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its the next day, i didnt recover the money i lost, its gonna take a few weeks of hard work. i got so upset that i threw up and couldnt sleep, i got super depressed. i have a game to finish now but no desire to do so. i want to make my own games, my own things. i have a real problem with responsibility. my mental health went downhill, i even had to go interact with my imaginary friends again, somehow they always help. i need to find a solution to this life, a form of living that pleases me, because this is not it. maybe VR technology in the future will allow that, living in another world, or maybe i can master lucid dreams, but with this difficulty i have falling asleep i dont think it will work. oh well. not to mention all of the illogical decisions i make. everything i do is the opposite of what i want for some reason, like some sort of rebellion against myself. what is this?