleged to one another that
we secretly enjoyed seeing little boys feminized. The thought of this
rather aggressive child being turned into a very pretty girl made us
feel better. The teen age girl maid whose name we learned was Marie
left the room momentarily and returned with a handful of silky garments
that were soon to clothe the naked body of a ten year old boy. Mrs.
Jones took the towel from Andrew and before we knew it the boy was
standing before us clad in the prettiest white satin panties we had ever
seen. Andrew's little mouth was wide open in surprise and as he stood
there not knowing how to feel in his very dainty attire. He
subconsciously fingered the delicate lace, edging his panties, and
before he could mutter a word, Marie had his arms through a matching
white satin training bra, fastening it with the quick and skillful hands
of a trained personal lady's maid.
"Stand up Andrea", said Mrs. Jones. "Stand up and show the girls how
cute you look". But Andrew was still not ready to be Andrea and he
uttered a very nasty word. Mrs. Jones was furious and said, "You will
be punished for that young lady" This afternoon your closest boy friends
on your soccer team will meet the new sissy girl in our home. Andrew
began to say something but the words froze on his lips as Marie slipped
an exquisite lace trimmed white satin slip over his head and pulled it
down to a few inches above Andrew's knees. With a flirtacious smile she
flounced the skirt of his pretty slip and gave him a little kiss on the
cheek. Debbie and I gave each other a knowing smile as we thought, "Oh,
he does look pretty". The best was yet to come though, and Amanda came
out of the bedroom with what had to be the prettiest white lace dress
that I have ever seen. I thought, "I really need to buy dresses like
that for my son". Amanda walked right up to Andrew, held the dress up
to him and then placed it over his outstretched arms and let it fall
into place. The dress had delicate embroidery on the bodice, a cute
lace collar, and a full skirt that rustled when he walked. Mrs. Jones
had spared no expense in assuring that Andrew's first day as a girl
would be a memorable one.
At this point, Stephanie, sensing in her little girl's mind the anguish
that this boy must be going through went up and gave him a big hug.
While Marie was tieing the blue satin sash on his dress we were all
touched to hear Stephie say, "I'll be your best friend, Andrea". Then
my Jamie went up to him and said, "It's ok, Andrea, I'm a boy too but
mommy made me girl and I like wearing dresses. You will too in time".
As the girls chatted with their new "sister", Marie came in with a pair
of lacy socks and white Mary Janes shoes just like those worn by real
girls. Mrs. Jones then came over and placed a long blonde wig on
Andrew's head that fell softly to his shoulders. Debbie sighed in
delight with this ultimate feminine touch that completely changed Andrew
into a very attractive young Miss. Marie tied a white silk ribbon in
his hair and Amanda began to apply lipstick to his lips, telling him
that soon he would be given courses on make up, color coordination and
other things that a young girl his age should know. Marie then handed
Andrew a little purse and he stood there looking so pretty, as if he had
been a little girl for all of his life. Debbie and I thought, "Indeed
he should have been, as should so many delicate boys who are being
deprived of the girlhood they so rightly deserve".
Mrs. Jones was beaming at Andrew's successful transformation and
addressed her new granddaughter saying, "This may be difficult the first
few days, dear, but I think you are just going to do fine as a girl."
Andrew managed a weak smile, and while he was still in a state of shock,
did kind of like the feel of his pretty clothes. He nervously held the
sides of his dress and felt so very pretty and vulnerable. The feel of
his silk slip against his knees was such a new experience for him as he
walked back and forth across the room getting used to being in dresses.
Mrs. Jones said, "Honey, make a curtsy to Amanda and Marie now for
helping you dress and become such a pretty young lady". Andrew grasped
the sides of his skirt and placing his left foot behind the right, bent
his knee and spread his skirt in the sweetest little curtsy a boy ever
made. All of us clapped and Mrs. Jones directed us into the dining room
where a big "coming out" party was about to begin for the newest girl in
the Jones' family. Mrs. Jones said, "Now Andrew won't have to go away
to a military school. His mother and father will be so proud of their
new daughter".
We heard the sounds of cars pulling up outside the Jone's residence and
saw several women and their daughters emerging from the vehicles and
walking towards the house. Mrs. Jones had planned Andrew's
transformtion better than any of us had thought, and several young
ladies his age had come to welcome him to the world of little girls.
Carrying elaborately wrapped presents and dressed in the lovliest party
dresses that money could buy, girl after girl came up to Andrew, kissed
him and handed him a present. Mrs. Jones greeted all the mothers who
congratulated her on making her grandson into such a lovely girl. I
later learned that some of the girls who came were also boys who had
been changed into girls by their mothers, a practice that is apparently
more common in England than in our own country. After eating cake and
ice cream, Andrew began opening his presents, pulling out delicate lacy
slips, little girl jewelry, expensive perfumes, prettily dressed dresser
dolls, earrings, and a wide variety of gifts suitable for a young girl.
I could see that this was one boy who would not be kicking a soccer ball
around anymore. His world would become an ultra feminine one and Mrs.
Jones, Amanda, and Marie were there to see that all boyishness would be
removed from him before his parents return from Australia. Mrs. Jones
thanked Debbie and me profusely for being present at Andrea's coming out
party and she told us how she looked forward to our travelling together
for the next two weeks visiting quaint English towns, crusader castles,
and other wonderful points of interest with her prettily dressed grand
daughter at her side. As for Debbie and me, we were amazed at how we
have been a part of the feminization of three boys now who have forever
left the rough and tumble world of men and boys and entered into the
softer, more sensitive world of the female gender which is of course by
far superior, as any thinking person readily knows. I hugged my Jamie
and was glad that I made him a girl and I wished Mrs. Jones the very
best of luck in bringing Andrea to his full potential as a young lady, a
role in which I just know he is going to delight in. As we got ready to
return to America, I thought about her mention of Dr. Williams and made
a mental note to check up on Andrea in a couple of months to see if they
decided to remove all elements of boyishness from him. In all honesty,
I sometimes wish my Jamie lacked all traces of being a boy but as he is
still only eight, I have a couple of years to decide if I am going to do
anything about that. I wish I could tell you more about Andrea and our
exploits in England and later in Scotland, but I must continue the story
of my own son's growing up to be a proper young lady, a story which took
some interesting turns when we returned to the United States.
Chapter #4 'The Wedding'
Two years have passed since our wonderful trip to the British Isles and
I am happy to report that Jamie has continued to develop into a very
lovely young lady. Shortly before his tenth birthday, I received a
telephone call from my college room mate Rachel, informing me that she
was going to be getting married in June, and wanted me to be a
bridesmaid. Rachel and I had stayed in touch over the years and she was
one of the few college friends that I had told about Jamie. She told me
that she had been thinking about the two of us and would like to include
him in the wedding party too. I didn't know what to say but Rachel,
anticipating my hesitation, blurted out, "Jamie can be my flower girl!".
""Oh my", I thought, "How wonderful!" I remembered being a flower girl
at my aunt's wedding many years ago and how much fun it was. Now my son
would have the chance to experience the same joy as I did.
I hung up the phone and looked out the window to see Jamie on our
backyard swing, swinging higher than he was allowed. His little skirts
were flying in the breeze and I thought, "I must tell him again that a
young lady holds her skirts down. What am I going to do with this boy"!
I called him in , gave him a mild scolding for being so unladylike, and
broke the exciting news to him that he was going to be a flower girl in
my friend Rachel's wedding. I expected him to be as happy as I was but
Jamie has been a little difficult lately. I blame it on the new family
that moved in across the street with their two boys who are about
Jamie's age. They invite him to play baseball with them and I am afraid
that they are awakening some boyish desires deep within him that I don't
like at all. So I think that being a flower girl is the best thing that
can happen to him at this time. Maybe when he tries on his lovely gown
and rehearses with the bridesmaids and junior bridesmaids, he will
settle into being a normal girl once again.
The next morning we dressed in blue mother and daughter tea-length
dresses and drove to the bridal salon. Jamie seemed very subdued and
not at all like the cheerful daughter that I have been raising. I
brushed his bangs, adjusted his hair ribbon, and asked, "What's wrong
dear?" Jamie looked up at me and said, "Mom, I'm almost ten years old
and I decided that I want to be a boy". Well, I almost ran the car
right off the road. "A boy! Jamie, what are you saying? You're not a
boy. You are mommy's girl. Look at you honey. You have long hair and
you wear dresses. You can't be a boy !" I started to raise my voice
and the next thing I knew, he was crying. Oh I was so afraid that this
would happen some day and now I had responded so harshly to my son.
What was I to do. He is my daughter, my pride and joy. I can't give
her up now. But she is a he....Oh, get so confused. I quickly put one
hand around him as I drove, and told him we would talk about it some
more. Unconsciously I pulled his skirt over his knees, instinctively
treating him as the little girl into which I had changed him.
We arrived at the bridal shop where we were greeted by the owner and the
prospective bride, Rachel herself, who had come for a fitting. Rachel
threw her arms around me and we hugged. "Susan, it has been so long",
she said. Then stepping back, she looked at Jamie and said, "And this
must be the sweet little child that I have heard so much about".
Noticing Jamie's tear stained cheeks she said, "Honey, have you been
crying"? I quickly explained that Jamie was going through one of his
rebellious stages, trying to act like a boy. Rachel smiled and said,
"Oh Jamie hon, you don't want to be a boy. You are going to be in my
wedding and I want you to be the prettiest of all my attendants". She
held Jamie close and taking him by the hand, led him over to the clothes
rack where his flower girl dress was hanging. Removing it from the
rack, I saw that it was absolutely beautiful and I couldn't wait to see
my son in it. Rachel held it up to Jamie, and I saw a little smile
break out on his face. Oh, I was so relieved. He likes his dress.
Maybe the excitement of being in the wedding will dissipate those silly
boyish thoughts that rise up and make me fearful that I am going to lose
my little girl.
Rachel gave Jamie a hug, took his hand and let him off to one of the
dressing rooms. There she lovingly helped Jamie take off his daytime
dress and slip and gently lowered a pink full-skirted petticoat over his
head. Jamie was almost in a trance like state as the lovely flower girl
dress was then put on him. The dress was pink satin, long and totally
feminine. Rachel said, "Let me take a second to brush your hair dear
and we'll go out and show mother what a darling flower girl you are". I
was waiting patiently outside the dressing room and was melighted to see
my son emerge looking like the most beautiful little girl in the whole
world.
Being his mother I am a little prejudice, but I do declare that Jamie is
prettier than most girls I know. He ran to me and we embraced and I
thought, "Oh, I am so lucky to have a son like Jamie. He is really a
girl at heart and he is going to just adore being a flower girl". My
bridesmaid dress was similar to Jamie's and we would truly be mother and
daughter for this wedding. I tried my outfit on and Jamie commented on
how pretty I looked. I love his interest in dresses and feminine things
and always welcome his comments. Rachel told us that she was delighted
that we would be in her bridal party and that she looked forward to the
big day. The bridal consultant, a lovely girl named Kristy, handed
Jamie a little bouquet of flowers and had him practice walking about the
salon. He moved so gracefully in his dress and I was so very proud
of him. When all the fitting was done and everything was just so,
Kristy helped Jamie out of his dress and back into his daytime outfit.
I asked hopefully, "Do you like your gown dear"? And my precious son,
the love of my life, made me so happy when he replied, Oh yes mother,
it's a very pretty dress". I said, "Well, let's be off then honey.
Rachel has many things to do yet before the wedding and we don't want to
delay her". I kissed Rachel goodbye and she gave both Jamie and me a
sweet hug. "See you soon girls", she said, as my daughter and I left
the shop thinking about the fun we are going to have at the wedding.
The day of the wedding was soon upon us and it had to be one of the
nicest days of the year. I was awakened by the bright sun shining
through my window and I saw that there was not a cloud in the sky. As I
set up in bed, my door burst open and Jamie, clad in a little
embroidered white satin nightie with a lace collar, came walking in with
a smile on his face. "Good morning sweetheart", I said, and he jumped
on to my bed and gave me a big hug. "Are you ready to be Rachel's
beautiful little flower girl today"? "Oh yes mother", he replied, "I'm
going to look so pretty". I felt a wave of relief hearing Jamie say
that as I was still a little shaken up after he talked about wanting to
be a little boy the day we went to the bridal salon. But apparently
Rachel's reassuring words that she wanted him to be her prettiest
attendant together with the unquestionable joy of being able to wear the
prettiest dress that me has ever owned, convinced my son that being a
girl was best for him after all. I said, "Yes, dear, you are going to
be absolutely darling in pink satin and everyone is going to think,
"What a perfectly lovely little girl".
I drew Jamie's scented bubble bath, helped him into the bath tub and
told him to be sure to get all clean for the wedding. I heard him
singing in the tub and was so glad that my boy child has adjusted so
well to his feminization. Several different mothers have told me that
if they had to do it all over again, they would have changed their
unruly little boys into girls. Jamie was the perfect little sissy, the
most delightful son that a mother could ever want. I had his under
garments ready for him when he emerged from the tub and soon my child
was arrayed in pale pink satin panties with a little bow on each side.
The panties were trimmed with delicate lace and I could see that Jamie
was feeling so girlish in them. He held out his arms and I slipped his
matching pink satin bra on him and fastened it in the back. I said,
"Honey bun, lets put your robe on now while mommy makes your nails all
pretty."
I have always thought that wearing nail polish was especially important
for boys being changed into girls as they are always so busy with their
hands. It is difficult to think of one's self as a little boy when one's
nails are pink and pretty. Jamie snuggled up close to me on the bed and
dutifully put out his little hands as I applied a coat of light pink to
his already manicured nails. I did his toes too and thought about how
pretty they would look through his stockings if he took his heels off at
the reception. It was then time for his makeup and I applied it
lovingly to my son. "Purse your lips dear", I said, as I applied a
pretty shade of lipstick to his lips. I know that he is only ten, but
this is a special occasion and I wanted him to experience a little of
what it is like to be a more grown up girl. You see I cannot bear the
thought of letting Jamie revert back to being a boy just because he is
approaching puberty. He has been my sweet daughter all of his life and
I am determined that he will go into his teen age years in skirts and
dresses, the attire to which he has become accustomed. After applying
his makeup, I gently placed two very lovely pearl earrings in his
pierced ears and began the pleasant task of brushing my son's waist
length hair. This was a family ritual for us and mother and daughter
talk always flowed freely as we did each other's hair. Jamie tilted his
head to the side and looked into the mirror as the brushing brought out
the shine and highlights in his lovely golden blonde hair, hair that
most girls would give anything to have. After about one hundred
strokes, I slipped off his quilted robe and put his full pink petticoat
over his head. It was truly a pretty garment and it would make his
dress flair out nicely as he walked down the aisle. Jamie, like the
sissy girl that he was, spun around in front of the mirror and there was
a swirl of skirts and flying hair. I said, "Silly girl, come here and
let mommy put your dress on. We don't have that much time before we
have to go to the Church". I got him into his lovely flower girl dress
and sat back and sighed.
"My goodness", I thought, "He is an absolute living doll. What a
travesty it would have been to raise such a child as a boy. He is far
too pretty to be anything but a mommy's girl". I helped my ten year old
with his very grown up sheer pantyhose and my sweetie said, "Look mommy,
you can see my pink toe nails through my stockings". I said, "Yes honey,
they look so pretty". I slipped his adorable white shoes with the
little heels on to his feet, tied two pink satin bows in his hair,
handed him his pink beaded purse and told him to be careful not to
wrinkle his dress while I got ready myself. I dressed quickly and soon
mother and daughter were ready for the car that was picking us up for
the ride to the Church. We heard a horn honk amnd so holding hands,
Jamie and I walked out to the car.
I had told my son to be sure to take dainty steps as he was still not
that used to walking in heels. Granted they were not very high, but he
was still new at it and it would be quite a few years before he was
regularly wearing heels that were three or four inches high. The
thought of my child as a young woman in a short pleated skirt and
stylish silk blouse clicking along the sidewalk in high heeled pumps
secretly delighted me, and reminded me of how glad I am to be a woman.
I have always adored pretty clothes and think that women and girls are
so fortunate in that they have such a variety of choices when it comes
to shoes and clothing. Two of the bridesmaids were already in the back
seat of the car and we were going to have to squeeze in together.
Apparently there was some miscommunication along the way as we should
have had another vehicle to avoid wrinkling our clothes. I thought, "I
hope someone had the foresight to bring a travel iron to the church in
case we have to touch up our dresses". I said, "Jamie dear, you are
going to have to sit on Jennifer's lap". My son squeezed into the car
and Jennifer was so sweet to hold Jamie for the twenty minute ride to
the church. She whispered in his ear that he was a very cute little
girl, that he looked pretty in his pink dress and I could see that Jamie
liked her immediately. I want my son to identify with lovely girls like
Jennifer as I think having pretty and well spoken female role models is
very important for a boy learning to be a proper young lady.
Entering the church we were ushered into the room reserved for the bride
and her attendants. There standing in her bridal attire was Rachel, who
lookmed absolutely dazzling in her breath-taking wedding dress. Rachel,
who was exceptionally attractive and being married for the first time,
chose a white satin gown with embroidered Alencon lace. The scoop neck
was edged with pearls and crystals and she was very beautiful. When she
saw Jamie and me she immediately came over and personally thanked us for
being a part of her wedding. Addressing Jamie, she said, "Sweetie, you
can't imagine how happy I am to have you as my flower girl. You are so
precious sweetheart and I am so proud of you". Well, Jamie just beamed
and in a demure little voice said, "Thank you Rachel" and then he
twirled around just like a little girl.
Kirsten, one of the twelve year old junior bridesmaids came up to Jamie
and offered him some punch. It was sweet of her to do but as she was
handing it to him, another girl walking by accidently brushed against
her, knocking her arm and caused her to spill a little punch on her
dress. As the ceremony was going to start in just twenty minutes she
became very upset and started to cry. But something remarkable happened
that kind of took all of the adult girls by surprise. My darling Jamie,
acting very mature for a ten year old, took the older girl by the hand,
led her to the ladies room and personally helped her wash the spot off
of her dress. Jamie was so reassuring as he told her, "Don't worry
Kirsten, no one will even notice the spot" and he gave her a tissue from
his clutch purse to dry her eyes. A bond of friendship was established
as a result of that incident which was to play a significant part in
Jamie's life when he entered college seven years later. Kirsten and
Jamie were to become inseparable friends. The organist began to play
the pre-service music and all of us gave Rachel a little kiss and said,
"This is it girl! Are you ready for this"? Rachel smiled sweetly and
said that it was the happiest day of her life.
As the processional began, my son preceded me down the aisle carrying a
little bouquet of flowers,and looking every bit the little lady that I
wanted him to be. As I started down the aisle after him, tears filled
my eyes as I saw my beautiful child looking so radiant in his pre teen
girlhood. He was truly a delicate child and he seemed so completely at
ease as a prettily dressed little girl. I thought, "Susan, you are
fortunate in that you never had to assist Jamie through the awkward
tomboy stage. Jamie never had one, and always preferred playing dress
up and having tea parties to climbing trees or rough housing with less
refined children". The service went very well. The minister spoke on
the importance of loving one another and urged the couple to remember
that life here on Earth is short and eternity long. He quoted John 3:16
and in a very tactful way prompted all in attendance to reflect on their
own relationship with their Savior. I want Jamie to realize that there
is a spiritual side to life too and that he must never ever forget that.
The service ended with the joyful couple kissing at the altar and
striding happily down the aisle to form the reception line. Jamie stood
in front of me in the line and received so many compliments on how well
he did. Only the bridal party and my closest friends knew that he was a
boy, although I doubt that many would believe it even if we told them
the truth.
Jamie looks like a girl, dresses like a girl, acts like a girl, and I
hope, thinks and feels like one too. At the reception my son danced and
twirled around with the junior bridesmaids and other little girls on the
dance floor and all seemed to have a lot of fun. That night as we sat
on the edge of the bed in our blue silk night gowns brushing one
another's hair, Jamie said, "Mom, I'm really glad that I'm a girl. Do
you think I can always be your daughter"? I smiled at my little doll
and said, "Yes honey, you will always be mommy's little girl". And yet
I knew in my heart that puberty and the frightful things that it does to
boys was rapidly approaching. I thought, "I have some decisions to make
in the next couple of years. It would be unseemly to allow my lovely
child to leave the world of women and girls and enter a man's world. I
must figure out a way to let Jamie continue to be a girl". Jamie kissed
me goodnight, took his favorite doll in his arms, and climbed into bed
to dream the sweet dreams of a ten year old girl. I remained awake
thinking for several minutes, reflecting on how happy Jamie is as a girl
and hoping that his future years will be filled with close girl friends
who will always love him as the girl that he is. His world needs to be
one of lipstick and dresses, for he is my Jamie girl, the sweetest
little child a mother could have. I can't wait until he enters his first
beauty pageant, tries out for the cheer leading squad, and shops for a
prom dress. But that is yet to come!
Chapter #5 "Boarding School for Jamie"
As I sit at my keyboard on this lovely autumn evening, tears fill my eyes,
as I tell you that my little Jamie, now eleven years old, is off to
boarding school. He has never been away from my side before and I miss my
sweet girl so much. Our mother and daughter shopping trips, our
fun-filled cookie baking times, and our modeling dresses for one another,
were such important parts of our lives. But Jamie is a big girl now, and
it is time for me to let him go. He does write me the sweetest letters
and I am so happy that he and Stacy, his cute little roommate, are the
very best of friends. Jamie is a seventh grader at the Briarcliff School
for Girls where there are other boys who are being dressed and treated as
girls. I was so thrilled to meet their mothers at a pre registration tea
and to learn that I was not the only one who desired to raise a sweet,
gentle child. The day that we drove to the beautiful wooded campus, both
of us cried knowing that the separation was not going to be easy. I was
tempted to turn around and return home, but knew in my heart that this was
the best alternative for my son. I didn't want him to go to school with
boys and going here would further his education in a setting that was
decidedly feminine. The school has a total of about two hundred girls in
grades seven through twelve. As we pulled up to the administration
building we were met by the head mistress who greeted us warmly. Jamie
slid out of the front seat of the car in ladylike fashion and upon being
introduced, curtsied nicely to her. Headmistress Karen Chandler knew that
Jamie was a boy and as with all the boys enrolled at her school over the
years, she made a special effort to be certain that he would be treated no
differently than the other girls. She put her arm around my eleven year
old and told him that his yellow dress looked very becoming with his long
blond hair.
As we were chatting with the headmistress, we heard loud words coming
from a group of women standing around another car that had just arrived on
campus. A girl in a red velvet jumper dress who was apparently not very
happy about being here was saying, "I'm not coming here. You can't make
me"! She was creating such a fuss that one of the women, who I learned was
her step mother, spoke very harshly to her. The girl stopped fussing and
began to cry as the lady said to her, "I'm sorry Julie, but you must learn
to be a good girl. You will like school here once you settle in. Now
stop being so difficult and you won't be scolded anymore". I didn't know
it then but it seems that Julie was a boy who was being forced to attend
this girl's school by his stepmother. He had only recently begun wearing
dresses at her insistence and he obviously wasn't adjusted to being a girl
yet. Headmistress Chandler excused herself and walked over to offer her
assistance to Julie and his mother. "Hi Julie!", said the headmistress,
trying to play down the incident. "We are so glad to have you with us,
honey". Headmistress Chandler gave a reassuring wink to Julie's mother,
and taking Julie by the hand, sat down with him on a nearby bench. I
heard her say, "Julie hon, we all behave like ladies here. Your mother
has enrolled you at Briarcliff to make a lovely girl out of you. We do
not allow boyish behavior in this school. Do you understand, sweetheart?"
Julie reached into his purse, took out a lace handkerchief and dried his
eyes. He looked at Headmistress Chandler and said, "I'm sorry Ms.
Chandler." She then gave him a hug and he walked back to his mother who
embraced her repentant son. I was so delighted to see the loving concern
that the headmistress and Julie's mother showed the boy. The poor dear had
not been wearing dresses very long and he was still adjusting to the role
that was so lovingly chosen for him. I often wondered if Jamie would have
rebelled like that if I had not been so careful to raise him as a young
lady from early childhood. I still have nightmares about the time when he
told me he wanted to be a boy again, but ever since his day as a flower
girl one year ago, he has been very girlish and feminine, showing no
desire to be a boy. I hoped that young Julie would be so influenced by
all the girls on campus that he would feel comfortable leaving his boy's
world behind for good. The girls at this school are not allowed to wear
jeans or pants of any kind, for it is the administration's desire to
graduate young ladies who are graceful and totally feminine in their
behavior. I went over and talked with Julie's stepmother, telling her not
to worry for I thought that Julie was a lovely girl and that she would
soon be so involved with living, studying and playing with girls that she
would forget that she was ever a boy.
The sun was setting in the sky and it was time for me to say farewell to
my child. Oh I love him so much! I could see that while he was sorry to
be away from me, he was also as excited as a school girl can be at the
thought of this new adventure. I hugged my honey to me, trying not to
wrinkle his dress, and told him that I would see him for the Thanksgiving
holidays. Walking away, I looked back over my shoulder and saw Jamie and
Julie heading toward the dorm where they would live on the same floor. I
thought, "I hope that the real girls have a great influence on my son and
his new friend. I do so want Jamie to progress well in his feminine
training". I cried some more driving back home and was glad that I had
taken so many pictures of my son in his pretty girl's clothes to remind me
that I have the loveliest little girl in the world. I often sit and look
wistfully at our family album filled with the cutest pictures of my child
in his prettiest outfits. One week after I returned home, I received a
delightful letter in the mail. It read,
Dearest Mother,
I miss you so much. I am having a good time in school and like all the
other girls very much. My roommate Stacy and I get along very well
together. We wear the same size dresses and we share each other's
clothes. Oh mother, Stacy is so sweet. You will like her a lot. I hope
she can come to meet you at Thanksgiving. Mother, there are twin boys here
and they have to dress like little girls. I will tell you more about it
when I see you. I am so glad that I am a girl, mother, and that I am
going to school here. Your daughter,
Jamie
Well, I must tell you that Jamie kept a diary just like a girl while he
was at school and my sweetheart lets his mother read all his secrets. If
I had let Jamie grow up as a boy, I know we would have never been so
close. The things that I will now tell you come from Jamie's diary.
After I left the campus, Jamie was paired up with Stacy Summers, a very
pretty girl from California. She was a mischievous thirteen year old who
was told by her parents that her roommate would be a pretty boy. She
thought that was in her own words, "kewl" and promised that she would help
him to be a complete girl. Upon meeting Jamie, she embraced him warmly
and told him that they were going to be the best of friends. That evening
as they prepared for bed, Stacy pulled a peach colored nylon baby doll
night gown out of her drawer, handed it to Jamie, and said, "Put it on
Jamie. My mom said I should share my clothes with you and this is the
prettiest nightie that I have". Jamie took the silky garment from Stacy,
held it up to himself and both girls agreed that it was a very pretty
nightie. He thought, "Oh, Stacy is so very sweet". Stacy was wearing a
similar gown and the two climbed into their respective twin beds and
dreamed of the first day of school.
The next morning the dorm was filled with the joyous laughter and shouts
of teen and pre teen age girls getting ready for class. Jamie jumped out
of bed, washed up and dressed in the stylish white blouse and pleated navy
blue skirt that was the uniform that all Briarcliff girls wore. He wore a
very lacy white nylon half slip, a pretty nylon bra with a tiny pink
ribbon in the center, and the sissiest of nylon panties under his outfit.
He felt very pretty in his school girl clothes. Stacy looked at him
approvingly and said, "Jamie, you really do make a nice girl. I
understand why your mother raised you as a girl." Jamie blushed and told
Stacy, "You look pretty too Stacy". With that, she grabbed a hold of
Jamie's hand and the two walked down the hall to the dining room where a
hot breakfast awaited them. The dining hall was huge and accommodated all
the girls in the school. Jamie had never seen so many girls in one place
before. They were all in pretty blouses and skirts, as was he, and he felt
very girlish and feminine being here with them. Looking across the table
he saw the little boy named Julie who had resisted coming to school
yesterday. But now Julie was a girl like all the rest and Jamie noticed
that his nails were painted a bright red. Later he learned that all the
boys in attendance were compelled to wear nail polish. I was to learn that
while girls were expected to be feminine, the boys were required to be
ultra feminine. Headmistress Chandler did not want to disappoint even one
mother who paid the high tuition rate to be sure that her son would be
dressed and treated totally as a young lady.
Jamie's first class was English, taught by a thirty year old young woman
who graduated summa cum laude from Radcliffe. She was the valedictorian of
her class and came to the Briarcliff School for Girls with very impressive
credentials. Her name was Victoria White and she was informed that the
pretty blond girl entering her seventh grade English class was none other
than a boy named Jamie. Unknown to all but the headmistress, Victoria has
a special interest in boys being raised as girls for she had been involved
along with her three sisters, in dressing up their youngest brother many
years before. Her brother, being a very delicate child, wore dresses after
school every day through grade school, and when Victoria went off to
college, she missed having her own little "Barbie Doll" to dress up. It
was like losing a little sister, so now, many years later, she determined
that she would lavish her special attention on Jamie, just like the
attention she gave to her brother who so closely resembled this new "girl"
in her class. As she called the role all the girls answered, "Present Miss
White", and there was a spirit of excitement in the class on this first
day of school. Jamie felt very pretty in his pleated skirt and blouse with
his almost waist length hair falling gently over his shoulders. After the
introductory class, Miss White said, "Jamie, may I see you for a moment,
dear?" The other girls filed out of the room as Jamie waited to chat with
the teacher.
"Honey", she said, "Headmistress Chandler told me that you are a boy and
I want you to know that I think that it is wonderful that your loving
mother saw fit to raise you as a young lady. My little brother made such a
cute girl that we put him in dresses too. But you, honey, are even
prettier than he was and I'm so happy that you are a little girl". Jamie
listened attentively as Miss White further explained, "Jamie, if you ever
have any problems, I want you to feel free to come to me honey, and I will
help. I know that I am your teacher but I want to be a big sister to you
too. Now since you have a study period this hour, there is something I
want to do for you to get you started on your first day. Do you know what
that is, honey"? "No, Miss White", said Jamie. "Well, honey, as you may
have heard, it is a school requirement that all boys wear nail polish to
help them adjust to being girls here so I would like to do your nails.
We can talk "girl talk" at the same time and get to know one another
better.". Without another word, Victoria reached into her desk drawer,
brought out some pink nail polish, took Jamie's hand in her well manicured
hand, and began to apply polish to his nails. Looking into Jamie's eyes
she smiled and said, "Honey, isn't it just wonderful being a girl"?
Jamie, blushed and feeling so delightfully girlish as Victoria finished
his nails said, "Oh yes, Miss White, I like being a girl".
Jamie's first day of classes went remarkably well and he fit in
marvelously with all the other girls. But I soon learned from Jamie's
diary that Ms. Chandler did not always immediately win over stubborn boys
who were sent to her school to be properly feminized. I must tell you
about the Stapleton twins from Connecticut whose mother Cynthia was
determined to change them into young ladies. The boys were just short of
their eleventh birthday and they were simply unmanageable. Although they
lived in a very expensive home and had all that money could buy, they were
sassy to their mother, impolite to the servants, and refused to apply
themselves diligently to their studies at the private school that they
attended. Cynthia Stapleton heard about Ms. Chandler's school through a
mother she knew whose son was surgically transformed into a girl and sent
to the school several years before. So after talking with Ms. Chandler by
telephone, she impulsively decided to tell the boys that they were going
to attend a new school in Wisconsin where they would learn better manners.
The idea of going away to school sounded like fun to the twins and they
readily jumped into the car, although slightly puzzled that their mother
didn't pack any suitcases for them. They looked forward to their new
adventure. The only difficulty was that their mother didn't tell them
that they would be attending an all girl's school, as girls!
The Stapletons arrived a day late and classes were in progress when their
white Lincoln Continental drove up to the administration building. Cynthia
and the boys got out and the boys immediately loved the tree-shaded campus
and open grassy areas, wondering if the students played football and
soccer in those areas. Robert Stapleton, the older by a few minutes and
the more aggressive of the twins ran over to a tree and started swinging
from a low hanging branch. His brother Stephen started throwing a ball
that he had in his pocket, high the air and catching it again. Cynthia
was about to say something when all three heard the change of period bell
ring, and before they knew it the campus was full of laughing, giggling
girls going to their different classrooms. Several walked right by the
brothers, their little uniform skirts swinging in the light morning
breeze. The twins watched all the activity with their mouths open and a
look of total shock on their faces. Frozen with fear they looked
pleadingly at their mother who simply smiled at them with a wry smile, her
hands resting on her hips. "Mom, what kind of school is this"? asked
Robert. "Where are all the boys, mom"? begged Stephen. Mrs. Stapleton
just stood there and smiled as Headmistress Chandler came out of the
Administration Building to greet the new enrollees. Looking at Cynthia and
her perplexed sons, Karen Chandler walked right up to the newly arrived
family and said, "Good Morning, Mrs. Stapleton. Welcome to Briarcliff"!
Then looking directly at Robert and Stephen, she said to their complete
shock and amazement, "Good morning young ladies! How are my new girls
this morning"?
Young ladies? Girls? Robert and Stephen looked at one another, their
eyes wide with fear, but before they even had a chance to think further
about what was happening, six female teachers attired in very smart skirts
and jackets appeared and surrounded the boys. Kathleen, a beautiful
physical education instructor with flowing long brown hair reached for
Robert's hand and said very matter of factly, "Come with me, Roberta. Ms.
Chandler wants me to show you where you will be staying". At the same
time, Paige, who taught Social Studies at the School, put her arm around
Stephen and laughingly said, "And you too Stephanie, follow me." We are
going to get you girls settled in so you can join the other girls for
classes right after lunch". Both boys, gradually realizing what their
mother was doing to them, screamed, "MOM, DON'T LET THEM TAKE US!" But
Cynthia was already light years away in her thoughts, thinking, "I just
know that my twins are going to be more manageable now. They will be
better behaved because they are going to become little girls". And leaving
the "girls" in the hands of women trained to deal with rebellious boys,
she said, "Good-bye my daughters. See you soon". And she walked towards
her car. Headmistress Chandler walked with her and said, "Cynthia hon, you
made the right decision. Don't you worry. The next time you see Roberta
and Steffie, they will be sweet well trained little girls of whom you will
be very proud"
Robert was not going willingly with Kathleen, but he was only an eleven
year old boy and she was a twenty-two year old fitness instructor and
tennis player. She had a solid grip on his little wrist and told him quite
openly to stop fighting her or she would put him over her knee and spank
him right in front of all the girls on campus. Briarcliff did not
tolerate badly behaved boys and they were dealt with very firmly.
Kathleen suddenly stopped and knelt down on one knee alongside Roberta and
said, "Honey, you might as well stop resisting. Your mother wants you to
be a girl now". And reaching into her purse, she took out a pale blue
silk hair ribbon, and with a bobby pin, put it into the little boy's hair.
Adjusting the ribbon just so, she let the two little streamers fall down
the back of his head, thinking how pretty he is going to be after his hair
grows long like a girls. Robert began to cry like the little girl he was
about to become, and Kathleen, used to such responses from newly feminized
boys, hugged him and said, "It's alright, dear. By tomorrow you will be
just one of the girls and you will feel much better". And they walked into
the dormitory together.
Meanwhile Paige was using a different approach with Stephen who was a
more sensitive child than his brother. As they walked to the dorm he would
be living in, Paige was explaining all the wonderful things about being a
girl to him. While Stephen was somewhat in a state of shock, he couldn't
help hearing Paige talk about the fun he would have in sewing class,
attending slumber parties and learning how to help his mother around the
house. Paige talked to him as if he were already a girl and it appeared to
be working because Stephen seemed to calm down considerably as they walked
to his dorm. Naturally Ms. Chandler felt it was wise to separate the boys
so they would not try to reinforce one another in resisting their mother's
desired transformation. Paige led Stephen into the room that he would be
sharing with a girl named Nancy. She showed him his bed with its very
lovely pink and white bedspread with floral patterns. The room's
curtains matched the color of the bedspread and had very pretty ruffles.
Paige proceeded to turn down the bed sheets to reveal sheets and pillow
cases of lovely pink satin. She then pointed out his desk and proceeded to
throw open the door of his walk in closet. Smiling she said, "Look,
Stephanie". When Stephen looked he saw several frilly dresses of various
styles hanging neatly in a row, pretty blouses, different kinds of skirts
including the school uniform, and four pair of girl's shoes, including two
pair with little heels. Paige smiled at him and said, "These are the new
clothes that you mother purchased for you Steffie. Aren't they adorable"?
You mother spent a lot of money to be certain that you and your sister
would be properly attired". She reached over and kissed him on the cheek
saying, "Cheer up, sweetie. You'll make a great girl. Now take off all
your boy's clothes!"
Across the courtyard Kathleen led little Roberta into his dorm and found
his roommate Teresa already in the room. She had a slight stomach ache
and was excused from attending morning classes. Seeing her new roommate
and knowing that he was a boy, she ran up to him and said, "Oh Robert, I
mean Roberta, I am so glad that we are roomies", and she gave him a kiss.
This was all happening way to fast for Robert. Earlier that week he was
"all boy" with the best baseball card collection in his Connecticut school
and now he was being called Roberta, and being kissed by a girl who was
going to be his roommate. Kathleen, looking at her watch said, "Roberta,
we don't have much time before lunch. You have to get changed." Robert
said, "What do you mean changed"? Kathleen replied, "Silly girl, you need
to put on your uniform!" Well, Robert almost fainted on the spot. But
Kathleen, realizing the shortage of time said, "Terri, will you get
Robert's uniform skirt and blouse out of the closet while I get him his
bra and panties? His navy tights should be in one of these drawers too.
He is a boy, you know, and he may need a little help the first day".
Robert was totally dazed by what was happening to him but before he knew
it, Kathleen had him in his school girl uniform complete with delicate
lace-trimmed lingerie. Robert stood alongside Teresa looking at his
girlish appearance in the mirror and heard Teresa say, "You look cute
Roberta. We are going to have such fun as roommates." Robert walked
around the room and felt so sissy in his pleated skirt and pretty blouse.
His tights made his legs feel very feminine and he wore little black
patent leather shoes with pretty bows and one and one half inch heels.
Kathleen smiled and said, "Come on girls, We are just going to make it to
lunch".
Hearing Paige say, "Take off all your boy's clothes", left Stephen a
little numb, but he did what he was told. Soon, like his brother, he was
a fully dressed schoolgirl in a stylish short pleated skirt and blouse. He
could feel the smooth silkiness of his slip and panties through his
clothes and it was not an unpleasant sensation for him. He walked about
before the admiring eyes of Paige and felt rather free in moving about in
a skirt. He thought to himself, "Now I know what girls feel like in
dresses". Paige reading his mind said, "You like wearing a skirt, don't
you Stephanie dear?' Stephen started to say something but Paige cut him
off saying, "Honey, you don't have to deny it. Lots of boys come here
trying to act strong and masculine when they are really very sweet girls
in their hearts. I think that's you, honey. So enjoy your pretty clothes,
Steffie, because your mother is making you and your twin, girls forever.
And she took Stephen by the hand and led him gently toward the dining
hall.
It was twelve o'clock noon and the girls and faculty converged on the
dining hall to enjoy lunch. Paige and Kathleen had pre arranged to have
the twins sit together and be introduced to the school as the newest
arrivals. So as they walked in the door. Robert and Stephen, who had
played first base and shortstop on their former school's baseball team,
saw each dressed like girls for the first time. Stephen looked at his
brother, saw his light blue hair ribbon, his blouse with the lace collar,
and his short pleated skirt and couldn't believe it was Robert. He noticed
that he was wearing little black patent leather heels with bows and his
legs were encased in girl's tights. He started to laugh when it dawned on
him that he was in a skirt and panties too. What had their mother done to
them? They were boys, but they were now on a campus with two hundred
sissy girls and no one here was ever allowed to wear pants. As the girls
ate lunch together they heard Ms. Chandler announce a special meeting for
the special "girls" at school. What more could possibly happen to them?
If they only knew, they may have run away.
Chapter #6 "Boyish Behavior Punished"!
The four seventh grade boys enrolled by their mothers in the Briarcliff
School for Girls entered Ms. Chandler's office and curtsied to the
headmistress. Karen Chandler was a very tall, beautiful woman and the new
"girls" were a little intimidated by her. But she was smiling as she
said, "Sit down girls!". Jamie sat down very gracefully, sweeping his
skirt under him as he had been taught from childhood. Julie just plopped
down very awkwardly and Ms. Chandler shook her head from side to side
saying, "Oh Julie, I see that we are going to have to spend more time with
you. Stand up honey, and sit back down again like a lady." Julie stood
up and then sat down again, and this time arranging his skirt the way he
had seen Jamie do it. Ms. Chandler said, "That's much better, Julie".
"Girls, I called you here to tell you that we are determined to make sure
that your mother's wishes are respected. You are no longer to think of
yourselves as boys for as you can clearly see, this is a school for girls.
Jamie here will not be a problem as he has been a young lady since he was
a small child. But the rest of you have some catching up to do and it is
important that you learn immediately that boyishness will not be tolerated
on this campus". She continued, "As for you twins, I am very disappointed
that you did not immediately recognize that your mother knows what is best
for you. Two of my finest teachers told me that you boys almost had to be
dragged to your dorms after your mother left". Steffie started to say
something but Ms. Chandler cut him off saying, "Be silent young lady. You
will talk when you are spoken to, and only then." She went on, "So I am
going to personally supervise your wardrobes until you are properly
assimilated as normal young school girls". Roberta and Steffie looked at
each other wondering what could be coming next. They were already doing
things that they would never have imagined in their wildest dreams a week
ago. They answered to girl's names now. They were wearing skirts and
panties in a girl's school, forced to wear hair ribbons, and actually
making curtsies to the teachers. What would their friends back in
Connecticut say if they could see them now? They would be laughed out of
town, but here, they were applauded when they appeared before the entire
student body dressed like sissies. "And you Julie", Ms. Chandler said, "I
was disappointed that your mother had to scold you yesterday morning, but
I was also delighted that you responded to correction the way a Briarciff
girl should. So we will not have to discipline you in the same manner as
the twins. During this entire time Jamie sat with his legs together, his
skirt properly pulled down, and his hands folded prettily on his lap. He
was so relieved that the head mistress did not have anything negative to
say about him but home worried a little about what was going to happen to
the twins.
Ms. Chandler said, "I want you twins to remain after Julie and Jamie go to
class as you will not be starting classes today. But I will deal with you
when Jamie and Julie leave. Now girls, one of the reasons that I have
called you into my office is because I want you to be thinking about the
traditional Fall Harvest Costume Party that we will be having at the end
of the month. It is the first major social event in our Briarcliff
calendar and one of the more popular festivals that we have. After a
month of classes it gives the girls a chance to relax and just have a good
time. Costumes are required, and as we have a wonderfully equipped
dramatic arts department at the school, there is an abundance of costumes
from which to choose. Some of the more creative girls even make their
own, but that is not necessary as we have hundreds of costumes from almost
every Broadway musical that has been produced, as well as period costumes
that have been given to the school by different alumnae who have been
involved in show business. I will expect you girls to choose appropriate
feminine costumes so that your dear mothers will not hear that you
attended a Briarcliff function in anything but the pretty girl's clothes
that they expect you to wear. So surprise me girls, and choose outfits
that will make me proud of my "special" little girls. "Do you
understand"? The four little ladies replied, "Yes, head mistress". Then,
Julie and Jamie, you may leave and go to class. "Thank you head
mistress", said the girls as they curtsied and left hand in hand to go to
their first afternoon class.
As the door closed Roberta and Steffie eased closer to one other on the
couch wondering what their punishment for misbehavior was going to be.
They really didn't think that they had been that bad, but apparently Ms.
Chandler wanted to make an example of them for any other boys that might
later be enrolled in the school. She sat down again, looked the boys in
the eye and said, "I have some special outfits for youngsters like you who
think that they can come here and continue to be discourteous little boys.
Take off your uniforms right now, girls"! Roberta and Steffie were so
embarrassed, but were frightened enough to immediately comply. They
unbuttoned their blouses and then after removing their skirts and lacy
slips they were standing in front of the headmistress in just their bras
and panties. Ms. Chandler smiled at them saying, My, but you are cute
little twin girls. What a shame your mother ever permitted you to wear
anything but dresses. If you were my sons you would have been raised as
little girls". She said, "Sit down girls and wait here until I return."
Then she left the room as Roberta and Steffie, the former star players of
their New Haven, Connecticut grade school baseball team, huddled together
in their sissy nylon bras and lace trimmed panties.
"What should we do, Robert?", asked Stephen. "Mom left us at this girl's
school and they are trying to change us into girls". "Maybe we can run
away", replied Robert, "but we don't have any clothes except dresses". "I
know", sighed Stephen. It's like we don't really have a choice". No
sooner were the words out of his mouth when in walked Ms. Chandler with
two large clothing bags, saying, "That's right girls, there are no choices
for the two of you. Your dear mother empowered me to properly modify
your unruly behavior and I, together with my staff am going to do just
that". As the girls looked on in amazement Ms. Chandler unzipped the bags
and brought out the cutest little girl dresses that were ever created.
Robert and Stephen took two steps backward as the headmistress approached
them with the dresses and held them up to each boy. She said, "Aren't
they the most adorable dresses that you have ever seen, girls"? Well,
the twins weren't used to offering an opinion on any kind of girl's
clothes let alone lace party dresses and they stood frozen to the floor,
their little mouths sealed. Ms. Chandler exclaimed, "I love it when twins
are dressed in identical outfits by their mothers, and you girls are going
to be dressed in these sister dresses as if you were four year old little
girls. Isn't that exciting, darlings? This will be your punishment girls,
for not being thankful to your dear mother for enrolling you in our
school. You will not wear your school uniforms to class like the other
girls but you will wear these frilly dresses to class and all around the
campus so that all the girls will know that you acted like babies when you
first came here instead of the big girls you were supposed to be. If you
are good little girls, then and only then, will I allow you to dress like
school girls once again". If the twins entertained any hope in their ten
year old minds of at least dressing according to their age, if not their
sex, that hope was shattered in Ms. Chandler's office as they realized
that they were about to be dressed as four year old girls. And the entire
student body of two hundred girls would soon see and regard them as their
very own little sisters.
As Headmistress Chandler had a very busy schedule, she enlisted the help
of two senior girls to serve as "big sisters" for Roberta and Steffie for
the rest of the day. The girls were called from their classes and told
that they were to take the twins around campus and show them off to all
the students and faculty. Perhaps this would help them to learn that
boyish behavior is a serious offense at Briarcliff. Of course it would
also allow the twins to experience the sweet innocence of being very young
girls, a joy that they missed when they were unfortunately raised as boys.
As I read Jamie's little diary about the Stapleton twins, I thought, "Oh
Cynthia Stapleton should see what was happening to her boys. She would be
so thrilled and she would probably regret that she didn't put them in
dresses herself when they were four years old". Well the senior girls,
Debbie and Carla, entered Ms. Chandler's office, curtsied as all the girls
are expected to do, and asked how they might be of service. They glanced
at Roberta and Steffie, sitting on the couch in little white quilted robes
that Ms. Chandler had given them to wear over their bra and panties. Ms.
Chandler said, "Debbie and Carla, I want you to meet our new four year
olds who will be living at our school. They are Roberta and Steffie.
"Debbie and Carla, recognizing the twins as the boys who had been
introduced to the student body at lunch, suppressed a giggle and wondered
what Ms. Chandler wanted them to do with the boys. It quickly became very
clear as the headmistress explained. "Girls, I want the two of you to be
big sisters to the twins this afternoon. You are to dress them in the
little girl clothes that I have chosen for them and then you are to give
them the chance to meet as many students as possible. You will make sure
that they behave as little girls and you are to report any unladylike
conduct to me immediately. You see, the twins will not be allowed to
disgrace the Briarcliff uniform by any boyish behavior. When they have
learned to be proper young ladies, they will be allowed to take off their
childish dresses and wear the uniform skirt and blouse like the big girls
once again. Is that clear, girls?" "Yes, headmistress", replied the
senior girls. Ms. Chandler then went over and kissed the twins on the
forehead and said, "Roberta and Steffie, I am counting on you to be good
little girls. Do not disappoint me sweeties". And she walked out the
door.
Immediately Carla said, "Well, little sisters, it is time to get you all
prettied up". Reaching into one of the compartments of the clothing bag
she pulled out a very dainty silky petticoat, held it up admiringly and
beckoned to Steffie. "Come here honey", she said. Stephen, not knowing
what else to do, walked over to her and she slipped his robe off of him,
saying, "Put out your arms dear". As Stephen did so, he felt her lower
the petticoat over his head. It fit just perfectly and fell to his mid
thighs. "Ohhhh Debbie", Carla said, "Look how short the skirt is". " Of
course", said Debbie, "their dresses are little girl's dresses and they
require short slips". "Debbie, could you hand me his dress please".
Debbie brought the dress over and Carla put Stephen's dress on him tying
the pretty blue satin sash in the back, as Stephen suddenly felt all
boyishness draining from him. Meanwhile, Roberta sat with his hands
folded in front of him in his little robe, knowing that he was next.
Debbie looked at Robert and said, "Look at how pretty your sister is
honey. Steffie, make a curtsy to your sister, dear". Stephen, now
Stephanie made a cute little curtsy and Debbie bent down and gave him the
sweetest kiss, saying, "I think I am going to like having you as my baby
sister this afternoon". Carla said, "Well, Roberta, you are next".
Robert stood up, and finally giving up on being a boy, let Debbie and
Carla dress him in a similar fashion as his brother.
Soon both boys were attired in sissy white dresses with blue sashes and
full petticoats and panties. Each was also required to wear a white satin
training bra, which the big girls put on them. Carla took the lace socks
and white Mary Jane shoes with the darling bows out of the clothing bag
and put them on the boys. Then Debbie tied the cutest white hair ribbons
in the hair of each boy. Clearly the girls were enjoying making sissy
girls out of the twins and they looked forward to escorting them around
campus as little girls. "Oh wait", said Carla. "We have to do their nails
or Ms. Chandler will be very upset. I almost forgot that all boys at
Briarcliff have to wear nail polish all the time". Each girl took nail
polish out of her purse and sitting Robert and Stephen down on the couch,
they began to apply polish to the little boy's nails. Robert got a pretty
shade of pink and Stephen's nails would be red like his new big sisters.
When their nails dried, Debbie whispered to Carla, "Should we put a little
lipstick on them too?" Carla smiled and said, Well, they are supposed to
be just four, but maybe just a touch won't hurt." So as Robert and
Stephen sat silently, looking so pretty and girlish in their white
dresses, Debbie and Carla gently applied lipstick to their lips. Their
transformation into pretty four year old girls was complete and they were
ready to tour the campus with their big sisters.
In spite of what people may say, a little boy is deeply affected by
wearing dresses and skirts. I know that my son Jamie experienced a change
in his way of thinking as he adjusted to the feminine role that was chosen
for him. It was maybe selfish of me to make him a girl, but I wanted a
child that I could dress up prettily and be a companion to me. Jamie grew
to love being a girl and he is such a happy child. As for the twins, they
were starting to experience the joys of girlhood on just their first day
at Briarcliff. They had already worn school girl uniforms their first
morning and now they were being propelled back in time to experience what
it was like to be a pre school age girl, an experience they had missed as
little children. Walking around the campus' tree shaded walks on a
beautiful Fall afternoon, holding hands with the older girls, was a very
impressionable experience for the boys. They felt so light headed and
free as their little skirts swayed from side to side in the afternoon
breeze. They loved the silky feel of their petticoats against their knees
and the way their dresses flared out as they walked. It was so natural
for them to take smaller steps and to walk just like girls. It seemed
that all the girls that they passed were friendly and kind. It was a
setting free from the challenging and more aggressive world of boys.
Girls prefer to relate to one another rather than challenge one another
for supremacy. So while Stephen and Robert were only ten years old, they
did not feel overly uncomfortable their first day in dresses. Oh it was
definitely different, and there would be times of rebellion, and even
anger but those feelings would eventually go away as their new femininity
took root deep in their young minds. Already their behavior was
improving and by the end of the school year, Cynthia Stapleton will be
overjoyed to welcome her children back into their home not as rude, sassy
boys, but an children who have been remarkably changed into very sweet
and delicate young ladies.
The four girls left Ms. Chandler's office and began their tour of the
campus. For the second time that day the twins heard the change of period
bell. The first time they had been swinging on trees and throwing a ball
around, fully expecting to be enrolled in a school where they would be
popular young ball players. Seeing the prettily uniformed girls spilling
out all over the campus had greatly unnerved them. But now, they were
dressed as girls themselves, with bare legs showing under pretty dresses
and hair ribbons firmly fixed in their hair. Their nails were painted and
their socks had lace on them. When they ran their tongue over their lips
they tasted lipstick and they felt strangely different on the inside. Like
girls! All the older girls knew that disobedient first year boys at the
school were dressed as children to help them adjust to being girls, so
they were very kind to the twins. They said things like, "Hi pretty
girls", "I love your dress, Steffie", and "We're so glad to have you at
Briarcliff, honey". Debbie and Carla made sure that the boys said thank
you and curtsied sweetly when they were complimented by the older girls.
It seemed like with each additional remark Robert and Stephen were losing
their boyish identity more and more and entering deeply into the world of
women and girls that their mother desired for them. The boys ate supper
with the students, still dressed in their childish dresses but with little
sweaters embroidered with pink flowers, thrown over their shoulders to
help them keep warm and cozy in the Fall Wisconsin evening. After supper
most of the girls were going to watch "The Little Princess", the movie
being shown in the school theater. But Ms. Chandler had asked Debbie and
Carla to take the boys shopping for night gowns for their mother had
neglected to purchase sleepwear for her sons. So it was off to the mall
for the twins.
At the mall, they went directly to the girl's section of a large
department store and received some interesting looks from shoppers and
salesgirls who wondered why such big girls like the twins were dressed in
babyish dresses. It wasn't that they didn't look like girls, for they
most certainly did. It was that they were not dressed according to their
age. Debbie and Carla spotted the section where they sold nightgowns and
pajamas and approached the young salesgirl on duty. Carla in a spirit of
mischieviousness said, "Can you help me find some pretty nighties for my
little brothers"? On hearing that, Stephen and Robert were so embarrassed
that they blushed and let out a little shriek. Debbie herself was shocked
that Carla would tell the salesgirls that the children were boys and said,
"Debbie, what are you saying?" Carla, suddenly feeling defensive said,
"Well, they are boys and besides Ms. Chandler will never know that we told
anyone". The salesgirl, listening to all that was being said, looked at
Robert and Stephen and said, Oh my, what darling boys. I'll be happy to
find you pretty gowns to wear". She apparently though the whole think was
funny and she was going to play along with the game thinking that maybe
the boys were being punished for some reason. Of course, that was exactly
what was happening. What she didn't know was that this was not a short
term disciplinary action. These boys for all practical purposes would
become girls from the seventh grade until they graduated from high school
six years later. The salesgirl held up one pretty nightie after another
and Debbie and Carla chose four night gowns apiece for the boys. All were
silk or nylon, trimmed with ribbons and bows, edged with lace and ruffles
and were nighties designed for the most feminine little girls. The
salesgirl said, "Oh boys, you are just going to love sleeping in these".
As they walked to the cashier desk, the salesgirl said, "Bye, bye little
sweeties. Be good girls for your big sisters". Stephen and Robert just
smiled as the words of the salesgirl registered in their little minds that
were rapidly being totally feminized.
That night Robert and Stephen said goodnight to Debbie and Carla,
thanking them for a wonderful day. The boys walked in their little
dresses to their own dorms carrying shopping bags with their newly
purchased night gowns. Robert knocked on the door and was greeted by his
roommate Nancy who was already in a blue satin floor length night gown.
She welcomed him and commented on what a cute little girl he made. Her
hair was in rollers as she had beautiful curls during the day, and she
asked Robert if he would help brush her hair out in the morning before
classes. Robert agreed to help his roommate and excused himself while he
took off his dress and got into his own nightie. Soon he was in bed and
fast asleep, dreaming wonderful dreams. Stephen went to his dorm where he
was rooming with Teresa whom he had already met. Teresa was a straight
"A" student and was still studying at her desk in her school uniform. She
greeted Robert in a friendly manner saying, "Hi little sis!", and she and
urged him to get ready for bed. She said she would be coming to bed soon
herself. Each of the students had twin beds and as the rooms were very
large, they had lots of room to move around. Robert chose his pink baby
doll nylon nightie and climbed in between his pink satin sheets. Wearing
a silky gown and panties in a bed with satin sheets and pillow cases
caused him to slide all around under the covers. He felt so much like a
girl in his new setting, and soon drifted off to sleep wondering what his
first day of classes as a little girl would be like.
I thought that you would be interested in hearing Jamie's thoughts on the
experiences of the Stapleton twins. But let me tell you that Jamie also
was doing quite well during his first week at school. Oh, he missed his
mother and especially felt bad that I would not be there to brush out his
almost waist length hair every evening. But fortunately he was assigned
to a room where his roommate also had an abundance of beautiful hair. So
Jamie and Stacy were perfect for each other and would virtually become one
another's hairdressers. Stacy was a blonde also although her hair was
more of an ash blonde while Jamie was definitely a golden blonde. So the
second night that the two were in the dorm saw the girls fussing over one
another's hair in the most loving fashion. Stacy said, "Let me do yours
first, Jamie". She took her brush and brushed my son's hair for what must
have been fifteen minutes. It looked so long and pretty when Stacy
finished with it. Jamie's hair always had such a beautiful shine to it and
brushing brings out the beautiful highlights. I thought about how poor
boys miss out on such girlish fun with their unattractive short hair and
crew cuts. Then Jamie did Stacy's hair and the two children, sitting
there in their pretty night gowns doing each other's hair, were the
epitome of American girlhood. I don't think that Jamie has a boyish
thought left in his little mind and any mother would be proud to have my
child as her daughter. I look forward to what Ms. Chandler's school is
going to do for my child's development as a young lady and I trust that
his education as a female and his constantly being in the presence of
women and girls will enable him to grow up to take his proper place in
society as a lovely young woman. I will certainly keep you informed as my
my Jamie girl continues to let me know through his diary, all about his
school and social activities at the Briarcliff School for Girls.
Chapter #7 "The Harvest Festival"
Excitement was in the air at the Briarcliff School for Girls! It was Fall
Harvest Festival time and this tradition was always one of the highlights
of the school year. Girls being girls, they love to dress up and the
harvest festival party would give them an opportunity to shed their
schoolgirl uniforms and dress up in the most exotic, fashionable clothes
available. The party started Friday morning as the girls put together
their outfits, dressed and made up, practiced their skits and songs, and
thought about how they might outdo one another at the evening gathering in
the gymnasium. Jamie wrote about it all in his diary and I am privileged
to share it with you now.
Jamie was as excited as any of the girls. His love for girl's clothes
goes back to my putting him in the dresses when he was just a small child.
Not knowing what effect brain patterns and natural boyish hormones would
have on him, I went out of my way to make sure that he was feminized in
the most thorough manner possible. As his mother, I decided that I wanted
a little girl and I treated my child as if he were a naturally born
female. Jamie wore nothing but silk and lace as a child and it was only
with great reluctance that I even let him wear shorts, let alone pants. It
was so satisfying for me to see that he loved his frilly dresses and that
as he grew older his preference in clothing was no different from the
sissiest of girls.
Two weeks before the festival, Stacy and Jamie were in their night gowns,
brushing each other's blond hair when the topic of costumes for the party
came up. "Stacy, what are you going to wear" asked Jamie. Stacy, a very
lovely girl who loved pretty clothes as much as my son replied, "I'm
thinking of going as Alice. I love the Alice in Wonderland story and I
have a pretty blue dress that I can wear with a white pinafore. It should
be lots of fun because my friend Barbara is going as the Queen of Hearts".
She laughed saying, "So there are going to be at least two of us from
Wonderland at the party". "That's so cute, Stacy. You'll be the prettiest
girl there", replied Jamie. "Oh sure" said Stacy, "Maybe I would be if I
wasn't rooming with the best looking girl in the school". Jamie blushed
saying, "You are so sweet, roommate", and the two girls embraced. "But
what are you going to wear, Jamie"? Jamie smiled prettily and said, "I'm
going as Miss Scarlet O'Hara, from "Gone with the Wind"! "Wow"!!!!,
exclaimed Stacy. "Scarlet O' Hara!!!! But where will you ever get your
dress"? "I already checked with the dramatic arts department, Stacy, and
they recently purchased several dresses fashioned after the Civil War era
clothes for a production the senior class is going to do next year. My
English teacher Miss White who helps with the plays told me I could wear
one of them". "Oh Jamie, we are going to have such fun", laughed Stacy, as
she brushed Jamie's long hair. "I can hardly wait"
The morning of the festival arrived and there was great activity in all
of the dorms. The girls were running to and fro, buttoning up each
other's dresses, applying makeup, making last minute alterations on
costumes, and laughing and giggling as they saw one another for the first
time in their chosen outfits and accessories. As Briarcliff was an
exclusive girls school, one did not see cheaply put together costumes with
little or no effort put into them. Rather as one walked about the dorms
one saw an elaborately coifed thirteen year old Marie Antoinette, a very
well made up Cinderella, glass slippers and all, and a cute little ten
year old Peter Pan who looked like she was light enough to fly through the
air with Wendy and the children. Princess Leia from "Star Wars" was there
as was Wonder Woman with her bullet deflecting wrist bracelets. One girl
was dressed as Margaret Thatcher in a very elegant burgundy jacket and
skirt, looking like she just walked out of Number 10 Downing Street. Many
of the seventh grade girls used the party as an excuse to wear high heels
for the first time in their young lives. One particularly beautiful girl,
wearing a long white satin gown cut to her proportions, who, when asked
who she was, replied, I'm Claudia Schiffer, the fashion model! No one
laughed because along with Jamie, she was one of the prettiest girls in
the school and could very well be one of Eileen Ford's top models in ten
years.
Right in the thick of all the activity was my son Jamie who was being
helped into his billowing petticoats and skirts by Stacy. Stacy was
already attired in her little blue Alice dress and looked
adorable. Now she was working on Jamie to help him to be the Civil War
era belle that he had chosen to imitate. Buttoning up his long dress
from behind, Stacy said, "Jamie, this dress is absolutely
ravishing. You are going to win first prize for the most beautiful
costume". Jamie spun around when Stacy was finished and felt so lovely
attired in his long dress and petticoats. Holding the side of his
dress he turned and turned in front of the mirror wondering what it
would have been like to dress like this every day as the lovely
Southern girls in the mid eighteen hundreds used to do. "This is such
fun", he thought, and he swished back and forth around the room
feeling the silky smoothness of his petticoats brushing against his
legs. "Come here and let me do your make up, Jamie", said Stacy,
awakening Jamie out of his dream world. I don't know what kind of
cosmetics the girls used back then but you are going to have the best
that is available today". Jamie gathered together his long skirts,
sat at the vanity table and Stacy applied his make up and
lipstick. Jamie was exceptionally pretty even without make up, but
with it, he was as beautiful as any Southern beauty that walked the
flower-filled gardens of the antebellum plantation mansions, carrying
dainty parasols and sipping pink lemonade.
There was no afternoon meal served in the dining hall as the girls were
too busy preparing for the evening's activities. Rather, lunch was
delivered to the dorms by the catering service that was hired each year.
The girls could hardly pull themselves away from their hair curling and
dress modeling but Ms. Chandler poked her head into the various dorms to
make sure her girls were taking time for lunch. She did not want anyone
passing out from weakness during the dance or awards presentations later
that evening. Ms. Chandler was also visiting the dorms to make sure that
her special charges, namely the new boys in attendance at Briarcliff were
doing well as they prepared for their first major social event at the
school. The Harvest Festival was designed to be an enjoyable celebration
but it also showcased the school for a select number of invited families
who had shown an interest in sending their children here in the future.
Consequently the headmistress did not want any of the boys inadvertently
discrediting the school by being inappropriately dressed for the occasion.
If any of the children were going to be prettily dressed, it most
certainly was going to be the seventh grade boys.
Upon entering Jamie's room, Headmistress Chandler was not disappointed.
Jamie smiled and taking the skirts of his long green and white gown in his
hands, made a lovely curtsy to the headmistress. Ms. Chandler clasped her
hands together in pure delight as she saw this most lovely boy child carry
out this most feminine of gestures better than any girl she had known. She
thought, "This child must never be allowed to be a boy again'. He is far
too sweet a child to be subjected to the uncouth ways of men and boys".
"Good Afternoon, Scarlet"!, said Ms. Chandler. "My, we are looking so
lovely today". Then looking at Stacy she said, "And whom do we have here?
Why I do believe you are the pretty girl who chased the rabbit down the
hole"! The two girls laughed and Ms. Chandler swept both of them into her
arms saying, "Such wonderful costumes, girls. I am so proud of you. I
will look forward to seeing you this evening". As she left, Jamie and
Stacy giggled like the school girls they were, proud that they had been
commended by the headmistress herself.
Karen Chandler really did not expect to encounter problems with Jamie.
Knowing his background of being raised as a girl gave her the assurance
that he would not only be properly costumed but that he would also conduct
himself in the manner of a well trained Briarcliff girl. But Julie
Peterson was another story. The headmistress has a memory like an elephant
and something deep within her makes her very angry when boys resist a
woman's commands, especially when that woman is their very own mother.
Karen is a very beautiful woman, ultra feminine in her dress and
comportment but also a self confident leader who believes that the world
would be a better place if influenced and governed by women rather than
men. As a keen student of history she concluded that it was the male ego
and lack of sensitivity that contributed to wars and violence, much of
which could have been avoided if left in the hands of the genetically
superior sex. While she does not classify herself as a feminist per se,
she has definite feelings about female superiority and is determined that
her girls enter the work place more fully qualified to compete than any
male. So when a mere boy like Julie has the audacity to make a scene on
campus on his first day of school, telling his mother, I'm not coming
here", Karen was horrified. She thought, "This child should be ecstatic
that he is going to be a girl. He should be hugging and thanking his
mother instead of rebelling". So she made a mental note of his behavior.
"Julie", she thought, "is going to be my special project". He is going to
be a lady if I have to dress and train him myself".
But in spite of her good intentions, the demands of the first month of
school kept her from supervising Julie the way she intended, so now, on
the day of this important social event in the school calendar, she knocked
on Julie's door with the hope that she would find a very demure, subdued
little girl rather than the defiant boy that she had initially confronted.
Julie's roommate Melanie opened the door and upon seeing the
headmistress, curtsied, and said, "Good Afternoon, Headmistress Chandler".
Ms. Chandler said, "Good afternoon Melanie! Oh you do look beautiful,
honey!". Melanie was dressed as Cleopatra, having made use of one of the
many movie costumes that were available at the school. "Where's Julie,
honey", asked the headmistress. "I don't know Ms. Chandler, said Melanie.
She took off after breakfast and I haven't seen her since. She has been
acting funny lately and I have been worried about her". "What do you mean
"funny", dear"?. "Well", replied Melanie, she has said lots of times this
week that she wasn't a girl and that no one could make her be a girl and
that she was going to run away. I told her that she was so a girl and
that you would be angry if she kept saying that". Ms. Chandler quickly
made her way to the telephone in the dormitory corridor and called
Victoria, Kathleen and Paige, who always assisted her when the school
needed to deal with rebellious boys. She instructed them to meet her in
her office immediately where they would take care of this little matter
before it could disrupt the jovial atmosphere of the Harvest Festival.
The Briarcliff School for Girls was situated on a four hundred and fifty
acre campus with an abundance of hiking trails and a scenic lake that made
Briarciff one of the most attractive prep school campuses in the country.
Using their feminine intuition and the experience that they had had in the
past dealing with boys resisting their feminization at Briarcliff,
Ms.Chandler and her assistants drove the school station wagon directly to
the beach house on the edge of the lake. As they emerged from the vehicle
they saw the ten year old run from the house toward the trail. Kathleen
who had taken Robert Stapleton under her wing on his first day of school
and who was a superb athlete, quickly ran down the child, and scooped him
up in her arms. A quick slap on the fanny stopped Julie's kicking
immediately as she carried the boy back to the headmistress and the other
girls. As Kathleen held him, Ms. Chandler let her displeasure be known.
She said, "Julie, you have been a bad girl! Look at you! Where did you get
those jeans? I am so disappointed in you. You apologized to me the first
day after being rude to your mother and now just one month later you run
away and I find you wearing boy's clothes. Honey, this will never do.
Paige, will you please hand me the dress in the back of the car? "But Ms.
Chandler", Julie began. "Be silent Julie. This is not a time to be
talking". You will be disciplined for this very unladylike behavior. Now
take off those ridiculous boy's clothes and put your dress on. Please
help him girls".
As they drove back to the dorm area Ms. Chandler said, "Julie, you are
not to leave my side for the rest of the day. In fact you are going to be
the headmistresse's little helper through our harvest festival
celebration. Looking at the girls she said, "I just got a wonderful idea.
I was going to go dressed as Steffie G. the tennis star this evening, but
since I am going to have Julie here constantly at my side, I have decided
that I am going to be none other than Carol Ann Brady. And looking at
Julie, now out of his unsightly jeans and back in a pretty dress, she
said, "And you honey, my little rebel boy, are going to be my precious
little girl, Cindy! We will attend the festival in mother and daughter
dresses and you will be Cindy Brady! Julie again started to say something
but Ms. Chandler put her hand up to Julie's lips saying, "Hush, my child,
and start thinking of the different episodes that you have seen. You
lucky little girl! You are going to be a member of the Brady Bunch
tonight, the one about whom the song goes, "the youngest one in curls".
Maybe everything does work out for the best girls. If Julie didn't run
away I would never have thought of this and I have always wanted to have a
little daughter that I could dress up like me, and now I do. Julie
Peterson, you are going to be my new little daughter for the rest of the
day. We must go and buy our mother and daughter dresses while the stores
are still open". "But Ms. Chandler", Julie sighed, "I don't
want............" Karen Chandler said, "Not another word, darling. Be
happy that you were not punished more severely for leaving your dorm.
Beside when I am through dressing you, you will be the prettiest and
happiest little girl at school, for not everyone gets to be the
headmistresse's little helper.
The headmistress thanked Victoria, Kathleen and Paige for helping her
apprehend Julie and dropped them off in the dormitory area. Then alone
with Julie, she drove directly to Ann's Boutique, a favorite women's and
girls dress shop in town. Karen was excited about making Julie her
daughter. She was in her early forties but had never been married,
choosing instead to devote herself to making Briarcliff the best girl's
prep school in the country. Perhaps if the right person came along she
would consider it, but men were intimidated by both her beauty and her
intelligence. She was well suited for the academic world but she dearly
missed having children of her own. Consequently, the thought of taking a
pretty young boy, and changing him into her daughter, if only for a day,
appealed both to her maternal and dominant instincts. This would be an
opportunity not only to properly feminize Julie, but to also show her love
for him, thereby making it easier for him to be the girl that he was
destined to be by his mother. If Julie responded favorably it would make
it so much easier, but if he didn't, he was going to have to be a girl
anyway. Like it or not, Julie would be in pretty girl's clothes. Karen
fell in love with a set of light blue mother and daughter dresses that
Carol Ann and Cindy most certainly would have worn during the early days
of the television show. The dresses were full skirted and had cute belts
around the waist. The hems were three or four inches above the knees and
the dresses were designed to be worn with full slips. Karen took Julie
into the girl's dressing room and put the dress on him. It fit perfectly
as did hers when she tried it on. "Oh, this was such fun", thought Karen.
Looking at her watch and noticing that it was already 3:00 P.M., Karen
picked out slips and panties for her and Julie and they proceeded to dress
for the festival right at the store. Emerging from the dressing room, she
looked at Julie and said, "Look at you dear. You are absolutely beautiful.
See how you are wearing a dress just like mine"? Julie was alarmed. He
had been thinking of running away from school all week and now, here he
was in a dress shop, wearing a sissy dress and with the headmistress of
the entire school making believe that they were mother and daughter. If
only he had been a good boy back home, maybe his mother wouldn't have sent
him here. But he had seen pictures of himself in the family album wearing
dresses when he was four years old. Maybe his mother would have done this
anyway. Julie felt confused, but one thing was clear. He had better go
along with the headmistress as he could see that she would not permit him
to act like a boy at all. Julie was very right about that. Karen was
really getting in to this and she treated Julie just like a daughter.
Ordering him to take smaller steps, buying him a little purse to carry,
spraying perfume on his wrist and behind his ears, touching up his lips
with her very own lipstick and constantly calling him honey and sugar, let
the boy know that he was a daughter now, not a male child at all. Dressed
in identical outfits, they were ready to return to the campus when Karen
said, "Oh, just one more thing, Julie"!
Karen took her new daughter's hand and led him to an area of the shop
where they had very expensive jewelry, including earrings. Julie, sensing
what Ms. Chandler had in mind tried to jerk away but she physically
restrained him and sat him down in the chair. Summoning a salesgirl that
she knew, she said, "Colleen, this little boy needs to have both ears
pierced. Will you do it honey?". Oh the shame of it all. She told the
salesgirl that he was a boy. He didn't know why she did that but it
apparently didn't make any difference to Colleen for she came over and
quickly pierced his ears. It stung just for a moment and then Julie felt
her placing little earrings in the newly drilled holes. As she did, this
sweet little lad, his boyish spirit broken, folded his hands on top of his
skirt and accepted that Ms. Chandler has won the battle for his sexual
identity. He was in a dress and panties, wore earrings and accepted the
fact that he was the new daughter of the headmistress of the Briarcliff
School for girls. But his boyish nature would make one final attempt to
gain control that evening, before being extinguished forever.
At six o'clock P.M. the girls and faculty of Briarcliff marched into the
dining hall in the most colorful and elaborate display of costumes that
anyone had ever seen. Even the kitchen help and the janitorial staff
stopped what they were doing to come and see the girls parade into the
area. Leading the parade of brightly costumed women and girls was none
other than Carol Ann and Cindy Brady. As Julie's hair was still not long
enough to braid, Ms. Chandler had placed an expensive child's blond wig on
his head, with two delightful braids tied with blue silk ribbons to match
his dress. Right behind Carol Ann and Cindy, were two girls dressed like
Marcia and Jan, thus completing the female Brady Bunch cast members except
for Alice, whom no one wanted to be. Of course everyone made a fuss over
cute little Cindy, who just happened to be a boy. Then it happened!
Julie tried thinking, I'm a boy! I'm a boy! But it just wasn't working.
As everyone continued to tell him how cute he was, he felt a wave of
girlishness flowing over him. The senior girl dressed as Marcia Brady came
over, picked him up and kissed him, making him blush, and causing him to
feel more like a girl. He looked down at himself and thought, I'm really
wearing a girl's dress like Ms. Chandler's. I'm wearing mary Jane's. He
reached up and touched his hair and felt the ribbon that Ms. Chandler had
placed there. Even as he walked he was aware of the sensation of the
white tights that the headmistress made him wear under his dress. Then
Julie had one final moment of panic. He could either run for his life, or
he could yield. With a precious tear in his eye, a tear as sweet as any
little girl ever shed, Julie made his decision. Walking over to the
headmistress he embraced her around the waist, and said, "I'm your
daughter now, Ms. Chandler. At last the battle was really over. Julie gave
up on being a boy and could get on with his life as a young lady at
Briarcliff.
Every person has a defining moment in their life and for young Julie it
came at the Harvest Festival. That it was a turning point in his life
cannot be denied in that Julie helped Ms. Chandler the rest of the evening
in every possible way. He was constantly at her side greeting students,
faculty and visitors alike and went out of his way to acquire refreshments
for the guests with whom she was talking. When she introduced him as her
daughter Cindy in the spirit of the evening, he curtsied with a sweet
smile on his face. Even the real girls at the school noticed the
blossoming femininity of Julie and they were so happy for him. Now he
would fit in so much better. Even Jamie saw what was happening, and
dressed in his breath taking Scarlet O'Hara gown, came over and embraced
Julie saying, "Oh Julie, I knew you were a girl on the inside right from
the beginning". The two hugged and one could see the genuine delight in
their eyes. As all the girls intermingled and the music supplied by an
all girl musical group began to play, all eyes turned to the Staptleton
twins as they entered the dining hall dressed as Shirley Temple and
Goldilocks. Apparently the twins still had not outgrown the very childish
outfits they were required to wear and Robert did look adorable with his
hair in ringlet curls as if he had just disembarked from the Good Ship
Lollypop. His little sailor dress was darling and the big sister assigned
to him on his first day of school, who was dressed as Princess Diana, was
holding his hand. His brother Stephen, attired as Goldilocks, was wearing
a red dotted Swiss dress made for a little girl together with the sweetest
bonnet. His big sister was with him, dressed as a drum majorette, complete
with a high hat, short skirt, and twirling baton.
After a wonderful meal, the girls began to file into the elaborately
decorated gymnasium for the dance. A junior girl in a striking catsuit
borrowed from the Broadway play, "Cats" danced with a Spanish senorita in
a full skirt from Barcelona. My Jamie, attired in his Scarlet O'Hara
dress, was spun around by his teacher Victoria White, who was dazzling in
the top hat, spangled tights and cane of a Las Vegas Show girl. Ms.
Chandler was out on the floor dancing with her daughter Julie, causing
some of the girls to cry, knowing that Julie had finally accepted his
femininity. Over all I am happy to say that the Briarcliff Harvest
Festival was a marvelous success, gave the girls something to talk about
for weeks and made me even more happier that I chose the Briarcliff School
for Girls for my son.
Chapter #8 "Home for the Holidays!"
The Thanksgiving holidays were upon us and I was so very excited because my
Jamie and his roommate Stacy, along with two of their girlfriends, were
flying in today for the four day weekend. It was going to be a wonderful
reunion because Eve Jones, mom's good friend from England whom we had
visited three years ago, was going to be in town together with her grand
daughter Andrea, who was first changed into a little girl during our stay
at the Jones mansion in Southhampton. They would be arriving tomorrow. I
was so interested in hearing how Andrea was getting along seeing that she
and Jamie, as former boys, had so much in common. Andrea, now thirteen
years old, was going to stay with us while his grandmother would stay with
mom, so our big house was going to be put to good use.
I drove to the Madison airport and stood nervously in the waiting area as
their plane taxied up to the gate. After several travellers emerged from
the plane, I heard girlish laughter and in the next few seconds I was
surrounded by excited, giggling, pre teenage girls. Jamie, looking darling
in a red jumper dress with a ruffled hem, threw his arms around me. "Hi
Mom!, he said. I want you to meet my girlfriends!". This is my roommate
Stacy, he exclaimed, pointing to a long haired girl in a red sweater and
hunter green plaid skirt. And this is Julie and Teresa! "Oh, I recognize
those names", I thought to myself. "Jamie had mentioned them in his
letters to me". After our initial introductions, Jamie and Stacy, both
eleven years old and holding hands like sisters, walked ahead of us toward
the baggage claim area, while I walked a little behind with eleven year old
Julie, and Teresa, who was twelve. I thought, "This is going to be an
interesting weekend", for I knew that Julie, the pretty girl in the blue
denim skirt with a ribbon in her hair, was a boy. And Teresa, while a real
girl, attired in a black and white suspender skirt set, was the roommate of
one of the now famous Stapleton twins.
We picked up the girl's luggage and made our way to the parking garage as
the girls chatted about school and the coming weekend. The ride to our
lakeside home was a short one and the girls told me about their school
activities, especially the Fall Harvest event that was still fresh in their
minds three weeks later. "Mom, I wish girls still wore Civil War era
dresses, Jamie beamed. "Did you like the full skirts hon, I replied. "Oh
yes mom, I felt so pretty in them". It was apparent that my son had lost
none of his enthusiasm for being a young lady at Briarcliff. I smiled and
thought to myself, "I certainly sent him to the right school". It was also
at the Harvest Festival that little mini skirted Julie in the back seat had
finally given up being a boy and became the honorary adopted daughter of
Karen Chandler, the headmistress of Briarcliff. Julie makes a wonderful
girl and his mother is going to be so proud when she sees what a little
lady he has become.
Arriving at our home, our new houskeeper Elizabeth showed the girls where
they would be staying. Jamie had kind of taken Julie under his wing after
Julie's acceptance of his feminization so I thought that it would be sweet
to have them share Jamie's room. Julie, who has only been a girl for a
short time, never had a pretty room before, so sharing Jamie's totally
girlish room would be a treat for him. His little eyes lit up as he entered
and saw Jamie's canopy bed with the silk and lace ruffled bedspread. He
noticed Jamie's collection of daintily dressed dolls on his shelves and the
soft stuffed animals on his bed. He brushed aside Jamie's ruffled curtain
with his hand and saw the lovely lake, thinking what a wonderful place this
must have been for Jamie to grow up as a little girl. Julie was truly
changed after being forced to wear mother and daughter dresses with Karen
Chandler the night of the Festival. As he followed her around as a little
girl that night, he was being transformed in an almost magical, wonderful
way into a girl child. He tried to resist but the dress, the panties, the
hair ribbon and the comments of Karen's friends, immersed him in a deep sea
of femininity from which he was unable to surface. Karen Chandler had seen
this happen before and felt that she had successfully led another boy child
into the delightful world of girls.
Stacy and Teresa who were real girls, would sleep in a large adjoining
bedroom and when Andrea arrived tomorrow, he would share a room with them.
Elizabeth served a delicious meal consisting of pork roast with apple
sauce, mint and side dishes of candied yams and fresh peas. I had to
remind her that tomorrow was our big meal, not tonight, and that I couldn't
have the girls going back to school a dress size larger. After supper, as
it was starting to get late, I said, "Girls, why don't you run upstairs and
slip into your nightgowns so we can watch the movie that I rented for us,
before bedtime"? Jamie and the girls excused themselves and started to run
upstairs to change out of their dresses. "Girls, I shouted, we do not run.
Remember we are young ladies". Jamie stopped in his tracks, saying "Sorry
mom", and started to walk up the stairs like a proper girl. I really don't
mean to be hard on him but I still have a subconscious fear that the boy in
him will surface. I do not want that to happen and I encourage girlish
behavior whenever I am able.
Soon the girls had their dresses hanging neatly in their closets and came
downstairs dressed like little princesses in their prettiest little girl
gowns. Jamie let Julie borrow one of his nighties and Julie looked just
darling in a knee length pink nylon gown with matching panties. It was a
perfect outfit for a boy, I thought. Why shouldn't boys be allowed to wear
pretty clothes? After seeing how darling the children looked, I couldn't
help thinking that even if I had a family of five boys, they would all be
in pretty dresses and frilly nightgowns. Girls are so much nicer and more
fun to have around. Julie looked so happy in his nightie and I could see
that he was glad to be a girl. Jamie chose a white satin gown with pretty
pink ribbons running through the lace edged puffy sleeves and with dainty
lace trimming around the hem. Stacy was lovely with her waist length hair
flowing over her shoulders in a gown of blue silk, with delicate embroidery
on the sheer bodice. Teresa was wearing pink nylon pajamas with a lacy
collar and lace on the cuffs and pant bottoms. They were very pretty,
although I never let Jamie wear pajamas while he was growing up, preferring
to have my child in skirts, even when he was sleeping. Teresa was a real
girl though, and no one would ever say that she was anything but girlish in
pink satin.
We all cuddled up on the oversized couch in front of our large screen
television set. I was in my favorite floor length black gown with lace trim
across the bodice and on the hem and I felt so happy to have a house full
of young misses with whom to enjoy the holidays. I felt so sorry for my new
neighbor friend Jan, who unfortunately has four boys. After the first
child she kept praying for a girl, but was disappointed each time. As Jan
cannot have anymore children, I think that she might be taking matters into
her own hands. I haven't said anything to her yet about Jamie's actually
being a boy, but I am dying to tell her as the last time I stopped by her
house to borrow a cup of sugar, I couldn't help noticing that her four year
old was wearing nail polish. Jan saw me looking at his hands and seemed to
be embarrassed. She apologized saying, Oh, he's so silly. He insisted that
I let him wear it this one time". Then she changed the subject. However I
believe that Jan may very well be playing dress up with little Patrick when
her husband is off to work and the older boys have left for school. Knowing
her frustration at not having a little girl to dress up and fuss over, I
would not be shocked if I went over there one day and saw Patrick in a
dress and answering to the name, Patricia. I would not blame her at all as
Patrick is a cute child, small for his age, and would make a wonderful
daughter for his mother. I could give her so many helpful hints as my
Jamie has lived as a girl for all eleven years of his life. Maybe I should
give Jan some of Jamie's little dresses to encourage her to sissify
Patrick. She really ought to do it while he is young and adaptable.
We watched the old classic movie, "Raintree County", with Elizabeth Taylor
and Eva Marie Saint. The girls, especially Jamie, loved the pretty dresses
that the stars were wearing. I suggested that we do each other's nails as
we watched and soon we were all fussing with nail polish. Being boys, and
required to wear nail polish at all times at Briarcliff, Jamie and Julie
already had pretty nails. But they wanted to experiment with new shades of
red and pink so we applied remover and started from scratch. Julie, the
newest girl in our midst walked over to me in his pink nightie and demurely
asked me to do his. I said, "Oh I'd be glad to honey, and I began applying
a lovely shade of red that was just right for him." Julie looked at his
nails admiringly and showed them to the other girls. Soon we all had pretty
nails and found that we were having so much fun that we were hardly paying
attention to the movie. Looking at the little pearl earrings that Julie had
in his ears made me think that tomorrow, I will let him borrow a pair of my
dangling earrings. Two earrings are so cute on a boy and I think I can find
a pair of dangling ones that will look darling with his Thanksgiving
outfit. When the movie was over the girls all kissed me good night and went
up to bed, thinking about how much fun it was to be pretty, wear colorful
soft clothes and just be young girls who are loved by all. And Jamie,
brushing his waist length hair before climbing under the covers of his
white satin sheets thought, "I wonder what Andrea is going to look like"?
My sweetie recalled the fateful day when a poorly kicked soccer ball
resulted in Andrew Jones being put in petticoats for good. Soon the little
ladies were in dreamland.
Happy Thanksgiving! The words rang throughout the house as girlish energy
was released bright and early on Thursday morning. After a light breakfast
of blueberry pancakes and a variety of flavored spice teas, the girls took
off their robes to get into their holiday dresses. Mrs. Jones was coming to
drop Andrea off at noon and all the children wanted to look their prettiest
to meet the "girl" from England. Julie still didn't have a lot of girl's
clothes so I said to Jamie, "Honey, why don't you let Julie borrow your red
velvet dress with the lace trim? He'd be so pretty in that". Jamie said,
"Sure mom, he can wear it". Jamie searched his rather large walk in closet
filled with stylish dresses that would be the envy of any girl, and handed
Julie the dress his mother suggested. "Try it on Julie. We're the same
size and it should fit perfectly". Julie took the dress, an absolutely
beautiful long sleeved red velvet dress with pearl buttons in the front.
Julie, who had already put on his white nylon training bra and panties
under his white nylon lace slip, carefully put the dress over his head. It
fell to just above his knees and looked darling. Clearly becoming more of
a girl with each passing day, he twirled around, watching himself in the
mirror. Jamie said, "Julie it will look even prettier if you wear white
tights with it". "Ok", said Julie. Reaching into his lingerie drawer
Jamie found a pair of new white tights that his mother had bought for him
and handed them to Julie. Julie slipped them on under his dress and pulled
them up, feeling delightfully girlish. His little black patent leather
shoes with very thin straps completed his very stylish outfit. "Oh Julie",
Jamie sighed, "you look so pretty". Julie, not knowing what to say, smiled
and made a little curtsy. Then both former boys embraced in a girlish hug
and giggled like the sweet sisters they had become.
I had bought Jamie's Thanksgiving outfit through a catalogue and knew that
he would just love it. It was a pullover style in forest green with a mock
turtleneck collar and a Thanksgiving day motif. The short skirt was edged
with little turkeys, pumpkins, pilgrims and colorfully dressed Indians.
Jamie worn white tights and shiny mary jane shoes with it and I put a green
bow in his hair to match his dress. My little girl looked good enough to
eat. Stacy was in a floral printed tea length dress with a triple tiered
collar and ruffled hem. She was wearing red shoes and was also in white
tights. A red ribbon adorned Stacy's long blond hair. Teresa was dressed in
a stonewashed pleated jumper with a white long sleeved top that was too
cute for words. All my girls looked so lovely. At 12:00 noon, while the
girls were setting the table and doing odd chores to help me get ready for
our big meal, the door bell rang. Jamie yelled, "I'll get it mom", and
walked hurriedly toward the door. I'm so glad that he has learned to walk
nicely like a girl now and not run as if he were a silly boy. He opened the
door and standing there before him was Mrs. Jones and the cutest dressed
little girl that one could possibly imagine. It was Andrea, and to be
totally honest, I have rarely seen a little girl dressed as prettily as
she. Andrea was in a little girl's white lace dress with a full lining,
short puffy sleeves, and a ruffled satin collar. The dress had a minature
rose on the left side of the collar and it buttoned up the back. Andrea
looked like a living doll, and was actually carrying a little doll that was
attired in a dress identical to his own, down to the little rosette. I soon
was at the door myself and warmly embraced Eve Jones and her totally
transformed grandson, who would most certainly fit in, in our very feminine
household. After a brief time of catching up, Eve excused herself as she
was having dinner at mom's house. She kissed Andrea goodbye and left this
thirteen year old child who was dressed more like a six year old with the
rest of us.
Andrea was sitting meekly on the couch and after Mrs. Jones left all the
girls went over to him. They knew that he used to be a boy and understood
the reason for his childish clothes. Boys like Andrea and Julie who were
not lucky enough to be raised as girls from infancy should not be thrust
into a feminine world without experiencing some of the joys of youth that
are part of being female. Karen Chandler knew this better than anyone and
that is why so many mothers desirous of transforming their sons into young
ladies chose the Briarcliff School for girls.They knew that she had a
reputation for bringing a child along at a pace that will assure his total
feminization, and of course that was their desire for their sons. The
headmistress learned in the early days of the school that frilly, lace and
ruffled dresses that very little girls wear have a very feminizing affect
on young boys. Putting a resisting boy in girl's jeans or shorts would not
accomplish anything in the long run. But making him wear short ruffled
dresses, dainty slips, and lace trimmed satin panties reach the very depths
of his impressionable mind. Apparently Eve Jones knew this too, and
consequently she was determined that Andrea learn to be a little girl for a
few years before he is exposed to bras, tight skirts, sheer pantyhose and
other big girl clothes that were to be a part of his future life. I thought
of the Stapleton twins and reminded myself that I must ask Teresa how her
rommate Roberta is getting along in his second month as a girl. Karen had
both boys in baby dresses and I hoped that they were becoming the girls
that everyone knew they should be.
Teresa, who was Roberta Stapleton's roommate was fascinated by Andrea and
said, "Andrea, tell us all about yourself". Andrea was a couple of years
older than the other girls but they kind of took the lead in the
conversation seeing that Andrea was dressed like a little girl. They
started asking him all kinds of questions such as, "Is your mom ever going
to let you wear big girl's dresses? Who does your hair, Andrea? Do you go
to a girl's school like us? How many dolls do you have? Andrea seemed a
little flustered and I said, "Girls, give her time to be here a while. We
have all day to get acquainted and I'm sure Andrea will be happy to answer
all of your questions". This apparently made Andrea feel better because he
started to open up seeing that all the girls accepted him for who he is. He
said, "Mom promised to let me wear more grown up styles if I am a good girl
on this trip to the United States". The girls smiled and Teresa said,
"That's neat, Andrea. My roommate at school still has to wear baby dresses.
I don't think Ms. Chandler is going to let him or his brother wear our
school uniform all semester". "Was he bad"?, asked Andrea. "No", said
Teresa, "it's just that he is new at being a girl and the headmistress
thinks this will help him like being a girl more. He is awfully cute and
his brother is dressed just like him. All the girls treat the twins as
their baby sisters." Andrea smiled and felt a little better to hear that
he was not the only one who had to wear the frilly dresses of a little
girl. When Jamie, who has a considerable doll collection, commented on
Andrea's doll, Andrea said that his grandmother made him carry a doll with
him where ever he went. "She told me that I need to learn how to play like
a girl." Stacy, who was listening to every word, liked Andrea a lot, and as
they were talking, took out a brush and started to brush his hair which was
as long as a girls. It seemed that Andrea would fit right in with all of
us as we prepared to celebrate the holiday with a large roast turkey and
all the trimmings.
Elizabeth served dinner and I was pleased to see that all the girls were
extremely polite and acted like perfect ladies. Andrea shared about his
life in England telling us how his former boyfriends learned that he was
becoming a girl. At first he often fought against his grandmother's
determination to make him a girl and even threw temper tantrums for which
he was spanked. When the spanking didn't seem to change his ways, his
grandmother devised new punishments for him, the most effective of which
was to take him out as a boy wearing some particular article of girl's
clothing in order to embarrass him. This first occurred less than a month
after he was first put into dresses. He had been very surly the whole week
and his grandmother told him to get dressed in his polo shirt and boys
shorts, as they were going out together. Andrew was overjoyed thinking that
maybe she has decided to let him be a boy afterall. He acted very sure of
himself as they went out the door and even carefully checked out the soccer
field as they drove by to see if he saw any of his friends. As it was
Saturday, a few of the boys were out there practicing their moves. He
would have to do a lot of explaining, but at least he would be in pants and
with boys again. But as the Jone's chauffeur driven car turned the corner,
Andrew saw them stopping in front of the Carousel Beauty Salon, his mom's
beauty shop. "Get out, Andrea!", his grandmother said. Andrea told us how
he was forced to go into the store and sit in the chair as the stylist
threw a pink smock around him and styled his hair. When she was done, she
tied a large yellow silk ribbon in his hair, according to his grandmother's
instruction, and told him that now he looked pretty like a girl. After
paying the stylist, grandmother and grandson walked out to the car and
drove back to the soccer field.
Andrew's little heart almost stopped when the chauffeur stopped the car and
he heard his grandmother say again, "Get out, Andrea! And don't you dare
touch your hair ribbon!" "No, Grandma, I can't!". Yes, you will you,
honey! I am going to teach you a lesson that you will not soon forget".
Taking him by the arm, she almost had to push and pull her grandson towards
the boys, who by this time had stopped playing and were watching what was
happening. The three boys looked shocked as they saw that it was Andrew
with a yellow ribbon in his hair looking just like a sissy. They had heard
rumors about Andrew not being a boy anymore but they could hardly believe
it. Now they saw for themselves and heard Andrew's grandmother say to them,
"Boys, Andrea will not be able to play soccer with you anymore for you see
he is becoming a little girl. Look at his pretty hair ribbon and the way
his hair is styled. And then, to the complete amazement of everyone,
including Andrew, she reached into her linen shopping bag, took out a
bright yellow wrap around skirt with dainty flowers on the pocket, and
wrapped it around her grandson, right in front of the boys. "Stand still
Andrea", she said, as she tied it in the back. The boys gasped and Andrew
burst into tears, but Mrs. Jones had made her point. Taking Andrew by the
hand she said, "Say goodbye to the boys, Andrea". Andrew half whispered a
little goodbye and was led off in his skirt and hair ribbon, never to play
with boys again.
Well, my Jamie and his friends were held spellbound as Andrea told them the
first of many stories that he would share with the younger girls. "Wow,
Andrea", said Julie. "That's wild! What did your grandmother do to you when
you got home"? Andrea said, "She told me that she was sorry that she had to
embarrass me in front of my friends but that it didn't a matter because
from now on all my friends would be girls. Grandma Jones forbid me to play
with boys and never let me wear boy's clothes again. When my mother and
father returned from Australia, they immediately liked me as their new
daughter and told me that I would be home schooled so that I could wear
dresses all the time. I pleaded with them, but mom said that I was too
unmanagable as a boy and that being trained as a young lady would be good
for me. Even dad thought it was going to be fun having a new daughter.
They instructed our maids Amanda and Susan to treat me like a girl and
warned them that they would be let go if they didn't help make me a girl.
So Amanda and Susan went out of their way to make me a sissy, and both
treated me like a little sister. Sometimes I helped them dust, iron clothes
or go shopping, always wearing a dress. Mom invited lots of neighbor girls
over and there were birthday parties, slumber parties, and tea parties all
of which were designed to make me more of a girl".
When Andrea was through talking, all the girls gave him a big hug and told
him they were sorry that he had to go through so much, but they were glad
that he was now one of them. Andrea said, I'm glad I'm a girl too, and
that soon I will be able to wear more grown up dresses like all of you. As
Elizabeth began to remove the dishes, we all retreated into the den to
enjoy our dessert of strawberry ice cream and cookies, while talking about
the exciting things that we had planned for the remainder of the holiday.
I was feeling very happy surrounded by my pretty Jamie and his little
friends. Later that night while all of the girls were sleeping my mind
turned towards my neighbor Jan and I determined in my mind that I was going
to help my friend have the little girl for whom she has always wished. I
am so fortunate having a houseful of "little women" and I would like to
show my thanks by helping Jan turn little Patrick into Patricia. But that
is another story!
Chapter #9 "Rainy Day Fun"!
It was the day after Thanksgiving, and from our dining room breakfast
table, the girls and I watched the driving rain fall into the waters of
beautiful Lake Mendota. It was a chilly autumn day in lovely Wisconsin.
We had had such a wonderful day yesterday as Andrea shared story after
story of his life as a new girl in England. For ten years Andrea was
Andrew, a normal boy with boyish interests in sports and games but in one
fateful moment, Andrew's life was forever changed as his grandmother
decided that he should be a girl. As I looked at him sipping tea, attired
in a crinkle-textured pink gown and matching chenille ballerina slippers,
I thought "What a lovely child he has become". His brown hair was long
like Jamie's and he was every inch the young lady. I loved the two little
pink bows that adorned both sides of his head. Our house guest Julie, and
my child Jamie, used to be boys also, but on this Friday morning no one
would have known it for they too were dressed as girls, in lace trimmed
blue and ivory nylon nighties. Stacy and Teresa of course were born as
girls, and as usual they were prettily attired, but they were not any
lovelier than the three newest additions to the feminine gender. I was so
happy for the boys as I knew that they would totally miss out on being
thrown into the harsh, competitive world of males where they would forever
have to prove themselves in the market place and on the playing fields.
No, these children would be spared all that and would learn about fashion,
make up, and hair styling, and all the other marvelous things that make
girlhood so delightful. As I looked at each of the children I could tell
that they were happy being girls and I determined that I would do all that
I could to help them grow up to be lovely young ladies.
But what does one do to entertain a thirteen year old, a twelve year old
and three eleven year old girls on a rainy Friday morning? We are all
excited about "The Great All-American Doll Show" to which I will be taking
them tomorrow but I wanted today to be a fun time for the girls too.
Well, I underestimated the creativity of little girls because no sooner
had I started thinking about some activity when Jamie suggested, "Let's
play dress-up!" I thought "Good girl, Jamie!". Not only will that be fun
but it will give our newest girl Julie a chance to learn more about being
a girl. The girls got all excited about that because Jamie had told them
about the trunks of old clothes that we had in the attic and the many
closets of dresses from which they could choose. I said that I would help
out and told the girls that they could try on my clothes too as long as
they didn't go into my one closet where I kept my most expensive outfits.
I loved my girls but I didn't want them accidently ripping my expensive
business suits or designer gowns. Jamie, bless his heart said, "Mom, can
we help clear the table for you". Elizabeth, our housekeeper, was off this
morning and Jamie was so thoughtful. The five girls quickly removed the
dishes, stacked them in the dishwasher and after wiping the table, were
off to dress up in whatever their little hearts fancied. We so often
express our personalities in what we wear and I was especially interested
in seeing what outfits the boys would choose.
I took off my robe and nightgown and slipped into a red full skirted
daytime dress before making my way upstairs to see what my darlings were
doing. I thought, "How sad it is that many boys with girlish tendencies
have to secretly borrow their sisters clothes when their sisters are not
at home. They enjoy pretty dresses and panties so very much but they can
only wear them when they are alone and there is always the fear that
someone will discover them". I thought, "Mothers just have to be more
understanding and recognize that they may have sons who desperately want
to be their daughters rather than boys". Well, I was going to make certain
that Andrea, Julie and my son would not have to sneak around in dresses. I
want them to know that it is perfectly fine for a boy to dress and behave
like a girl, and I am going to encourage them to be as girlish as they can
be. I knocked on the door of the master bedroom and heard a little voice
say "Come in". Upon entering, I was just delighted to see Julie wearing my
wedding gown of silk, satin and silk organza. Under his bridal dress he
was wearing an adorable white satin petticoat embroidered with dainty
white roses and very lacy satin panties with delicate bows. Holding a
little bouquet of artificial flowers that Jamie had found for him, he was
darling, the picture of innocence and femininity. "Oh Julie", I said,
tears filling my eyes. "You are lovely"! I realized that this child could
have grown up as a boy and would have missed out on ever wearing a bridal
dress. But here he was looking so wonderfully girlish and feminine. I
couldn't resist hugging him and picking him up in my arms, saying, "Honey,
you are truly a girl". And he was. Anyone who would deprive Julie of the
opportunity to be a pretty Miss would be very cruel. This boy is far too
lovely to be anything but a young maiden. Jamie was standing there in his
ivory colored silk nightgown and panties, having spent all his time
helping Julie get dressed. I said, "Honey, aren't you going to dress up
too"? My sweet girl said, "Yes, mother, but I wanted to make sure that
all the girls found an outfit first". That's my Jamie, always thinking
about others, just like a girl.
Taking Julie by the hand and noticing that his red nails looked so pretty,
I said, "May I escort the lovely bride? Julie smiled and curtsied saying,
"Yes ma'am, and balancing on his three inch heels, we went looking for the
other girls. Julie had never worn high heels before and was holding on to
me tightly but I said, "Honey, you are doing just fine. It takes a girl a
little time to get used to wearing heels. But you will love them more and
more as you begin to wear them often. Julie's legs, clad in the sheer
white pantyhose that Jamie had given him looked so lovely. I thought,
"Julie will never go back to being a boy". He is too suited to being a
girl." Jamie, Julie and I heard giggling coming from one of the other
bedrooms on the second floor of our home. We knocked and heard Teresa say
in a playful voice, "Who is it"? I said, "It's the beautiful bride and
her attendants. May we come in"? "Yes, you may", said Teresa. We
entered the room and Andrea, Stacy and Teresa oohed and ahhed as they saw
Julie in his bridal dress. "You are gorgeous Julie", said Stacy. "He is
totally beautiful", responded Teresa. I looked around the room and said,
"Where's Andrea"? Teresa and Stacy smiled and said, "Come on out
Andrea!". Well, the walk in closet door opened and out stepped Andrea,
dressed in a western style red blouse with double ruffles and a four-tier
skirt with multi color ruffles and broomstick pleating. Andrea put his
hands on his hips just like a girl and gave us a big smile. I said, "Howdy
partner!" He looked darling and told us how when he was little he used to
watch American westerns on British television, and always wanted to be a
cowboy. "Well, he came close", I thought, "but the macho cowboys of the
old West didn't wear broomstick skirts". I said, "You almost had your
wish hon. But you're a cowgirl, not a cowboy".Andrea just smiled, knowing
that it was true.
Looking at Jamie, Stacy and Teresa, I said, "Why don't I take the bride
and the cowgirl downstairs to help me bake some chocolate chip cookies
while you girls find outfits for yourselves to wear"? The girls readily
agreed and so Julie in his white satin high heels, holding his skirts
slightly off the floor, made his way towards the door. Andrea, in his
long western skirt and red cowgirl boots followed and the three of us went
downstairs wondering what the other girls would come up with in the way of
costumes. Jamie knew exactly what he wanted to wear. Ever since I
enrolled him in ballet class when he was eight, Jamie has liked short
ballerina dresses. He is very graceful for a boy and showed great promise
as a dancer until he hurt his ankle and discontinued classes. But dancing
in Swan Lake as a pretty girl had left an impression on him and he told
Teresa and Stacy that he was going to put on his pink tutu and pink ballet
shoes. Jamie's favorite color has always been pink and I have tried to add
pink dresses, hair bows, sweaters, and lingerie to his wardrobe whenever
we went shopping. I think that it is important that a girl coordinate her
dresses and lingerie, and not mix up her colors. I have insisted that if
Jamie chose a white slip, then his bra and panties should be white too.
But my little darling loves pink so much that I think he wears pink
panties even when he may be in a white or pale blue slip. What is a mother
to do? I know that I should be happy that at least he loves pink! Not
many boys do, but then not many boys wear pretty dresses and panties like
my Jamie! He is my special child, and I'm happy that I made him a girl.
Jamie found his ballerina outfit and looked adorable in it. His little
pink panties showed under his short, flaired skirt and he pranced around
daintily in his ballerna slippers, practicing pirouettes and walking on
his tippy toes. I placed a little tiara in his long hair and he looked
ready to dance on stage. Meanwhile Stacy had found a cute little '50's
style red and white checkered gingham dress to wear. It had a lace collar,
and a row of pretty lace on each side of the four buttons that stopped at
the waist. The skirt was full and it tied in the back. Before he went away
to school I loved dressing Jamie in the pretty fashions of bygone days and
I recall his often wearing this particular dress around the house. It was
good to see Stacy in it as it brought back pleasant memories of my son and
me in pretty summer dresses playing with his paper dolls. Teresa was
upstairs still taking a long time to get dressed and we wondered what in
the world she found that was taking so long. Well, no sooner had I said
something, when Teresa came walking downstairs wearing of all things, a
little soldier uniform that had belonged to one of Jamie's boy cousins.
The girls mouths opened as they saw Teresa in this boyish outfit complete
with a jacket with sergeant stripes, war medals and army pants. She was
wearing boy's shoes and a military cap with the insignia of the United
States Army. Smiling mischieviously Teresa gave us a very sharp salute and
said, "You can call me Sgt. Terry, girls!" "Teresa"!!, Julie shouted,
"What are you doing?"
Teresa really did look cute as a soldier but I could see that the boys
were in shock. You see, Andrea, Jamie, and Julie, had left the world of
boys the same way that one leaves a sinking ship. Once you leave you do
not return. While the choice had definitely been made for them by older
women, as far as they were concerned, boy talk, boy's clothes, and boy's
ways were no longer an option for them and to see a girl dressed as a boy
was very puzzling. They thought, "Why would a pretty girl like Teresa, or
any girl, ever want to wear boy's clothes even for fun"? It just didn't
register in their young minds and they stood there in their bridal dress,
broomstick skirt and ballerina costume, amazed that Teresa would wear
pants. But what they failed to take into consideration was that Teresa was
a real girl and was in no way less feminine or girlish in clothes other
than dresses. Stacy, being a real girl too, understood this and yelled
down from upstairs, "You look so cool, Sgt. Terry!" I tried to play down
what was happening and said, I think Teresa looks just fine. Let's
pretend that she is a famous war hero and be very respectful towards her.
Julie and Andrea looked at one another, shrugged their shoulders and said,
"Oh alright". Jamie looked up at me and I told him, "It's ok honey. It's
only make believe and Teresa will be in dresses again this afternoon".
Four of the girls were now dressed and that left only Stacy. Jamie said,
"I have an idea for you Stacy". Jamie excused himself and went upstairs
to help get our final child into a costume. Jamie said, "Stacy, you can
be a cheer leader!" Going into one of my closets, Jamie found my junior
high school blue and white cheer leader's skirt and sweater and soon
beautiful Stacy had her costume. Handing her two pom poms, Jamie said,
"Now, you are ready". Soon Stacy came bouncing down the stairs singing,
"On Wisconsin, On Wisconsin, plunge right through that line........" All
the girls laughed and had fun acting out their chosen roles for the rest
of the morning, while enjoying the very best chocolate chip cookies that
anyone ever tasted.
The morning passed quickly with the girls playing make believe in their
cute costumes. Julie just loved his satin gown and practiced walking up
and down the hallway as if he were walking down the aisle in a church. I
secretly hoped that he would be able to be married in a pretty dress some
day. Jamie practiced some of the dance routines that he remembered from
ballet class. He looked so cute dressed as a ballerina. Stacy was doing
somersaults, jumping, and yelling out cheers that I didn't know that she
knew, and Andrea who had found a ten gallon hat to go with his outfit was
totally enjoying the feel of his long skirts. I would have to buy him
some girl's western style clothes before he returned to England. The only
one who seemed to not be having that much fun was Sgt. Terry. I think she
felt the other girls were ignoring her because she was in boy's clothes
and before long she went upstairs and came back down in a blue denim
dress. After a light lunch that the girls helped me prepare, I received a
surprise telephone call from my sister Debbie who was driving through
Madison with her daughter Stephanie, on their way to Chicago. My sister
lived in Minneapolis now and while we are close, our many activities do
not always enable us to keep up with each other's schedules. I haven't
seen her or my niece for a year and it would be fun for the cousins to see
one another again. Stephie was always a big sister to Jamie while he was
growing up as a little girl. Deb and Stephie arrived in the early
afternoon and thirteen year old Stephie ran right to Jamie and hugged him.
"What are you doing in a ballerina costume, little cousin"?, she said.
Jamie explained about playing dress up and they laughed together. The
relationship between the two was so very sweet and I believe having Steph
as a big sister contributed as much as anything, to Jamie's accepting his
girlhood. She was his role model and when they were little, Jamie imitated
everything she did.
Stephanie though that it was perfectly natural for feminine boys to be
raised as girls. She has never seen Jamie in pants and to do so would be
a complete shock to her. As she talked with Jamie, Andrea walked into the
room in his western style blouse and skirt and Stephanie's mouth fell
open. She hadn't seen Andrea for three years and didn't even know that the
Jones' were in America. "Andrea, is that you"?, she said. Andrea laughed
and said, "Yes, I'm a total girl now too Stephanie, just like your cousin
Jamie". Stephanie, looking him up and down and seeing how pretty he was
said, "You certainly are, Andrea. No one would ever know that you are a
boy. You are beautiful." Jamie, experiencing a tinge of jealousy chimed
in, "As beautiful as me Stephie?" Steph smiled and said, "Silly girl.
You are both pretty girls", and she kissed her little cousin.
Jamie said, "Steph, there are some other girls from Briarcliff that are
with us for Thanksgiving that we want you to meet. I called upstairs and
Julie, Stacy and Teresa came down still attired in their costumes. "Wow"!
said Stephanie, "you all look great"! And they did. I can honestly say
that the children staying with me for the holidays could all be models for
pre teen dress catalogues or "American Girl Magazine". My sister Debbie
and her daughter especially loved the bridal dress and said, "And just who
is the lovely bride"? Julie blushed, and I whispered to my sister, "He's
a boy named Julie, Deb". Stephanie overheard me and blurted out, "He's a
boy"! Julie responded, "I used to be a boy Stephanie, but my mother sent
me to Briarcliff to be changed into a girl". "Well, I think your mom was
right Julie, Stephanie replied, "You don't look anything like a boy in
your satin gown". Stacy, dressed as a Madison High School cheerleader
greeted the new arrivals followed by Teresa, who had changed out of her
costume into a dress. My sister asked, "Didn't you dress up, Teresa"?
Teresa replied, "I did but it was as a dumb boy. I wanted to get back
into my dress." "Well, I can't blame you for that, honey", said Debbie.
"Boys are so "nothing". I thought to myself, "She is right about that"!
After persuading Debbie and Stephanie to stay overnight and attend the
"Doll Show" with us the next day, we all decided it would be nice to go
out to eat. I made reservations at an expensive Italian restaurant on the
edge of town and we decided that it would be fun to dress more formally
for supper. We have six bedrooms and four baths in our home so I
instructed the girls to get out of their costumes and take bubble baths
before changing into their evening clothes. Soon the house was a whirl of
activity as the girls made their way upstairs and tried to decide who was
going to use which bathroom. But little Julie lingered behind with
Debbie, Steffie and me. "I know the problem, Julie", I said smiling. You
don't want to take off your bride's dress do you, honey. Oh you are so
sweet. My poor darling loves his pretty satin dress so much that he can't
bear to take it off". I hugged him and said, "Darling, let me tell you
something. You don't have to worry about things like this anymore because
you really are a girl now. Your mother is not going to make you go back to
being a boy ever. That's why she enrolled you at Briarcliff. Besides, Ms.
Chandler has told everyone that you are her honorary daughter now. Honey,
you are always going to be in pretty dresses and skirts from now on.
Also, the staff has been instructed to let your hair grow real long.
Taking his head in my hands and stroking his hair, I said, "So please do
not worry your pretty head. Everything is going to be fine. And I'll
tell you what. Before you go back to Briarcliff on Sunday, I am going to
buy you a white satin dress so you can wear it after classes and pretend
to be a bride. "Ok, honey"? Julie, listening to every word that I said,
thanked me, and reaching down and taking one side of his long dress in his
hand, walked towards the stairs. I noticed that he was already doing much
better in his high heels, which was wonderful for a eleven year old boy
who was so new to girlish things.
Debbie and Stephanie watched all of this and almost cried. "You were so
sweet to him, Aunt Deborah", Stephanie said. "Yes hon", I replied.
"Sometimes as girls, we don't realize how blessed we are. Julie didn't
have a chance to wear frilly dresses or hair ribbons, enjoy little tea
parties with his playmates, or be mommy's little helper when he was young,
as we did. He had to wear unattractive boy's clothes, have short hair and
be treated like a little man. So I want to make it up to him now while he
is still young and can apppreciate it. He is still only eleven and we
want to help him become a complete girl as soon as possible. I understand
why he didn't want to take his bride's dress off. He is still not sure of
himself as a girl and I hope that we will be able to assist him to just
relax and be a pretty young lady. He is awfully pretty, isn't he"? "Oh
yes Aunt Deborah, he is a doll. I wish he was my little sister", replied
Stephanie. "Well honey, you can treat him like a sister while you are
here. I'm sure that he would appreciate it", I said. Now, may I fix you
ladies some tea while the girls are changing? Debbie and Stephanie
accompanied me to the kitchen where we had cinnamon tea and petit fours
while we caught up on all the news of the family. Debbie said, "I'm
looking forward to going out tonight and to the Doll Show tomorrow". I
said, "Yes, it should be great fun for the girls too. And guess what! I'm
thinking of taking my neighbor boy, Patrick, to the Doll Show! Hmmmm,
said Debbie, "Knowing you Susan, that poor boy might end up as a doll
himself". I simply smiled and poured some more tea.
Chapter #10 "A Mother's Wish Granted"!
It was going to be the most memorable day in little Patrick Bryan's life,
a day that would see him wearing a pretty dress for the first time in the
presence of other people besides his mother. Megan Bryant moved next door
to us in August, and during our times together she often lamented the fact
that of her four children, none of them were girls. She longed to have a
daughter whom she could dress up in frilly dresses like other mothers.
She secretly desired to take her son out in public in the adorable dresses
of a little girl. She longed to put ribbons in his hair. As we had only
known each other for a short time, I had not told her that Jamie was a
boy, but my heart went out to her for I knew that she yearned for a mother
and daughter relationship like I had with my son. So when she asked me to
be the babysitter for little Patrick during the basketball championships
in which her oldest son was participating, I had a very wild idea. Hoping
that she would not be offended in any way, I said, "Megan, I hope you
don't mind my saying this, but I have heard you tell me over and over
again about how desperately you would like to have a little girl. When I
stopped by your home last week, I couldn't help seeing that your youngest
son Patrick, was wearing nail polish. You seemed a little embarrassed, but
I want you to know that I thought he looked very pretty with his nails
painted." "Oh Susan, did you really think so"?, Megan responded. "I was
so worried that you would think that I was terrible to do that to my son.
But I want a little girl so badly, that I could cry."
"Megan,
I replied, "Please do not ever feel that way. I have always thought that
boys should be allowed to enjoy pretty things too. There is no harm done
and it gives them a chance to know what it feels like to be a little girl.
"Susan, you are so understanding. We must think a lot alike", said Megan.
"Hon, you would not believe how much we think alike. May I tell you
something that will really surprise you"? "Certainly", said Megan.
"What is that"? "Megan, my daughter Jamie isn't really a girl" "What"?
You are teasing me!" Megan said. "Megan, Jamie is a boy"! "No"!, Megan
said. "A boy? She can't be! She is always the perfect little lady. I
have never seen a girl who wears prettier dresses or who acts as well
mannered as your Jamie". "Yes hon, he is dressed and treated as a girl,
but the fact is, he is a boy. I proceeded to explain Jamie's life history
to Megan and she listened intently to every word. She said, "Susan, do
you think.........." I put my hand tenderly on her shoulder, knowing
ahead of time what she was going to ask me and said, "Yes, Megan, I think
I can help you have the little girl that you have always wanted"!
Megan's heart began to beat faster and she thought, "Oh my goodness, this
could be a dream come true". She thought about how many times she was
tempted to just defy her husband and openly put Patrick in dresses so that
she could have her little girl. When he wasn't around and Patrick was
still a little baby, she sometimes wrapped him up in her lace slips and
silky nightgowns and called him Patricia. Then when he was three and she
couldn't stand not having a girl any longer, she did something very
daring. She went out and bought him some dresses. Holding Patrick by the
hand she dragged him to the little girl's department of a large clothing
store and just loved browsing through all the toddler dresses. Taking
one after another off the rack she would hold them up to her son, and tell
him, "Honey you would be wearing this if you were a girl". A salesgirl
saw her fussing with her son and smiling said, "You can try the dresses on
him in the dressing room if you like. He would make a cute girl" Megan
thanked her and took Patrick into the dressing room where she stripped off
his boy's clothes. She tried dress after dress on him and it was one of
the best days of her life. "Oh, if only I could change him into a girl,
I'd be the happiest mother alive", she thought. She often longed to take
him dress shopping again but constrained herself from feminizing him until
last week when she came up to him while he was watching Sesame Street and
applied red nail polish to his nails. She wanted to take his dresses from
her hiding place and put him in one, but he had aready outgrown them.
Besides she was always afraid that he might tell his father and then her
dream would be shattered.
Patrick was four now and unfortunately becoming more of a boy. It was
only by accident that I happened to see him in his nail polish. Megan was
so worried about what I might say, that she removed it. But now I was
opening up this door for her in a new way and her hearing that boys like
Jamie can be successfully transformed into girls excited her to no end.
She said, "Susan, do you really think I can do it. I mean, what will my
husband and Pat's brothers say"? "Well, hon, you will need to go slowly
and little by little they will come to accept it. Patrick is very small
for his age and he is not into sports like your other boys are, so I think
he will be easy to make into a girl". "Oh yes, Susan, I want to do it. I
want to make Patrick my daughter. Will you really help me"? "Of course
Megan. I think that it is a wonderful idea." Megan and I embraced and
both of us were excited about our new project. I told her, "I am going to
have some of Jamie's friends from school visiting over the Thanksgiving
holiday. When you go to the basketball tournament on Friday and Saturday,
you can leave him with us. That way he will be around girls and we can
begin his gradual transformation. Trust me Megan, and before long you will
have a little daughter to enjoy. Girls are so much more fun to have
around than boys" "Oh Susan, Megan whispered, "I want him in a dress so
badly", and she gave me a sisterly hug.
I had promised Megan that I would pick up Patrick before supper on Friday
evening. The girls, after a full day of playing dress up, baking cookies
and visiting with my niece Stephanie, were getting ready, as all of us
planned to go out to dinner. I thought it might be nice to have Patrick
be around the girls tonight and then all of us would go to the Doll Show
tomorrow. I had told the girls about little Patrick and his mother's
desires for him and they thought that it would be fun to make Patrick one
of them. The girls were all downstairs when I arrived home with Patrick.
My son Jamie was wearing a party dress with a velvet top and plaid taffeta
skirt with an attached crinoline underskirt. He worn red Mary Jane shoes
with cute bows that matched the red in his dress. Julie, who was a boy
less than two months ago, was attired in a red fleece dress with tights
and a red headband while Andrea wore a long sleeved baby-doll dress with a
lace-edged Peter Pan collar and ruffled cuffs. The boys looked darling
and the smiles on their faces indicated that they did not at all resent
being dressed like girls. Rather they were thankful that their mothers
made them be girls and they liked looking pretty and feminine. Stacy and
Teresa, who were real girls, wore pastel colored dresses that were very
pretty.
As we walked in the door, Patrick was a little taken aback at seeing all
the girls dressed in their beautiful dresses. He lived in fear that his
mother might dress him up and didn't like it at all when she talked him
into letting her do his nails. Just because he was small didn't mean he
was a sissy. As he looked around he saw that there were six girls and two
ladies in the room and he was the only one not wearing a dress. But the
girls came over and greeted him and gave him all their attention as he sat
down on the living room couch between Andrea and Stacy. Stacy took
Patrick's hand in hers as looking at it closely said, "Why Patrick, it
looks like you have been wearing nail polish. Do I see traces of nail
polish on your nails"? The other girls all said, "Oooooooh", as if
totally surprised. Stacy continued, "Tell the truth honey! Were you
wearing sissy nail polish like a little girl"? Patrick could not really
deny it because the evidence was there on his nails. When his mother used
nail polish removal on him earlier, she had not gotten all of it off.
Stacy saw his hesitation and said, "Girls, I think Patrick is really a
little girl". Then smiling at Patrick she said, "Aren't you Patricia"?
Patrick pulled his hand away and said, "I am not! I am not!" But Patrick
was outnumbered and the girls were not going to accept a simple denial.
Teresa chimed in, "Yes, you are Patricia! Boys don't wear red nail polish
like this and she held her painted nails out to Patrick. Only girls wear
nail polish so you must be a girl". The real boys in our midst, Andrea,
Julie and my son Jamie, knew what was happening and they were secretly
delighted that another boy was going to be added to their girl's world.
Julie, feeling very girlish, after having been in a beautiful bridal gown
all afternoon, said, "Patrick, if you wear nail polish, you should not be
wearing pants like a boy"! Julie, looking so very cute in his red dress,
continued, "You should be in a pretty dress like mine". And holding the
sides of his skirt, he spun around showing off his lace-edged slip. By
now, Patrick was really becoming afraid. He wished his father or brothers
were here but there were only women and girls and they were all older and
stronger than he was. He looked at me pleadingly and I said, "Patrick,
it's ok honey. The girls are just trying to be nice to you. And they are
right dear. When I was over at your house last week I saw you in your
nail polish". Your nails did look so very pretty honey, just like a
little girls." Julie looked at me and said, Mrs. Graham, He should be a
girl". All the other girls nodded in agreement and I said, "Perhaps
Patrick and I should have a little talk". Patrick was really scared now
so I took his hand saying, "Come with me dear and we can talk more about
what the girls are saying". I led the frightened little boy off to my
bedroom as the girls shouted after me, "Make him into a girl, Mrs.
Graham".
After entering my room, I sat Patrick down on my bed and putting my arm
around his shoulders said, "Honey, don't be afraid of the girls. You see,
three of them used to be boys like you, but they are little girls now and
they are so much happier. Don't they they look pretty in their holiday
dresses? Patrick didn't say anything so I said to him, "Honey it isn't so
bad being a little girl. You get to wear pretty clothes, play with dolls
and you never have to take your nail polish off". Then I said, "Patrick,
I think we should try a little experiment. Let's dress you up as a girl
so you can see what it is like. Your mother told me that she put little
dresses on you when you were three so it is not like you have never worn
them before. Then I did something that totally shocked Patrick. I reached
into my purse and brought out a little album that his mother had given me
with several photographs of Patrick when he was three. She had secretly
dressed him up when the rest of the family was away and kept the pictures
to herself so that she could have her "little girl". Patrick's eyes
widened as I showed him the pictures.. I said, "Look honey, that's you."
The first picture showed him in a white lace pinafore dress holding a
barbie doll.. The facial features were very clear and Patrick could
clearly see that it was him. Although he had vague memories of being put
in dresses, he said, "That's not me". But he wasn't very convincing and I
said, "Oh honey, it is you and you look precious". Did you like playing
with barbies? I bet you dressed them up so they looked very beautiful.
The second picture showing Patrick in a full skirted blue and white dress
with a blue silk ribbon in his hair. As I turned the pages of the album,
Patrick looked closely at the pictures and was becoming very nervous. I
said, "Look at this one hon". It was Patrick and his mother in pale pink
mother and daughter dresses sitting in a swing". He said, "Oh no, someone
else must know! Who took that picture"? I said, It's ok honey, it doesn't
matter if people know that you were a little girl".
I showed him some more pictures and said, "Honey, you don't remember those
days very well because you were only three, but they were days that made
your mommy very happy. She only had boys before you and she wanted a
little girl so badly to buy pretty things for and to dress up like
herself. Mothers love their pretty daughters. They are minatures of
themselves and when a mother doesn't have a little girl, it just breaks
her heart. So you made your mommy very happy, honey. And I think that we
can make her very happy again. Patrick looked at me and said, "What do
you mean, Mrs. Graham. I said, "Honey, I think it would be very nice if
you became a little girl for your mother. You are bigger now and you can
share so many more things with her just like a real girl. Then I told
him, "My Jamie is a boy like you but I made him a girl and he is so much
happier. Doesn't he look adorable in his velvet and plaid dress? Patrick
looked at me and for a moment I honestly thought that I had him convinced.
But I underestimated the deep seated boyishness that was in him because
of the influence of his father and older brothers. He suddenly froze up
and said, "I'm not a girl and I won't get dressed up ever again". And he
pushed the album away. Well, I was afraid that that might happen but I
was prepared for it and I had Megan's permission to force the issue if he
resisted. I tried to sweet talk him into doing what had to be done but
since he wasn't willing, the girls and I would have to take matters into
our own hands. I called downstairs saying, "Girls, will you come up here,
please"? Soon five girls plus Jamie's cousin Stephanie entered the room
in a swirl of skirts and stood around the resisting little boy. I said,
"Girls, I just showed Patrick how pretty he looked as a three year old
girl in this album and told him how nice it would be if he was a girl for
his mommy again". But I'm afraid that he doesn't want to be Patricia. So
we are going to have to make him be a girl.
The girls immediately gathered around the little boy who tried to run.
But there were simply too many of us and soon we had all his boy's clothes
off. Stacy deliberately threw them into the waste paper basket near the
bureau as if they were contaminated, saying, "Goodbye shirt and pants".
Jamie will you look in my top right drawer please, I said. Jamie reached
in and retrieved a pair of blue satin panties and a very sissy satin slip
of the same color. The panties and slip had delicate lace on them and
would never be mistaken for boy's underwear. These were articles of
clothes that only a sweet little girl would wear. Without a word, I
slipped the panties over Patrick's hips and said, "There Patricia, you
will feel so much better in these". Patrick started to cry but the girls
all fussed over him dabbing his little tears with lace handkerchiefs. I
thought, "It is so silly for little boys to resist when their mothers
choose to feminize them. It doesn't do any good to fight it once their
moms decide they should be girls.". Teresa lowered the dainty slip over
his head and he looked darling. Julie, I said, will you get Trish's dress
out of my closet, please? Julie did as he was told and smiling, brought
Patricia's baby blue little girl's dress to me. I said, "Look at your
prettty dress, Patricia. You are going to be wearing it tonight when we
go out to dinner. Honey you are going to be the prettiest little girl at
the restaurant. Patrick started to push it away but Stephanie and Stacy
held his hands and helped put them through the puffy sleeves until Patrick
was standing before us dressed like the darling four year old he had
become. I turned him around and tied the lovely sash in the back of his
dress into a pretty bow. Girls, I said, Should we put him in tights or
socks? Andrea said, "Oh, he should wear tights with that dress. I said,
Trish, would you like to wear tights"? He started to say something when I
said, "Of course you would", and I helped him slide his white tights on
under his dress".
I had learned his shoe size from Megan and from a shoe box on my vanity I
took out the cutest black Mary Janes and put them on Patrick's feet. I
fastened the strap and took a good look at our creation. Oh he looked so
cute. Jamie, will you fetch a ribbon from my sewing basket honey? Jamie
brought over a blue ribbon with a bobby pin and I pinned it into our new
little girl's short hair. I had a long, blonde, little girl's human hair
wig for him but wanted to save that for last. He was becoming a young
lady right before our eyes and the girls and I loved every minute of it
even though Patrick was trying to resist. But strangely enough, the more
we sissified him, the less he resisted. Perhaps the feminine side in him
was surfacing more and more as he became less and less of a boy. I had
worked in a jewelry store years ago when I was in college and I knew how
to pierce ears. We had a little piercing gun and as two of the girls held
Patrick, I pierced both his ears. He winced but then he was ok. I said,
"Patricia, it is so silly the way some boys have only on ear pierced. If
you are going to have pierced ears you need to be wearing two pretty
earrings like a girl, not just one like some kind of a pirate. From now
on honey, you will wear pretty earrings as you become more of a woman. I
touched up Patrick's smooth, soft skin with just a touch of blush and then
taking my lipstick, I did his lips. Oh my, he was absolutely darling. I
was so delighted with my handiwork that I could cry. I remembered how I
loved to doll Jamie up when he was four and this was like having my own
little girl all over again.
Just about that time, the telephone rang and it was Patrick's mom. She
wanted to know how things were going and I said, "Oh Megan, you should see
your son. He is beautiful. Megan got so excited over the phone that she
said, "I'm going to leave the basketball game at halftime so I can see
him. I can hardly wait." Susan, I'll meet you at the restaurant with the
girls.". I hung up the phone and said, "Patricia, that was your mother.
I do hope that you will be a good girl for her. She is going to be so
happy that she has her daughter back again". Julie said, "Yes, Trish, you
are a girl like us now, and Julie gave him a little hug.. Patrick had to
admit to himself that he felt different. He walked around in his dress
and it was so different than wearing pants. He could feel the full skirt
of his dress swinging as he walked. He felt an irresistable urge to twirl
around in his dress. His Mary Janes were so pretty and shiny and they had
little taps on them. The tights made him aware that he was a girl with
every movement and he liked the way they felt on his legs. Touching the
sides of his dress he could feel his slip underneath and liked the silky
feeling next to his skin. And when he sat down, arranging his skirts
under him, he felt his little panties under his dress and knew that this
was the beginning of a new life for him. He even started to think, Maybe
I really am a girl".
All the girls noted the change in his behavior and were very nice to him.
Stacy said, "Welcome to the world of girls, Trish". Andrea came over and
hugged him. Teresa taught him to curtsy and Jamie said, "Mom, what about
his hair"? Oh, I almost forgot. We were all so taken by the sight of
pretty Patrick that I forgot the most important touch of all. We couldn't
bring him to the restaurant as a short haired boy in a dress. I went to
my closet and brought out the lovliest little girl blonde wig that anyone
has ever seen. Come here Trish, I said, Taking the temporary ribbon out
of his boy's hair, I placed the wig, with its soft flowing shoulder length
curls on his head and lo and behold we had a four year old girl child
standing in front of us. I refastened the ribbon in his hair, brushed it
out and we had Patricia all ready for his first outing as a girl. I
thought , "Perhaps he will be his mother's daughter for good. Megan
deserves that. Then Stephanie showed him how to sit as a girl with his
knees together and she applied red nail polish to his nails. She said,
"This time you won't have to take it off Patricia". The girls and I all
got light coats out of the closet and we put one of Jamie's little coats
on Patrick. It was red and had a velvet peter pan collar and velvet
cuffs. Patrick slipped his arms in the sleeves and I buttoned the little
gold rimmed buttons. Then I hugged him to myself, proud of the way he
looked. I just knew his mother would be so thrilled to see him like this.
As the girls walked out to the car that was parked in our long driveway,
Patrick felt so very different. He was very conscious that he was in a
dress and he felt his slip against his knees as he walked. In his little
boy's mind he thought how much freer he felt in girl's clothes. There was
nothing tight or restricting around his legs such as when he was in shorts
or long pants. His legs were bare and skirts swirled around him. He was
aware that his hair was falling softly on to his shoulders and that there
was a pretty ribbon in it. He touched it from time to time and noticed
that it was silky like his slip. His tights caressed his legs and he was
in panties like a girl, in the prettiest blue color. His little shoes
were black and shiny and he found himself taking smaller steps. He was
surrounded by women and girls and he was being taken to a restaurant as a
little girl where everyone would see him in a dress. He thought to
himself, "I feel like a sissy". Julie came up to him, smiled, and taking
his hand, said, "Hi, little girl"! Oh, it just penetrated his little
heart being called a girl and he thought, "It must be true". He thought,
"What will mom and dad and my brothers think? He got into the car with
all the girls and pondered these things as they drove to the restaurant.
What his mother would think was soon very apparent as she was waiting at
the restaurant door. As Patrick got out of the car, she almost ran to the
car door, picked him up in her arms and said, "Oh darling, look at you.
You are beautiful in your dress. She raised him up in her arms so that his
dress was falling over the side of her arm. She delicately pulled it down
for him so that it covered his panties. Then she brushed back his
curls,and kissed him on the cheek. Whispering in his ear she said, "It's
ok honey sugar, you and mommy are going to be special friends from now on.
You are going to be my little girl. Won't that be fun?." Patrick,
already feeling very girlish in his dress and panties simply kissed his
mother and said, "Am I Patricia now, Mom"? His mother said, Yes dear, you
are Patricia, mommy's precious girl, and she kissed him again. Patrick
had his arm around his mom's shoulder as she carried him into the
restaurant and noticed the nail polish on his nails, and thought, "I'm not
a boy anymore". Megan sensed him relax in her arms and thought, "Finally,
I have my little girl", and mother and daughter entered the restaurant,
aware that their relationship was forever changed.
Chapter #11 "A New Doll for Jamie!"
It was Saturday morning of the Thanksgiving weekend and today was the day
of "The All American Doll Show". Jamie just loves his dolls and I had
promised him that I would buy him a new pretty doll for his collection.
While other boys his age are starting to read "Sports Illustrated", my
Jamie's favorite magazine is "Doll Reader" and for the last few years he
has saved his money to purchase some very pretty dolls. But this doll show
was exciting for another reason too! Little Patrick, who became his
mother's little girl yesterday, was going to have his second outing as a
young lady. His mother Megan was going to bring him to our home for
breakfast and then Jamie and I, Megan and Patrick and Jamie's girl friends
from Briarcliff would drive to the Show together. Megan was so pleased
last night when she saw how we dressed Patrick and I couldn't help
noticing that she was visibly overjoyed to see her son in a dress! I just
know that she regretted waiting until he was almost five before she put
him in girl's clothes for good. Jamie, Julie, Andrea, Stacy and Teresa
came down to breakfast in their nighties and robes, giggling like the
little girls they were. They were proud of their role in sissifying
Patrick last night and looked forward to seeing him in his second day as a
girl. They didn't have to wait long for Megan knocked on my door at 9:00
AM sharp.
Dressed in a dark green dress with a stylish black leather coat Megan
greeted us with a darling little boy holding her hand. Only he wasn't
dressed like a boy, unless the latest Paris fashions dictated that four
year old boys should be attired in knee length sailor dresses! Patrick
looked absolutely darling and Megan was beaming. "Look at him", she said.
"Isn't he the prettiest child you've ever seen"? Patrick hid behind his
mother's skirts but all of us could clearly see that this prettily dressed
child was a fugitive from the world of boys. His mother pulled him out
from behind her with her hand and said, "Twirl around honey, and let the
girls see your pretty dress". And she spun him around as if he were a
tiny fairy princess. We could all see the pretty white nylon petticoat
that his mother had put on him under his dress and we instinctively knew
that Patrick was in matching panties too. He was the picture of little
girlhood and Megan couldn't be happier. Megan hugged me and said, "Susan,
I can never thank you enough. This is what I have always wanted for
Patrick and now at long last I have my girl". "Isn't that right little
sweetie"?, she said, turning to her son. Patrick was speechless but not
overly uncomfortable as everyone in the room was delighted to see him in a
dress. I thought to myself, "Patrick is such a lucky little boy. His
mother is going to make him into a little lady and before long his short
boy's hair will be flowing to his shoulders in pretty ribbons and curls.
After breakfast all the girls went upstairs to change for the Doll Show
while Megan and I chatted about her new "daughter". "Susan, what should I
say to my husband and Patrick's brothers when they come home from the
basketball tournament tonight?" "Well Megan", I said, "We are going to
have to hope for the best. Maybe when Frank and the boys see how cute he
looks they will go along with his transformation. But you must be firm
honey no matter what they say. You have waited so long to have your
daughter and now that Pat's transformation has begun, it would be unfair
to him to take him out of dresses in his first days as a girl." "Oh, you
are right, Susan", Megan replied. "I am a little nervous but I will stand
up to them. I'm not going to let them make Pat a boy again. I want him
to be my daughter, Susan"! As Megan finished talking, the girls came
downstairs all dressed for the Doll Show. Jamie was wearing a very lovely
black velvet dress and his friend Julie was in a cute pink outfit with a
lace collar and a full skirt.
Andrea borrowed one of Jamie's long tea length dresses and looked quite
pretty standing there with a little matching purse. Stacy and Teresa, the
real girls visiting us, wore their Briarcliff skirts and blouses. My
sister Debbie, her daughter Stephie and I were in dresses too as we liked
to set a feminine example for the boys and especially for our newest
addition to the feminine gender, little Patrick. The girls all made a
fuss over him and told him how pretty he looked and soon all of us were
out the door piling into our two vehicles to attend the Great American
Doll Show.
The Show was wonderful and the boys seemed enthralled by the prettily
dressed "girl dolls". The best doll makers in the country had exhibitions
there and Jamie was in his glory as he gently picked up and admired the
various dolls on display. Jamie had little Patrick by the hand as they
walked around the displays and Patrick seemed to take a wonderful interest
in the dolls as well. I was so proud of him as this was only his second
day in dresses. Jamie, being very knowledgable about dolls and clothes
for a ten year old, carefully explained to Patrick about how
it is so important to take care of one's dolls, handling them gently and
treating them just like real little girls. As the children went from
display to display I saw Patrick admiring a darling little doll named Mary
Kate. He was fingering the delicate lace of her short dress and seemed
amazed at her clothes. I then saw him look down at his own lace edged
dress and thought, "Oh the little sweetheart is realizing that he is
dressed like a pretty girl just like the doll. I do hope that he takes to
being a girl for his mother's sake. Megan is so sweet and she has put up
with nothing but men and boys in the family for so long. It will be so
nice for her to have a daughter now". I asked him, "Honey, do you like
that particular doll"? Patrick said, "She has a dress just like mine". I
smiled at him and said, "Oh yes honey, it is exactly like yours. Isn't
she beautiful?" The little boy smiled and I said, "Patricia dear, I think
am going to buy you this doll as a gift to help celebrate your first days
as a new girl!" Jamie said, "Oh mom, he'll love it and playing with dolls
will help him become a girl." That's right Jamie, I replied, "and I just
know that our Patricia will take good care of Mary Kate, won't you
sweetheart"? Well, Patrick just held the sides of his little dress and
didn't know what to say. I could see that he was already becoming a shy
little girl.
I paid the clerk for the doll and rather than have "Mary Kate" wrapped up,
I handed her to her new little mother. Patrick clasped the doll to
himself and I had the sneaking suspicion that Megan was going to be
pleased with the way things were going with her son. Megan, who was taking
in the huge display in another area of the convention center finally
caught up with us and saw Patrick walking hand in hand with my son Jamie,
both of them as pretty as a picture in their sissy dresses, with Patrick
tenderly holding his doll to his bosom with one arm. Megan put her hand
on mine and said, "Oh Susan, you can't imagine how happy I am. This is so
wonderful. Patrick is loving every minute of being a girl and this is
going to make it so much easier when Frank and the boys come home tonight.
Susan, will you be there with me"? I looked at Megan and hesitated for a
moment. She noticed my hesitation and said, "Please Susan, I need a friend
to be with me when I tell them that Patrick is going to be Patricia. They
will listen to you because you made Jamie a girl". I hugged her and said,
"I'll do it for you Megan", and she squeezed my arm, relieved that she
wouldn't have to face the ordeal of telling her husband that his youngest
son is now his daughter, all by herself. The other girls all told Patrick
how pretty his new doll was and encouraged him to keep her prettily
dressed and to take good care of her. Stephanie said, "You are her mommy
now Patricia"! We all smiled and everyone was genuinely happy that
Patrick was not fighting his feminization but seemed to be enjoying being
the girl that his mother wants him to be. As Jamie would be upset if I
bought Patrick a doll and didn't purchase one for him, I asked him if he
saw any that he would like to add to his collection. Jamie led me to a
display counter where he showed me a prettily dressed Rapunzel doll in a
blue gown with long blond hair like his own. Jamie said, "I just love her
mom!" I picked up the doll and thought, "Oh, my son does have expensive
tastes" She cost over $100.00 but I still had daddy's trust fund and I
wanted my child to be happy. So Jamie became the proud owner of a lovely
long haired doll. I thought, "Girls will be girls", as Jamie and Patrick
walked away with their pretty dolls.
We all had lunch at a fancy German restaurant and everyone laughed when
the waitress singled out Patrick to compliment on what a pretty little
girl he was. In any case we were pleased that he was being so readily
accepted as a sweet little girl. It was good for him to be around girls
and to have older women tell him that he was one of them. We all had a
wonderful meal, laughing and giggling as women and girls sometimes do. We
ate and talked about the doll show, holiday dresses, the different
perfumes that we all liked and other girlish things. I thought, "This is
so marvelous for Patrick, who in the past was forced to listen to silly
talk about basketball, hunting and fishing and other activities that make
up a man's world. Patrick looked so darling in his dress and our talk was
so much more suited for a boy in the process of becoming a young lady".
After dropping everyone off, Megan, Patrick, and I walked across our
property to Megan's home with a little bit of fear and trepidation. We
weren't quite sure how her family would react at seeing their youngest son
and brother fully attired as a little girl. Megan said to Patrick, "Honey,
don't you worry about what they say to you. You were meant to be a little
girl and we are finally taking the necessary steps to make you one. Just
be polite and sit like a girl and mommy will take care of everything".
Megan served tea and cookies to us as we awaited the return of her husband
and the boys. At around seven o'clock we heard a knock on the door and
Megan went to answer it. In walked Frank and four very tired sons who were
exhausted after the long basketball weekend. Jamie and I watched as one
by one their eyes turned to little Patrick and I heard Frank say, "Megan,
what in the world did you do to Pat? The boys were too shocked to say
anything. They just looked at one another with their mouths open.
Megan took the lead and said, "I want all of you to sit down and I will
explain". Then she said, "Frank, and boys, for a long time I have felt
almost separate from this family. You are always going to ball games,
watching sports on television, talking "man talk" and doing "guy" things.
Well, I need to have a companion too and the child that you see sitting
there in a dress, is going to be my special friend. "But Mom, he's a
boy"!, blurted Jonathan, Megan's eldest son. No, Jonathan, you are wrong,
honey. He is not a boy anymore. As of last night, Patrick becme
Patricia, and you will treat him as your little sister." The other boys
were still too shocked to say anything but Jonathan said, "Mom you can't
dress him like a sissy". "I most certainly can", said Megan. Your brother
likes being a girl and feels very comfortable in girl's dresses, don't you
dear? All eyes turned toward Patrick and he got up from his chair and ran
to his mom, his little skirts swirling around him. Megan hugged him and
smoothing his skirt said, "Boys, I want you to meet your new sister,
Patricia. He won't be playing basketball with you anymore. Show the boys
your new doll, honey. Patrick skipped over to the toy chest and brought
out "Mary Kate" and showed his brother's his doll. "Oh my", I thought,
"this is going to be interesting".
Frank finally spoke and said, "Megan, you can't make a boy into a girl.
It just isn't done". "That's where you are wrong Frank", replied Megan.
"Do you know Susan's daughter, Jamie"? "Yes", said Frank. "She is a very
nice little girl". "Well", Megan said, "Jamie is a boy who became a girl
just like Patrick is going to become one". "Frank was taking this
remarkably well", I thought. Frank said, "Come here Patrick!" Patrick
walked slowly to his father holding his doll by one hand. His father
knelt down on one knee and said, "Do you really want to be a little girl,
son"? Patrick looked at his mother who nodded her head as if to say,
"Tell him that you do". Patrick then clutched his doll to himself and
said, "Yes, daddy!". "Well then", said Frank, "Go ahead and make a girl
out of him, Megan. I don't think it will hurt anything if that is what
you really want". "Boy's" said Frank, looking at his other sons, "I think
we have a new girl in the family, so we men are going to have to stick
together". Megan smiled and said, "You can stick together all you like
Frank, as long as Patricia and I can be mother and daughter". As Megan
said that, Patricia walked slowly back to his mother and it was almost
symbolic as the family recognized they had lost a son and brother but
gained a very pretty little daughter and sister. I was so happy that all
turned out well. Megan and Frank told the boys that they were always to
treat Patrick like a girl and never make fun of him because he would be in
dresses from now on. Megan even took it one step further, warning the boys
that if she ever heard any of them teasing their sister, they might find
themselves becoming a sister to Patricia themselves. Jerry who was only
six years old was especially frightened by his mother's words as he was
afraid that his mom might decide that she wanted a playmate for Patrick.
Then he would have to be a girl too. Little did he know that Megan
already pictured him as "Janie" in her mind, and that one day the
following Spring a beautifully attired mother would be shopping in the
mall with two male children on each side of her clothed in matching pink
lace dresses. Yes, my friend Megan got more than she wished for. She
sucessfully changed her two youngest children into lovely young girls and
was the happiest she had ever been in her life.
All the girls were excited when I told them what happened at Megan and
Frank's home. They were excited for Patrick and promised that they would
include him in girl's activities whenever they were home from school.
That night the girls and I watched "The Sound of Music" video and all
seemed to enjoy it as they admired the pretty dresses worn by the Von
Trapp girls. After the movie, all changed into their nighties and were off
to bed. It had been a wonderful weekend and we would all be sad to see
Andrea, my sister Karen, and my niece Stephanie, leave Madison. As my
sister and I chatted, we received a telephone call from Andrea's mom
asking if she could come over for a few minutes. I said, "Of course!", as
we were so happy that she had allowed Andrea to stay with the other girls
for the weekend. Mrs. Jones arrived after fifteen minutes and told Karen
and me that she would like to talk to us about something. She said,
"Susan, you know Andrea is thirteen now and has been a girl for three
years. I am so thankful that there have not been any hormonal changes yet
but I must do something before my grand daughter begins to experience the
things that happen to young boys. So I want you to be the first to know
that his parents and I have decided to have Andrea permanently changed
into a girl." "Oh Mrs. Jones", I said, "You are thinking about actually
changing him into a real girl"? Where are you going to take him"? "Well
hon, Dr. Williams is spending a year at a New York hospital and she has
recommended a wonderful woman surgeon who has made scores of pre
adolescent boys into girls". Mrs. Jones reached into her purse and showed
me pictures of some of the the boys who were now lovely young ladies.
Karen and I were amazed because not one of the former boys appeared to be
anything but "all girl". They were positively lovely and I am sure a
delight to their mothers who insisted on the gender change. I said, "Mrs.
Jones, when do you plan to do this"? She replied, "Next week hon, only
Andrea doesn't know it yet. I have been afraid to tell him for fear that
he would not want to go through with it. But he is such a sissy. He
really needs to become a total girl, not just a pretty boy in girl's
clothes". I said, "Can we be of any help"? Mrs. Jones said, "I was
hoping that you would talk with him dear. You seem to be so knowledgeable
in these things. We all know what a perfect young lady Jamie has become
through your training!"
Well, once again, I was to be involved in helping a boy to become a girl,
only this time it was more serious. If Andrea undergoes a complete
change, he can never be a boy again. I told Mrs. Jones that I would talk
with him in the morning. After she left, I laid in my bed for hours
thinking that perhaps this was a providential meeting as I have been
thinking about doing something with Jamie also. I have never seriously
considered surgery but I often think that I must at least start him on
female hormones. The idea of Jamie developing the secondary sexual
characteristics of a male is totally unthinkable for me in that my son has
been a sweet girl all his life. I couldn't bear to see him as anything
other than a female child. I determined that I would observe everything
that happens with Mrs. Jones, Dr. Williams and Andrea and make a decision
in the very near future about my own son. He was eleven now and also in
danger of the ravages of male hormones. Sunday morning after church, I
drove to the home where Mrs. Jones and Andrea were staying. Andrea looked
very cute in a red dress and a darling hairdo in which his grandmother had
tied a pretty bow on the side. She said, "Andrea, Susan and I have
something to tell you". I thought, "I can't believe that I just witnessed
Megan telling her husband and sons last night that their youngest boy was
now a girl, and now I was about to tell Andrea that he is going to enter
the world of women and girls for good. Maybe Karen is right when she
jokingly refers to me as 'The Girl Maker'".
I started out by saying, "Andrea, do you remember that day when you kicked
the soccer ball through the window three years ago"? Andrea smiled and
said, Yes, Mrs. Graham, that's the day Grandmother made me wear a dress
for the first time." "And honey, I continued, "You do know that it was
best for you to become a girl, don't you"? "Oh, yes, Mrs. Graham", Andrea
replied. "I don't feel like a boy anymore". "Of course not dear", I
said, "You are one of us now and being a girl is much better than being a
boy". "Oh, I know", said Andrea. "Well Andrea, your parents and
grandmother think that it is time that you give up being a boy for good
and that you be changed into a total young lady. Would you like that
honey"? Andrea threw back his head like a girl and his long hair flipped
to one side. I continued, "Honey, all of us want to see you develop into
a young woman and look girlish in your pretty dresses and blouses the way
young teen age girls do. We also want you to be free from having to deal
with such things as shaving and other things that poor boys have to go
through. So honey, we think it is best that you be made into a girl once
and for all". Andrea instinctively crossed his legs like a girl and I
thought, "There is no question in my mind that this child had been well
trained during his three years as a young lady. He is as feminine as
Jamie whom I trained myself to be completely feminine since he was a baby.
Well, Andrea"?, I said. Andrea looked at his grandmother and with a big
smile completely put her mind at ease. He ran to her, gave her a great
big hug and said, "Yes, grandmother, I want to be a girl forever". "Oh
Andrea", his grandmother cried, "that is so wonderful! I knew you would
agree. You were never a boy even during your first ten years in pants.
Some boys are girls inside even though their bodies seem to indicate
otherwise. I am so glad there are sensitive mothers like Susan who know
when boys should be dressed and raised as girls, in spite of what others
may think. Oh honey, I am going to help you become a perfectly delightful
young woman!" It warmed my heart to see Grandmother and grand daughter
embrace and I was once again glad to have the opportunity to help a boy
make the wonderful transition into the world of girls.
I told Jamie and the girls about what was going to happen to Andrea when I
got home and he and Julie were fascinated. They asked question after
question and I tried to explain that Andrea's transformation would mean
that he would grow up to be a young woman just like me. Jamie and Julie
said they thought that was neat. I was very flattered and realized that
these boys were just as feminine in their thinking as any real girls.
Stacy, Jamie's Briarcliff roommate and Teresa both cheered when they heard
Andrea was going to become a real girl and Stacy said, Jamie, you and
Julie should become real girls too". As I looked at the boys standing
there in their dresses, I thought, "How true! It would be a shame to keep
such children as boys. If they want to be girls, why shouldn't they. It
is so sad that society assigns such strict gender rules to children. If
it's acceptable to be a tom boy, it should be equally acceptable to be a
sissy. If girls can climb trees and play baseball then boys should be
allowed to play dress up and have tea parties. Jamie, Andrea and Julie
were sissies, and as such, they need to wear dresses, not pants and
shirts. And if the boys want to be real girls, that should be between
them and their mothers who know what is best for their children. As I
told Andrea and Mrs. Jones how happy I was for them, I began to seriously
consider hormonal treatment for my son, for I would like nothing better
than to have Jamie go from being my little girl to my sweet teenager, whom
I could help become the perfect young Miss in the years ahead.
Well, the girls had a teary farewell Sunday afternoon. After saying
goodbye to my sister Karen, Stephanie and Andrea (who would be a total
girl the next time they saw him), I drove them to the airport for their
return flight to Briarcliff. When I got home it was so very quiet and I
had time to think about a lot of things. I want to share some of my
thoughts with you, especially those among you who might wonder if I was
right to make Jamie a young lady. While Jamie never played with toy guns
or trucks, he did have a collection of "Barbie's" that would be the envy
of any young girl. While he never wore a baseball uniform he did wear a
pink satin flower girl dress. While he never wore camoflauge paint
playing GI Joe with the boys, he did wear pink nail polish and lipstick
with the girls. While he never went fishing as a boy with his dad, he did
go shopping as a girl with his mother. While he never got into fist fights
like the boys, he did attend slumber parties with the girls. While he
never wore a crew cut in the summer to stay cool, he did wear his long
hair in a pony tail to stay pretty. While he never wore trousers and
button down shirts, he did wear pretty silk blouses and pleated skirts.
While he never slept in boy's pajamas, he did sleep in silky baby doll
nighties. So dear readers, after considering the choices available to my
child, I openly admit that I made my son a girl, and as he approaches
puberty, I may very well take steps to assure that he remains a sweet
young lady. He is mommy's little sissy girl, and I love him so very much.
Chapter #12 "Back to School!"
After a marvelous Thanksgiving weekend in Madison, my dear Jamie and his
girl friends returned to the Briarcliff School for Girls. The school
required all the girls to return by 5:00 PM so they could share in a
"Welcome Back" supper that would be served at 6:00 o'clock. As the girls
entered the small airport terminal they were met by Jamie's English
teacher, Victoria White. Victoria has always had a special interest in my
son because he so resembled her little brother whom she dressed as a girl
several years ago. Victoria greeted the girls cheerfully hugging each one
and giving a special little kiss on the cheek to Jamie. Jamie blushed,
remembering how Victoria put nail polish on him after class on the first
day of school. The girls climbed into Victoria's car and soon they were
speeding back to the campus. The girls excitedly told Victoria about their
dress up games, the doll show, Patrick's becoming a girl, meeting Andrea,
and all the other things that they did and Victoria was delighted to see
them in such good spirits. Then smiling, she said, "I do hope that you
behaved like proper young ladies while you were home". Jamie, answering for
the other girls, said, "Oh yes, Ms. White, we never forgot that we were
Briarcliff girls and we acted like ladies at all times". "That's good
girls", said Victoria. "I am very proud of you". Jamie dear, Victoria
said, "Do you still paint your nails with the pretty red color that I put
on them the first day of class"? Jamie was so pleased that Ms. White
remembered and holding out his hands for her, replied, "Oh yes, Ms. White.
That is my favorite color". "Oh good honey", Victoria said, "I can see you
are still my special little girl". The four girls, two of whom used to be
boys, smiled and felt so happy to be attending a school with such loving
teachers.
At the evening meal, Headmistress Karen Chandler addressed the children
saying, "Welcome back girls. We hope that you had a fun filled weekend and
that you are all ready to get back to your studies tomorrow morning". Ms.
Chandler went on to talk about the high standards of Briarcliff and how all
the girls should considerate themselves fortunate to attend such a highly
regarded prep school. As she was speaking all eyes turned to the back of
the dining hall as some latecomers were arriving. The girls looked and saw
that it was Teresa's room mate Stephanie and his twin Roberta who had spent
the Thanksgiving weekend with Paige Jensen the social studies teacher. All
three walked to a rear table and the girls giggled to see that Stephanie
and Roberta were still in very sissy baby dresses and hair ribbons. It was
very apparent to all that the headmistress was dead serious when she
instituted the school policy that boy enrollees exhibiting even the
slightest amount of boyish behavior would be treated like little girls
until they demonstrated they were mature enough to wear the Briarcliff
uniform. Consequently each year since Karen Chandler became headmistress,
there was always at least one or two boys on campus dressed like "little"
girls. Karen knew exactly what she was doing and inevitably the specially
dressed boys developed into the most feminine girls on campus. Wearing
frilly baby dresses and lacy petticoats purged the boys of any male
tendencies and caused them to develop into very sweet girls.
Classes began early Monday morning and a handful the girls were very
excited because this was the week that representatives from a top New York
modeling agency were coming to interview girls for part time modeling
positions. The Briarcliff School for Girls has long been a favorite source
for models in that their stress on poise, beauty, comportment, femininity,
social skills and fashion has produced some very lovely models for the
fashion world. My son Jamie already had modeling experience when he was
eight and as such he would be a prime candidate to model pre teen fashions.
Tryouts were by invitation only and ten percent or twenty of the Briarcliff
girls were scheduled to meet with the Gabrielle Montaigne Agency
representatives. When the list was posted it included the lovliest girls
in the school and to no one's surprise, Jamie and his room mate Stacy were
among them. The long haired blond eleven year olds were the envy of so
many girls not only because they were beautiful but also because of their
intelligence and sweet dispositions. However there were some surprises in
that the twins names were also on the list of candidates! Perhaps the fact
that they were so new to being girls caused some of the real girls to be a
little jealous. But no one could deny the fact that Stephanie and Roberta
were pretty little girls, especially in the darling frilly dresses that
they have had to wear since their second day of school. Then too, the fact
that they were twins was a real plus, for the agency was always looking for
new creative ways to show off the fashions of the manufacturers whom they
represented. The Montaigne Agency sent two former models who are now
executives in the company to conduct the interviews and after classes, the
twenty girls all gathered together in the school music room. Dressed in
their Briarcliff uniforms, the girls waited nervously until called in for
their individual interviews.
Jamie was the fourth girl called into the meeting room. After entering,
Jamie curtsied to the two beautifully dressed women who introduced
themselves to him as Diana Evenson and Tara Collins. "Sit down Jamie
dear", Tara said. Jamie delicately brushed the skirt of his school girl
uniform under him and sat down like a young lady as he had been trained to
do since he was a little girl. Tara looked at Diana and said, "Karen
(Chandler) was right. He is absolutely adorable"! Jamie blushed upon
hearing that and lowered his eyes, feeling a little embarrassed. Diana
said, "Jamie, Headmistress Chandler told us a little about you but you are
so lovely that we would like to know a lot more about you. Tell us honey,
how long have you been a girl"? Jamie answered in a sweet voice, "I can't
remember ever not being a girl", Ms Evenson. "You mean you were raised as
a girl from early childhood, hon"? "Yes, ma'am", replied Jamie. "Oh Tara,
did you hear that", said Diana. "That is so sweet. He has always been a
girl"! "Oh my", responded Tara, "I can see why. Jamie, you are certainly
one of the prettiest little girls that I have seen and I have interviewed
hundreds of girls for modeling jobs. I can hardly believe that you are a
boy". "Tara"!!!, exclaimed Diana, "He's not a boy, silly". His mother
would be furious if she heard you call him a boy. He is such a beautiful
child". Don't you just love wearing pretty dresses, honey?, Diana said.
Jamie nervously fingered the hem of his skirt and replied, "Oh yes, Ms.
Evenson, I do love my dresses". Diana hugged him and said, "I don't blame
you sweetie. I feel so sorry for pretty boys who would look so sweet in
dresses but never get the chance to be pretty like us girls". "And you are
a little girl, aren't you Jamie,? said Tara, with a big smile on her face.
Jamie giggled and replied, Oh yes, I am a girl, Ms. Collins. You are such
a doll, Jamie. I wish I could take you home with me and have you be my
little sister", said Tara. I always wanted a sister like you. "I would
dress you up every day and show you off to all my friends".
Jamie dear, said Diana, We want you to try on some clothes for us to be
sure that you will fit into our plans for the spread that we are doing for
"Young Miss" Magazine. Would that be ok honey"? "Yes, Ms. Evenson", said
Jamie. "Well take off your uniform dear and Tara will show you what to put
on". Diana helped Jamie slip out of his blouse and skirt and both women
looked him over as he stood before them in a white, very dainty, lace
trimmed slip. "Oh Diana, he makes a perfect little girl. Look at him. He
is so delicate and poised. I think that we have our top model already",
said Tara. Honey, I if your mother allows it, I want you to come and spend
a couple of weeks with me in New York next summer. I would love to take you
shopping and buy you lots of pretty dresses to take back to Wisconsin with
you. I really want my girlfriends to meet you". Then Tara said, "Little
honey, when I get married I expect to have all girls, but if I happen to
have a boy, I am going to call him Jamie and put him in dresses just like
you." Diana listening to the conversation said, "I believe you Tara! Pity
the poor child who happens to be born a boy in your home", she laughed.
"He would probably never get to wear anything that wasn't pink and frilly".
"You are right about that Diana, girl. My children will be girls
regardless of their natural gender. Besides, I think it would be fun to
transform a cute boy into a charming little girl.
Look at Jamie! You wouldn't want him to be a boy, would you?" "Of course
not", said Diana. Jamie is all girl, aren't you sweetie?" Jamie, his long
blond hair cascading down his back stood there with his delicate hands
resting cutely on his hips. His finger nails were mainicured and red
polish had been carefully applied to his nails. Being a young girl was so
natural for him and the ladies were totally taken in by his charm.
Tara reached into the closet where all the fashions were laid out and
brought out a lovely full length red velvet bridesmaid's dress. The collar
and cuffs had pretty lace on them and any girl would love to wear such a
dress. "Jamie", she said, "Ordinarily you would wear this with a long slip
but the pretty slip you are wearing will be just fine for now. Hold out
your arms, dear. Jamie put out his arms as Tara placed the dress over his
head and zipped up the back. Placing her hands on Jamie's shoulders she
fluffed out his hair and turned him around to face her and Diana. "Dear,
walk across the room for us". Jamie twirled and walked across the room
taking the small steps of a girl in a pretty dress. "How does it feel,
honey", asked Diana? "Oh, I love it said Jamie. It feels so smooth and I
like the fit". Diana laughted and said, "Tara, he is such a girl. He even
talks like one of us". Diana got out the video camera and began filming
Jamie as he moved about in his dress. "Throw back your head honey", said
Diana. Jamie did so and his blond hair just flowed over his shoulders. He
looked so pretty and Tara and Diana were very pleased..
"Honey", Diana said, "This is one of our junior bridesmaid dresses that we
expect to sell a lot of next year. Would you like to photographed in it
and be in Young Miss Magazine"? "Oh, I would love to", replied Jamie.
"Mother would be so proud of me". "Yes honey, I am sure that she would",
answered Tara and she came over and gave the prettily dressed boy a sweet
girlish hug. If your mother ever put you up for adoption my sweet little
girl, I would take you home with me and raise you myself". Clearly, Tara
was completely infatuated by this darling little boy. "Let's put the other
dress on him too, Diana", Tara said. "Jamie, let me help you take off your
bridesmaid's dress and we'll fix you up in something else".
The next outfit Jamie tried on was a pale pink party dress of silk organza.
Diana helped him into it saying, "Jamie, you are a very lucky boy to have
been born so beautiful. You probably should have been a girl honey, but it
doesn't matter because your mother made you a girl anyway. You are so
lovely". She swished Jamie's skirts and zipped up the dress. Jamie spun
around and felt delightfully feminine in this very girlish outfit. Tara
looked him over and said, "I agree with Diana, Jamie. You are quite a
girl. I hope that you never think about being a boy again. It would be
too great a loss to the feminine world". "Oh no", said Jamie, "I would
never be a boy. Mother would be too hurt. I am her daughter and she would
be crushed if I wasn't a girl for her". "Well, that's good honey. You
just stay pretty and feminine and it will be the best for everyone
concerned". "Well Diana, what do you think"? said Tara. Diana answered, "I
think we have the first of the five girls that we need for the Young Miss
layout"! "Oh good said Jamie. You mean I made it"? "Yes sweetie pie, you
made it", smiled Diana. "We will be contacting you before Christmas and we
will fly you and the other chosen girls to New York to do the layout over
the holiday break. And who knows, this may be the start of a very
wonderful modeling career. Would you like to be a dress model, dear?" "Oh
yes", replied Jamie. "I think it would be fun". "Well, maybe we can help
with that" , said Tara, giving Diana a little wink. Jamie thanked the
ladies for their time and interest in him and left the room smiling. He
didn't want to appear boastful so he tried to conceal his glee as he walked
past the other girls who were waiting otside to be interviewed. But all
could tell that lovely Jamie Graham was one of the girls chosen and now
there were only four places left.
By six o'clock Tara and Diana had managed to see fifteen of the twenty
girls. The girls interviewing were supposed to use the waiting time to do
homework as they waited to be interviewed but most were too nervous to
concentrate on their books. At a few minutes after six, the door of the
private room opened and the twins were asked to come in. "Well whom do we
have here?", a smiling Tara said. Standing before her and Diana were two
little eleven year olds dressed like four year old girls. The twins
curtsied together and sat down on the couch trying to pull their very short
dresses down over their knees. They really were unsuccessful as their
dresses were designed to be short so their ruffled petticoats could be
seen. Diana said, "You must be Stephie and Roberta!. The twins said in
meek little voices, "Yes, we are". Tara said, "You girls look very cute
but why are you dressed as little girls instead of in a skirt and blouse
like your class mates?" "Because we didn't act like girls when we first
came to Briarcliff", said Roberta. "Oh my goodness", said Diana, "Do you
mean to tell me that both of you are boys too, just like Jamie"? Roberta
and Stephanie didn't say anything as they saw the surprise registered on
the face of Tara and Diana. The ladies quickly recovered and said, "Ms.
Chandler didn't tell us that there would be other boys interviewing besides
Jamie but I think that you will do just fine". Tara said, "Have you been
girls all your lives"? "No", said Roberta. "Mother decided to send us to
school here in August and we have been girls for only three months". "Oh
my", said Tara. "Well, you certainly make sweet little girls". Tara
smiled as she noticed the darling socks with lace on them and the little
Mary Jane shoes that the boys were wearing. She thought, "Maybe I should
tell mom to send Richard here. Richard was Tara's nine year old brother
who had been born when her mom was forty. He was a premature child and
Tara remembers what a little sissy he was when she still lived at home. If
Richard was going to play with dolls, maybe he should go to school here
where boys were encouraged to play with dolls and no one makes fun of them.
Tara thought, "This is a wonderful school for sissy boys", and of course
she was right. If boys attending Briarcliff weren't sissies when they
enrolled here, being forced to wear nothing but skirts and dresses would
certainly turn them into sissy girls by the time they graduated. I thought
to myself, "If only more mothers knew of Briarcliff, there would be many
more petticoated boys to delight their mothers rather than frustrate
them".
Diana got two darling sister dresses out of the closet and after helping
Roberta and Stephanie out of their babish dresses, slipped the flowery
Easter dresses on them. "Oh girls, you look so grown up now", Diana said.
Tara noticed Stephanie, the more sensitive of the brothers starting to
cry. She went over to him and hugged him saying, What's the matter
honey"? Stephanie broke down completely and told Tara that he wasn't sure
that he wanted to be a girl anymore and that he missed his friends back in
Connecticut. Tara stroked his smooth face and said, "Oh sweetie, I
understand. You were raised as a boy for ten years and it isn't easy to
become a girl overnight". She continued, "When I was your age I was a
real tom boy and I loved hanging out with the boys and playing sports all
the time. But honey, when I became a teen ager which you will be soon, I
put away all those things so I could enjoy the privileges of being a girl.
It is so much better Stephie, really". As she talked to the tearful boy,
she stroked his hair and then reached into her purse and sprayed her best
perfume behind his ears and on his wrists. "This will make you feel
better dear", she said. Stephanie smelled the delightful smell of the
perfume on him which was the same perfume that he smelled on Tara as she
embraced him. Tara continued, "Honey, Diana and I are going to have you
and your brother modelling very pretty fashions. You will get to wear the
prettiest dresses and lingerie and you will grow to love being a girl just
like me. Wouldn't you like to be like me, Stephie? As a girl you can
wear pretty nighties to bed, silky slips and panties, and even nylons and
heels, honey. Boys never get a chance to do that". Tara held the little
boy so tight and soon his crying stopped. She wiped his tears away and
said, "Honey, enjoy being a girl. It is so much more fun than being a
silly boy. Won't you do that for Tara?" Stephie, overwhelmed by Tara
Collin's tenderness said, "I will Ms. Collins", and he made a sweet curtsy
to her. Roberta who had started to cry also, was comforted by Diana and
both boys were reinforced in their girlhood by the very lovely former
models.
Tara and Diana were touched by the Stapleton twins and decided that they
would be among the girls chosen for the Young Miss" campaign. They quickly
got the boys back into their frilly dresses and told them that they would
write to them from New York and that they could stay at Tara's when they
came to do the modeling job. Tara definitely liked the idea of dressing
boys as girls and I thought that I must get to know her some day. We both
appreciate bringing a lovely boy's femininity to the surface rather than
hiding it behind the drab, tailored clothing that society has designated
for males. A pretty boy in a darling dress suitable for his age is such a
charming sight. I know that Jamie and the Stapleton twins will love their
modeling experience and I hope that one day Jamie will be a runway model in
New York and perhaps even appear on the cover of Seventeen or Madamoiselle.
Both Stephanie and Roberta were overjoyed when they heard that Jamie had
also been chosen to be one of the models. The other two girls chosen were
real girls and to no one's surprise, Stacy Summers was one of them. The
next morning the following news bulletin was posted on the dining room
bulletin board.
Briarcliff Girls to Model New York Fashions!
Our special congratulations to the five girls chosen by the Montaigne
Agency to model pre teen fashions over the Christmas Holidays. Briarcliff
is proud of her girls, Stacy Summers, MaryAnn McCrary, Jamie Graham and
Roberta and Stephanie Stapleton. Good Luck, Girls! We are excited for
you.
Karen Chandler
Headmistress
The Briarcliff "grapevine" was like that at any other girl's school and
soon girls were coming from all over campus to congratulate the new models.
A senior girl who had previously modeled for Gabrielle Montaigne told Jamie
that it was great fun and that the agency even let the girls keep some of
the clothes. The next morning Headmistress Chandler announced at breakfast
that she wanted to see the "models" during the mid morning study period.
The girls all arrived at her office on time, three of them in their
Briarcliff uniforms and the twins in their sissy white "little girl"
dresses. "Sit down girls", Karen said. The twins sat down on the couch
with MaryAnn, and Stacy and Jamie sat in chairs adjacent to the
headmistresses desk. "Girls, I am so pleased that you have been selected to
represent Briarcliff with the Montaigne Agency. As you know several of our
girls went on to have very fine careers with them. This also means that the
young girls here will be looking up to you as an example of how they should
look and behave. So I am going to expect you to be very well mannered and
well dressed young ladies at all times". The girls listened intently as
Headmistress Chandler explained their new obligations to them and the girls
promised they would not let the headmistress or the school down.
Later that evening several girls gathered together in Jamie and Stacy's
room and asked the roommates a variety of questions regarding their
interviews with Ms. Evenson and Ms Collins. A junior named Amber directed
her attention towards Jamie and said, "Jamie, how do you do it? You are so
beautiful and you're not even a real girl." Jamie's roommate Stacy did not
like that and said, "Amber, do not say that he isn't a girl. He is as much
of a girl as the rest of us and he is prettier and smarter than most of the
girls at school as well". "Oh Stacy", Amber replied, "I'm not criticizing
him. I just think it is remarkable that he has the prettiest hair of all of
us and that he is going to model in New york. I guess I am a little
envious". "Oh Amber", Jamie said, "I don't want you to feel badly. I
really had no choice about becoming a girl. Mom raised me as a girl since
I was a baby". "That's right", said Stacy, "and I'm glad your mom made you
a girl or I wouldn't have the best roommate in the world". Stacy went and
hugged Jamie, and Jamie, being the sweetie that he is, pulled Amber into
the hug too. For the next couple of hours the girls talked about their
lives, their friends,fashionable clothes, and other girlish themes until it
was time to turn off the lights and go to sleep. Jamie and Stacy slipped
into their pink and blue nylon nightgowns and soon were in dreamland,
awaiting the next day of adventure at the Briarcliff School for girls.
As Jamie's mother I thought, "What a wonderful life my darling son is
living. He has been spared the all too aggressive world of men and boys and
has been wonderfully received into the more loving community of women and
girls where gentleness, sensitivity and caring relationships are highly
esteemed. He has come to appreciate the beauty of a delicate flower, the
sweet song of a robin in the Spring, and the sound of a gentle wind blowing
through his long hair. He has experienced pleasures unknown to most boys
such as feeling pretty in a pink party dress, having mother tenderly brush
and curl his hair and the thrill of balancing in his first high heels. He
has worn a mini skirt, real pearls and dangling earrings and all the joys
of girlhood have been his. He has sat demurely at mother's vanity table and
had red lipstick applied to his lips, nail polish applied to his nails and
eye shadow applied to his long lashes. Yes, my Jamie is mommy's girl and I
am so happy for my daughter.
Chapter #13 "The Mother's Luncheon"
My son Jamie was so busy at Briarcliff during the Fall and Spring
semesters that he discontinued writing in his diary for several months and
started calling me on the telephone every few days to tell me about his
school activities. We ran up a considerable telephone bill but it was
worth the expense to keep in touch with my little girl. I must tell you
that the Christmas Holiday modeling in New York went well and the five
Briarcliff girls looked absolutely charming in the March fashion section
of "Young Miss" Magazine. The Stapleton twins have become very lovely
girls and modeling pretty Spring dresses for "Young Miss" did wonders for
their confidence. I really think that their boyish tree climbing days are
over forever. I must tell you about one of the more interesting meetings
that I attended as a mother of a Briarcliff student. Each year, in April,
there is a unpublicized meeting of the Briarcliff Staff and the mothers of
Briarcliff boys. Karen Chandler initiated these yearly meetings to keep
the mothers of the boys well informed about their feminization. The
meetings provide the mothers with an opportunity to ask questions and give
the staff an opportunity to make recommendations to the mothers. Fathers
are not encouraged to attend as the Staff feels that the boys need to
identify with their mothers and other women and girls, and not be exposed
to any male influences during their specialized training. In addition to
the mothers of currently enrolled students, mothers who are sending their
boys to Briarcliff in the Fall are also invited to attend. As many of
their sons are still not aware of their mother's plans to make them
girls, the meeting is helpful in that it enables them to hear how more
experienced mothers have dealt with putting their sons in dresses for the
first time.
I arrived at Briarcliff on April 5 and attended the reception that was
given for the mothers at an evening banquet in the dining hall. After a
delicious supper, entertainment was provided by the girl's choral group
and individual students at the School. I immediately picked out Stacy in
the chorus. My son's roommate has a beautiful voice and I saw her looking
my way and smiling during the performance. She loves my son and I have
the greatest love for Stacy who is Jamie's best friend. I and the other
mothers were especially touched by fifteen year old Heather Pendergraft
who read a sweet tribute to his mother, thanking her for making him a
girl. After completing his reading Heather wiped away a tear from his eye
as he curtsied to the ladies. It was so sweet. Heather, who used to be a
boy named Jason, looked lovely in a long, light blue satin gown with three
quarter length sleeves that his mother had made for him. After the
performance, Headmistress Chandler invited all sixteen mothers into the
beautifully decorated lounge where she would lead this special gathering
of mothers who chose to send their sons to a girl's school.. She welcomed
all of us, paying special attention to the four mothers of the boys who
would be entering Briarcliff as girls in the Fall semester. Ms. Chandler
said,
"Ladies, on behalf of the Briarcliff School for Girls staff, I am so
delighted to welcome you to this annual get together that has meant so
much to our mothers of "special" girls. I esteem each one of you and
value your attendance at this gathering, as you have shown great love
towards your sons by providing them with an opportunity to get the very
best prep school education available. Of course your boys will be treated
a little differently here at Briarcliff than if they were going to school
elsewhere." At this, the mothers smiled and some even laughed for truer
words had never been spoken. While Ms Chandler didn't come right out and
say it, the fact is that their sons would cease to be boys at Briarcliff
and become prettily dressed girls in a totally feminine setting. As I
listened to her words I thought, "I am glad that I made my son a girl and
I know that the other mothers feel the same way that I do. Some boys were
just meant to be girls!"
Noticing that the mothers of the boys who would be enrolled in September
appeared a little nervous, Karen said, "Some of you are a little
apprehensive but I want to assure you that your boys will be in good
hands. Our teachers and counselors are highly skilled at fulfilling the
purpose for which you have sent your sons here. So be sure, mothers, your
boys will not leave Briarcliff the same. You may bring them here as sons
but when they graduate they will have become delightful young ladies. In
short, mothers, your boys will become girls, just as you have always
dreamed. As for you moms who have junior and senior boys in attendance, I
don't have to tell you of the wonderful things that your boys have already
experienced at Briarcliff. A few of you had unwilling, unruly boys whom
you had to almost drag to school here, but after proper training they have
developed into very well behaved teen age girls. Isn't that right,
Nancy?" Nancy Adams who was sitting in the front row, smiled and replied,
"Oh, yes Karen. My Bobbi is not the same child that I brought here three
years ago." Nancy was referring to her very pretty Bobbi Adams who was on
the junior varsity cheer leading squad and who won a scholarship from the
Singer Company for winning first prize in a regional sewing competition.
Bobbi designed and sewed together a gorgeous white satin evening gown that
drew raves from prominent New York designers. Karen continued, "Yes,
Bobbi is one of our top girls at school and we are all very proud of his
accomplishments. "Ladies", Karen continued, "perhaps one of the most
profitable exercises that we have had at our annual meetings has been the
breaking up into small groups to discuss how we might best achieve our
common goal of making your young sons into the lovely girls they were
meant to be."
"Let's see", said Karen. "We have sixteen moms and there are four staff
members present. Why don't we break up into groups of four and then we
can have one staff person in each group." Everything went smoothly as the
women randomly went to different parts of the large lounge where tables
and very comfortable chairs were set up. I found myself with Julie's mom,
Linda Peterson, Elaine Callaway, the mother of a senior boy and Tina
Edwards, who was the mother of a boy enrolled for the coming Fall term.
Karen Chandler herself, was the staff person in our group and she started
the discussion by asking Elaine to share a little about why she sent her
son to the Briarcliff School for Girls. "Well, Chrissy Ann was just like
Nancy's boy Bobbi", Elaine began. "He was so wild as a boy and he
wouldn't obey his father or me. He stayed out too late even as a sixth
grader, began to smoke, and his father and I felt that he was in with a
bad crowd. We were worried that if he continued associating with such
friends, he would eventually drop out of school and perhaps even end up in
jail. Because he wasn't a very big boy for his age he was always being
the daredevil to impress his friends. One day after shopping with his
older sister Barbara, I came home to find the house filled with smoke.
Chris had thrown a cigarette butt into the trash and it was smoldering
when we arrived. We were quite fortunate that he didn't set the house on
fire. I was so angry that I went over to his friends house, took him by
the arm and brought him home."
"I sat him down on the living room sofa and said "What am I going to do
with you, Son? I do not appreciate the way that you are behaving. Why
can't you be more like your sister?" Well, Chris just smirked and I heard
my sixteen year old Barbara say, "It's too bad he wasn't born a girl, mom.
He'd be better behaved as a sister." Chris said, "Oh shut up Barb. What
do you know?". Well, that was the last straw. I was tired of my son's
ungentlemanly behavior and I surprised myself by saying, "Barb is right
Chris, Maybe you should have been a girl!" Barb said, "Why don't you
punish him by making him be one, mom?" "Hmmmm", I thought. I had read
about petticoat punishment being used to discipline boys in Victorian
England but I had never heard of a mother using it here as a disciplinary
measure. But I felt desparate because of my inability to control my child
and in a wild moment I grabbed him and said, "Chris, you've talked back
once too often so I'm going to see if we can't make you a more gentle and
better behaved child". "Come and help me, Barb!". Mother and daughter
took Chris by the arms and dragged him up the stairs to Barbara's bedroom
where they stripped off all his clothes. "What are you doing to me"? he
yelled. "Let me go! Let me go!" "We'll let you go honey but not until
we have finished with you". "Finished with me? What are you going to do
to me?" I looked my son right in the eye and told him, "I am going to
make you into a girl, Chris. We'll see if you are so rowdy when you have
to wear a pretty dress and petticoat!"
"Oh nooooo!", screamed Chris. But it was too late. Mother and sis had
already gotten all his clothes off and had him in pink satin panties and a
pink full skirted petticoat of Barb's, before he knew it. "Oh look at the
little sissy", Barb laughed. She pointed at him saying, "Chrissy is a
girl! Chrissy is a girl!" "Stop that immediately!", I said. "Barbara, do
not make fun of him. I am serious about making him a girl and I need you
to help me train him, not tease him". Barbara apologized and I told her
to pick out one of her dresses for her brother. She handed me a sissy
pink lace dress and I slipped it over my new daughter's head and zipped it
up. Chrissy started to cry, but I really loved him in the dress and
immediately thought to myself, "Why did I wait so long to do this. Being a
girl will make him a more gentle child. Chrissy fought us like a stubborn
boy for days but gradually my son's demeanor began to change as it was
difficult for him to maintain his boyish attitude in the very frilly
dresses I forced him to wear. Barb was such a help and she went out of
her way to make Chrissy feel like her little sister.I moved Chrissy into
Barb's very girlish room, made him play with dolls and kept pretty nail
polish on his nails. It was such fun changing a self willed boy into a
young lady. I loved every minute of it and I would recommend it to any
mothers who are tired of dealing with misbehaved boys. Chrissy is much
more fun to be around as a girl and he has finally fully accepted his role
as a young woman. Not that he had any choice, I might add!" The ladies
all laughed as they realized that some boys need more than a few words of
encouragement. They had to be forced to become girls for their own good.
"Well ladies", Elaine continued, "Chrissy is now a senior girl at
Briarcliff and is about to go into fashion design. He has long brown
hair, loves to wear dresses, silk blouses and pleated skirts, high heels
and he never goes out without his earrings. He and Barbara are close like
sisters and I am thankful that Briarcliff has finished the task I started
by training him in the ways of a young lady. After his first few weeks in
dresses at home, I knew right away that Briarcliff was the school for him
and I have never regretted my decision. I have two daughters now and I am
the happiest mother alive". All the ladies in the group applauded when
Elaine finished talking and Karen said, "Do any of you have any questions
for Elaine"? Tina, whose boy would be attending Briarcliff in just just
about five months said, "Elaine, how long did it take your son to get used
to wearing dresses? My son Tommy has never worn a dress in his life and
I'm afraid he'll hate being a girl." Before Elaine had a chance to
respond, Karen said, "Hon, first tell us why you are sending Tommy to
Briarcliff". Tina lowered her eyes and said, "Because I am a single mom
and I can't stand the thought of losing him. I feel that we will be so
much closer if he is a girl during his teen age years. Boys become so
independent and I want us to always be close friends." "Oh Tina, that is
so sweet", said Karen. "Well, we will help make Tommy your very best girl
friend. Do you have a name chosen for him, Tina". "Yes", smiled Tina.
"I thought I would call him Marilyn! It is so feminine. You know,
Marilyn Monroe! She was so pretty and I want to make him a pretty girl
too". I looked at Tina and smiled, saying, "Yes, Tina, Marilyn is a
darling name for a boy about to become a girl. He will grow to love his
name eventually". "Oh, I hope so!" replied Tina. Everyone then looked at
Elaine to get her answer to the question that was asked her about how long
it took her son to get used to wearing dresses.. She replied, "It took
about two weeks, Tina. I didn't let Chrissy wear anything but dresses
during that time and I forced him to sleep in frilly nighties and panties.
By the end of two weeks he was walking like a girl and seemed to feel so
much more natural in skirts than the first day that he wore them".
Soon the ladies were talking about their boys freely as if they had been
girls all their young lives. Julie's mom Linda Peterson volunteered,
"Julie was difficult at first and told me that he wouldn't go to
Briarcliff". "What did you do, Linda?" asked Tina? "I got rid of all his
boy's clothes and filled his closets with dresses, Tina. So if Julie
wanted to ever go out of the house he would have to wear a dress. There
were no pants or jeans in his closet for him to wear". "That was one way
to do it", laughed Elaine. Linda continued, "One day I just sat him down
on the couch and told him that I always wanted a girl, even before he was
born. I explained to him that was the reason why I didn't cut his hair
until he was five. Julie had long hair just like a girl when he was
little and I am ashamed to admit that I deliberately curled his hair and
put ribbons in it". "Oh don't be silly, Linda. You don't have to be
ashamed of doing that. Your son is a beautiful young girl now because you
loved him enough to make him a sweet and gentle child", replied Elaine.
Linda responded, "Thank you Elaine. You are very sweet to say that. I
did enjoy making Julie a sissy! I used to make him wear pretty satin
panties under his boy's clothes when he started school. But it was so
frustrating to me because every time I put panties on him, I really wanted
to dress him in a slip and dress as well. I wanted Julie to be a complete
girl. So when I heard about Briarcliff, I couldn't resist sending him
here". "Well, we are so delighted that you did, Linda", Karen said. Julie
is lovely and he recently spent the Thanksgiving holiday with you and
Jamie", didn't he Susan? "Oh yes", I said. "Julie and Jamie are the best
of friends and they had a wonderful time playing dress up and attending a
doll show. You should have seen him in my wedding dress! He was the
prettiest young bride that you could imagine".
Tina seemed so encouraged at hearing these success stories and said, "I
just hope that Tommy will be as adaptable to being a girl as each of your
sons. Is there anything I should do now to prepare him for school"? Karen
asked, "Have you given him any idea as to what is in store for him, Tina"?
"No, I really haven't", Tina responded. "Do any of you ladies have any
suggestions for Tina", asked Karen. "Well Tina", exclaimed Linda, "You
must really get him into a dress, hon. It will be a lot easier on him if
he learns a little about being a girl before he arrives here. Once he
arrives, he will not be wearing pants anymore. The students aren't ever
allowed to wear pants here, only dresses and skirts. If you teach him how
to walk in a dress like a girl, sit like a lady, and how to make a proper
curtsy, it will be so much easier for him to fit in with the other girls".
"That's right Tina", said Karen. "Starting to feminize him now will be
in his best interest and giving him a chance to feel comfortable in girl's
clothes will reduce the shock of being thrust into a totally feminine
world such as exists at Briarcliff". Linda said, "And Tina, it will save
him the embarrassment of going through what the Stapleton twins have to go
through. They must wear the dresses of a very little girl until they show
they are mature enough as girls to wear the Briarcliff uniform. Isn't that
right, Karen? The ladies all looked at Karen and she explained the
"Little Girl" discipline policy at Briarcliff. Karen said, "We
occasionally have young boys arriving at Briarcliff who oppose their
mother's desire to feminize them. As that would be very disruptive for
the rest of the girls and might even cause a rebellion among boys who have
been in dresses for a while, we use this highly effective means to help
the new boys become young ladies". "Oh, maybe wearing baby dresses would
be good for him", laughed Tina. "But I do want him to fit in and maybe I
need to get him into a dress as soon as possible". "That would be best
Tina", I said. "My Jamie has always worn dresses and the longer Tommy is
in skirts, the better he will like it. Almost all the boys at Briarcliff
have made their mothers proud of them and not one of them has ever wanted
to go back to being a boy again". "Oh good", said Tina. "I think I will
start calling him Marilyn, as soon as I return home".
Karen Chandler was pleased that the conversation was going so well. She
was gratified that she was able to help these fine mothers realize their
dreams of having their sons become their daughters. Knowing that my
eleven year old has been a girl since early childhood, Karen asked me to
share some of my secrets that successfully transformed Jamie into a happy,
very adjusted little girl. I began, "Well, I think it is very important
that we, as mothers, set a good example for our sons by being very
feminine ourselves. When Jamie was little I always wore make up and
dresses around the house and I treated him like a little daughter. I know
your boy is older Tina, but it is not too late to begin treating him like
a young lady. When you talk to him, see him as a girl, and ask him to
comment on your clothes, make up, jewelry and so forth. Every day I would
ask Jamie, 'Do you like mommy's dress, honey'? I made him take notice of
girlish things and soon he was very comfortable offering his opinion on
the dresses other women and girls were wearing as well. It wasn't long
before I drew his attention to his own clothes and often asked him if he
liked the new outfits that I bought him. I told him things like, 'Oh
Jamie, you are mother's favorite when you are wearing a pretty dress'. I
always kept a matching silk hair ribbon in his hair and we would do each
other's nails so that Jamie came to love doing feminine things with me.
Little by little his thoughts and interests became those of a little girl
and he was far more comfortable in dresses like his mother than he ever
would be in the rather drab clothes that boys are forced to wear. When I
took him shopping with me, we often wore mother and daughter dresses to
assist him in identifying even further with me. Of course I made very
certain that he wore the darling undies of a girl as well. I put him in
the frilliest slips and panties and made sure that his little girl
lingerie was color coordinated. To be honest, ladies, I made Jamie a very
sissy girl".
Tina was so excited and said, "Oh Susan, that is such a wonderful story.
I do hope that Tommy, I mean Marilyn, can be like your Jamie". Just then,
Karen looked at her watch and said, "Ladies, I have a surprise for you.
She walked over to the door, opened it and said, "Please come in girls.
In walked Stacy, MaryAnn McCreary, Jamie, and the Stapleton twins in their
finest Sunday dresses. Ladies, Karen said, "These are the girls chosen by
the Gabrielle Montaigne Agency to model for Young Miss Magazine, and guess
what? Some of you may not know this, but some of them are boys just like
your sons"! "Oh my goodness", said, Tina. "I can't tell which ones are
the boys. They are all beautiful little girls". The children did look
cute in their pastel colored dresses. My son was in a baby blue dress
with a full skirt. It had a lacy Peter Pan collar and he modeled it so
daintily. Stacy and Mary Ann were in white and yellow dresses respectively
and the Stapleton boys, Roberta and Stephanie were in their usual white
lace pinafore dresses, with exquisite detailed embroidery on the bodice.
Karen continued, "Susan and Cynthia (referring to me and Cynthia
Stapleton), since you know who the boys are, please don't give it away.
We want the other ladies to guess which ones are the boys". There were
squeals of delight from the mothers for they had hopes of making their own
sons as lovely as the young ladies standing before them. The twins,
looking like toddler girls, were absolutely adorable. Karen said, "Take a
guess, Tina"! Tina ran her fingers through her long hair and said, "Oh
this is so difficult. They are all so darling. It is hard to believe
that there is a boy here". She pointed to Mary Ann McCreary and said,
"Are you the boy, honey"? Well, all the young models giggled because Tina
had chosen a real girl. Mary Ann shook her head and the other girls
teased her a little saying, "Oh MaryAnn, you're a boy!" Mary Ann, being a
good natured little girl said, "Oh, I am not"! She also thought it was
funny that Tina couldn't pick out the real boys. Well, Karen didn't want
any of the mothers or the children to be embarrassed, so she said, Will
the sweet little boys please step forward and make a curtsy for us"? Well
you could hear the sighs of amazement as my blond, long haired princess
and the identically dressed Stapleton twins stepped forward and curtsied
to the women. All the mothers began to clap as Karen said, "Ladies I want
you to meet the former sons and now daughters of Susan Graham and Cynthia
Stapleton". The girls curtsied again and appeared to be so happy being
their mother's precious daughters.
Jamie ran over and gave me a hug and I brushed his long hair back from his
forehead and fixed his hair ribbon. I held my son as the other girls
mixed with the ladies and were the recipients of many compliments on their
femininity. Each of the mothers at the luncheon were so encouraged by the
reassuring words of the headmistress and the sharing that went on. There
was an exchange of addresses and telephone numbers and plans were made for
mothers from the same area to meet together and take their sons dress
shopping during the summer break. Pictures were exchanged of prettily
dressed boys and each mother resolved to double her efforts to change her
son into the sweetest little girl possible. Those mothers who suffered
criticism from relatives for feminizing their sons were reinforced in the
correctness of their actions by other mothers in attendance and some
lasting friendships were formed. I felt happy for the mothers as they
were experiencing the same joy that I was in having a sweet girl child
instead of a boy, to dress up pretty and to take shopping. We all looked
forward to seeing our sons develop as lovely young women and knew that we
had made a decision that was in their very best interest. I thought to
myself, "Three cheers for Briarcliff. It has helped each one of us change
our sons into the daughters of our dreams. I hugged Tina and said, "Tina,
I can't wait to see Tommy fully clothed in a pretty pink dress and
matching hair ribbon". Tina smiled and said, "You will, Susan, you will"!
Chapter #14 "A Pageant for Boys"
"Oh Susan, you should be so proud of Jamie. He is such a girl"! I
couldn't help but smile as I heard the normally reserved and very
professional head mistress of the Briar Cliff School for Girls sing the
praises of my lovely son, Jamie. Karen Chandler had called to tell me
that Jamie not only finished first academically in his seventh grade class
but that he was also voted the most popular girl in his class. Jamie had
already told me this when he came home from school two days ago, but I
said, "Why thank you, Karen. I must really give you all the credit for
helping Jamie to become a sweet and properly behaved little girl. I just
love Briarcliff for what they have accomplished". "Oh Susan", she
replied, "it is mothers like you that make our task at Briarcliff so much
easier. When Jamie came here a year ago it was apparent to all of us that
he was perfectly feminized by a wise and loving mother." I thanked Karen
and told her that Jamie's training as a girl would continue through the
summer break and that I expected him to be as excited as any young school
girl about his second year at Briarcliff. Karen continued, "Susan, I want
you to know that one of the mothers of a '96 Briarcliff grad is putting on
a special pageant for beautiful boys and I think that Jamie would have a
very good chance of winning first prize. Do you think that you might be
interested?" "Really"?, I replied. "How fascinating, Karen! Please tell
me more!!" Karen responded, "Well Susan, it is going to be held at Emily
Townsend's beautiful home in Winnetka, Illinois, right on Lake Michigan.
Her son Amy just graduated from Briarcliff and Emily wanted to have a
farewell gathering for him and his friends. Emily remembers you and Jamie
from the mother's meeting and wondered if it would be possible for the two
of you to attend". "Oh yes, Karen", I said. "Please do tell her that we
are interested.." I thanked Karen for the wonderful things she said about
Jamie and told her that I would be anxiously awaiting a letter from Emily
Townsend.
Upon hanging up the telephone, I called my son into the living room.
Jamie had stayed up late watching Cinderella on a video, and at 9:00 in
the morning he was still in his white satin lace nightie. He ran over to
me an gave me a sweet hug. I kissed my son on the cheek and said, "My,
my, don't we look pretty this morning?" I noticed that he has painted his
finger and toe nails a pretty pink color the evening before and he was the
picture of innocent femininity in his silky night gown and dainty panties.
"Jamie dear", I said, "I just talked to Headmistress Chandler and you'll
never guess what she told me". "What did she say, mother"?, Jamie asked.
"She told me that there is going to be a beauty contest honey, and that
she thinks that you are pretty enough to win". "But mother, I can't be in
a contest with real girls", Jamie exclaimed. "Oh don't be silly dear.
You are more of a girl than any girl I know. Besides sweetheart, this is
going to be a beauty pageant for boys like you, who are being raised as
girls". Jamie's little eyes lit up and he said, "Oh mother, do you really
think I can win?". I hugged him again and said, "Sweet girl, we are going
to make you the lovliest little princess at the pageant. Now go and put
your dress on and come and help me set the table. Your aunt Debbie and
cousin Stephanie are coming for lunch".
Jamie returned to his room and came back down attired in his light blue
dress with the peter pan collar and lovely smocking. He looked
beautiful, and as so often happens, my eyes filled with tears at seeing my
gentle son looking so pretty and girlish. Seeing his sweet innocence, I
thought, as I have so often thought, "Jamie was meant to be my daughter
and nature's making him a boy was simply a mistake that needed to be
corrected". I have no regrets about changing Jamie into a girl. His
little skirt swished as he walked and since being at Briarcliff with so
many real girls, he behaves just like a girl. I said, "Jamie dear, start
setting the table now". Jamie smiled and began putting out our best china
in the proper setting as he had learned at Briarcliff. As he sashayed
around our dining room, setting the table , I wanted to sweep him up in my
arms and hug him, and tell him that he is always going to be my little
girl. I will never let this darling child be a boy again. A knock on the
door brought me out of my dream world. It was Debbie and Stephanie. They
entered our home in their lovely summer frocks and almost simultaneously
said to Jamie, "Oh Jamie, what a lovely dress"! Debbie picked Jamie up,
smoothed his skirts and said, "How is my favorite little niece today?"
Jamie just blushed and said, "Fine thank you, Aunt Debbie". Stephanie, a
real girl, then said, "Jamie, let's go to your room. I want to play with
your newest dolls". I just knew she would do that. Jamie has the largest
doll collection of anyone I know. Ever since I bought him his first
Barbie, he has loved playing with dolls. So the two girls were off in a
flash to play their girlish games.
I told Debbie about the headmistresses call and the forthcoming beauty
pageant for boys. She got quite excited and said, "Oh Susan, let him
enter. Jamie is so pretty. He will win for sure". "Oh I don't know
Susan, there are lots of pretty boys and some of the boys will be brought
by their mothers from all over the country". "Don't be silly Susan", said
Debbie. "Have you taken a good look at your son lately? He is totally a
girl. He is beautiful, Susan, and when you have him in a pretty dress,
there is not a soul in the world that would guess that he is a boy".
Debbie then said, "Susan, Stephie and I will go with you and the three of
us should be able to get Jamie looking so gorgeous that he will be the
prettiest girl there." Soon the light lunch which Jamie and I had
prepared was ready and I called the girls. The two came bounding down the
stairs hand in hand with two of Jamie's prettiest dolls. Debbie said, "Oh
girls, those dolls are beautiful. Which one is your favorite Jamie"?
Jamie smiled and said, "I love my Rapunzel doll that I bought at the Doll
Show most of all". Debbie took the doll gently from Jamie, held her up
and said, "I can see why dear. She has long blong hair just like yours".
Jamie hugged his aunt and I said, "Honey, would you like to serve the
quiche now? Let mommy tie your pretty lace apron on you so you don't
spill on your dress". I put the apron on my boy and he proceeded to serve
lunch to our guests like a perfect little girl. After dinner, we all
exchanged hugs and we said goodbye to Debbie and Stephanie. Debbie waved
as she walked to their car, saying, "Be a good girl for your mother, Jamie
dear". Jamie curtsied and said, "I will Aunt Debbie". I thought, "Oh,
how I love my prettily dressed boy. He is such a young lady".
Three days later a letter regarding the Lake Michigan Beauty Pageant for
Boys was in our mailbox. I torn open the pink, perfumed envelope and
began to read. Here is a copy of the letter.
Dear Susan,
As you know, I recently chatted with Karen Chandler about my hosting a
beauty pageant for boys. I understand that you would like to have your
precious Jamie participate. Amy and I would be delighted to have you
come. The contest will be at my home on June 15 and we do look forward to
seeing which boy will become the first "Little Miss Briarcliff". Please
plan to arrive the evening of the 14th.
Cordially yours,
Emily Townsend
My sister, niece, Jamie and I immediately began making plans to fly to
Chicago. Further correspondence with Emily served to inform us that the
winner and four runners up would be judged on beauty, poise, and overall
femininity as well as on how well they did in the prom gown, school girl
uniform and talent competition. Several generous monetary prizes,
including a full college scholarship were to be awarded to the winners.
Jamie was very excited and we began to plan his wardrobe for the trip.
The four of us arrived in Chicago on a Friday evening and took a taxi from
O'Hare Airport to the lovely Lake shore area of Winnetka. We drove
through the gates of the Townsend estate and along a long winding road,
bordered by beautifully landscaped trees, bushes, flowers and statues on
each side, until the taxi came to a stop in front of the palatial family
mansion. One of Emily Townsend's female servants welcomed us, and ushered
us into the beautiful hall of one of the lovliest homes I have seen.
Suddenly, Emily herself burst out of the living room and greeted us with a
warm embrace. Looking at Jamie, attired in a delicate short lavender
dress, she exclaimed, "Oh, Jamie! Everything I have heard about you is
true. You are such a beautiful little girl" My son curtsied as he had
been taught to do when complimented by women or girls and said, "Thank you
Ms Townsend". She gave him a little hug and instructed one of her maids
to show all of us to our rooms. Jamie's and my room was a very spacious
third floor bedroom decorated in shades of pink and white. It was a
delightfully feminine room and both of us felt very comfortable in it. My
sister and Stephanie were put up in an adjoining room. As the informal
judging would begin at brunch the next morning, I needed to bathe Jamie
and polish his nails this evening. We didn't want to stay up too late as
I wanted my son to have a fresh look when he paraded before the judges in
his lovely gown and heels. So I said, "Jamie dear, slip out of your dress
and get ready for your bath". Jamie undressed and I handed him his rose
colored bathrobe to put on with his matching slippers. After drawing his
water, my son stepped into the tub and I proceeded to bathe him. At sweet
mother and daughter times like these, I am always amazed at how soft
Jamie's skin is, just like a girls. He loves being pampered and playfully
splashed in the scented water that was full of delightful bubbles. I again
thought, "What a darling little girl my son has become. I can't wait to
see him in his gown tomorrow."
Jamie stepped out of the tub and I wrapped him in a fluffy pink towel and
patted him dry. After draping the towel around him the way girls do, so
that his upper body was also covered, I went to his suitcase and brought
out his pink satin baby doll night gown and matching panties. Holding up
the panties, I said, "Step into them dear", and I pulled them up his
little body. "Now hold out your hands honey, and let mommy get you into
your nightie". Jamie complied and I slipped the girlish garment over his
arms and it fell to his mid thighs. "How does that feel, precious"?, I
asked. Jamie just smiled and spun around, his little skirt swirling like
a ballerinas. "Silly girl", I laughed. "Now come here my sweet little
princess and let me start on your hair". Holding my hair dryer in one
hand and my brush in the other, I began to style his long blonde hair. As
I lovingly brushed his hair, Jamie said, "Mother, please tell me again why
you make me into a girl". I lovingly pulled his head close to mine and
replied, "Because you were always meant to be a little girl, honey".
Sometimes children are born in a sex that is just not right for them.
When the nurse first handed you to me I thought immediately, Oh he is way
too pretty to be a boy. You had such lovely eyes and delicate features
and I just knew that I couldn't let you grow up to be a man". As I
continued to answer my son's question, I teased his long hair and thought
that many girls would do anything to have such pretty, luxurious hair. I
went on, "So Jamie, when you were taken home from the hospital, you were
wrapped in pink rather than blue and placed in a room decorated for a
baby girl. We thought you were going to be a little girl like your cousin
Stephanie, honey, and we were right"! As I played with his hair, Jamie
snuggled up close to me and I felt that even as the silk of our pink night
gowns touched so was our mother and daughter bond being strengthened.
Jamie volunteered, "I am glad that I am a girl like you mother". He
pulled down the skirt of his nightie with a very feminine gesture and I
kissed him on the cheek saying, "I am glad too sweetheart. You are
mommy's girl and mommy is very proud of you". After brushing for what
much have been more than two hundred strokes, I said, "Well pretty girl,
it is time for us to get some sleep. You have a big day tomorrow and you
might just finish the day by being crowned, 'Little Miss Briarcliff'".
Jamie looked up into my eyes and said, "Oh mother, that would be lovely".
He closed his eyes and I pulled the white satin sheet and pink cover over
my girlishly clad son. I held him tenderly, hardly remembering that he
was a boy, and soon we drifted off to dreamland.
I awoke earier than Jamie and began to get ready for the day's activities.
I put on a pretty summer floral dress with a pleated skirt and my white
sandals for the morning brunch. Letting my son sleep until the very last
moment, I finally shook him gently and said, "Sweetie, it's time to rise
and shine. Wake up little girl. Wake up"! Jamie rolled over and tried to
go back to sleep but I tickled him and he squirmed and laughed until he
jumped up out of bed. After his shower I dressed him in panties, white
stockings, a full white nylon slip a white summer dress with cute little
violets across the bodice and Mary Jane shoes. Slowly buttoning the pearl
buttons of the back of his dress I said, "Honey, the judges are going to
be looking at all the girls this morning so be on your very best behavior.
Be very ladylike, take little dainty steps, smile at everyone and be sure
to hold your skirts down if it is a bit windy near the Lake". "Yes
mother", Jamie replied. I knew that he would do well but like most
mothers, I am always giving a little extra advice. Jamie and I strolled
out of our room and walked downstairs to where brunch was being served.
The setting was beautiful and after going through one of several serving
lines, one could sit either inside or outside on a patio overlooking Lake
Michigan. Walking around the grounds we could see mothers with their
girlishly dressed sons eating daintily or just enjoying the beautiful
setting. I thought to myself, "None of the boys are in jeans or shorts.
Everyone of them is in a dress". There was no doubt that all of these
mothers were in earnest about their sons being girls. Jamie placed a box
of cocoa puffs, a bagel and cream cheese and a glass of skim milk on his
tray while I had a an order of french toast and hot tea.. As we searched
for a table, an attractive young woman invited us to sit down with her and
her son. She gestured towards two chairs, asked us to be seated, and
said, "I'm Lisa Romero and this is my son Laura Ann. "We're Susan and
Jamie, I responded. "So nice to meet you."
Now I have seen pretty boys before but I must admit that I was shocked by
this black haired, brown eyed boy with the biggest eyes I have ever seen.
He was absolutely beautiful, and attired in a white embroidered full
length dress, he was the picture of girlish femininity. His mother had
arranged his hair in a page boy style with a lovely white satin ribbon. I
couldn't help staring and I saw Lisa Romero smile knowingly at my unspoken
acknowledgment of his beauty. As Jamie, who is quite beautiful himself,
and I sat down, Lisa said, "Laura Ann has been looking forward to the
pageant for some time, haven't you dear"? Jamie and I smiled at him, but
Laura Ann just looked away to the total annoyance of his mother. She
said, "Laura Ann, remember what I told you this morning. You had better
be good"! Apparently there was something going on between them that was
unknown to Jamie and me. Suddenly Lisa stood up, excused herself, took
her son by the arm and led him to another table where three very athletic
looking girls were seated. She talked to them in an animated way and
within seconds the three surrounded Laura Ann and led him into the house.
Then Lisa returned to our table. She said, "Please excuse Laura Ann for
his bad manners. You see he doesn't want to be in the pageant and thinks
that he is going to be able to go back to being a boy again". Without
knowing it Jamie and I found ourselves about to be thrust into the middle
of a mother and son battle rather than simply enjoying a pleasant Saturday
morning brunch on the shores of Lake Michigan. Lisa Romero reached for a
cigarette in her purse and began to share her concerns about her only son
Stephen, who was definitely too pretty to be a boy.
Lisa took a long puff on her cigarette and said, "I hope you don't mind my
sharing this with you. It has been so stressful for me". I said, "No,
hon. Tell us what is the matter. Why doesn't Laura Ann want to be in the
contest"? He is certainly a very beautiful little girl" "That's just it,
Susan. He hates being a girl. He hates wearing dresses. He refuses to
play with dolls and it is a struggle every day to get him into a dress. I
am so, afraid that he is going to cut his long hair or run away. So I
told him that if he continues to rebel about wearing dresses and hair
ribbons, I am going to put him in the hospital and have the surgeons make
him a girl for good. That is the only thing that he is afraid of". "But
Lisa", I said, "If Laura Ann hates being a girl so very much, why don't
you just let him be a boy". "Oh hon, you don't understand", she replied.
"You see when Stephen, that was his name then, was eight years old, I
wasn't the best mother. I started drinking when I learned that my
attorney husband was being unfaithful. Soon afterwards he filed for
divorce and by using his considerable influence and exaggerating my
drinking problem, he was able to win custody of Stephen. I couldn't stand
to lose Stephen so I fled from Los Angeles to Chicago. To avoid
detection, I dressed Stephen as a little girl as the police would not be
looking for a mother and daughter. His father has hired several detective
agencies and even now after three years, he is trying to find him. If it
wasn't for the support of Emily Townsend, a friend of my mother's who lets
us live on her estate, I would have lost my child to his unfaithful
father." As you know, Emily likes feminine boys and when her son Amy left
to enroll at Briarcliff, she invited us to live with her so that there
would still be a girlish boy around to prettify and make a fuss over.
Susan, what shall I do? I can't leave the estate and risk having my
husband find us but if Laura Ann keeps rebelling against being a girl, I
am afraid that Emily Townsend is going to ask us to leave".
Lisa started to cry and I found myself putting my arms around her and
assuring her that everything was going to work out. "First let me talk to
Laura Ann hon, and then, if necessary, I will talk to Emily. I am sure
that we can work something out so that Laura Ann will always be with you".
I learned that the three girls who led Laura Ann into the house were
employees of Emily Townsend and that one of them was a nurse. When Laura
Ann was acting up they gave him a mild sedative and put him to bed. Lisa,
Jamie and I walked up to his room and sat on the edge of his ivory lace
bedspread. The room was that of a young girls, with white furniture
including a little vanity with a Victorian era doll propped against the
mirror. "Hi Laura Ann", I said. The child looked away as he had done at
the breakfast table. I said, "Honey, my name is Susan and I want to talk
to you for a few minutes. Is that alright, sweetheart? I have a son like
you and I know just how you feel". I stroked his hair and said, "Laura
Ann, your mother loves you very much and wants to protect you from anyone
who would take you away from her. That is why she made you a girl,
sweetheart. You must not be ashamed of that. I know that it feels very
different to wear dresses Laura Ann, but you do look pretty in them and
have already adjusted so well to being a girl. My son Jamie didn't like
his dresses at first either", I fibbed, "but soon he wanted more and more
so he could be my pretty daughter". Then Laura Ann spoke for the first
time saying, "But I'm a boy. I'm not a sissy. I don't want to wear
dresses. I want to wear pants again". "Oh Laura Ann", I replied, "you
just don't realize what you are saying. Your mother loves you too much to
let you be a boy. You must be a girl for her so that your daddy doesn't
come and take you away and force you to be a little man. Honey, please
don't fight being a girl. Your mommy is determined that you will wear
dresses and I agree with her that it is best for you in these
circumstances".
I got out my hair brush and began brushing Laura Ann's hair hoping that I
would get through to him. I had no doubts in my mind that Lisa would have
her child surgically feminized right away if his attitude didn't change.
She was a desperate woman and was not about to risk losing her son to her
unfaithful husband. It wasn't that losing his maleness would be bad for
Laura Ann. I am in favor of little boys being made totally into girls,
but it is preferable that they be previously feminized so that they desire
this for themselves, for there is no going back to being a boy once this
happens. I craddled Laura Ann in my arms and said, "Dear, if you are
good and accept being a little girl, Jamie and I can help you to like it.
We have such fun as mother and daughter and you and your mom and Jamie and
I can do so many girl things together". I continued, "Look at me Laura
Ann"! Laura Ann looked into my eyes and I said, "Honey, Jamie and I want
you to act like a big girl, so tell your mother that you will be her
daughter and that you will be in the pageant today. Did you know that
there is a big prize for the winner? Laura Ann, you can win a full
college scholarship! Wouldn't that be nice"? I hugged Lisa's sweet boy
and felt that I was getting through to him. He sat up and hugged me and I
whispered in his ear, "Just be your mother's little girl, honey. It will
be alright. You will soon be totally happy as a girl. Jamie and I will
help you to enjoy being a girl and you will soon love it so very much,
just like we do". By this time Lisa was crying and I was teary eyed as we
saw a breakthrough in this precious child. Laura Ann said, "I will try
Susan". Then he sat up on the edge of the bed, gracefully gathering the
skirts of his long dress under him. Jamie came over and hugged him as
Lisa Romero wiped the tears from her eyes, thankful that she had her
little girl back again. She took my arm and said, "Susan, it really is a
miracle. Your talking to him seemed to break his boyish spirt and I have
my daughter once again. I am so grateful". I smiled and said, "Well hon,
many mothers do affectionately refer to me as "The Girlmaker" so I guess
there must be some truth to it. But enough of this talk. We have to get
Laura Ann and Jamie ready for the school girl uniform judging, which
starts in two hours". Then, with Lisa and I both holding our lovely
girlishly dressed boys by the hand, we went out to the patio for a cup of
tea, prior to dressing the boys in the required outfits for the first
judging.
Chapter #15 "Little Miss Briarcliff"
"Debbie, hand me a bobby pin please", I said frantically to my sister. It
was only one hour before Jamie was supposed to be in the ballroom of the
Townsend mansion for the start of the Little Miss Briarcliff Pageant. My
sister Debbie, Jamie's cousin Stephanie and I, were trying to get my son
ready for the contest and the room was full of the sweet frargrance of
perfume, hair spray and girlish chatter. Before us sat an eleven year old
boy prettily outfitted in a white silk blouse and a pleated navy skirt.
On his stocking clad feet he was wearing shiny black patent leather shoes
with the prettiest bows. The boy was my son Jamie, whom I have
deliberately changed into a little girl. Delicate lace peeked out from
under his skirt for my son was also put into a very expensive, hand
embroidered satin slip that would be the delight of any feminine child.
Closest to his body was his pretty white lace training bra and satin
panties, both of which were adorned with little ribbons and bows. We were
determined that he would be just picture perfect for the opening segment
of the pageant in which the boys would be decked out in their school girl
uniforms. As I brushed his long blonde hair, and carefully placed bobby
pins in it to hold it in place, Debbie began applying a lovely shade of
red to his lips. Meanwhile his thirteen year old cousin was giving
Jamie's nails one more coat of polish that matched his lipstick. "Hold
still little girl while I make your lips all pretty", I heard Stephanie
say to my son. The poor dear was having to learn to be patient like a
girl as we prettied him up. Jamie felt so pampered and so utterly girlish
that any thought of being a boy was next to impossible. As we continued to
feminize my lovely child, he asked, "Mother, is being a young lady as much
fun as being a little girl?". I smiled at my son and said, "Yes dear.
Being a young lady is better than being a male". "Will I grow up to be a
woman, mother"?, Jamie asked. I responded, "Yes, honey, you will be a
lovely woman but right now lets concentrate on making you a pretty little
girl. Do not be thinking about anything else, dear! Just concentrate on
being a little lady and perhaps you will win the college scholarship for
being 'Little Miss Briarcliff".
"Now stand up Jamie, and let us take a look at you!", I commanded. Jamie
stood and held out his skirt, as my sister, Stephanie and I admired our
handiwork. Looking at my son, if I didn't know that he was a boy, I would
never have guessed. Jamie was the very image of innocent, girlish
femininity and any mother would be proud to have him as a daughter. I
said, "Girls, let's walk on over to the contest". I handed Jamie a little
navy blue clutch purse within which was his lipstick and makeup, in case
he needed to freshen up in the ladies room later on. The three of us knew
that my son had a very excellent chance of winning the pageant and the
full scholarship that accompanied it. As we walked to the elaborately
decorated ballroom in Emily Townsend's spacious home, we began to notice
the other boys who were entered in the contest. All were attired in sissy
school girl uniforms that they were made to wear either in the all girl's
private schools that they attended or at home where they were home
schooled by their mothers. None of the children attended public schools
as their mothers did not want to expose them to boys and boyish behavior.
Looking at the faces of the mothers, I have never seen a group of prouder
and more confident women than these. All were well to do, being able to
send their children to the best prep schools and all were fully secure in
their conviction that it is more advantageous to be a woman in today's
society. Consequently, they were not ashamed of dressing and treating
their sons as girls but were unanimous in their belief that a proper
girlhood would make their sons lovely, properly behaved children. While
some of the mothers were content with keeping their sons in dresses during
their early years, there were others like Lisa Romero who fully planned to
have sexual realignment surgery for their boys, whether they liked it or
not. It seems that many single mothers with just one son are often quite
open to the total feminization of their boys. I found myself relating
more and more to that way of thinking for I cannot imagine Jamie's ever
having to live in a man's world. My darling child is too much of a girl.
As the mother's, family members and prettily dressed boys arrived in the
ballroom, the boys were ushered to a backstage room while the rest of us
found seats in the auditorium-like ballroom. Crystal chandeliers hung
from the ceiling and an all girl musical group in long formal gowns played
soft music in the left front area of the room. As Debbie, Stephanie and I
took our seats we saw Lisa Romero wave and begin to make her way over to
us. Her sister Maria was with her and both women sat down next to us.
Lisa whispered, "Susan, thank you so much for what you did for Laura Ann.
I was telling Maria how you miraculously changed his thinking. He is
ready to be a girl now and I am so happy. I am going to schedule him for
the operation Susan, the sooner the better, before he has second thoughts.
I don't want his father to ever get him back, and making him a total girl
will make it so hard for the authorities to find him. Maybe he can even
go to Briarcliff". I touched Lisa on the arm and said, "I am so happy I
was able to help, dear. Laura Ann will get used to being a girl. He will
love how he will be treated just as my son Jamie did". As we chatted,
Emily Townsend walked out on the stage to the applause of all who were
present. Dressed in a stunning magenta gown, she told us about the origin
of the first Little Miss Briarcliff Beauty Pageant for Boys. Addressing
those in attendance, she said, "I first thought of a pageant for boys when
I saw my lovely 12 year old son Brian admiring girl's dresses. I observed
that his eyes were glued to the television set as the girls in the Miss
Teen Age America Pageant modeled their pretty gowns and won everyone's
hearts with their sweet smiles. I saw a real tenderness in my son for the
first time and asked him if he would like to be in a contest like that.
Much to my surprise he came over and hugged me and started crying. I
said, "What's wrong honey?", and he replied, "Mother, I want to be a girl
and wear pretty dresses". "Oh Jamie darling", I said! "You precious
little angel. My baby wants to be a little girl and wear pretty
clothes?". I wiped away his tears and asked, "Honey, are you sure that
you no longer want to be a boy"? Looking me in the eye my sweetheart
replied, "I don't like to fight, mommy, or play sports, and the boys are
always making fun of me. I want to be a girl like you."
Emily paused for a moment, wiping a tear from her own eye and said, "It
was then that I decided that I was not going to stand for my son to be
teased and ridiculed simply because he was a gentle child and didn't want
to compete in sports or fight like a boy". I said, "Would you like me to
make you a girl, Brian"? He responded, "Would you, mother? Please"? I
told him that it would mean being a girl all the time and that he could
not change back and forth anytime he wanted. "Brian", I said, "If you
become a girl, mother is going to insist that you wear dresses. You will
be forbidden to wear pants and you must never act like a boy. I will
train you to be a young lady if you are serious, dear." "Oh goody,
Mother. When can we begin?", my son replied. It almost seemed like
everything was happening too fast but I liked the idea of having a
daughter and I said, "Well honey, why don't you go up to mommy's room and
take off your boy clothes. I will be right up." When I got upstairs I
did not waste any time but put Brian into a pair of my pink lace panties,
a delicate full satin slip with a lacy hem and one of my little pink
dresses that fit him perfectly. It was on that night that my son Brian
became my daughter Amy, and I would like you to meet her right now." As
Emily looked towards the right side of the stage a lovely young girl with
long brown hair appeared in a red blazer with a bluish crest and a lovely
red pleated skirt. She walked toward the center of the stage and embraced
Emily who proceeded to kiss the child on her cheek. Turning to the
audience, she said, "I want you to meet my daughter Amy, who just
graduated from Karen Chandler's Briarcliff School for Girls" As Amy
curtsied to the audience, everyone stood up and loudly applauded the
lovely feminized son of the pageant's hostess. Emily then handed him the
microphone and he motioned for the audience to be seated. In a trained
girlish voice he said, "I want to welcome you to the first annual Little
Miss Briarcliff Pageant". The curtains opened and their stood thirty very
pretty pre teen and teen age boys beautifully attired in cute school girl
uniforms. A beautiful female song leader was standing in front of them
and as the music started up, they broke out in the lovliest medley of
tunes that one could ever hear.
As the boys sang, I looked deeply into the faces of each one and saw not
only outward feminine beauty but an inner peace and happiness clearly
demonstrated in their singing. I thought, "These boys are happy to be
girls and truly enjoy being dressed as schoolgirls in skirts and blazers.
They looked and felt so very normal in girl's clothes and one could tell
that they embraced their girlhood with joy and enthusiasm". I spoted
Laura Ann standing next to Jamie, his little hands holding the edges of
his pleated skirt so daintily and looking at Jamie and smiling. Truly my
meeting with Laura Ann had affected him and he seemed quite happy in his
pretty clothes. Jamie was looking at us as he sang. It was so very
touching for the mothers of the contestants to see their boys accept their
transformation into pretty girls. Lisa reached out and grasped my arm
saying, "Oh Look at my son, Susan. Look at how he is standing so demurely
in his little skirt. I love him dressed like that". Lisa was ecstatic
and I was so happy for her. She was literally beaming as she deeply
desired Laura Ann to be her daughter rather than her son. I thought she
was going to stand up and cheer when she saw him put his hands on his hips
just like a girl and whisper something to Jamie. After singing several
songs the girlishly dressed boys formed four lines and marched right out
into the audience, down the aisles, with their little skirts swinging and
their Mary Jane shoes clicking. They were all smiling and singing as they
went and it was a delightful to see them looking so pretty and vulnerable.
After completing their circle of the audience, the boys marched back to
the stage forming a single line across the platform. Then as the song
leader gave them a cue, the boys all curtsied at once and blew kisses to
the audience. It was so sweet and I could see that the mothers of some of
the sissified boys were deeply touched. Lisa looked at me and said,
"Susan, My son is a little girl now", and she kissed me on the cheek. I
hugged her and said, "Yes, he is Lisa, and I know that the two of you are
going to be spending many precious moments together as mother and
daughter". The boys waved in unison to the audience and marched backstage
to prepare for the prom dress competition. I could hardly wait to see
Jamie in his white satin dress.
The carefully chosen judges had been watching each boy during the morning
brunch and during the song festival. As we were waiting for the boys to
begin parading across the stage in their gowns, Lisa said, "Susan, did you
know that I talked with one of the judges at brunch this morning"? I
said, "No Lisa, what did you discuss?" She replied, "I asked what they
were looking for in the boys. Susan, they are looking for boys who are
sissies through and through. If there is any sign of boyishness they will
be elimated from the competition! I do hope Laura Ann will act like a
girl". "He will, honey", I reassured her. "Laura Ann is a very pretty
little girl now. So don't you worry about him. You saw how darling he
looked in his little school girl skirt". Lisa smiled and said, "Well, I
guess you are right. Susan", she whispered, "I can hardly wait to have
him permanently changed." I began to say something, but just then the
curtain opened and the first of the boys appeared in a long white prom
dress and dainty two inch satin heels. "Oh look at him Lisa", I said.
"Isn't he just lovely?". As the audience applauded, the child walked
delicately across the stage and twirled about, modeling his dress for us,
and then turned and walked backstage, the picture of girlish femininity.
Several boys followed, all looking radiantly girlish, before Laura Ann
appeared in a rose colored floor length prom dress. Lisa squealed happily
as she saw Laura Ann mincing across the stage so gracefully, holding the
side of his long dress delicately in his right hand. I thought, "Oh, he
must be feeling so wonderfully feminine with his silky petticoats brushing
against his knees". As a woman I love dressing prettily in gowns with
sheer hose and heels, and I could imagine how these boys were feeling. As
I looked at Laura Ann, I knew that Lisa's boy child was not thinking of
football or auto racing. He was sugar and spice and everything nice, a
very pretty young lady, and most certainly a daughter, not a son. Laura
Ann made his sweet little turn, waved to the audience and exited off stage
to the right.
As I watched the boys in the pageant swish across the stage in their
adorable teen age gowns, I must admit that I was deeply touched. I am not
sure why I adore seeing young boys dressed as little girls. Maybe it's
because they look so cute and innocent in their dainty dresses. Any
mother knows that boys can be so rough and untidy. However a boy in a
sissy silk or satin dress is so much better behaved and so more likely to
do what mother asks. As I reflected on these pleasant thoughts, a
collective gasp went up from the audience as this lovely boy with his hair
in long blond curls came out in a white satin dress that was really too
pretty for words to describe. He floated across the stage in his matching
high heels, looking like a genunine young princess about to greet her
admirers at a royal ball. I could not be more proud, for the lovely
princess was none other than my son Jamie, who was in my opinion the
prettiest girl in the contest. All in attendance began to applaud and I
saw Jamie wipe away tears from his eyes with his gloved hands and I just
knew in my heart that I had made the right choice in feminizing my son.
He was so much the girl and dresses were his natural clothes. To dress
Jamie in pants or jeans would be such a waste of innocent feminine beauty.
A child like this needs to be adored and admired as the lovely girl that
he has become. After Jamie exited the stage, five more beautifully
attired boys came out, turned prettily for the judges and proceeded back
stage. When the last child had appeared in his evening gown, the curtain
went down and Emily Townsend consulted the judges who had been busy
casting their votes to determine the five finalists for 1996's "Little
Miss Briarcliff".
As the audience excitedly awaited the results of the judging, there was a
suspenseful drum role and Emily announced, "The first finalist is a
sophmore girl at Briarcliff in Wisconsin, Chrissy Ann Warren". As the
audience applauded, Chrissy, attired in a floor length white chiffon
dress, put his hand to his mouth, giggled like a girl and walked to the
spot on stage where the boys were instructed to stand if they were chosen
as finalists. The second finalist is Diane Riggins, an eighth grader at
Miss Brooks Academy in Mt. Pleasant, Vermont. Diane was prettily dressed
in a modest light blue gown with long sleeves. Diane became so excited at
being chosen that he started to cry but soon walked over to his spot on
the stage. At that point Lisa reached over and grabbed my hand, saying,
"Oh the poor child is so nervous, Susan. I wish I could just hold him to
me and hug him. He makes such a darling little girl". When Emily
Townsend announded the third finalist, I let out a little gasp for it was
Julie Peterson, one of Jamie's friends from Briarcliff. I don't know how
I missed seeing Julie in the school girl chorus. Julie was the boy who
was wearing my wedding dress during the Thanksgiving break at our home in
Madison. It was so nice to see him and I immediately looked around the
ballroom to see if I could see his mother, Linda. We just had to get
together to discuss our lovely sons after the pageant. Three girls were
now chosen out of thirty and I was beginning to get a little nervous. Who
were these judges anyway? Couldn't they see how beautiful Jamie was?
Just as my anxiety level was beginning to rise, I heard Emily say, "Our
fourth finalist is Jamie Graham". Cheers went up from the audience, as
Jamie with his long blond hair and girlish beauty was clearly a crowd
favorite. I had bought Jamie a feminine full skirted white satin gown that
was adorable. I was so excited that I hardly heard Emily say, "Our fifth
finalist is Laura Ann Romero from Chicago, who is being home schooled by
his mother. Lisa jumped to her feet and said, Yessssss! That's my baby
girl! Oh, I just know that Laura Ann was mortified. I heard him say, "Oh
mother!". The other girls tittered but I understood exactly how Lisa
felt. This was her new daughter and she was so delighted that her son was
finally in dresses and ready to be her daughter. Laura Ann was in pink
satin with ruffled sleeves and looked so very pretty. Finally Emily said,
"Our last finalist is Sara Porter a 12th year student from St. Louis'
Ursaline Academy. Sara experienced petticoat punishment at Ursaline and
made such a wonderful girl, that the nuns got permission from his mother
to dress and treat him as a girl throughout the school year. He resisted
strongly at first but soon found himself in the traditional Catholic
school girl uniform and sitting in class surrounded by girls. Encouraged
by the nuns who saw a change for the better in his behavior, his mother
soon began to put him in dresses at home as well. As Sara had four very
strong willed older sisters, it was not a difficult task for his mother to
make him one of the girls at home. For the pageant, Sara was in an
exquisite black velvet and lace dress that made him look very grown up.
After introducing all the boys, Emily said, "Let's have a round of
applause for these lovely children and for their wise and wonderful
mothers who have made them the lovely girls that they are". The audience
stood up and applauded as the boys, looking a bit nervous in their fancy
dresses and heels, held hands and smiled at the very appreciative crowd.
When the standing ovation stopped, Emily announced that the boys would now
be asked a question by the judges to help in the final selection of
"Little Miss Briarcliff".
As the other boys were led backstage, the first child was called to be
interviewed. Emily Townsend said, "Sara, will you please come forward?"
Sara walked to the center of the stage and made a little curtsy to Emily.
Emily then turned to judge Barbara Rogers of "Young Miss" Magazine and
asked for the first question. Ms. Rogers said, "Sara, I understand that
you are the youngest child in your family and the only boy. Was it hard
for you to become a girl, honey, and especially to have to be the little
sister in the family"? Sara hesitated for a moment and then said with a
great amount of poise, "Well, I consider myself lucky to have four older
sisters. I did not mind being the youngest because they spoiled me and
taught me all about being a girl. When I am home from school we all play
dress up and they treat me just like a sister. We do each other's hair
and have so much fun together. I hope to grow up to be just like my
mother and sisters". "Oh Sara, that is wonderful", responded Ms. Rogers.
The audience clapped as Sara walked off the stage and the next little boy
came out. It was Laura Ann, and Lisa and I immediately reached for each
other's hand. Laura Ann was asked his question by Susie Merritt, a top
fashion model from New York. She smiled and said, "Laura Ann dear, "What
do you like best about being a little girl"? Laura Ann put her little
hand to her mouth and then replied, I like being a girl because girls can
wear dresses. It is such fun to play dress up and help mom with the
chores. Mother loves me in my dresses so I like being a girl so I can
wear them. My Alice in Wonderland blue pinafore dress is my favorite
outfit. I don't want to be a boy anymore because boys can't wear pretty
clothes". After saying that the little sweetheart blew a kiss to his
mother. Lisa seemed thrilled, but I wasn't sure what to think. Just
yesterday Lisa had told me that Laura Ann hated being a girl and wearing
dresses. Now he was saying that he loved them. Was his boyish spirit
really broken or was he saying this to avoid his mother's plan to change
him into a girl?
Julie Peterson was called next and Julie's question came from Evelyn
Brooks, the headmistress of a Vermont Girl's Finishing School that also
accepted feminized boys. Emily had opened the "Little Miss Briarcliff"
Pageant to other schools at the insistence of her friend Evelyn. She asked
Julie, "Dear, as a boy who has learned to love being a girl, what
suggestions would you give to mother's whose sons are not as as willing as
you are to be their mother's daughters and wear dresses? Julie thought
for a moment and said, "I would tell the mothers not to give up too
easily. I hated wearing girl's clothes when mother first sent me to
Briarcliff but after being forced to wear dresses every day, I began to
like them. Dresses really are much prettier than boy's clothes and much
more comfortable. I never had lots of friends as a boy but everyone loves
me now that I am a girl, Miss Brooks. I think mothers need to dress their
boys up pretty and give them lots of love and then their boys will like
being girls". "Why thank you Julie", responded the headmistress. "I must
keep that in mind as my three year old gets a bit older. He is already in
dresses and I must give him lots of love so he will enjoy being my little
daughter". Chrissy Ann Warren was next and his question was asked by
Sharon Vernon, a feminist council woman from Chicago. She said, Chrissy,
if you are chosen "Little Miss Briarcliff, what will you do to demonstrate
the superiority of girls over boys? Everyone laughed at the boldness of
Ms Vernon's question but almost everyone in attendance was of the opinion
that women and girls were indeed superior. Chrissy responded, I will never
act mean or hateful like a boy and I will always be kind and sensitive
towards other people. I will show everyone that women and girls are more
gentle, loving, caring, and nicer to be with than boys. I will always
dress prettily and never be sloppy like a boy. As he finished his
sentence, Chrissy dropped a lovely curtsy and then walked off the stage to
the applause of the audience. "What perfectly lovely little boys", I
thought. I hope Jamie answers as eloquently when he is called.
Chapter #16 "Crowning the Winner!"
As the judging of the "Little Miss Briarcliff" Beauty Pageant for Boys
continued, there was the sound of excitement in the ballroom. I recall
when I used to try to guess the winner of the Miss America contests,
and I knew that everyone was now wondering which of these lovely young
boys would be chosen. The first four finalists looked so beautiful in
their gowns and their answers to the judges questions were so girlishly
sweet. Emily Townsend asked Beth Simmons of Vogue Magazine to ask the
question for Diane Riggins, the fifth boy who came out. Diane was a
pixie of a boy, only four feet ten at the most, and one could see why
his mother raised him in dresses. He was just too cute to be a boy.
Beth smiled at the child and asked, Diane honey, your mother tells us
that you just adore playing with dolls? Would you be a dear and tell us
why you love dolls? Diane thought for a moment and replied, I love
playing with dolls because I can dress them in pretty dresses like the
kind mother buys for me. I like to pretend to feed them, change their
clothes and comb their hair. Barbie is my favorite because you can
style her long hair. I also like playing with dolls because my mother
is so happy when I play with my Barbies. I like to make mommy happy.
Why thank you Diane, responded Beth. That is very sweet. Diane
curtsied and walked to the rear of the stage. Now there was just one
boy left and I held my breath, for it was Jamie. Emily smiled and said,
"Jamie Graham, will you come forward please?". Jamie waltzed out
looking like a living doll. I have never seen him look so totally
stunning. Jamie has that rare beauty that causes everyone to turn their
eyes on him when he enters a room. Many boy girls are cute or even
pretty, but Jamie has the face and figure to grace the most elegant
woman's magazines. Both men and women stare unabashedly when they see
my child and are incredulous when they learn that he is actually a boy.
Looking at Jamie, one does not see anything masculine but only sweet,
innocent, girlish beauty. But I am his mother and of course speak from
a biased viewpoint. I thought, "Honey, you can win this pageant on your
beauty alone but I do hope that you answer your question well".
For some reason I was expecting that Jamie would be asked a very
profound question like "Jamie, if you become Little Miss Briarcliff, how
will you allievate the problem of world hunger? Or Jamie, if you are
chosen as Little Miss Briarcliff, how will you help bring peace to the
world?" I found myself smiling at that thought, as Patricia McKenzie,
the fashion editor of Chicago's leading newspaper asked Jamie about the
person who is most important to him. Patricia said, "Jamie, will you
please tell us, 'Who is the most important person in your life' and
why"? Jamie responded, "God is the most important person in my life Ms.
McKensie, but after God, my mother means the most to me. Oh Jamie,
Patricia interjected, that is so thoughtful. Please continue. Jamie
said, "I love my mother so much because she sacrificed so much to raise
me by herself. She always loved me, bought me pretty clothes and sent
me to Briarcliff, the very best school in all the world. But most of
all Miss McKensie, I love my mother because she made me a girl!" Upon
hearing this the entire audience stood up and wildly applauded my son.
Jamie was so taken aback by this sudden adulation that I thought he
would trip over his high heels and fall. But the applauding continued,
for the audience, looking at this totally beautiful child, just knew
that Jamie was exactly what he should be, a pretty young Miss. Jamie
stood there demurely, occasionally brushing back his long curls from his
face, as the applause continued. Finally people began to sit down and
it was time for the judges to make their decision. The six boys were
brought back to the center of the stage and immediately grasped each
other's hand. They all looked so cute in their long dresses. I
thought, "I do not understand why girls do not love to wear such pretty
clothes today. They seem to prefer jeans and baggy clothes instead of
the silks and satins that were the preference of their grandmothers and
great grandmothers. Then I smiled to myself as I thought, "Well, if
girls refuse to wear the pretty dresses that their sex entitles them to
wear, then mothers might very well have to put their pretty boys in
frilly clothes. Part of the fun of being a mother is dressing up one's
children in pretty dresses and ribbons.. I personally think that boys
should be kept in dresses as children so that they might learn to be
gentle and well behaved like girls.
Finally it was time for the announcement of the winner. Emily Townsend
was handed the judges decision by Patricia McKensie and upon opening the
envelope said, The second runner up is Laura Ann Romero! The audience
applauded appreciatively and Laura Ann was presented with a beautiful
bouquet of flowers and a lovely trophy with a tiny beauty queen in a
long gown perched on top. I looked at Lisa and said, "Congratulations
dear. Laura Ann did so well." Lisa was so sweet. I knew she wanted
her son to be "Little Miss Briarcliff" but she whispered to me, "I am so
happy Susan, Laura Ann finished third and Jamie is going to be the
winner". Well, I smiled and squeezed her arm, but I didn't know for
sure. All the boys were so pretty. Then Emily said, "The first runner
up is Julie Peterson. "Oh my" I thought. Julie has come such a long
way since he made a fuss about having to wear dresses and go to a girl's
school on that first day on the Briarcliff campus. But looking at him
now I thought, Not only had he worn dresses every day for an entire year
but now he was attired in a long gown and was the second place winner in
a beauty pageant. I'm afraid that Julie is not much of a boy anymore.
But I am happy for him as he is most certainly joyful and content in his
new feminine role. Looking at Julie so prettily dressed made me feel so
warm inside for I knew that this was one child who would not miss out on
the wonders and delights of femininity. Linda his mother, must be so
proud of him. Julie looked radiant as he received his flowers and
trophy and waved to his mother in the audience. Now there were just
four girls left. Who would be "Little Miss Briarcliff?" Would it be
Sara, who was forcefully skirted and petticoated by the nuns; Diane who
adored dressing up his little Barbies; Chrissy, who indicated that girls
were superior to boys; or my sweet girl Jamie who had the striking
beauty of a blond Brook Shields? Emily opened the envelope and with a
smiling face said, "The winner of the "Little Miss Braircliff Beauty
Pageant for Boys is, Jamie Sue Graham! Well, I can't tell you how I was
overcome with emotion. I along with everyone else rose to my feet and
joined in the hearty applause that was given to Jamie. Emily walked
over to my son and placed a sparkling diamond tiara on his head of
flowing golden curls. The other boys in the contest walked out in their
dresses and gathered around him as he cried sweetly just like the little
girl that he is.
A beautiful white silk and satin robe with was placed around his
shoulders and as he tried to hold his tiara in place with one hand and
hold the flowers to his bosom with the other, Jamie began the
traditional walk of beauty queens everywhere. He walked so gracefully
in his lovely dress, placing one high heeled shoe in front of the other.
I thought, "The real teen age girls in the audience could probably learn
more about being a proper young lady from my son than from their peers
at school who have all too much distain for pretty clothes and radiant
femininity. As Jamie was parading before his many admirers I thought,
"How very fitting for this beautiful child to be so prettily attired in
a white satin gown, billowing petticoats and darling panties when so
many boys who may be equally beautiful, are condemned to wearing cotton
or flannel shirts and uncomfortable pants during these wonderful years.
Many photograpers were present and lots of pictures were taken of Jamie
and the two runner's up. As Emily Townsend brought the pageant to a
close with an invitation for all to return next year, I saw Linda
Peterson coming to greet me from across the aisle. "Susan" she shouted,
"Congratulations! I just knew that Jamie was going to win. Oh Susan
you have made such a girl out of him. He is so darling. Why thank you
Linda, I replied. Congratulations to you too. Julie looks stunning and
was right there with Jamie among the finalists. Linda, where did you
ever buy his dress? "Susan", Julie replied, "You are not going to
believe this but I made his dress! You didn't!!!, I replied. Oh Linda,
I can't believe it. I didn't realize that you knew how to sew. Oh yes
Susan, after I enrolled Julie at Briarcliff I realized that we had a lot
of catching up to do as mother and daughter and I wanted us be able to
share some things together. So I learned to sew and I am also teaching
Julie. He never would have been caught sewing when he was a boy but now
my baby likes nothing better than to slip into a nice dress and sit with
me on the couch as we sew together.
I feel that it has the effect of making Julie feel more secure in his
new girlhood. Aren't you glad that our boys are in dresses, Susan? I
just love it".
Lisa Romero came over too with little Laura Ann holding her hand. I
hugged her and her son and introduced both of them to Linda Peterson.
Lisa was so happy that Laura Ann finished third in the voting. I
thought to myself, "What fortunate mothers we are. Unlike many families
where the boys take after their fathers, our sons take after us. We
don't have to take them shopping for pants and jeans or worry about
their going into the male restrooms when we go out to eat. No, our boys
are learning to be girls and we can dress them up prettily just like we
did our dolls when we were children. It was nearing 6:00 PM and the
Petersons and Jamie and I were staying another night in Chicago prior to
flying back to Madison. Lisa, who was staying at Emily's mansion with
her son Laura Ann, suggested that the six of us go out to eat together.
We decided to keep the boys in their pageant dresses and dine in a fancy
restaurant on Michigan Avenue. Emily summoned her chauffeur and we rode
in style in a white stretch limousine to an exclusive German restaurant.
During the drive Jamie, Julie and Laura Ann were gossiping like school
girls and we three mothers felt so proud of our transformed sons. Linda
Peterson was beaming and said, "Susan, it is hard to believe the changes
that have taken place in Julie". Who could have guessed a year ago that
my Julie would become my properly dressed little girl? Julie heard her
and smiled saying, "Mother, are you talking about me again"? Linda
responded, "Yes dear, I am telling the ladies what a delightful little
girl you have become for me". Do you like him better this way,
interrupted Lisa"? "Oh yes, Lisa, I love him in dresses. He is my
little princess now". Julie smoothed the skirt of his gown and moved
his legs closer together just like a girl. He looked so demure as his
mother and Lisa commented on his femininity. Jamie said, "Mom, when are
we going to get there. I'm starved". We are almost there darling, I
replied. Lisa, Linda and I smiled, feeling like the luckiest women
alive to have such pretty little girls for sons.
As we walked into the restaurant, all eyes were upon as we were led to
our table. We looked like mothers and daughters out for a night on the
town. Oh, if they only knew that the children with us were boys. I
don't know what would have happened. Fortunately the boys conducted
themselves as young ladies and seemed to feel completely at home in
their long dresses. As we looked at the elaborate menus, I noticed that
all the boys were wearing nail polish. It looked so becoming on them
and added to their youthful femininity After ordering, Linda put her
arm around Julie's shoulders and whispered, "I am so happy that you are
a girl now, Julie. You are the daughter that I always wanted". Lisa
smiled and said, "That is so sweet Linda. I love having my little girl
too. You love being a little girl, don't you Laura Ann"? Laura Ann
looked up at me and then shyly said to his mother, "Yes, mother. I do".
"You like what, Laura Ann"?, Lisa interjected. Speak up honey and tell
mother and the ladies! I like being a girl, mommy. "I like it a whole
lot". Lisa reached down and kissed her son on the cheek. That's good
sweetie, because soon you are going to become a REAL girl. I winced a
little upon hearing this. I knew that Lisa was going to have Laura Ann
surgically changed but hoped that her bringing it up would not make
Laura Ann or the other boys feel uncomfortable. Julie asked, "What is
going to happen to him, Mrs. Romero"? Lisa patted Julie on the head
and whispered, "He is going to undergo a little change dear so that he
will grow up to be a lovely woman". We all looked at Laura Ann to see
if his mother's statement troubled him but he seemed just fine. Perhaps
he has fully accepted his fate and will not rebel against the plan to
totally feminize him. It certainly would be a lot easier for Lisa if
her child accepted the fact that he would never be wearing pants again.
The food was finally brought out and we all had a wonderful meal as we
discussed ther excitement of our sons finishing one, two and three in
the pageant.
As Linda and Julie were flying out of O'Hare at the same time as us, the
next afternoon, I talked them into staying with us at our downtown
hotel. The limo driver dropped us off at the hotel and we said a
tearful goodbye to Lisa and her son, knowing that the next time that we
saw Laura Ann, he would definitely be a "she". Secretly I was happy for
both mother and son. Lisa would have her daughter and Laura Ann could
stop worrying about being discovered as a little boy in dresses. It
makes so much sense for him to become a girl. Perhaps I need to do the
same to Jamie. I made a mental note of discussing this with Linda
tonight. The boys sashayed into the hotel lobby in their long dresses.
A pretty clerk at the check in desk spotted them and said, "Oh girls,
were you at a wedding today"? Jamie answered saying, "No, we were at a
beauty pageant". And how did you do, asked the clerk? Jamie blushed as
Linda pointed at him and told the clerk, "That little girl was chosen as
"Little Miss Briarcliff". Ohhhhh, exclaimed the girl. Congratulations!
I can see why you won. You are so beautiful". And you are too honey,
she said, looking at Laura Ann. "I was third, Laura Ann said. Oh my
goodness, replied the clerk, we have celebrities staying with us
tonight. We are so honored. This made the boys smile and they felt so
proud receiving all the attention. We took the elevator to the tenth
floor and entered our very lavish room. The boys jumped on the bed and
had to be told to take their dresses off first so they didn't ruin them.
Soon our darlings were standing in front of us in just their bras and
panties. Linda and I winked at one another for we took pleasure in
sucessfully feminizing our sons. Many mothers would love to change
their boys into girls but are prevented from doing so by their husbands
or in some cases because their boys simply do not have the temperment to
be girls. Linda and I reached into our suitcases and selected lace
trimmed satin nightgowns for our boys. Taking Jamie's bra off but
leaving his panties on, I slipped his pretty pink nightie over his head.
Linda did the same to Julie, whose gown was cream colored and very lacy,
and our darlings were set for the night. I sprayed Julie and Jamie with
my Obsession perfume and I can freely say that there were no males in
the room that night. Linda and I were two attractive, somewhat dominant
women, with two femininely dressed sons, whom we dressed and treated as
little girls. It is our desire that Jamie and Julie will never be boys
again.
Linda turned on the television and as we watched a very romantic movie,
Julie sat on a chair before Linda and Jamie sat on one in front of me.
It was time for the nightly ritual of brushing the long hair of our
sons. Jamie's was almost waist length while Julie's was worn in a page
boy style. Jamie played with one of his Barbies as I brushed his hair.
Jamie has always loved dolls and I have often thought that he would have
been teased as a sissy if I didn't make him a girl. Our rigid society
doesn't allow boys to play with dolls. I think it is sweet when a boy
likes dolls. Jamie loves to dress his Barbies up in pretty outfits and
comb their hair. One time I bought him a "Party girl" Barbie in a pink
dress and went out of my way to find a similar dress for him. When I
came home from the store I gave him his Barbie and then put the matching
dress on him. He was so happy to be dressed like his favorite doll and
played with her all afternoon. As Linda and I brushed our children's
hair, I asked, "Linda, have you ever thought of going all the way with
Julie"? What do you mean, Susan, she replied. "I mean, have you ever
thought that it might just be easier having him changed into a girl?
Well, to be honest, Susan, "I think about it a lot lately. Julie has
adjusted so well to being a girl after a year at Briarcliff that I do
not think that he could go back to being a boy again. Not that I would
want that, she added. Oh I know, I said. I couldn't stand to think of
Jamie as a boy. I hugged my honey to me. You wouldn't want to be a
nasty boy, would you Jamie? No mother, he replied. I want to be a girl
like you. Mmmmmm, I kissed him and said, "I know dear. You are "all
girl" and mommy likes you this way. Turning to Linda, I said, "You know
hon, we don't have much time to make a decision. Soon our sons will be
going through puberty and you know the terrible things that can happen.
I don't want my child growing muscles, having body hair and experiencing
changes in his sweet voice. Oh Susan, you are so right. I am so happy
about finally having Julie as my daughter. I haven't had time to think
about those things. What shall we do?
I started to braid Jamie's hair deciding to put him in pigtails for the
trip home. I love pigtails on a boy and tying them in pretty satin
ribbons is so feminizing. As I braided his hair I said to Linda, "Would
you be willing to visit Dr. Williams with me. Evelyn Williams is the
doctor who changed an English family's son into a delightful little
girl. Julie knows Andrea, don't you darling?, I said. Yes, Mrs.
Graham, Julie replied. "I met Andrea when I was at your home for
Thanksgiving. He dressed up as a cowgirl in a long skirt when we played
dress up. . That's right dear. You have such a good memory. And you
were wearing my wedding dress, weren't you? Julie blushed, remembering
how happy he was, dressed as a bride. Did you know that Andrea is a
complete girl now, Julie? Really? I think that is neat, said Julie.
Linda smiled and said to me, "I don't know if Julie understands
completely what that means, Susan. Well, I haven't talked much about it
with Jamie either but I do believe that we are going to have to face the
reality of the situation. Unless we take steps now, our boy's bodies
are going to betray them and try to steal away their sweet girlish looks
and mannerisms. Linda, let's consider the pluses and the minuses of
having our children changed. As I spoke I tied my son's pigtails with
pretty pink satin ribbons. I looked over at Julie and saw that his
mother had put his hair up in curlers so he would have a pretty hairdo
in the morning. Julie looked so girlish in his pink curlers and satin
night gown. Think about it, Linda. What would be the best reasons for
making Julie a girl?
Linda became very serious and said, "Susan, the most compelling reason
is that I want him to be a girl. I think of Julie as my daughter now
and the thought of him being a boy is frightening to me. I feel closer
to him and I look forward to teaching him to be a young woman as he
approaches his teenage years. I want a companion to go shopping with,
to go to the theatre with, and to share secrets with. You can't do
those things with a boy. If Julie is a girl, I feel we will always be
close and I won't lose him. Besides Susan, he is way to pretty to be a
boy, don't you agree? I had to agree with her on that. Julie made a
splendid girl. As we talked I could tell the boys were listening but
they were not saying anything. I wondered what was going through their
little minds. I think they feel much safer in a woman's world and would
be scared about being thrust into a world of men that is so far removed
from them now. But the decision is not really in their hands. As their
mothers, Linda and I will make that decision for them and at the present
moment, I feel rather strongly about Jamie becoming a girl for good. As
we chatted about the future sex of our sons, the boys eventually became
very sleepy and Linda and I laid them down in their beds. I pulled
Jamie's nightie down and kissed him goodnight, thinking that perhaps my
son needs to become my daughter very soon. It was a pleasant thought
and one that I would most definitely pursue with my good friend Linda,
whose little Julie would also be better off as a little girl. Oh, if
only our children had been born girls! But, we can adjust what nature
failed to do for our sons so they can thoroughly enjoy the exquisite
delights of being girls like us. Linda and I were soon asleep, dreaming
of our lovely daughters to be. The next day we all returned to Madison
and started to think about Jamie's forthcoming summer modeling job in
New York. End of Chapter #16. Judigirl3@aol.com
Chapter #17 "Jamie goes to New York!"
"Susan, you must feel so very proud", Megan said, after congratulating
me on Jamie's winning the "Little Miss Briarcliff" Pageant. "It is a
mother's dream to have her child become a beauty queen. Your son is
such a precious little girl" "Why thank you Megan", I replied. "That
is such a nice thing to say". My neighbor Megan and I had become close
friends after I helped change Megan's youngest son Patrick into her
little daughter. Megan always preferred girls and kept trying to have
one. But after her fifth child was also a boy, she was understandably
heartbroken. But now she had little Patricia and her years of
frustration were alleviated by lavishing her full attention on making
Patrick the ideal four year old girl. I told her, "Megan, you must be
careful not to dote too much on Patrick and forget that you also have
four boys!" Megan bought so many dresses, slips, panties and
accessories for Patrick that I wondered how she had any money left to
outfit her other children. She assured me that the boys were doing
well and that her husband Frank, and Patrick's brothers, had all
accepted the fact that Patrick is no longer one of the boys. Rather he
is their sissy little sister and they are accustomed to seeing him in
dresses. Megan then asked, "Susan, is Jamie still going to model for
the Montaigne Agency this summer"? Megan had remembered my telling her
that Jamie and four of his classmates were chosen by the agency to
model dresses and lingerie for a layout that "Young Miss" magazine was
doing. I replied, "It is interesting that you mention that Megan
because Jamie and I were just talking about it. He and the other girls
will be flying to New York in two weeks". "Oh Susan, I think that is so
wonderful", she said. "You know, I see Jamie as a role model for
Patrick and I want my son to follow in Jamie's footsteps and become the
perfect little girl that Jamie is". "Well, you are doing a good job
with Patrick, hon", I replied :Everytime I see him, he looks so
cute. You dress him in the prettiest clothes". "Thank you Susan", she
said. "I know that I do fuss over him a lot but after all these years
of only having boys around the house, it is so delightful to have a
child that I can put in ribbons and dresses. My son is so precious
and he is such a mommy's girl". I said goodbye to Megan, wondering if
she had yet decided to make one of her other boys a big sister for
Patrick. She had mentioned that to me several times but at least for
the time being, she was too busy sissifying Patrick to pay much
attention to petticoating any of her other boys.
The days prior to Jamie's leaving for his modeling job in New York,
passed all too quickly. He would be staying at Tara Collin's lovely
apartment in Manhattan during the two weeks of posing for photos. Tara,
along with Diana Evenson, both of whom are Montaigne executives, had
chosen Jamie along with the Stapleton twins and two real girls, Mary Ann
McCreary and Stacy Summers to model for this prestigious teen girl's
magazine Fall fashion section. Tara called the Tuesday evening before
Jamie's weekend flight to New York. "Susan", she said, "you can't
imagine how excited I am to have Jamie stay with me for the next two
weeks. I was so impressed with him during the interview. Susan, you
are an unbelievable woman. You have made your son into such a pretty
and well mannered little girl. I hope that you don't mind that I took a
picture of him in a dress that he modeling for us during the interview
last Spring.. I keep it on my bureau and none of my friends can
believe that he is a boy. He is the perfect little girl, and hopefully
an inspiration for other mothers who prefer dressing their sons in less
traditional styles". "Oh my", I thought, "I can see that I am not
going to have to worry about Jamie being subjected to boyish influences
while he is with Tara. She seems to have a genuine appreciation for
femininely dressed boys". I said, "Thank you Tara. I hope that Jamie
will not be any trouble for you". "Oh no, Susan", she said, "I am going
to love having him here and I expect to have my little nine year old
brother staying with me this summer too. Susan, I have such wonderful
plans for Richard and spending time with Jamie is going to be the best
thing that has ever happened to him. Richard is such a darling boy and
he and Jamie will get along so well together". "Susan", she continued,
"may I take Jamie shopping with me when he comes"? "Certainly Tara,
that is very kind of you", I responded. "Oh good", she said, "I know
some exquisite little girl shops and I want to take Richard and Jamie
there. I thought to myself, "It sounds as if Richard isn't going to be
playing Little League baseball this summer. Tara seems to have other
plans for her baby brother".
Saturday came all too quickly and I kissed my son goodbye at the
airport. Of course, anyone watching assumed it was a mother saying
goodbye to her daughter for Jamie was attired in a gold check party
dress with a velvet drop waist bodice and a full taffeta skirt with a
crinoline underskirt. He was wearing a gold ribbon in his long blond
hair and little gold shoes with white stockings. For some reason I
thought, "I wonder what Jamie's father would say if he was able to see
him now?". I rarely thought of Jamie's father but had to admit that I
delighted in the fact that my unfaithful husband's son had become my
daughter and was closer to me than he ever would have been to him.
Jamie has never known what it is like to be a boy and as I watched him
board the plane in his pretty dress, walking daintily in his little
golden slippers with two inch heels, I was glad that he never had to
experience a boyhood. And why should he have to be a boy? Just because
he was born a boy doesn't mean that he has to be raised as one. Jamie
would never want to give up his dresses or have his long hair cut off.
He wears pretty clothes, loves to shop, adores make up, and is so gentle
with his dolls. I would never take him out of dresses and make him be
a boy. Jamie's world is one of sweet smelling perfume, pearl
necklaces, frilly party dresses, beauty salons, excursions to the ballet,
satin hair ribbons that match his dresses, and the constant company
of women and girls. He is graceful, polite, feminine, caring and in
short, a sweet little girl. I thought of these truths as my darling
turned and waved to me, before entering the plane. I saw a pretty
flight attendant take his hand and I knew that he would be well taken
care of during the flight, not just because he was flying first class
but because everyone makes a fuss over a beautiful, prettily dressed
little girl. Jamie would win their hearts with his totally girlish
ways.
Jamie later told me that during the flight the flight attendants were
very nice to him. A very pretty attendant named Amy brought him
women's magazines to read and after supper was served, she sat down
next to him. They admired the dresses in the magazines together and
she asked Jamie all kinds of questions. My son told her about
Briarcliff, the Harvest Festival, the Doll Show and of course about how
he had just won the "Little Miss Briarcliff" contest. She told Jamie
about how she had been a cheer leader in high school and college, about
being the president of her college sorority and about how she loved to
fly to exotic places. She told Jamie that he ought to pledge her Kappa
sorority if his mother decided to send him to Wellsley. The whole trip
was filled with girltalk and Amy never suspected even for a moment that
Jamie was a boy. Jamie told her where he was staying in New York and
Amy volunteered to take him shopping one day as she was based out of
New York. Jamie gave her Tara's number and the two bid farewell as
Jamie left the plane on his way to meet Tara and her friends. As Jamie
exited the plane, he heard a little shout and saw Tara and three of her
girl friends waving to him. Tara scooped him up in her arms and kissed
him, embarrassing Jamie a little as he was an eleven year old young
lady, not a four year old girl. But Tara was so excited. The other
girls who were told that Jamie is a boy were amazed. Alicia looked at
Allison and the two laughingly gave each other high fives, thinking,
"What fun this is going to be". As good friends of Tara, they were
fascinated by this beautiful child who looked totally like a little girl
but was really a boy underneath. Allison said, "I'm so pleased to meet
you Jamie". Jamie, out of habit, curtsied and the girls could hardly
believe how feminized he was. Nancy, the third girl with them said,
"Oh Jamie, that is the most beautiful dress that I have even seen. Did
your mother make it for you"? Jamie held out his skirts and said, "No,
mother bought it for me at Marshall Field's in Chicago". "Well it is
very pretty honey", Nancy said. Alicia and Tara took his hand and they
walked towards the baggage claim to retrieve Jamie's luggage.
When his two pastel colored suitcases came out, Jamie tried to grab one
off of the conveyor belt, but Allison took it from him. "Be careful
hon, you will mess up your dress", she said. As Allison and Nancy were
in jeans, they carried the suitcases to the car. Jamie, now walking in
between Tara and Alicia, holding their hands, clicked along in his heels
with his little dress swishing, feeling very at home in the company of
such nice girls who obviously were thrilled to have him in their midst.
The girls piled into the car and squeezed Jamie in the backseat between
Tara and Alicia. Tara thoughtfully pulled down the skirt of his dress
as they bunched together in the car. As they drove to Tara's
apartment, Allison said , "Jamie, we all know that you are a boy but we
don't care. As far as we are concerned you are a girl like us. We want
you to have a good time here". "Oh thank you", said Jamie. Nancy then
asked, "Honey, are you excited about modeling dresses for Young Miss"?
"Oh yes, I am", replied Jamie. "I like wearing pretty clothes". "Oh
my goodness", said Allison, "Tara, you might have found the ideal
companion for Richard!". Allison and her friends knew that Tara
desparately wanted a little sister and that s he had designs on
Richard's fulfilling that need ever since she can remember. She
deliberately feminized Richard when she babysat him when their parents
were out and she imagined that Richard actually started to like playing
with dolls. But Richard was still far too boyish to suit his sister.
Now that Jamie was here and Richard was staying with her for the summer,
maybe she would have a chance to see her dreams come true. They
soon arrived at Tara's apartment and the five girls, after greeting the
door man, took the elevator to Tara's eighth floor luxury apartment.
Cindy, another friend who was watching Richard while the others went to
pick up Jamie at the airport opened the door and was introduced to
Jamie. "It is such a pleasure to meet you Jamie", she said, smiling at
the prettily dressed boy. Tara called into the kitchen and said, "Come
out here Richard, I want you to meet a new little friend". =
Richard showed his head through the door and Jamie was horrified to see
him in a cowboy outfit complete with cowboy boots and two holsters with
guns. Richard took the cap guns out of the holster and fired two loud
shots at Jamie, terrifying my eleven year old. He jumped and hid
behind Tara's skirts. Tara was furious and took the guns away from him
and told him to go into the kitchen. She then stooped down, and looking
Jamie in the eyes, said, "I am so sorry dear. Are you ok? This will
never happen again". She smoothed his skirt and wiped the beginning
tears in Jamie's eyes with a lace handkerchief which she let him keep.
Jamie put it in his purse and Tara said, "Let's all sit down girls and
make Jamie feel welcome. I will be right back". As Allison, Nancy,
Alicia, Cindy and Jamie talked, they heard loud swats coming from the
kitchen as Tara administered a well deserved spanking to Richard for his
very unruly behavior upon meeting Jamie. Jamie thought he heard Tara
saying, "If you ever, ever frighten Jamie again Tina, you will regret
it the rest of your life. You are to treat girls with respect all the
time, do you understand?" Jamie thought, "Did she call him Tina?" The
other girls giggled and said, "Don't you worry Jamie, soon Richard will
be as well behaved as a girl". They all laughed again and Jamie
wondered if Richard was going to be turned into a girl like his friend
Andrea, and Patrick, the neighbor boy back in Wisconsin. Tara served a
delicious dinner at her large dining room table that night. Richard was
there too sitting on a pillow which helped ease the pain from his
spanking for being a bad child. It was clear that Tara was not going to
tolerate bad manners in her home. She was angry with her mother for
packing the cowboy suit and cap pistols in Richard's suitcase. Such
boyish toys were the last things that she wanted during this special
time that a girlishly dressed boy would be staying with them. "I must
begin Richard's training tonight", she thought, "and Jamie's being here
will be of such help".
After supper, Tara invited her friends to spend the night. Tara's was a
very high priced apartment on Central Park West and there were five
bedrooms, room enough for several girls. She had several videos in her
library and suggested that the girls get more comfortable before curling
up on the couch to enjoy an evening of movie watching and girltalk.
Tara said, "Follow me Jamie and I will show you where we will be
sleeping". Jamie followed Tara into the most lovely bedroom he had
ever seen. The drapes were of a beautiful rose color, very fancy and
utterly feminine. Tara had a white satin bedspread with very elegant
rose colored flower designs which covered lovely white satin sheets and
pillow cases. Her furniture was of rosewood and the vanity had a large
well lighted mirror filled with feminine delights. Jamie had never seen
so many bottles of perfume, scented soaps, lipsticks, and a variety of
cosmetics. Jamie's high heeled slippers sank into the plush cream
colored carpet and the child knew that he was in the bedroom of an
ultra feminine woman with exquisite taste in decorating. Tara smiled
at my son and said, "Well Missy, what do you think"? "Oh I love your
room, Tara", Jamie replied. "Well honey, I am glad, because guess what?
It is our room! You and I will be roommates while you are here. Would
you like that sweetie"? "Oh good", shouted Jamie. "I would love it"!
"Well, take off your dress then honey and be comfortable while we watch
the movie". Tara walked over to Jamie and began unbuttoning the back
of his dress. She said, "Jamie, your mother was so right to put you in
dresses. I can't imagine you as a boy". She lifted the dress over his
head and remarked, "Oh what a perfectly lovely petticoat. I just love
the lace and frills. Jamie, you are a girl for sure, aren't you"?
"Well, I guess so Tara", my son replied. "Jamie hon, there is no
guessing about it. You and I are both girls. Look at us"! She put her
arm around Jamie's waist and the two pranced back and forth in front of
the dresser mirror, seeing the image of two lovely long haired girls
looking back at them. Jamie, would you be a dear and help me with my
dress"?
Jamie, feeling very sissy standing there in his petticoat and panties
began to unzip the back of Tara's dress. He helped her slip out of it
and felt so warm in his heart as he saw the beautiful Tara Collins, a
26 year old former model, looking so beautiful in a full length white
slip. Her waist was so thin and her feminine legs were so long and
smooth. She looked just like "Barbie". "Now we are both in our
slips", Jamie. "Aren't we pretty", she said to the boy. "Come and sit
on the bed by me", honey. Jamie walked to the bed, gathered the skirt
of his petticoat and sat close to Tara. "We are going to be special
girl friends Jamie, aren't we". She put her hand around the prettily
dressed child and began to play with his hair ribbon. Undoing it, she
arranged Jamie's hair again and tied a pretty bow. She then said,
"Jamie, I love to see a boy in pretty girl's dresses. It's just not
right that pretty little boys should be forced to wear such unattractive
clothes. Dresses are so much fun to wear and should not be forbidden to
boys. Can I tell you a secret, sweetheart". " Sure", said Jamie.
"Jamie", she whispered in his ear, "I am going to change Richard into a
girl and make him wear dresses just like we do. What do you think of
that"? Tara clasped her hands together and said, "Mother is out of town
and Richard is totally at my mercy. His shooting those terrible cap
guns at you convinced me that I shouldn't wait any longer". "Jamie",
she said, winking at my son, "do you think we can make Richard a sissy
girl"? Jamie was used to seeing boys changed into girls and some of his
best friends at Briarcliff, including Julie and the twins, were skirted
boys, so he said to Tara, "Yes, Tara, I will try to help you" "Goo d
girl", Jamie, said Tara. Between the two of us and my other friends,
Richard is going to learn what it is like to feel like a girl. Let's go
out and see what the other girls are doing"? But Tara, Jamie said,
we're just in our slips! That's ok hon, she replied, We are all girls
here and Richard doesn't count. Taking my son by the hand she led him
out to the living room, his little petticoats bouncing, only to find
that Alicia, Allison, and Nancy were already there also attired in just
their slips. Oh this was such a feminine setting, thought Jamie. The
girls all looked at him and Alicia ooooohed saying, "Jamie, that
petticoat is just adorable. I wore one exactly like it under my
first communion dress. I felt like such a big girl". Mother always
put me in petticoats under my party dresses, volunteered Alicia. Jamie,
you are such a lucky boy to be able to wear a pretty petticoat. You
know that don't you darling, responded Alicia. Jamie, not knowing what
to say just held the sides of his slip and dropped a little curtsy.
Alicia said, "Oh you sweet little doll. Come over here. Jamie bounded
over to Alicia and she sat him on her lap, smoothing his skirts over
his knees. You are my little girl, aren't you Jamie dear.
Now wait a minute Alicia, said Tara, Jamie is everyone's little sister.
You can't have him to yourself Alicia. Alicia laughed and wrestled
Jamie to the couch saying, Oh yes I can, and she gave him a little kiss
on his neck. Jamie smelled her perfume and the attention practically
made his head spin. Soon Allison and Nancy jumped in and everyone was
tangled up on the couch in a mass of skirts and petticoats all trying to
lavish attention on my sweet, prettified little son. There was no way
that he could ever remain boyish with all the female attention given to
him. The girls loved my darling in his petticoats and panties, not to
mention his long waist length hair and they covered him with sweet
feminine kisses, treating him like the little sister they all wanted
but never had. Jamie was laughing too and when the laughing stopped the
girls all snuggled together on the couch with Jamie in the middle and
with their arms around my son , began to watch Julia Roberts in "Pretty
Woman" Tara was a little concerned that it might be a little too
risque for Jamie but the girls held their hands over my son's eyes
during the parts that might not be appropriate for an eleven year old
girl to see. Jamie felt so comfortable snuggling up to the older
girls. He felt that he was right when he belonged, in the company of
women, just as his mother intended. As he rested his curly locks on
Allison's bosom, he felt Alicia's caressing hand running through his
hair while Nancy gently stroked his arm. Midway through the show ,
while Jamie was in a state of youthful bliss as the object of attention
of all the girls, he felt Tara reaching for his hand. Jamie extended his
hand and soon felt his nails being gently buffed. Tara then said,
"Hold out your hand honey. Jamie did and Tara began to apply a coat of
pink nail polish to my son. Everything was so natural. Jamie was a
little girl among girls and having a woman paint his nails was the most
natural thing in the world for the boy. The other girls looked on
approving, sometimes running their hands through his hair, other times
giving him a gentle kiss or just pulling him to them to give him a
girlish embrace. As a woman, this is the life I want for my son. I do
not want him to be a karate fighter, a hockey player or a soldier. I
want him to enjoy silky nighties next to his skin, the smell of perfume
on his wrists and the company of women who do not regard him as an
outsider but as one of the members in the sweet sorority of women and
girls.
When the movie was over, it was still early, and all the girls planned
to sleep in the following morning. Tara served coffee and tea, delicate
pastries and other delightful snacks to the girls who developed a
little appetite during the showing of the movie. Allison and Nancy had
gone to their rooms and slipped into very pretty satin nightgowns of
pink and powder blue. Jamie, Tara and Nancy were still in their slips,
so Tara suggested that they all change into nightgowns and then return
to the living room for a surprise that she had for them. Oh a
surprise, shouted Jamie? What kind of a surprise? Now you just hush
Jamie and go and get into the nightie that I laid out for you. It is
hanging in our closet. Yes Tara, Jamie said, and skipped off to his and
Tara's room. Jamie closed the door and saw a very feminine pink nylon
babydoll nightie hanging on the closet door with matching panties
trimmed with lace. It was a very sissy gown and he immediately slipped
it over his head and stepped into the panties. Tara came in at the
same time and said, "Oh girly, that is perfect for you. I hope that
pink is your favorite color! Oh Tara, how did you know, said Jamie. I
just did, said Tara. Girls like pink, light blue and other pastel
shades, but most sissies seem to prefer pink. It is the best color for
dainty boys because pink is for girls. You look darling in it, dear.
Thank you Tara, Jamie said, dropping a little curtsy. Now come on
outside honey for the surprise. Jamie fluffed out his long hair and
looking very pretty in his pink babydoll walked out to the living room,
wondering what was going to happen next on this exciting trip to New
York. Tara said, "Girls, you are probably all wondering where Cindy
and Richard have been while we were watching the movie. Allison chimed
in, "Yes, I was wondering why it was so quiet around here. Where are
they? I though that Cindy took him out to the grocery store, Nancy
said. Tara smile and said, No, girls, Richard is right here. Cindy
and he were kind of ahhhh, "preoccupied" in the rear bedroom. Then
Tara called, Cinnnnndy! Riiiiichard! Where are you? Come on out!!!!
Suddenly there was a little shout and we heard Richard say, "No, I
won't come out! You can't make me. Let me go! Let me go! But the
door opened and Cindy, dragging little Richard by the arm, entered the
living room with a daintily dressed little boy attired in a velvet and
taffeta dress with a black velvet bodice and a tiered plaid taffeta
skirt. A pretty red sash was tied in the back of his dress. It was
Richard, and the girls went wild when they saw him. Tara was almost
crying with happiness and thought, "Richard dear, today is your very
first day as a little girl and I assure you my darling brother, it will
not be your last".
Chapter #18 Tara's New Sister!
Richard was struggling but Cindy dragged him out of the bedroom in his
cute little dress and the girls quickly gathered around him. Alicia
took hold of one arm and Allison the other, for they had to subdue the
boy before he torn his pretty clothes. The little nine year old didn't
have a chance as there were four girls who were determined to help their
friend Tara have the little sister that she longed for. Nancy said,
"Richard, stop struggling this instant before you wrinkle your dress".
Richard tried to kick her but she grabbed his nylon encased legs and
helped the other girls carry him to the sofa. Jamie heard Tara saying,
"Oh my dear little sister. Look at you. You are finally in a dress.
Doesn't it feel good to be a girl, honey?". Richard was besides
himself. Granted he had played with dolls to please Tara in the past,
but she had never gone this far before. His sister's friend Cindy, made
him not only wear a dress but a petticoat, panties, pantyhose and mary
janes as well. He felt totally different in this attire and didn't know
what to do. Finally, as the girls talked very sweetly to him, he
stopped resisting. "Now Richard", his sister lied, "Mother has given me
permission to dress you as a girl this summer, so you must behave".
Richard screamed, "She did not!" "Oh but she did little honey, didn't
she, Alicia". Alicia looked at Tara and then at Richard and replied,
"Yes Richard, I was there when she said it. She told Tara to make you
her little sister so you would learn to be more polite like a girl".
Allison smoothed Richard's skirt and said, "Do not be afraid, precious.
You will grow to love being a girl. Isn't that right, girls"? Everyone
stated their agreement and they sat Richard up on the sofa The little
boy had become very quiet and Tara appealed to him saying , "First
honey, we can't very well call you Richard anymore when you are dressed
like you are. It just isn't a proper name for a little girl. So your
new name will be Tina! Don't you just love your new name"? "No, I hate
it", responded Richard. "Well, you better get used to it because that
is the only name you are going to be called". "Yes, that's right Tina",
Nancy chimed in. "Tina is a very pretty name", said Alicia. "You
should be thankful that your sister chose such a lovely name for you.
Now sit up and put your legs together. That is no way to sit in a
dress". Alicia picked up Richard's one leg and placed it next to the
other one and then spread his skirt over his knees. "There, that is
much better little girl", she said.
My son Jamie, being a very gentle and delicate child, watched all this
from the other side of the room. Tina called him over and said, "Jamie
dear, come over here and give a hug to my new little sister. Doesn't he
make a nice girl?" Richard grimaced but Jamie said, "It's alright
Richard, being a girl isn't that bad". "Isn't that bad"? exclaimed
Tara! "Jamie, you know that it isn't bad at all. It is a privilege to
be a girl. Look at you honey! You would hate being a boy, wouldn't
you"? "Oh yes Tara, I would never want to be a boy". "I didn't think
so", said Tara. "Well , Tina is going to love being a girl too, aren't
you baby brother"? "Jamie dear, will you be a doll and bring me my
purse"? Jamie brought Tara's purse to her and Tina's big sister reached
in and brought out her lipstick. Richard, seeing what she was doing
tried to run again but Alicia and Allison held him down as Tara applied
lipstick to her new little sister' slips. She then looked at her
handiwork and said, "Oh that is much better. When we are finished with
you sweetie girl, Mom will never recognize you. Now if you are ready to
behave, we will let you up". Richard said that he would be good and
Alicia and Allison released their hold on him. "Now walk across the
room Tina, taking small steps like a girl". Richard stood up and walked
across the large living room. "Now turn gracefully and come back,
honey". As he turned, his skirts swirled and the girls all smiled at
the pretty picture that he made. "Oh you look so pretty", Nancy said.
"Tina, tell us what it feels like to wear a dress for the first time".
Is it fun"? Richard said, "No, I won't tell you". "You will dear, his
sister said, or you will be spanked and be sent to bed". Richard,
totally intimidated and confused by the girlish feelings stirring within
him, said, "I feel like a sissy girl". "Well silly, that is the way you
are supposed to feel in a dress!", Cindy said. "I told you it would
feel different from being a boy". Tina, run your hands over your pretty
nylons for us, his sister commanded! Richard, now a little fearful of
the girls, did as he was told. As his little hands slid from his
ankles, up over his knees and to his thighs, a little smile broke out on
his face "Oh see, he likes the feel of his silky pantyhose. They are so
sheer", said Allison. "They feel so good, don't they Tina. That is one
of the nice things about being a girl, wearing sheer pantyhose."
Tara went into the bedroom and came out with her expensive Nikon camera
and flash attachment. After adjusting the focus she began taking
pictures of Richard with all the different girls. She said, "Jamie, I
want one of you and Tina standing together holding hands". Jamie went
over to Richard, took his hand, and the two children stood by a very
pretty floral arrangement. "Now grasp your skirts girls and hold them
out a little. "Smile girls", she said. Tina and Jamie did as they were
told and Tara snapped a lovely picture of the children, looking so
pretty. Jamie felt a little funny being photographed in his nightie but
it was getting late and all the girls were in nighties except Richard
who was still in a dress. If Tara had her way, which she usually did,
Richard would soon be in a satiny nightie as well. As Richard stood in
the dining room, Allison snook up behind him and held him around his
slim waist while Nancy tied a red satin ribbon in his hair. "Oh Tina",
his sister said, "The girls are making you look so pretty. I think you
are enjoying yourself honey, aren't you. You never wanted to be a
little boy. You always wanted to be my little sister, didn't you".
"No, I don't!", yelled Richard. "Now, be good Tina darling, or you will
be punished", Tara said. "You must remember that girls are superior to
boys and you must never be rude". Jamie understood this well as his
mother and sister had always taught him that girls were more intelligent
and sensitive than boys. Jamie had no problems listening to and obeying
women and girls older than himself. Richard would have to learn that,
but a summer in dresses would go a long way to improving his attitude.
"Girls, let's give him a makeover", Alicia laughed. "Oh yes", shouted
Tara. "Let's show my little brother that he is a member of our club".
"What club"?, the boy shouted. "I'm not in a club!", cried Richard.
"Oh yes you are dear", his sister responded. "When Cindy put you in
that pretty dress, you became a member of the girl's club. Everyone
else here is in it and now you are too, little sister". Richard tried
getting up from the sofa but once again he was restrained by Nancy and
Allison. "Let's see, where should we start", asked Cindy. "Oh, I
know", she said, "Lets paint his finger and toe nails"! "Ohhhhh, that
will make him so very girlish", squealed Alicia. "Let me up", shouted
Richard. Tara then jumped in and said, "Stop struggling this minute
Tina or I am go ing to pull down your panties and spank you just like a
little girl. If you can't be a big girl for sister, you will be treated
like a child. This aggressive boyish behavior must cease immediately".
Richard, frightened by the severity of his sister's tone, became still,
but was startled to feel the the hands of Cindy reaching up under his
dress to remove his pantyhose. She deftly rolled the silky stockings
down his little legs and took them off, careful to keep his dress down
so that he remained ladylike. Little Richard didn't know what to think.
He hadn't ever felt this way before. He felt like such a sissy
surrounded by all these girls and they were touching him as if he was a
girl too. Alicia brought out the nail polish from her purse, opened it
and said, "Oh Tina, isn't this a pretty shade of pink?" Then sitting
the boy up, with a girl holding each of his arms, she said, "Now point
your toes honey". Richard reluctantly did so and one toe by one toe,
Cindy began to apply polish to his nails. The girls looked him in the
eye during this time, not disapprovingly, but in a loving way, the way
they would look if initiating a younger sister into the deeper mysteries
and experiences of girlhood. Richard watched his toes being painted and
felt a little shiver go through him. "Oh, what is next?", he thought.
"I feel so strange". He didn't have long to wait as Nancy brought out a
small bottle of very expensive perfume and sprayed him on his neck,
wrists and under his knees. She then placed her head very close to the
little boy's neck and breathed in the perfume, moaning and saying, "Oh
Tina, now you smell just like a girl". She kissed the child gently on
his lips and whispered, "We like you so much better this way, honey".
Richard felt so vulnerable and helpless wearing a dress and panties, his
toe nails painted and now smelling like a girl too. Soon the little boy
started to cry. But the girls all comforted him saying, "Oh baby doll,
please don't cry. We love our sweet little girl" Allison wiped away his
tears and held out his hands for Cindy to put nail polish on his finger
nails as well. Little Richard's nails would match the sweet color of
his velvet dress. Jamie could see that Tara loved every minute of her
brother's feminization and he doubted that this little excursion into
femininity was going to be a temporary one for Richard Jamie thought,
"Richard is going to become Tina for sure".
The time was getting late and Richard, just being nine years old began
to get tired from all the activity surrounding him. He had never
received so much attention when he was a boy. The little cross dressed
child started to drift off to sleep and Tara said, "Will one of you
girls get Tina's nightgown from my room, please"? Nancy went out to
fetch the gown and came back with a white satin lace trimmed nightie
with cute pink ribbons woven through the bodice. Richard seemed so
tired now and Allison and Cindy helped him out of his dress and
petticoat, leaving his little white satin panties on him. They slipped
the nightie over his head and giggled as the gown fell to the little
boy's knees. "Oh Tara, what a darling nightgown. Where did you ever
get it"? "I picked it up at Celeste's Ingenue Shop on Fifth Avenue.
It is a boutique that caters to pre teen girls I bought his dress there
too", Tara replied. Cindy then lifted the child up in her arms and
carried him to the bedroom where he would be sleeping with Alicia and
Allison. Tara hoped that he would become accustomed to being her little
sister quickly for she had no intention of letting Richard wear pants
again until the end of the summer. If she could convince mother that
Richard is better off as a girl, he may never wear them a gain. "Oh, I
just hope mother is willing to make him be Tina", she thought.
Returning to the living room Tara looked at Jamie and said, "Thank you
so much dear for helping with Tina". Jamie said, "Oh I didn't do
anything, Tara". "Yes you did honey. You provided the inspiration for
me to make Richard a girl by being the little darling that you are. If
I didn't see how it was possible to change a pretty boy into a total
girl like your mother did for you, I may never have begun this little
project. But looking at you, pretty Jamie, I know that my brother can
become a little lady too. He may not like it now but in two weeks he
will be pleading with me to buy him new dresses. I just know it in my
heart". Jamie saw Tara looking so happy and he realized that having a
little sister was truly her heart's desire. He was glad that Tara was
happy and took her hand as the two made their way to their shared
bedroom for a well deserved night's sleep. Tomorrow Jamie, we must take
you to my Montaigne agency to begin the preliminary shooting for the
"Young Miss" spread. Your friends Stacy, Mary Ann and those darling
Stapleton boys will be meeting us there. And I am going to bring my new
baby sister along too". "Oh goody", Jamie said, as the two girls, clad
in pretty satin nighties, swished into the feminine bedroom of Tara
Collins, who just adored dressing and fussing over feminized little
boys.
Tina, Tina, rise and shine honey! Wake up, wake up, wake up! Tara was
laughing as she pulled the curtains in the large guest room to let the
light shine in on the three sleepy heads. Alicia and Allison were
sprawled on the big queen size bed with Richard right in between them.
Tara smiled to herself as she saw her brother sleeping so peacefully in
his little girl's nightie. Oh the number of boys who would pay a king's
ransom to be able to sleep with the beautiful Alicia and Allison! But
here was her little nine year old brother, on his way to becoming a
girl, right there in the middle of them. Tara thought, "Sleeping as a
girl with girls is surely one of the blessings that Richard will grow to
love. Slumber parties are so much more fun than boy's camp outs. Who
wants to sit around the fire in batman or camaflauge flannel pajamas
when they can snuggle up next to prettily attired girls while dressed in
a dainty lace nightgown themselves?" Tara felt happy for her brother
even though the poor boy did not yet realize her plans to keep him as
her little sister for good. Finally the little boy stirred, and,
awakened out of a sound sleep, he forgot for a moment where he was. He
sat up and looking at the sissy gown that he was wearing, let out a
little shout. Alicia reached over and hugged him, saying, It's alright
dear, it's alright. You are with us, remember? Alicia and Allison!
"What am I doing in these clothes", he demanded to know. Tara came over
to the bed and took a hold of his hands saying, "They are your clothes,
honey. Don't you remember? You became a little girl last night". "I
did not. I never became a girl", shouted Richard. " Stop it this
instant, Richard. You are not being very polite and mother will be
angry if she hears that you were rude to my friends". "You can't dress
me like this", the boy cried. "Oh my little brother, you are so wrong.
I can, and will dress you exactly the way I desire and there are four
girls who are going to help me. So you better stop complaining right
now or we will adopt stronger measures"
As Richard stared at her, Tara walked to the large walk in closet in the
guest room and came out holding up a darling red plaid dress. Alicia
and Allison, who were now fully awake, thought that it was the cutest
little dress, and they smiled at one another knowing that a boy was
going to wear it. "Look honey", Tara said to Richard, "This is your new
dress that I bought for you". It was a pleated float dress with a lace
edge platter collar adorned with embroidered trim, little rosettes and a
tiny corsage It had puffed sleeves, a sheer pleated overlay and full
satin underslip. It was really darling and Tara thought, "It is just
perfect for my little brother". Then Tara held the dress with both hands
by its puffy sleeves and swished it back and forth teasingly in front of
Richard. Oh Tina, she said, "Aren't you a lucky little girl. Any girl
would love a dress like this. Aren't you going to thank big sister?
Come on honey, "Say thank you Tara, for my new dressie." Richard was so
confused by now, experiencing feelings of anger and fear, and he didn't
know what to do. He was in a girl's bedroom in a girl's nightgown, with
three girls seeing him in very sissy clothes. Now his own sister was
making him wear a dress. He started to run for the bathroom, but Tara
grabbed him and help him down on the bed, whispering in his ear, "Tina,
you have to be my little sister, so do not fight with me. You
absolutely cannot be a boy, so go into the bathroom like a good girl,
wash up and come out here again so I can put you in your pretty
lingerie. Then we'll put your dress on". She held it up in front of him
and saw that it would fall to just above his knees. After Richard
closed the door behind him Tara jumped on the bed where Alicia and
Allison were reclining and said, Yesssssss! Can you believe it girls?
I'm really doing it to Richard. I'm making him a girl! Allison
responded, Tina, are you sure that your mother isn't going to be furious
with you for this? No, she'll be fine. She has been complaining about
Richard's behavior and if he goes back at the end of the summer as a
better behaved child, she will be more than happy. Well, I hope you are
right, Tara, Allison replied. Do you think Richard will get used to
being a girl? Well, said Tara, I think he will. Once he settles down,
we can do sisterly things together and I think he will like all the
attention. Besides, look how well Jamie is doing. Speaking of Jamie,
where is that girl?
Tara called out to my son and soon there was a little knock on the
bedroom door. Jamie came in and he was already dressed for his big day
as a "Young Miss" model. He was wearing an empire waist dress in ecru
lace with a satin underslip and back zipper. A large white bow was tied
at his waist and there were faux pearls on the bodice of the dress. It
was a beautiful party dress and Jamie looked gorgeous in it. "Oh Jamie",
Tara said, "You look lovely. Wait until my friends at the agency see
you. They will want you all to themselves". Alicia and Allison were
equally stunned by Jamie's girlish beauty and Alicia remarked, "I really
do understand why Jamie's mother made him a girl. I absolutely cannot
picture him as a boy Jamie smiled and made a curtsy to Alicia and she
hugged him to herself, being careful not to wrinkle his dress. Just
then, Richard came out of the bathroom, with a towel wrapped around him.
Seeing him walk out with the towel modestly around his waist, Tara
quickly draped a towel around his upper torso as well, saying, "Tina, a
girl covers her chest. She does not walk around bare chested. But never
mind. Now come here and let me put you in your bra and panties. Jamie,
she said, "Tina has never worn a bra before. Did it take you long to
get used to it, dear? "No Tara, mother started me out with a training
bra when I was ten and I always wear a bra like a big girl now". "Well,
Richard doesn't really fill a bra, but I want him to get used to it. It
is such a girlish item of clothing Put your arms out Tina"! Richard,
seemingly broken in his boyish spirit complied with his sister's wishes
and she fastened the white satin training bra in the back. Now step
into these sweet satin panties, dear. Richard did so and Tara lovingly
pulled them up encasing the boy in white satin. Then she said, "Now
close your eyes, Tina." As her brother closed his eyes, Tina dropped the
red plaid dress with it's pretty underslip over his head, adjusting his
skirt when it was pulled down. Richard, his eyes closed, felt a
swishing about his knees and instinctively drew his hands to his sides.
As he did so, he felt the billowing skirts of his dress and slip and
could feel the silkiness of the satin panties underneath
Ohhhhh, this was so different from being a boy, he thought. He felt so
loved, so lightheaded, and so utterly girlish. He stood still and
opened his eyes to see his big sister, with a sweet smile on her face,
arranging the lace collar on his dress just so. It was almost as if he
couldn't move if he wanted to, as if his sister had cast some girlish
spell over him. Tara went to the drawer and pulled out a pair of white
little girl's tights and told Richard to sit on the edge of the bed. As
Alicia, Allison and Jamie watched transfixed, Tara rolled the tights up
Richard's legs until they were all nice and smooth. She said
pleasantly, "How do they feel, little brother"? Richard was speechless
and his sister smilingly said, "Cat got your tongue, Tina dear?". She
then brought a pair of shiny black Mary Jane shoes out of the closet and
placed one on each foot, buckling the pretty straps. Alicia thought,
"Oh this is one little boy who is never going to be the same. Tara is
really making him a sissy". "Stand up Tina", Tara said. The sissified
child stood up and Tara said, "Now twirl around for us so we can see if
your skirts are hanging right. Go ahead honey. It's alright. You are
among girls". Richard spun around on his little heels and the effect was
just perfect. "Faster honey", his sister said. As he twirled faster his
little skirts rose and the other girls could see his pretty underskirt
and his satin panties, looking so pretty over his sheer tights. Tara
was pleased and thought, "No one would recognize him as a boy dressed
like this". But she wasn't though yet. Reaching into her drawer once
more, she pulled out a large red satin hair ribbon. "Stand still now
baby", she said. Richard obeyed his sister as she fastened the ribbon
into a pretty bow and with golden bobby pins, pinned it in his hair. "Oh
my", she thought, "his hair isn't very long yet, but by next year at
this time, I will have him in a long ponytail".
Richard was overwhelmed. He had never felt like a girl before even when
he played with Tara's dolls. But now, he was in a dress, tights and
mary janes. He touched his dress again and felt the underslip and
panties underneath. Oh, this was such a strange feeling. Tara
interrupted his daydreaming by taking his hand and leading him to the
vanity table. Taking out her make up kit, she began to apply just the
right amount of make up to the young boy, a little blush, mascara and
eyebrow pencil. Then taking a lipliner she carefully outlined his lips,
and filled them in with a shade of red lipstick that perfectly matched
his dress. Tara then stood back and thought, "Richard has disappeared
and Tina has replaced him. Now I have my little sister" She said,
"Aren't you excited Tina? Look at us. We are sisters now"! Tina,
overcome by emotion began to cry and all the girls comforted him. But he
was no longer protesting. Clad in the prettiest outfit that any little
girl could wear, he seemed to accept the fact that a new life awaited
him, at least for the summer. Richard had always been lonely as a boy,
had very few friends and wasn't that well liked bec ause of his
aggressive behavior. But as he thought over his present situation in
his nine year old mind, he decided that maybe being a girl wasn't so
bad. After all Alicia, Allison, Cindy, Nancy, Jamie and his sister all
loved him this way. And he was going to get to spend the summer in the
big city of New York and do things that he had never done in
Pennsylvania. As he was reflecting on these things, Tara took his hand
again and said, "Girls, I think it is time that we have breakfast and
head for the Agency. I know Jamie and Tina are going to be excited
about meeting Stacy , MaryAnn and the Stapleton twins. Today is the day
that my little girls from Briarcliff begin their modeling careers".
Chapter #19 "Pre Teen Models"!
Tara Collins was a very feminine woman. As a young executive with the
Gabrielle Montaigne Modeling Agency, she possessed the striking beauty
of atop fashion model herself. In fact, if it wasn't for her superior
business sense that prompted the agency's director to offer her a six
figure managerial position, she would still be strutting down the runway
with the likes of Claudia, Elle and Cindy. Her fashion sense was
flawless and she revelled in her breath-taking femininity that turned
the heads of men and women alike. But Tara had what some might call an
unusual passion, a passion that at times consumed her entire being.
Tara simply adored the idea of taking boys under her wing and changing
them into beautiful little girls When she attempted to analyse her
innermost feelings she inevitably came up with the same conclusion.
During her teen age years, when she was the most intelligent and
beautiful girl in her high school, the envy of other girls, and
fervently pursued by the boys, her own parents did not fully appreciate
her. Tara longed for their approval but it seemed that they lavished
all their attention on her baby brother, who was born when Tara was
fifteen years old. Richard was a beautiful child, but he was a rival
for her parent's affection and mother and daddy doted over him When Tara
had her dancing school recital, an aunt accompanied her, because Richard
was sick and mother and daddy stayed home to take care of him. When she
was chosen prom queen, her parents were not there because they were
hosting Richard's second birthday party. Tara began to think that her
parents loved Richard more because he was a boy and constantly wished
that he was her little sister. If Richard was a girl, she reasoned,
Mother and daddy would have loved both of us equally. Consequently in
her own mind she began to think of Richard as a little sister, which
wasn't difficult to do seeing that he was a very pretty child, who could
easily pass for a girl.
Tara was never able to overcome her resentment towards her parents for
the favoritism shown toward Richard nor was she able to dismiss from her
mind the thought that her brother should have been a girl. So when she
interviewed modeling candidates at the Briarcliff School for Girls, and
discovered my feminized son Jamie and the Stapleton twins, she conceived
a plan. "I am going to have a sister", she thought. Smiling to herself,
she was pleased that she was finally going to get back at her parents by
taking their little all American boy and making him into a sissy girl.
She did not tell them of course. Instead she informed them that she
would like to have Richard stay with her for the summer. She promised
her parents that she would take Richard to baseball games at Yankee
Stadium, buy him new trains and accessories for his model railroad set
and generally show him all the sights of New York. But it did not quite
happen that way! Much to Tara's satisfaction her baby brother would
never go to a silly baseball game nor add trains to his boyish
collection, while he was in her care. She did keep her third promise
though, for the day after Jamie's arrival in New York, she, Jamie and
Richard were walking down Fifth Avenue taking in the sights of New York.
There was nothing at all unusual about this except for the fact that the
boys on each side of the beautiful Tara Collins, were attired in the
cutest little girl dresses that any child could ever wear. Tara was in
her glory as she glanced down at her nine year old brother trying to
hold down the skirts of his dress on this bright but very windy day.
"Richard", she said, forgetting that she and her girl friends had
renamed him Tina the previous night, " Hold on to the side of your dress
honey, or everyone is going to see your panties". Tara felt a new love
for Richard dressed like he was, and was not trying to be mean to him by
ordering him to keep his skirts down. She was simply anxious for
Richard to learn the ways of a little girl for she intended to keep him
in dresses for the rest of the summer. As Richard struggled with his
rustling skirts, Tara looked to her left and smiled at my son Jamie, who
was well trained in the ways of a girl. She whispered to my son,
"Jamie, I am so glad that you are going to be able to help Richard get
used to being a little girl. I just know he is going to love his new
life".
Little Richard walked along the street with his left hand in the hand of
his big sister and his right hand trying to keep the wind from blowing
his skirts over his head. Richard was a nine year old boy and had never
worn a dress prior to the the previous evening. Overpowered by Tara and
her four girlfriends, the child was forcefully attired in a pretty dress
and made to sleep in a frilly nightgown and panties. He was still in a
state of shock and had such new and strange feelings flowing through his
mind and body. Richard was used to wearing jeans and T-shirts and the
rough clothes of a preteen boy. He was used to sprawling on the couch
and he liked rough housing with other boys his age. It is true that
family and friends often said that he was too pretty to be a boy, but
that did not change the way he felt. He loved baseball, playing with
his trains, and just doing boyish things. But now, he was wearing a
very sissy pink dress, a beribboned petticoat with dainty lace on the
bodice and the hem and very silky pink panties. Tara had tied a pink
ribbon in his hair and he was wearing Mary Jane shoes and socks with
lace on them. He felt the wind blowing the skirt of his dress and
petticoat and he felt so weak and helpless without his pants. Tara
acted as if it was the most normal thing in the world for him to be in a
dress. It's as if nine years of his being a boy never existed for she
looked at her brother and saw a little sister now. In her mind Richard
was now Tina, a girl! Tara looked down at her brother and said,
"Darling, we are almost there". The three girls were on their way to
the Montaigne agency where Jamie would start his summer modeling job and
where Tara would introduce her transformed brother to a ll of her
friends. As they went through the revolving door of the agency ,
Richard was glad to be out of the wind, but he was becoming acutely awa
re of how his silky petticoat tickled his knees as he walked. His
little dress and petticoat flaired out with every step he took and it
produced such a girlish feeling deep within him. As the trio walked
past a mirror , Richard saw a reflexion of three lovely girls swish by
and realized that one of the pretty young Misses in the mirror was him.
In a moment of panic, he pleaded with Tara, " Please Tara, May I have
my pants back". Tara, momentarily surprised by the request of her new
little sister, picked him up in her arms and whispered in his ear,
"Honeybunch, I'm afraid that is impossible. You see you are going to be
a little girl for me and little girls do not wear pants. Just panties,
precious child. Now be a good little girl for Sis and I will buy you and
Jamie ice cream cones after lunch". She then put him down exposing his
frilly slip and panties as she did so. Quickly, she straightened his
dress with a sisterly touch and they proceeded to the elevator.
As Tara walked into the large second floor modeling agency office, she
and the girls were greeted by Jessica Robyns, her young secretary.
Jessica had long blonde hair like Jamie and was wearing a smart black
business suit. In her ultra sheer hose and high heels she was the
picture of the consummate professional woman, feminine, yet very chic
and sophisticated. Looking at Jamie and Richard she said, "And who are
these lovely young girls? Are they the Briarcliff girls who will be
doing the spread for "Young Miss" Magazine? Smiling, Tara replied, "One
of them is, Jess. I'd like you to meet Jamie Graham. Jamie recently
won the Little Miss Briarcliff Beauty Pageant in Chicago". "Oh my
goodness", exclaimed Jessica. "That was the new beauty pageant for boys
that you were telling me about. Don't tell me Tara!!!!! Are you saying
that this beautiful child is a, a boy"? Tara looked at Jamie and said,
"Go ahead Jamie! Tell Jessica about yourself". Jamie smiled and said,
"Yes Miss Robyns, I am a boy but mother wanted a girl and raised me as
one". Jessica opened her mouth in amazement, not because she did not
know that many boys were kept in dresses and treated as girls by their
mothers, but because Jamie was so beautiful. She came over and stooping
down, held my son gently by the shoulders, saying, "Oh Jamie, your
mother did the right thing. You are a beautiful little girl, and
please, do call me Jessica." Jamie curtsied sweetly and said, "Thank
you, Jessica". Jessica then looked at Richard who looked like an angel
in his empire waist party dress. She said laughingly, "I suppose you
are going to tell me that this little sweetheart is a boy too! "
Jessica laughed again and said, "I know that isn't true". Tara took her
by the arm and said, "Jessica, I want you to meet my little brother,
Richard, who we now call Tina". Well Jessica was flabbergasted. Anyone
who was there would have thought she was going to faint. She gasped and
said, "Noooooo. You are kidding me, Tara". Staring at the prettily
dressed child, she said, "I can't believe it. You come in with two of
the prettiest little girls at your side that I have ever seen and both
of them are really boys? Tara"!!!!!!!!! Tara laughed and said, "Yes,
isn't it wonderful, Jess? It is amazing what you can do to a boy when
you put him in a dress and a little make up. Their whole attitude
changes and they are no longer boisterous and hard to handle. They
become gentle and some like Jamie actually prefer being girls".
Looking at her brother, Tara then said, "And some, we hope, will desire
to become girls". She walked over to Richard and smoothed the pretty
skirt of his little dress. "Tina is going to spend time with us while
we get Jamie and the other Briarcliff girls started on the "Young Miss"
layout. Have the other girls arrived yet, Jess"? "Yes, they are
upstairs with Diana Evenson getting acquainted with the agency. They
should be down promptly. We have two hours to get them ready before the
photographers come". "Oh good", Tara replied, "I do want them to wear
light make up for the photo shoot. That will give us plenty of time to
have them looking pretty". Turning to Richard, she said, "Honey, I want
you to watch everything closely. Someday you might be modeling little
dresses too". Richard was standing off to the side, shivering because
of the air conditioning in the room. Jessica noticed him trembling in
his thin dress and got a pink sweater out of the closet and placed it on
the boy. "There honey, this will warm you up a bit", she said, as she
gave him a hug. Tara just smiled, feeling very proud of the way her
brother looked. "He's becoming a little girl", she thought. "He looks
so pretty in a dress". As Tara admired her sissified brother, there was
a knock on the door. Jessica opened the door and four bubbly,
chattering girls walked in. "Jamie"!!, one of them shouted! It was
Stacy Summers Mary Ann McCrary, and the twins, Robert and Stephen.
Stacy ran to her Briarcliff room mate and hugged him saying, "Jamie,
congratulations! I just knew you would be Little Miss Briarcliff! I am
so happy for you. Was it fun"? "Oh yes, Stacy, it was so wonderful and
I met such nice girls there. You know that Julie finished second, don't
you"? "Yes", replied Stacy, "I couldn't believe it. Remember when
Julie said he didn't want to be a girl and had to be Ms. Chandler's
little daughter and they wore matching dresses for the whole festival?
And now he was a beauty contest runner up"! The two girls laughed at
the memory of Julie being dressed up as Cindy Brady. "He was happy he
was a girl after that night", Stacy said. "I think being Ms Chandler's
little daughter really changed him into a girl. Karen made him so
feminine that he couldn't go back to being a boy". "Girls, girls", Tara
said! "Do not forget to greet MaryAnn and the twins"! "Oh I'm sorry",
said Jamie. "I got so excited at seeing Stacy again".
Jamie hugged Mary Ann, who was a real girl and then gave a hug to Robert
and Stephen, the other boys beside himself who were chosen to model for
" Young Miss". A year at Briarcliff had done remarkable things to the
two boys from Connecticut. They were no longer rude and wild in their
behavior and they conducted themselves in a very ladylike manner much to
the delight of their mother. They had learned feminine ways during their
year in the midst of two hundred girls and both could now be said to be
"demure " in their manner. One thing had not changed though. They were
still dressed in the very frilly dresses of young girls. At the
recommendation of Headmistress Karen Chandler, their mother decided to
keep them in some what babyish clothes until the start of the Fall
semester at Briarcliff. The women felt that an extra summer in frills
would remove the last traces of boyishness from the children and they
would be ready for their traditional school girl uniforms in September.
The twins were dressed identically in little drop waist polka dot party
dresses with black nylon velvet bodices, short puffy sleeves and a sheer
layered skirt with little dots A wide gold sash was tied in a pretty bow
in the front of their dresses. Their outfits were darling and Tara's
secretary was totally amazed to see that four of the six prettily
dressed little girls in the room, were boys. Jessica loved being a girl
herself and far from objecting to seeing boys dressed as girls, she
thought it was a wonderful idea. "They are so darling", she thought,
"just like little Barbie dolls. I bet that their mothers love them in
pretty dresses". Tara was thinking the same thing and said to the
Briarcliff girls who just entered the office, "Girls , I want you to
meet my little brother, Richard. We call him Tina, now". Richard,
standing there in his dress was experiencing so many new emotions. He
felt like he was on a roller coaster, as he had never felt so different
before. As a boy he had been confident, even a little sassy, for he had
been a good ball player and athlete. But now he was in sissy clothes,
having to interact with women and girls and being treated as one of
them. His thoughts were interrupted as the two real girls, Stacy and
Mary Ann came over and embraced him. Richard, being all boy, had rarely
even touched a girl, and now, dressed in a girl's pretty dress, he was
being hugged and kissed by girls.
Stacy said, "Oh Tina, you are a girl just like Jamie. Even though you
we re unlucky to be born a boy, now you are one of us". She giggled and
said , "I absolutely adore your dress". Are you wearing a petticoat
too? Without thinking twice about it, Stacy flipped up the hem of
Richard's dress and admired the lace and ribbon trim of the boy's satin
and lace petticoat. Richard instinctively pushed her hand away only to
be reprimanded by Tara who said, "Stop that Tina. She is only looking
at your pretty slip ". Stacy, realizing that she had embarrassed the
boy apologized saying, "Oh I am sorry Richard. I should have known that
you are not used to being a girl yet. Please forgive me". Richard
didn't know what to say. He didn't want Stacy to feel bad, but he
didn't want anyone pulling up his dress either. "Oh, if only I had my
pants back he thought"! But that th ought was immediately lost as Tara
came over and whispered to him, "Tell Stacy that you are sorry,
Richard. Tell her that you do not mind that she looked under your
dress. Do it right now"! Richard could see that his sister was upset
with him and he said, "That's ok Stacy. I don't mind". Stacy smiled at
Richard and the incident was soon forgotten. Tara then said, "Let's go
girls. We need to go to the seventh floor room where the Young Miss
layout is set up to be photographed". Tara, Jessica, Richard and the
five Briarcliff models proceeded to take the elevator to the seventh
floor where they entered the elaborated decorated room designed for
their modeling sessions. The photographers would be coming shortly so
the girls needed to get changed into the clothes that they would be
wearing for the sessions. "Young Miss", a popular magazine for pre
teenage girls, was doing a series of articles with the theme, "Sissy Tea
Parties". When I first heard of the theme being used, I could not
believe it. I could not imagine that a girl's magazine would have a
section that aimed at attracting the attention of feminine boys. But
when I called "Young Miss " Magazine, I realized how silly I was. It
wasn't directed towards boys at all but was rather geared to ultra
feminine little girls who loved wearing frilly party dresses. Our
creative designers had produced a lovely setting for the pictures. The
room was decorated as a lovely garden with colorful flowers, white
benches, a daintily set table with a lace table cloth and a cute little
goldfish pond. The girls would be posing in their pretty dresses while
sipping tea, sitting prettily on the benches, holding bouquets of
flowers and feeding the goldfish. It was the kind of place where little
girls would feel very comfortable and secure.
At 11:00 AM, nationally known photographer Cynthia Schaefer and her
assistant Debbie Ryan arrived. Tara introduced the young models to them
and the women thought it was cute that three of them were boys. They
had taken pictures of boys in dresses before and were not at all
surprised. While they were setting up their equipment, Tara took the
girls to the dressing room and had two assistants bring out the dresses
that they would be wearing for the photographs. The first series of
pictures called for the girls to be seated at the table drinking tea
with their dolls. Tara's assistants, Alyssa and Eileen helped the twins
into their light blue dresses and pinafores. The boys held their arms
out as Alyssa slipped the little dresses over them and buttoned up the
back. Their little petticoats made their dresses stand out just right.
"Come and sit here, girls", Alyssa said. Robert and Stephen gathered
their skirts and sat at the beautifully set table. Eileen then handed
each of them a daintily dressed doll and said, "Hold your dolls in your
laps girls, and pretend that you are offering them some tea". Meanwhile
Debbie, the main photographer's assistant was getting Stacy and MaryAnn
ready. They were elegantly dressed in little white lace dresses with
straw bonnets and white gloves. They would be photographed in their
girlish innocence, sipping tea. Jamie was to be in the picture too.
Jamie would be seen pouring tea for the other girls, attired in a pretty
yellow frock with puffy sleeves and a yellow satin sash. Tara, who was
pleased at how cooperative the girls were, was at the same time watching
her little brother out of the corner of her eye. "What must he be
thinking"?, she wondered. "A week ago he was running around like a
raggamuffin, going fishing with the boys, hitting baseballs all over the
place and coming home dirty every day. But now, he was in a dress,
watching three other girlishly dressed boys and two real girls model for
a girl's magazine". Seeing Richard in his dress made her realize even
more, "I do want a little sister". For Tara, Richard was going to be the
object of her affection and she would never let him feel unloved the way
her parents let her feel. But she was going to love him on her terms ,
not his. That meant that Richard was going to be loved as a pretty
little sister, and not as a boy.
As the children smiled for the camera, Cynthia Schaefer took scores of
pictures. Alyssa, Eileen, Debbie and Tara posed Stacy, Mary Ann and the
boys in a variety of poses as Cynthia went through roll after roll of
film. Nine year old Richard started to get restless however and while
the women were preoccupied with photographing every possible angle for
"Young Miss", he began poking a mop handle into the little goldfish
pond. He was trying to touch one of the fish but as he reached out, he
suddenly lost his balance and fell right into the shallow pond. "Oh
Richard", Tara exclaimed, as she picked the dripping boy out of the
pond. "Look at your new dress"! The other girls giggled and soon
everyone was laughing, as it was evident that Richard was not hurt, only
startled. "Come honey, let's find something for you to wear before you
get chilled in your wet dress". Tara took her brother to a dressing
room and stripped off his wet clothes She put him in a warm shower and
after he was finished bathing she dried him off. As Richard stood
before her, he said, "Tara, I want my boy clothes back right now". Tara
looked directly into her brother's eyes and said, "Honey, I thought we
already went over this. While you are here in New York with me, you are
going to be a little girl. Don't you understand that"? "No Tara, I'm a
boy and I refuse to wear sissy girl's clothes". "They are not sissy
clothes Richard. They are very pretty and expensive clothes and I'm
afraid that we do not have anything else for you to wear. You don't
want to walk around naked, do you"? "I won't do it", said Richard.
"YES YOU WILL", Tara shouted, suddenly losing her patience. She then
slapped her little brother making him cry. As soon as she did that she
felt sorry and said, "Oh Richard, I am so sorry. I didn't mean to do
that but honey, you do have to be a girl. That is not negotiable. I
have waited too long to have my little sister and I am not going to give
"her" up now". Tara then proceeded to dress Richard in the little girl
clothes that were used for the modeling sessions. "Now dry your eyes
and put your panties on Sis". Richard reluctantly stepped into his
panties and his big sister pulled them up. She then lowered a white
satin slip over his head and straightened it around his hips and waist.
Richard could see that he had no choice and obediently put up his hands
as Tara put a pretty white dress on him. She swirled his skirts,
smiling as she did so, for this was the sister that she desired.
After brushing his hair, pinning a bow on each side, and putting him in
little girl shoes, she brought him out again to be with the rest of the
girls. Alyssa laughed and said, "Oh, our little mermaid has emerged".
All the girls laughed, including Richard, for it was amusing to think
that his untimely fall into the pool could be construed as an attempt to
go swimming. Alyssa's little joke seemed to break the ice and diffused
the tension of an otherwise unpleasant occurence. Cynthia finshed up the
rest of the pictures that needed to be taken and the girls started
chatting about where they would have lunch. Let's eat at a Mexican
restaurant restaurant, said Jamie. I can practice my Spanish there."
"Great idea", replied Tara. "I am getting hungry thinking about it.
But you girls must be careful not to spill on your pretty dresses".
Richard, who by this time was getting very hungry himself, chimed in,
"Oh I won't Tara. I'll be careful with my dress". Tara, upon hearing
Richard call his outfit, "my dress", almost cried. She was so happy.
Could this be the breakthrough that she hoped for? She had expected
that it might take weeks to get Richard accustomed to wearing dresses.
But he just referred to the dress that she made him wear as "my dress"!
This was a reason to be joyful. Tara took his hand and said, "Yes Tina
darling. We're ready to eat lunch right now ". So the women and five
little girls left the modeling agency to dine together, delighted to see
that Tara's little brother accepted the fact that he was girlishly
clothed in "his dress" and not the clothes of a boy.
Chapter #20 "Shopping with Big Sister"!
Tara Collins was the happiest girl alive! Not only had her Briarcliff
girls been a smashing success as models for her Gabrielle Montaigne
Agency, but she had successfully converted her nine year old brother
into a little girl. Well, that might be a bit of an exaggeration in
that Richard has not yet said that he wants to be her little sister
forever. But she had made a start, and taking him out in a dress
yesterday and introducing him to her friends as her sissy brother, had
to have an affect on him. Having my feminized son Jamie to help her in
Richard's feminization was definitely a plus in Tara's eyes. Today she
was going to take Richard shopping at Macy's on 34th Street and buy him
a wardrobe for the entire summer. Needless to say there would not be any
pants among the summer frills in which Richard would daily attired.
Tara tingled with excitement as she contemplated how she would at long
last have the sister that she desired.
Richard however, did not fully share his sister's expectations. After
all he was a nine year old boy who enjoyed participating in all kinds of
sports. Living with his mother in the heart of the Allegheny Mountains
in central Pennsylvania, he was accustomed to going hunting and fishing
with his friends. It wasn't unusual for Richard to get into fights with
other boys after school and come home with torn and dirty clothes. Even
though he had the delicate features of a girl, he was in every way your
typical boy child. As he was brushing his teeth that morning, he found
himself experiencing conflicting emotions. He was daydreaming about
being at his favorite fishing hole with his friends but the image
reflecting back at him in the mirror was not one that he would want his
friends to see. For he was wearing a lace timmed, peach-colored, satin
baby doll nightgown ans panties that his sister made him wear. He
rinsed his mouth out and thought, "Oh my goodness. What is happening to
me"? He stared at the girlish nightie with the satin bow and delicately
embroidered bodice. He touched the satin ribbon with the tip of his
finger, and couldn't believe that he was dressed in such a girlish
fashion. What had Tara done to him? Suddenly he became very angry and
tore off his dainty nightie , throwing it against the wall. He then
stepped out of his panties, threw them down and wrapped a towel around
his waist. Then he shouted, "Tara, I have something to tell you".
Tara, already dressed in a bright pink summer dress was singing in the
kitchen, looking forward to taking her brother "Tina" shopping. Jamie,
who had also risen early was dressed in a cute little yellow sundress,
with sun flowers on the pocket of his skirt. Upon hearing Richard shout,
she went immediately to the bathroom and saw her brother with the towel
wrapped around him. She said, "Oh, are you ready to get dressed,
honey"? Richard, in a discourteous display of boyish behavior said,
"I'm not going to be your sister, Tara. I am a boy and I want to go
home". Tara put her hands on her hips, sighing, and said, "Richard, what
am I going to do with you? You just don't understand, honey. I am not
asking you if you want to be a girl. You will be a girl, and you will
do exactly as I say. She went over and grabbed the towel from her
embarrassed brother and taking him by the hand, led him into her room.
Tara sat her little brother down on her satin bedspread and went to her
lingerie drawer. She reached in and withdrew a pair of light blue satin
panties which she proceeded to put on a struggling Richard. "Now sit
still Honey while I try to make you understand what is happening to
you". She pulled Richard close to her and he could feel the silkiness
of his panties as he slid across the bedspread toward her. Tara, took
her hand and cupped his little chin, saying, " Richard dear, I want to
be honest with you. I am already in my twenties and you are only nine
years old. I know what is best for you. I love you very much, Honey,
and I know in my heart that you will be happy as a little girl".
Richard started to protest, but Tara put two manicured and polished
fingers over his lips and said, "Hush now honey and listen to big
sister".
As Tara gently stroked her brother's hair, she began to work on his nine
year old mind. "Richard", she said, "or would you prefer that I call
you, Tina, dear"? "My name is Richard", the boy protested. "Very well,
I will call you Richard for now", Tara responded. "Richard, you need to
know that you are a very beautiful child, far too pretty to be a boy.
Even though you think you are a boy, mother and I have always thought
that you should have been a girl. When you are in a pretty dress as you
were yesterday, it seemed so right on you. No one can tell that you are
not a girl. Look at me, honey!". Tara felt such an overwhelming
feeling of love for her sister to be. She said, "Sweetie, it would make
Sister so happy if you would be her little girl. We could do so many
things together. It isn't so bad being a girl, Richard. Think of all
the things that we could do together if you were a girl. We could go
shopping for pretty clothes and dress exactly alike. Richard", she said
with genuine emotion in her voice, "We can wear matching sister
dresses!" She hugged her little brother to herself, saying, "Wouldn't
that be fun, sweetie"? Richard felt so intimidated and when his hand
accidently brushed the side of his sat in panties, he pulled it away
quickly. Tara, noticing the gesture said, "Richard, you look very cute
in your panties. It is alright to wear them Girls love to wear pretty
panties". Tara then embraced her pantied brother and holding his face
in her hands said, "You are no longer a boy, Tina!" Richard, already
feeling like a complete sissy in his satin panties just sat there, as
Tara continued. "I am going to let your hair grow long and put you in
skirts and dresses. Your nails will always have a girlish shade of pink
or red on them and you will wear light lipstick Richard. You should be
happy that I am going to treat you like a big girl. Most girls do not
get to wear lipstick when they are still so young". Running her finger
across the boy's red lips, Tara whispered, "Wouldn't you rather be a big
girl honey, or would you prefer that I dressed you in the frilly dresses
of a little girl"? Richard was getting confused again. How should he
answer his sister? She was giving him a choice, which was nice, but it
was between being dressed and treated as an older girl or being put in
sissy little dresses like a baby.
As Tara waited for her brother to answer, she took his hand in hers and
admired the excellent job she had done with his nails. Richard had
always had such unkempt nails as a boy and she wondered how boys could
get them so dirty. They must be playing in the dirt all the time, she
thought. But now Richard's nails were perfectly manicured and had a
lovely shade of pink on them. Tara smiled wistfully at her brother and
said, "Tina, look at how pretty your nails are. Don't you just love
them"? As Richard smiled a little, she felt him weakening in his boyish
resolve and continued, "You would look so silly wearing pants with such
pretty nails, Honey. I just know that we can find a little dress that
would be more appropriate for you. Wouldn't you like to look pretty
like big sister, Richard"? "Oh, if he would just stop fighting being a
girl", Tara thought. "I really do not want to call my sister, Richard.
He is Tina now and I must break this boyish spirit". Richard was
sitting silently, looking so cute and innocent in his panties, when Tara
began stroking his hair again and started to sing to him, In a sweet
melodious voice she softly sang,
Oh little Tina, my dear Barbie child,
You used to be a boy, but now you are mild,
Look at you Honey, you are sugar and spice,
Clad in sweet dresses, you are gentle and nice.
Tara cradled her nine year old brother in her arms and repeated the
verse Singing sweetly to the feminized boy, she meant every word. It
just seemed so right in her eyes. She was not being mean to Richard.
She just wanted to bring out the little girl that she knew existed
deeply within him. Richard, seemingly mesmerized by his sister's loving
tenderness, closed his eyes and once again felt a wave of girlishness
flowing over him, cleansing him of the rough and jagged edges of boyhood
that scorned the world in which lace dresses and beribboned petticoats
were acceptable attire. Tara continued singing softly,
Oh little sister, you shall be called Miss,
Now as a girl, I shall give you a kiss,
Your hair will grow long, and pretty you'll be,
For you darling Tina, are a girl just like me.
Richard let out a little sigh and Tara said, "Oh honey, it's going to be
just fine. I love you so much and we are going to be the best of
friends from now on. Now little sister, you must get you dressed
though, so sit up and let me get you ready". Richard sat up, wiping his
eyes, for the strange girlish feelings that he was experiencing had
brought gentle tears. Tina, seeing his tears, simply felt more love
for her sister. Recognizing the importance of sissifying Richard while
he was in this girlish mood did not escape Tara's attention. She knew
that she might have to constantly battle boyish regressions, at least
until Richard truly became Tina. Tara reached into her scented lingerie
drawer and pulled out a little training bra that she had bought for her
brother. It was light blue satin and perfectly matched his blue satin
panties. Holding the bra out, she approached her brother, who
instinctively held his arms out as the girlish garment was placed on
him. Tara was so very gentle, and carefully adjusted the straps in the
back to make sure that the boy would feel comfortable in his bra. Tara
thought, "That really does look much better. He looks so sweet in his
bra". Richard touched the smooth satin of the cups and shuttered
slightly, perhaps feeling that he was truly becoming a girl. Tara then
brought out a full skirted blue satin petticoat from her closet and
held it up to her brother's chest. Their eyes met as Tara held it in
front of him and words did not seem necessary as Richard lifted his arms
and Tara lowered the ultra feminine petticoat over the boy until it's
silky skirts were brushing his knees. Tara smoothed out the skirt,
fluffing it, and delighting in the hand sewn workmanship of the garment.
This was an undergarment that was made for the most feminine of girls
but it would belong to Richard thanks to a loving sister who desired
that her brother should experience the joy of being a girl.
Tara had decided that Richard should have a special treat because he was
so cooperative this morning. So she said to her brother, "Sweetie,
because you are such a good girl, I am going to let you wear stockings
today, just like me" Tara had planned to put little socks trimmed with
lace on him, just like a nine year old might wear. But she reasoned
that the feel of nylon on his legs as he swished about in his dress and
petticoats would perhaps remind him even more of the new life that she
had planned for him. Richard had never seen a garter belt before and
appeared to be a little afraid of wearing it. Tara simply smiled and
said, ""Honey, this will hold your nylons up and it is such fun to
wear. "Lift your petticoats dear"! As the petticoated boy stood
before her, Tara, kneeling down, reached under his skirts and fastened
the blue satin garter belt around his waist, letting the little straps
come through his panties. "Now sit down Richard" she said. Richard
gathered his skirts around him and sat as Tara lovingly slid the first
silky stocking up his smooth leg. Oh, he felt so different as the silk
encased his lower leg and thigh. Richard touched his nyloned leg and
let his fingers linger. Tara, seeing his move said, "That's alright
honey. You can touch your pretty nylons. Doesn't the silkiness feel
heavenly? All girls like wearing pretty nylons and you will grow to
adore wearing them". She kissed him on the forehead and then slid the
other one up his leg and fastened it to his garter belt. "Stand up now
Honey, and walk across the room". Richard stood up and began to walk.
His petticoats flaired out delightfully and feeling the tug of his
nylons agains the garter belt,he thought, "This is the way girls must
feel all the time. Richard said to himself, "Oh my goodness. I am a
sissy now". But Tara wasn't though with him yet. Richard was being
initiated into the wonderful world of women and girls and he was only
beginning to experience its privileges and joys.
Tara was pleased with the way Richard looked. He was being transformed
into her sister before her very eyes. She thought, "I want to see what
he looks like as an older girl too. So she fetched a pair of her blue
satin heels that she had worn to a wedding where she was a bridsmaid.
Tara had small feet and knew that the pumps would fit her brother. So
she brought them to the chair where the boy was seated, looking like a
demure little princess. She said, "Look honey, now you are really
going to be a big girl. Hold out your foot". As Richard did so, she
slipped the two and one half inch high heeled shoe on his stockened
foot. "Oh such pretty shoes", she said. Then she placed the other one
on him and said, "Now stand up Tina". The boy stood, holding on to
Tara's shoulder for balance and the two sisters began to walk across the
room together. "That's right honey. Take small steps. Oh, you are
doing so well. You walk just like a girl". As Richard successfully
completed two trips back and forth across the room, Tara swooped him up
in her arms as if he were a bride, and kissed him. "Oh little sister",
she said, as she straightened his petticoat, "I love you so much". She
put him down and said, "Now lets get your dress on you. A proper girl
doesn't run around in her underwear!" She giggled playfully and
Richard found himself laughing too. It was indeed happening. Her
brother was being changed into a little girl and Tara was beaming. For
the first time she allowed herself to think, "What will mother think?.
Her little athletic boy is beginning to love wearing satin and lace. I
hope she will like having two daughters" For the first time, Tara
thought of boldly taking Richard back to Pennsylvania fully attired as
a little girl. She wasn't thinking about what his friends would say or
about whether he wanted to live as a girl. She was simply thinking, "I
want a little sister to teach about becoming a young woman and since I
do not have any real sisters, Richard is going to become a girl". As
Richard waltzed around in his petticoat and heels, Tara's determination
was reinforced and she decided right then and there that Richard would
become a girl for good. She would convince mother that it was the right
thing to do.
The boy's dress was a picture of lovliness. Tara was humming to herself
as she lifted it from its hanger in the closet. Richard already feeling
overwhelmed in his petticoat, panties, nylons and heels, simply swooned
when he saw the frilly femininity of his new dress. Tara said, "This
is your very own dress, little brother. It is not one of my old ones.
I bought it just for you, sweet girl. Isn't it the prettiest dress
you have ever seen"? Richard was speechless. But Tara did not want the
boy to have any second thoughts so she immediately said, "Describe your
pretty dress for me Richard. Go ahead honey. Tell sister what you
see". As shes poke to her now girlish brother she gently swayed the
dress back and forth and Richard stared at this item of clothing that
any self respecting boy would never admire. Richard began to speak,
"It's, it's a blue dress, Tara". "Of course it is blue", laughed Tara.
"I want you to tell me about the details". She walked over and held it
up to him. "Feel it honey", she said. Richard ran his hand over the
satin material of his dress and touched the lace edging of its Peter Pan
collar. "Yes honey", said Tara. "Doesn't it feel wonderful. Boys can
never wear such pretty and dainty things. That's why I am making you a
little girl. Tell me about the collar of your dress, dear". Richard felt
the collar and said, "It is very dainty and has lace on it, Tara".
"Good girl", smiled Tara. "Isn't it pretty"? "Yes, it is", responded
Richard. "Tell me about the sleeves Tina", Tara said, calling him by
the name she desired for him. "The sleeves are very puffy and have lace
and ribbons on them". "Oh hon," said his sister, "that is right. Your
dress has darling puffy sleeves and such dainty trim, just like girls
love". As Richard stared at his expensive hand embroidered dress, Tara
suddenly swung it over his head and helped the boy put his arms through
the puffy sleeves. It fell gently to his knees and as Tara looked at her
brother and began buttoning him up, she felt, "Oh he is going to make a
wonderful girl. I just know it"
Richard stood before Tara's full length mirror and was amazed at how
much he looked like his sister. He had never thought of himself as a
girl before but looking in the mirror was somewhat shocking to him as
he did not see a little boy looking back. He saw a feminine nine year
old child wearing a petticoat and nylons and he was being buttoned into
a delicate light blue dress by his sister. "Just two buttons to go,
darling", Tara said, "and you will be a perfect girl". It was as if
Tara was saying, "Wearing a dress, slip and panties automatically
changes a boy into a girl" Well, maybe it was not able to change him
physically, but being femininely dressed was affecting Richard's young
mind for he felt light headed, gentle, vulnerable and very, very
girlish. Tara finished buttoning his dress and fetched a blue hair
ribbon from her drawer. Tying the lovely satin ribbon into his hair,
she knew that this was the right thing to do to her brother. He should
have been a girl from the beginning she thought. Tara regretted not
putting Richard in dresses when he was a small child. But at long last,
she had a sister and attired in his new dress with a pretty hair ribbon,
Richard certainly looked the part. "Sit down Tina", his sister said,
speaking to him more boldly now that he was totally dressed as a girl.
Tara took her lipstick out of her purse and began to do the little
boy's lips. It was a pretty pink color, similar to the pink nail polish
that Richard had on and identical to the lipstick that Tara herself
was wearing. She determined that Richard was going to be a younger
image of herself. She put make up and blush on the child and after
applying her best cosmetics to him, stood back and admired her
handiwork. What she saw was not a little boy. She had created her own
little Barbie doll, a dainty, girlishly dressed boy whom she would dress
and treat as a sister for the entire summer. Tara was so very happy and
said, "Tina darling, go and watch television while I get ready. Then
we sisters are going to Macy's and buy you all the dresses and pretty
accessories that a new girl like you needs to complete her wardrobe".
Richard obediently walked to the couch, and smoothing his skirts under
him, began watching the home shopping network which just happened to be
showing dolls to the viewing audience. Tara smiled and thought, "I
must buy my new sister a pretty doll today".
It was almost noon when Tara, Jamie and Richard walked into the little
girl's department of Macy's. Very aware that he was wearing a dress
and panties, Richard felt like he was in a different world. There were
other women and girls all around and Richard could see the love in the
faces of the mothers as they held up pretty dresses to their daughters.
With his still somewhat boyish mind Richard could see the special
relationship that mothers have with their daughters that they could
never have with their sons. He wondered what his mother would think if
she could see him now. Tara on her part was very aware of what she was
doing to Richard. She had thought out her plan to feminize him very
carefully and she was inwardly delighted that he was at her side as a
little girl and not as an out of control boy child. A salesgirl
approached the girls and said, "Hi, may I help you find any thing in
particular"? Tara looked at Richard and in a moment of forgetfulness
said, "Yes, he needs two or three new dresses". The salesgirl, a very
pretty high school student did a double take and said, "Excuse me, did
you say, he"? Tara, embarrassed for just a moment, quickly recovered
and said, "Oh yes, he is playing a girl's part in a play next week and
we are getting him used to being a girl". "Oh my, said the salesgirl, "I
never saw a boy in a dress before. He does look cute though". She then
looked at Richard, and smiling said, "Do you like being a little girl"?
Richard looked down and Tara answered for him, "Well, he is still
getting used to it but he does like his dress, don't you dear"? Richard
just nodded and the salesgirl patted him on the head saying, "That's
ok. I think you look adorable. Let's see what we can find for you. Do
you want a fancy dress for him", she asked Tara. "Yes, I want two of
the prettiest dresses that you have, preferably in pastel shades". The
salesgirl pulled two very lacy dresses off the rack, one in yellow and
the other in pink, and handed them to Tara. "These are very feminine",
she said, "and should fit him perfectly". "Tina", Tara said, calling
him by his new girl's name, "Let's go into the dressing room and try
these on". The salesgirl, upon hearing the boy called Tina, motioned to
one of her friends to come over. As Tara and Richard entered the
dressing room, the salesgirl said, "Bev, you are not going to believe
it. There is a little boy in the dressing room trying on dresses. Isn't
that wild"? Her friend said, "Really, oh I want to see him".
While Tara and Richard were changing, the salesgirl and her friend asked
Jamie about Richard. "Is he your little brother too", hon?, they
asked. "No" my son responded, "He is Tara's brother. She always wanted
a little sister and so she is dressing him as a girl this summer". "Oh
my goodness", responded the girl. "Did he resist being put in girl's
clothes"? "Oh yes", said Jamie, "He didn't like it at all but he really
had no choice". The two salesgirls looked at each other and Bev said,
"Maybe he should have been born a girl". Of course neither of the girls
knew that Jamie was a boy and he saw no purpose in telling them at the
time. Just then Tara and Richard came out of the dressing room with
Richard clad in a dress that looked like a first communion dress. It
was full of lace and fell in gentle swirls around his knees. "Ohhhhhh",
said the salesgirl. "He does make an adorable little girl". Tara smiled
and nodded her head in agreement. "Do you think his dress is short
enough?" asked Tara. "I am afraid that the dress might be a little long
on him". "No", Bev answered, "that is the style today. It does come to
just above his knees" Richard stood looking in the mirror and felt
totally girlish. Boys just do not wear white lace dresses and remain
boys for long. A pretty dress changes the way a boy thinks and Richard
found himself thinking like a little girl. He thought, "I need a white
hair ribbon instead of a blue one with this dress" Of course this is
precisely what Tara wanted. She wanted Richard to not only dress like a
girl but to think and feel like one too. "I've made Richard a little
sissy", she thought, "and soon he will be a girl like me".
End of Chapter #20.