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Hmmm.
A little while ago I injected this into Gemini space:
which included:
Grasping for things is rooted in insisting upon a modeling of reality wherein a subject self exists in contrast to all else, which in the context of said subject self is (which as fast as the speed of thinking-it-so quickly becomes "are") necessarily seen/modeled as objects - aka objectified - to be grasped/possessed/owned by said subject self. The grasping is a distorted attempt by subject/self to fill/address the emptiness of its separation with stuff/objects.
It just hit me that my writing/posting seems to be another "attempt to fill", as it were - as though filling a gemlog could somehow full-fill my own sense of subject(ivity)/self separation from not-self.
Hmmm....
I mean, no wonder it so easily becomes a compulsive need, as though another post ought be started moments after uploading one - which, of course, quickly turns into inner angst over creating the appearance (i.e. giving the impression) of being compulsive - if not desperate.
Aye yi yi....