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I have no energy today. :(
I was hoping to go for a run, or at the very least for a long walk; turns out it's too hot and I am feeling too tired to even move.
Spent all day reading and mucking around with my pi instead.
2 years ago · 👍 eph
@malyanna it is really easy when you have once starting doing it. Cos the most people around you are afraid of doing that, they hide behind sports, wearing expensive clothes etc.. but when it goes down to the nitty gritty, they are afraid of the truth... ask someone what is your favorite p0rn movie, and you will get a lie in 99%... or what do you fear the most? I experienced that people fear the truth most of it all... they don't want to show weakness... life is pain, life is suffering, dealing with it is strength.... know yourself and your fears and you will suceed in every battle... (poorly quoted from Shun Tsi) · 2 years ago
@bavarianbarbarian you are right. I need to deprogram. As a highly insecure person "stand your ground" is simple to understand but not as easy to do. Working on it though! · 2 years ago
@malyanna it's an easy task, just don't give a f... what another people think about you, real friends will stay with you and tell you their honest beliefs if you are doing something really wrong. For me it worked out to be kind, don't harm anyone, do not tolerate every bulls*** and stand your ground... i don't know the correct translation but in Germany we have a saying, if the smart people are always giving in, then the dumb people will rule... · 2 years ago
@bavarianbarbarian I am working on "this is who I am, I don't care what people think" mindset too, but there's a lot to let go of that I have internalised as "wrong" when it's not wrong at all, but it's me being me (like not wanting children, or wearing shorts even if my legs look ugly).
I get stomach pains sometimes, especially if I am stressed out or asked to eat in a hurry. Sometimes they come for no reason. It's very painful. · 2 years ago
@melyanna no way to be too personal, i can talk about everyting without any concerns. after my, i call it coming out as a BDSM loving pervert i don't care anymore about what is anyone asking about me. This is what i am and i am not ashamed for a single thing that i am as a person. So, regarding your question, pain level depends on my daily form, sometimes terrible, sometimes good to go. left knee and spine is a pain every day, thanks to sports, stomache still hurting from a poisoning of sea urching, but all in all, everythin ok... · 2 years ago
@eph yeah, it's a combination of burnout, low blood pressure, me being anaemic and on my period, and the fact that it's really hot and humid outside.
I think I need to take my iron supplements at least as I wait for some days off work. I feel like I could sleep for a week. · 2 years ago
@bavarianbarbarian I am sorry to hear that. :(
How are your pain levels? Hopefully it doesn't affect your daily life heavily? (Sorry if it's too personal, I'll go away if you don't feel like answering). · 2 years ago
Some days, it's like rest is given to you whether you want it or not. I had a similar experience today, in that there were things that I wanted to do that I slept through. · 2 years ago
Be happy for just not having energy, my bones are too damaged that even if i would i couldn't run... · 2 years ago