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It's currently going rather well.
At work, I have successfully prepared and went through with the launch of the new database we've been building for a while.
My boss is supportive and encouraging of my plans to further my education and certification and get some interesting side projects I wanted. Same with her boss. They're putting a lot of trust in me and it feels good to be seen as competent and valuable. I now also have better access to database development and some learning material, and a project in mind that will help me increase my development skills while also doing something to alleviate a problem we have. I feel a little bit of impostor syndrome. I feel infantilized and patronized by my coworkers a lot of times due to age difference and only working there for 2 years.
University is a mixed bag right now. I have trouble getting into the semester and really plopping down to study. The topics in the current semesters' courses are really dry and uninteresting to me, but I'll have to power through. My last paper I had to hand in came back with a really amazing grade, so I'll use that to motivate myself.
I'm pretty happy with my website right now. Recently added:
Further plans are
I am also intrigued to make a "safe spot" site for my website, but I am not sure yet. I saw the concept on other sites, and it is basically a page of their site that the owner feels is very calm and soothing for them, with nice and supportive elements and resources, some music, a nice scenery, positive reminders..
I have also thought about adding a manifesto, like many sites have, and I kinda want to... but I also feel like the word has been thoroughly ruined for me by mass shooters and other killers and terrorists. When I think of manifesto now, I don't think of a positive, powerful, concise document stating ones intentions, beliefs and values in a meaningful way; I just think of racists and incels. Also, while I wouldn't say my opinions are constantly changing or easily influenced, the way I would word it constantly changes, and how much importance I place on things, and there always is a kind of war between the way I am, the way I wanna be, and the way I wanna be perceived; so all in all, the manifesto may be too restricting and would need to constantly be updated and edited.
Not to mention, I feel like Twitter and the general social media landscape have not created a great climate for powerful, short lists and demands. I think for a manifesto to work, you have to trust it will be read by people in good faith and with a little forgiveness and common sense; but what we have been trained to see and prioritize is on one hand, a lot of incendiary language as well as black and white thinking, but also on the other hand feeling like you have to write long justifications ruling out common complaints and on-purpose misunderstandings you can already see come up while writing. I think due to the online climate, very summarized and bold statements are often instantly read as more aggressive than intended, and you have this evergrowing need to take the wind out of people's sails who desperately want to argue in bad faith and already have to include and refute their arguments in your text, or add caveats and exceptions. In my view, a manifesto that is more about placating people to avoid internet fights than your own concise views and demands, rules, goals and so on is so watered down and not worth the name, but the issue of bad faith readers and the ruined tone of short and concise viewpoints still stands.
Things for next few months:
I've accomplished the following points from my 'plans' blog post:
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