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I was reading an articleĀ¹ on QAnon, and all I could think was āI get it.ā Not the bit about a secret cabal, because that requires a lot more faith in self-interested peopleās ability to work together and the egotisticalās ability to keep their actions secret. Instead, thereās probably some comfort to the idea that this kind of over-arching control is possible, even if you believe itās horrible. Itās better to have a target, a specific cause for dissatisfaction than to have to rage against the universe itself.
For me, the appeal would be all about *secret knowledge*. I hoard books, PDFs, text--in other words, knowledge. I canāt ultimately distinguish between curiosity and paranoia. Information is weaponized and turned against us all the time, and so itās much easier to trust a person when youāre smarter than they are. Often itās politicans trying to use history to legitimize the indefensible, or someone on YouTube trying to convince us that theyāve figured out some new law of the universe. So I spend much of my time armoring myself, layer after layer.
Nostalgia is another avenue of attack. Whether itās for the 1950s or the 1980s, it tends to display a very different view of society than was actually the case. Nostalgia by its nature is very selective, and tends to enhance our tendency to remember things fondly while editing out the negatives. But ultimately these nostalgic pseudo-memories can start to overwrite real history. As the host of a podcast on this subject recently mentioned, itās important for us to be aware of the plot to the new Cold-War era *Call of Duty* because it wonāt be long until thatās how a lot of people view the real events.Ā²
This isnāt a new phenomenon: trying to edit history to push an agenda is as old as historiography itself. Itās the reason so many of us think that Nero actually played a fiddle while Rome burned (or was otherwise a degenerate), not realizing that much of the history of his reign was written by political opponents. In the United States, the Lost Cause narrative of the Civil War, which says that Secession was more about political rights and self-governance than what it was actually about (slavery), remains a significant part of the popular conception of the war. See also the myth of the clean Wehrmacht during World War Two.Ā³
That Iām aware of these things, is a product of a great deal of effort. It means that I look up claims before I believe them, and have to spend a lot of time and energy on making sure that a narrative Iām being told is actually accurate. Itās fact checking cranked up a couple notches, because itās usually harder than just checking a newspaper to see whether x actually happened. And this is of course why these distorted views can spread so quickly: we have to be willing and able to do the research to begin with, which is harder still (as we now know) when weāre exposed to something that reinforces what we already think.
In addition to recognizing false narratives, itās worth thinking about what those stories tell us about our own wishes. Iāve found that if I start fantasizing about a certain thing, itās not necessarily reflective of a desire for that specific thing, but instead my mind is telling me in a roundabout way that thereās something Iām missing. So if I imagine myself changing to job x, this doesnāt per se suggest that I want to do that job specifically, but instead may be showing me something about my current situation that I want to change. The same thing applies to nostalgia generally, and so itās worth thinking about what differences are being imagined to see what the actual goal is.
Thereās another blind spot to be worried about, though. Even if we devote the time and energy to verifying a given narrative, this still controls what we think about and how we see the world. If I tell you ādonāt think of an elephant,ā whatās the first thing you think of? Thus by denying or rebutting an argument, youāre still implicitly orienting your thinking along the same axis as the other person, even if youāre coming at it from the opposite direction. This is still limiting in significant ways, and is far harder to see and address. One thing Iāve found is just to seek out things that few people are interested in. If thereās an area of history, for example, that isnāt part of popular culture or discussion, *that* is the one Iām seeking out. For example, how many non-historians know that the richest person in history was (probably) a west African king in the middle ages?ā“
The reasons I originally gave for my data addiction are true as far as they go, but I do wonder what else is going on. I think another factor is this hope that one day itāll matter that I know what I know, even if itās not clear how; sort of a rainy-day stockpile. This hasnāt really proven to be the case, and as I get older, I find myself increasingly frustrated that I donāt really have more to *do.* I mean, I have hobbies and activities that I enjoy, but the thing I get paid to do is not in either category. Reading books and playing games all the time would be more satisfying if either one connected to anything, but they donāt. And itās hard to take any particular pride in the number of hours Iāve devoted to my Steam library.
Iād prefer to think Camus is right versus someone more nihilistic, but Iām certainly struggling to find happiness while pushing my rock.
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Ā¹ https://cryptome.org/2020/12/QAnon-Posts.pdf
Ā² https://trashfuturepodcast.podbean.com/e/nostalgia-in-place-of-a-working-society-feat-grafton-tanner/
Ā³ For more, see https://soundcloud.com/user-798629330/episode-115-the-myth-of-the-clean-wehrmacht
ā“ Musa I (1279 - c. 1337) is said to have carried more than 50,000 pounds of gold with him on pilgrimage to Mecca, enough to cause a 10-year gold recession in north Africa and the Middle East.