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I remember terrible nightmares, when I was about seventeen or eighteen; but were they nightmares? I was actually between sleep and wakefulness, in the early hours of the morning, paralysed by the terror born of the impression - no, the certainty - of a malevolent presence around me, in my parents' house. Each time it felt like a rediscovery; I had the feeling that I was regaining a memory that had failed me during the day, as if this supernatural reality was so horrible, so unacceptable, that my mind had to chase it away - and that only semi-consciousness allowed me to contemplate it. It was this sense of regaining memory that was most terrible in those moments, for they made me feel as if everything else in my life was a lie, a dream, and that they alone were reality.