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We've been enjoying another pass through the original "The Wild Wild West" series.
Fantastic neither-could-sleep so middle-of-the-night sex, last night.
Awoke a bit later than usual, possibly for anticipating a slower day?
The gloomy outdoors agree.
As I get older my hope for correcting or improving the world around me is dwindling. I used to imagine myself as a small contributing piece of a world of strong people working towards a common goal. Now I see myself as an insignificant bystander in a sad world of insanity and entropy.
Why should I pressure myself to make a tangible improvement on the world when the insanity and entropy are always going to outpace me? There is more to the human condition than toiling away and ending up disappointed in yourself every time. I want to enjoy more of the art in life. Take myself less seriously. Pursue the abstract, weird, and silly. Pursue the stuff that has no place in the Western definition of success.
Fortunately, it's just the slightest of point of view shifts away.
Unfortunately, that shift is impossible for an ego - the seeming existence of an ego being identical to the problematic point of view.
Fortunately, there is no such thing.
But good luck getting an ego to see that.
Fortunately, there is no such thing to get itself to see such a thing....